An update on my mental health

[Brad Russ]

I know there are probably people getting tired of hearing about this mystery man who suddenly showed up after a year long absence, but please bear with me a little more as I give you all a little report on me. First of all I'm online now. Well, kind of. I joined some two month free internet deal until I can afford high speed. More importantely than that though, I got an update on my health. On Tuesday I saw my new psychiatrist, and he started weaning me off four of my meds. I've been really feeling it because three of these four meds Iv'e been on for over 4 years. The thing that's been the toughest is my adderol. Adderol is basically speed, which I've been taking for my ADD, and since I've been taking it unstopped for so long, the side affects I'm feeling are torture at times. I'm in alot of physical pain which I'm thankfully getting painkillers for, but I have basically spent the last 2 days throwing up, and tossing and turning in bed. As bad as it all sounds, it's really not as bad as it could be. I have a nurse practitioner once again, and she drops by and checks on me up to twice a day. As I get better her visits will be reduced. So the bottom line is I'm very supervised, and as the next couple weeks go by, and as I get my old meds out of me and my new ones in me, I'll be feeling much better. I wanted to write this though because I didn't want to go a week or so without writing and have you all worrying about me. I don't intend on ever doing that to you all again. I feel bad enough knowing I did it to begin with. Bottom line though, I will be okay, and in a couple weeks, my medical people and myself hope that I'll be better than ever!! If not, as my psychiatrist said, we'll just keep trying until we do find what is right for me. I love you guys, and in the meantime I'll pop in whenever I can. I hope you all have a great day, and weekend ahead!!

P.S. Janice, I'm still waiting for that call!!!

[TripperFan]

Hang in there Brad - we're all pulling for you here!

It'll suck going through the withdrawal, but everytime you puke, think how it's just more of the bad drugs getting out of your system for the good ones. It's just the natural way the body gets rid of something bad.

Looking forward to you feeling better and getting back posting more frequently.

(I'm sort of in the same boat as you with the getting sick to my stomach so we can think about each other while we're huggin' the porcelain!)

[Brad Russ]

Originally Posted by TripperFan

Hang in there Brad - we're all pulling for you here!

It'll suck going through the withdrawal, but everytime you puke, think how it's just more of the bad drugs getting out of your system for the good ones. It's just the natural way the body gets rid of something bad.

Looking forward to you feeling better and getting back posting more frequently.

(I'm sort of in the same boat as you with the getting sick to my stomach so we can think about each other while we're huggin' the porcelain!)

That's a very good way to look at it, and I promise you I will start looking at it that way. I know first hand how when you go through this you feel like you'll never get better, but when you finally do get through it, it almost feels like you're in Heaven.

I'm so sorry you've been sick too Cathie, I had no idea. Here I've been complaining, and telling everyone of my conditioning, and you've been sick too. I'm sooooo sorry. Had I known, I wouldn't have been so selfish. I will think of you everytime I take that porcelain dive, and we'll have each other to get through it.

I love you soooooooo much Cathie, and I just want you to know that if you EVER need another friend to talk to, I'm only an email, or a phone call away!!! I'll always be here for my Angel!!

[TripperFan]

Thanks Sweetie! And don't you worry about me - this thread was about you (the same with the first one) and NOT about me otherwise I could create my own.

And I'll be fine - I'm too stubborn to let it win. Besides, as they say, "only the good die young" so I know I've got lots of time left here yet!!


(heck - I might even changed my sig to read: I need this like I need a hole in the head!)

[dawsongirl]

Wow...and I thought the Paxil withdrawls were bad.

Hang in there; sounds like all this is for your betterment in the long run.

[Theda Bara]

Brad, you are one of the strongest individuals I know. I also know, that you are going to be able to "tough this out" and be even stronger at the end; hang in there, my friend. I am always praying and thinking about you. Love ya, lots and lots and lots and lots

[PrettyinPink55]

Wow! That sounds tough, Brad!!! But you know, if anyone can handle it, you can!!! You've been through so much and come out a champ through all of it, so, like everyone else has said, hang in there and stay strong!!!

Sometimes medications can be more of the problem than the solution...

[MusicJunkie]

glad to see you've come back Brad (you probably remember me as BuffySlayer/Dean Winchester). I too have mental health issues (Aspergers, bipolar and ADD in one is a toxic combo) and try to avoid anything potentially stressful because I don't need it. Hope you stay with us for awhile

[LuLu Rogers]

I had to switch my social anxiety meds a few months ago, so I feel your pain. Hang in there sweetie, I love you and I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers!!

[treky]

hang in there, Brad! I know it's tough, but I'm confident you'll get through it!

[Brad Russ]

Originally Posted by MusicJunkie

glad to see you've come back Brad (you probably remember me as BuffySlayer/Dean Winchester). I too have mental health issues (Aspergers, bipolar and ADD in one is a toxic combo) and try to avoid anything potentially stressful because I don't need it. Hope you stay with us for awhile

I'm so sorry for all you have to deal with on a daily basis. I also have add, OCD, Panic disorder, borderline personality disorder, and agoraphobia, so I definitely have some idea of how you feel. I know we've never known each other very well, but if you ever need anyone to talk to about anything, I'm always here. And I mean that. Hang in there buddy!!

[Brad Russ]

Thank you everybody for your kindness. I'm starting to get a little sick right now, but I will be okay. I'm gonna try to sleep now, and thankfully I have a sweet mom who took tomorrow off to take care of me when it gets too rough. Once again, thank you everyone, and please know I will be okay. Whenever I get too down, I'll just look at this dude.

[Theda Bara]

Originally Posted by Little Mel

Thank you everybody for your kindness. I'm starting to get a little sick right now, but I will be okay. I'm gonna try to sleep now, and thankfully I have a sweet mom who took tomorrow off to take care of me when it gets too rough. Once again, thank you everyone, and please know I will be okay. Whenever I get too down, I'll just look at this dude.

Brad, as I mentioned earlier; you are in my thoughts, in my heart and in my prayers. Sending you positive vibes your way, sweetie. Also, remember, It is ALWAYS the darkest before the Dawn; you will survive this, and also remember, that you have people, especially me, that love you, dearly

[Nighthawk76]

Originally Posted by Family Ties Forever!

Brad, hang in there buddy. I hope the new meds will help and that you will be feeling better. I'm still on the same medication for anxiety/depression that I was placed on in 2006. It's just a higher dosage. My stress the last few weeks has been horrible. The worst recently for me was the night of the 17th. My mother yelled and cursed at me. The f word came out of her mouth a lot. She even told me that I am f-ed up and that my mind is f-ed up too. She told me I needed to get over what happened to me as a child and get over the armed robbery, her boyfriend, etc. There's more, but I won't bore anyone. I felt so bad and was crying so hard I was shaking. I don't mean to make this about me. I know this is your thread. Take care and it's nice to have you back here.

Wow, your mother actually said that you were f**ked up? A mother saying that to her daughter, that is what's f**ked up.

[Nighthawk76]

Originally Posted by Little Mel

I know there are probably people getting tired of hearing about this mystery man who suddenly showed up after a year long absence, but please bear with me a little more as I give you all a little report on me. First of all I'm online now. Well, kind of. I joined some two month free internet deal until I can afford high speed. More importantely than that though, I got an update on my health. On Tuesday I saw my new psychiatrist, and he started weaning me off four of my meds. I've been really feeling it because three of these four meds Iv'e been on for over 4 years. The thing that's been the toughest is my adderol. Adderol is basically speed, which I've been taking for my ADD, and since I've been taking it unstopped for so long, the side affects I'm feeling are torture at times. I'm in alot of physical pain which I'm thankfully getting painkillers for, but I have basically spent the last 2 days throwing up, and tossing and turning in bed. As bad as it all sounds, it's really not as bad as it could be. I have a nurse practitioner once again, and she drops by and checks on me up to twice a day. As I get better her visits will be reduced. So the bottom line is I'm very supervised, and as the next couple weeks go by, and as I get my old meds out of me and my new ones in me, I'll be feeling much better. I wanted to write this though because I didn't want to go a week or so without writing and have you all worrying about me. I don't intend on ever doing that to you all again. I feel bad enough knowing I did it to begin with. Bottom line though, I will be okay, and in a couple weeks, my medical people and myself hope that I'll be better than ever!! If not, as my psychiatrist said, we'll just keep trying until we do find what is right for me. I love you guys, and in the meantime I'll pop in whenever I can. I hope you all have a great day, and weekend ahead!!

P.S. Janice, I'm still waiting for that call!!!

I'm rooting for you too, Brad. I also have to take medication for mental issues. I'm on medications for depression, anxiety, obsessive compulsive disorder and social anxiety. I know what you are going through and I hope that you feel better.