Depression

[Hollow]

I have depression and i take paxil for it but i think my dad makes my depression worse. The paxil works just fine all day but sometimes my dad gets in bitchy moods when i ask him something or make a mistake he totally blows up, chews me out, insults me, tries to make me feel stupid, makes up crap thats not true and hes not just cranky but he gets flatout MEAN..when hes done w/ his crap i usually go and cry and even when im over it i'm depressed and crying over nothing for the rest of the day or until i take more paxil. Then when he calms down he acts like hes soooooo innocent and 1 time he said that he promised he'd never get mad when i ask a question...well a few nites ago he told me to set the table and while i was doin it i asked why i hafta set it every nite and he chewed me out again and went on about how i dont wanna help out and refuse to do what im told. I go to a counselor every month just to check on things and this time i am so gonna tell her about this cuz hes wrecking my life alot more than he thinks he is..

[Brian Damage]

I'm sorry to hear about your problems. Have you tried telling your father how you feel?

[Christopher]

I have depression too. I'm taking prozac and clonazepam for it. I have to go see a psychiatrist soon, I hate it. They make you talk about things you don't want to.


I hope things get better for you Sarah. I know it sucks getting chewed at for doing nothing wrong.

[¤I Love Clay Aiken¤]

Originally posted by Kelly Osbourne
I have depression and i take paxil for it but i think my dad makes my depression worse. The paxil works just fine all day but sometimes my dad gets in bitchy moods when i ask him something or make a mistake he totally blows up, chews me out, insults me, tries to make me feel stupid, makes up crap thats not true and hes not just cranky but he gets flatout MEAN..when hes done w/ his crap i usually go and cry and even when im over it i'm depressed and crying over nothing for the rest of the day or until i take more paxil. Then when he calms down he acts like hes soooooo innocent and 1 time he said that he promised he'd never get mad when i ask a question...well a few nites ago he told me to set the table and while i was doin it i asked why i hafta set it every nite and he chewed me out again and went on about how i dont wanna help out and refuse to do what im told. I go to a counselor every month just to check on things and this time i am so gonna tell her about this cuz hes wrecking my life alot more than he thinks he is..

Im sorry Sarah. Im sure he doesnt mean to do this on purpose. Tell your councilor. Im sure she'll have a talk with him and tell him how it affects you. Im sure once he finds out it hurts you, he'll change his ways.

[Kay Scarpetta]

(The Shrink is coming out of me....)

Okay. It may not be the answer you want to hear, but have you ever thought that your dad may be having problems too? I, personally, am....beyond depressed. I believe there is no word whatsoever to describe me. My parents/family are not the cause of it, but they certainly do not help. I believe your mother died recently? Anytime he [your dad] blows up, think about how hard things are at this time for him, also. Granted, depressed people are very fragile and it's not good to yell at them, we need to take into consideration the problems of the people surrounding us, also. Trust me, I've been through this a thousand times with shrinks, and at first you think 'How can they sit there and yell at me like that!' but in the long run, you'll come to find out that the people who surround you each day may not have as bad problems as you do, but sometimes they struggle too. Well, I wish you the best of luck.

-Kay

[DetectiveGriffin]

Im lucky, my sister is an R.N. When I said I wanted to see if prozac worked for me, but I wasnt going to talk to anyone (because i dont like explaining myself), the doctor she works for gave me a quick few minute check over and gave me a script. He's one of those types that just believes in the power of medicine to heal, so he didnt give me any crap
I noticed the difference in days - first it was just a buzz like i didnt feel anything, then after a week or two, I was happy instead of being depressed for no reason.
I have some of the same probs though, my moms a self-centered abusive type. It makes her feel like she has a lot of influence over people if she can gripe, whine, and complain until they feel like crap. There's just nothing you can do with a person like that but realize you cant change them and they get off on what they're doing. Must be one of those "bad attention is attention" things.
Sometimes the best way to deal with them is to play along with them.
Always agree, shake your head and say yes, do what they want - then walk away and silently do whatever it is you want to do in the first place.
This can really work good in some instances - just drives that type of person nuts <G>

[¤I Love Clay Aiken¤]

Originally posted by Miss Karly
(The Shrink is coming out of me....)

Okay. It may not be the answer you want to hear, but have you ever thought that your dad may be having problems too? I, personally, am....beyond depressed. I believe there is no word whatsoever to describe me. My parents/family are not the cause of it, but they certainly do not help. I believe your mother died recently? Anytime he [your dad] blows up, think about how hard things are at this time for him, also. Granted, depressed people are very fragile and it's not good to yell at them, we need to take into consideration the problems of the people surrounding us, also. Trust me, I've been through this a thousand times with shrinks, and at first you think 'How can they sit there and yell at me like that!' but in the long run, you'll come to find out that the people who surround you each day may not have as bad problems as you do, but sometimes they struggle too. Well, I wish you the best of luck.

-Kay

That was put together very nicely. Yes, going through a death, especially someone THAT close to the family can be very tough on everyone. He's probably still thinking about it everyday. Ive never had to go through a loss like that, or any death really for that matter (except pets..which is still beyond sad), which for me has its highs and its lows. Im almost 19 years old and have never had to go through anything traumatic. I consider myself lucky, but I try to think how I would cope with something like that when it did hit me. Would I cry? Would I become depressed? I dont know, but I do know that Im gonna have to find out the hard way sooner or later.

[Mr. Shy Guy]

I also have depression. But nobody knows about it except for a few people that I can trust...well now all you do, but I can trust you guys. Right? I can't trust my parents, with anything. I never have trusted them and I never will. So because of that, I don't take anything. But I'm always either in my room or out someplace. I actully look forward to school sometimes. Hard to believe. But I actully do. But like I said, I'm always to myself. I find that helps a lot actully. But it may be what helps is doing a lot of what you like to do. And that I do. It helps. But then again, I don't neccessarly like being alone. There's just nobody where I live that I can trust and love for real.

[¤I Love Clay Aiken¤]

I hope this doesnt come out the wrong way, because I mean nothing offending by it, but I never knew so many people were depressed. Maybe its because I always seem to be all bubbly and optimistic I dont notice how others around me are acting. To me, I had always thought depressed people were suicidal and never had a good thing to say. Thats just a stereotype, because I never knew any of you were depressed, and to tell you the truth, I never would have guessed by the way you talk on the boards. Ahh.. anyways.. hope that didnt come out mean or anything, I was just stating what I had observed.

[Babes_Cat]

Ugh, Sarah I'm sorry. There's nothing worse then being depressed and having your family make it all worse, seeing as how you spend the majority of your time with them....

Right now I'm "taking" (well, I haven't been for the last 5 days for reasons that I would rather left unsaid) Effexor for my depression and anxiety disorder... I don't think I know anybody else on it but whatever. *shrugs*

And, all that Kay said.... so true.

Again I'm sorry Sarah... I know, to a lesser extent than some, but I know what its like to have the family get under your skin when you're like this...

[Kay Scarpetta]

Originally posted by ¤MsConanOBrien¤
I hope this doesnt come out the wrong way, because I mean nothing offending by it, but I never knew so many people were depressed. Maybe its because I always seem to be all bubbly and optimistic I dont notice how others around me are acting. To me, I had always thought depressed people were suicidal and never had a good thing to say. Thats just a stereotype, because I never knew any of you were depressed, and to tell you the truth, I never would have guessed by the way you talk on the boards. Ahh.. anyways.. hope that didnt come out mean or anything, I was just stating what I had observed.

Well, in real life, I sincerely hope you never do run into me, cause I can guarantee you, I will have nothing good to say. Maybe it's because it's online, and I don't know you personally? You'd never guess the way I am in real life. And no Crystal, it wasn't mean at all! I never knew some people here were depressed either

[dawsongirl]

Ah, another Paxil user. Welcome to the addicts club. I seriously cannot function without that stuff. It's the only thing that keeps me in class. I wouldn't go otherwise. I used to be afraid to get out of my car.

And my dad is acting like an ass too. Okay, first of all he doesn't understand my anxiety/depression and he never will. Just because he never lets anything bother him doesn't mean we all can do that. SOB...the other day he relentlessly made fun of me because I screamed when I saw a spider. When it pissed me off, he had no idea why.

And my aunt is living with us now. My dad doesn't like her too well because she cost him a lot of money (it's a long story and not all her fault though he won't admit that). Anyway, in his stupid little way, he was treating her (or should I say is) treating her like ****...not talking, making rude comments...being an *******. So the other day it pissed me off so much that I flat out told him. I was sitting in the backseat of our Blazer crying and he acts like he was the one being violated. GDSOB!!

*deep breath* The Dr. gave me the Paxil for anxiety, but I really don't think it's the world's greatest depression drug. I'm so depressed about what the hell I'm gonna do with my life I just wanna cry. I can sit thru class, but I'm still slightly depressed. And no one understands...NO ONE.

[Hollow]

Originally posted by Miss Karly
(The Shrink is coming out of me....)

Okay. It may not be the answer you want to hear, but have you ever thought that your dad may be having problems too? I, personally, am....beyond depressed. I believe there is no word whatsoever to describe me. My parents/family are not the cause of it, but they certainly do not help. I believe your mother died recently? Anytime he [your dad] blows up, think about how hard things are at this time for him, also. Granted, depressed people are very fragile and it's not good to yell at them, we need to take into consideration the problems of the people surrounding us, also. Trust me, I've been through this a thousand times with shrinks, and at first you think 'How can they sit there and yell at me like that!' but in the long run, you'll come to find out that the people who surround you each day may not have as bad problems as you do, but sometimes they struggle too. Well, I wish you the best of luck.

-Kay

Thanx. I noticed hes been acted like that alot since my mom passed away, that might be why.

A few months ago i posted a topic called "i hate this world", im not THAT depressed now. I was crying and feeling really depressed that whole day cuz we decided to see how it went if i went a day w/o the paxil and it didnt go good lol...my dad looked up stuff about paxil after that and it said that 10% of ppl that take it get addicted to it, meaning that if they just stop taking it 1 day they would be really depressed and apparently that applies to me.

[Babes_Cat]

Originally posted by ¤MsConanOBrien¤
I hope this doesnt come out the wrong way, because I mean nothing offending by it, but I never knew so many people were depressed. Maybe its because I always seem to be all bubbly and optimistic I dont notice how others around me are acting. To me, I had always thought depressed people were suicidal and never had a good thing to say. Thats just a stereotype, because I never knew any of you were depressed, and to tell you the truth, I never would have guessed by the way you talk on the boards. Ahh.. anyways.. hope that didnt come out mean or anything, I was just stating what I had observed.

I was sort of shocked that we had quite a few people here that are depressed (Who knows if there will be more seeing as how this is only the 11 post). I knew for sure about some people but others... *shakes head* Its new to me.

Ok, for me.... the boards serve me the purpose of "getting away". How cheesy that sounds.... but, there's people here you never met so they dont see the real da-to-day you.. they only know you through how to right... *shrugs* For me laughing at what I write/read here is a hell of a lot easier than laughing at home or at school.

And yeah, some depressed people are sucidal and have nothing positive to say but... *shrugs* we won't get into what happened last here on the boards with that...

[¤I Love Clay Aiken¤]

Originally posted by Miss Karly


Well, in real life, I sincerely hope you never do run into me, cause I can guarantee you, I will have nothing good to say. Maybe it's because it's online, and I don't know you personally? You'd never guess the way I am in real life. And no Crystal, it wasn't mean at all! I never knew some people here were depressed either

Yah.. that could be it. Im sure everyone acts differently on the boards. Here, I reply to just about everything and talk to some people from the boards all the time online. But, I can gaurantee, if I ever met someone from here face to face.. Id be the shyest person ever! Im so shy and quiet! It takes me a long time to open up and feel comfortable to new people. Yah.. also here Im more apt to speak my mind and defend myself and my friends. In the real world Id just be standing there in shock too scared to say anything!