New fanfic: "Complicated"

[LuvJinny4ever]

small summary before i start: Jinny is 16 years old and, of course, is dealing with a lot of issues in her life. This fanfic is just a random snipit of her life then.

warning: this fanfic deals with the issue of Jinny's sexuality at parts. for all of you who know me, you knew i'd probably do another one. BUT... if you have problems with the issue, please don't read. all others... ENJOY!


***JINNY'S HOUSE 1985***
Sixteen year old Jinny Exstead looked at herself in the mirror. She was wearing a new outfit that she had just bought, and was scrutinizing it. Finally, deciding she liked it enough to wear to school, she went back over to her bed and started putting her socks on. There was a knock on her door and she rolled her eyes. "What?" she asked, semi-irritated. She hated being bothered when she was getting ready in the morning.

Casey stood on the other side of the door to his sister's room. He could sense the slight irritation in her voice, but paid no attention. "Um... Beth's here." Walking away, his message delivered, he walked into his own room and shut the door behind him.

Beth sat on the couch in the living room watching the television. She had been Jinny's best friend for 5 years now... had seen Jinny through some rough times... but even she knew when not to bother her. That's why she sent Casey to tell Jin she was here.

When Jinny walked into the living room she saw her best friend watching the tv. "You're here early" she said, as she walked past her into the kitchen. Opening the refrigerator, she wrinkled her nose. 'Why is there never anything good to eat for breakfast' she wondered, and shut the door again. Walking back into the living room, she sat down next to Beth. "I don't want to leave yet. If we do, I'll be bored at school."

Beth smiled. She knew Jinny would say that even before she did. "Yeah.. me either. I just thought I'd come over early. Issues at home..." she trailed off, not wanting to get into it. She had always shared everything with Jinny, but this time the issue between her and her parents was going to stay between her and her parents.

"What's going on?" Jinny asked her best friend. She could tell Beth was agitated about something, and Jinny knew she was good at pressing her for answers... in the most casual way of course.

"Ehh... they're just being weird, Jin, that's all. Nothing big." Beth lowered her eyes, and then quickly looked back at the tv... she didn't want Jinny suspecting anything and pressing her for more. Reaching for the changer, she began flipping through the channels in silence.

'She's lying' thought Jinny, and she frowned. "Ok... I'm not buying the 'they're just being weird' excuse. Spill it." When Beth didn't answer, Jinny sighed. "Alright... you leave me no choice." Jinny reached over to her friend who was extremely ticklish, and started to tickle her. This had all started when they were 11 and had just become best friends... and it ALWAYS got Beth to tell Jinny EVERYTHING. Expecting Beth to start laughing, and give in, she was surprised at what happened.

Beth slapped Jinny's hand away and stood up. "Don't DO that, Jinny!" she yelled, tears in her eyes. "Please... you... you just don't want to do that" she said softer and sat down in the easy chairm wiping her eyes.

Jinny watched her friend with a puzzled expression. What was going on? Sitting back, she wondered if she should even ask, and decided that trying wouldn't hurt. "Why, may I ask, did you just have fit?" Jinny was never good at showing her emotions, and as soon as the sarcastic words were out of her mouth, she regretted them.

Beth stood up and glared at Jinny. 'Should I tell her?' she wondered, knowing that what she had to tell would blow her best friends mind. She decided to, and took a deep breathe. "Well, Jin.... if you NEED to know. My parents basically kicked me out last night... although not physically... because they found out..." she didn't know if she could go on. If her best friend deserted her, she didn't know what she would do. Finally, knowing that she had to finish, she did. "They found out I'm uhm.... gay."

Jinny stared at her best friend for five years in shock. She had never expected Beth to like girls... ever. Her head was swimming and she didn't know what to do. She had so many conflicting viewpoints on the subject right now... which one was right? Finally, snapping out of it, she knew what she had to do. Beth was her best friend. "Hey... it's ok. I don't care." Jinny got up from her seat on the couch and went over to Beth, tentatively hugging her, not wanting to send the wrong signals.

TO BE CONTINUED

what do ya'll think? honest opinions, please.

[Divisionbabe05]

OMG this is GREAT! I LOVE it Jenn and u just keep writing no matter what anybody says, ko? AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!

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*People* Isnt that the craziest word u ever done heard? *LOL*

*Me, Morganne, and Dana are self appointed message board bad girls...we rebel against self appointed moderators...You know who you are!*

[Jinny Girl]

Why do you always have too stop at the good parts?

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~Dana Jinny Exstead~

Well since Britt is a Jineddy (Jinny and Teddy) and Morganne is a Jinanybody (Jin and Anybody) I'm a JinMag, now you can figure that one out on your own.

*Me, Britt, and Morganne are self appointed message board bad girls...we rebel against self appointed moderators... You know who you are!*

"COME ON! SAY IT WITH ME!" *LOL!*

[Swimfan85]

Originally posted by Jinny Girl:
Why do you always have too stop at the good parts?

i was wondering the same thing!! this is awesome M please continue!

[BlairandJo]

Originally posted by Jinny Girl:
Why do you always have too stop at the good parts?

Well...You do all the time so why cant she do
it.(LOL)post more soon I love it!!!!!!!!!!;0)



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Its my life!This is
who I am!And you tell me
it does'nt matter!
-Jinny
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If you want something bad
enough you go after it no
matter what the outcome may be
-My Quote
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"Love beliver
So take the love He's giving to you
A love receiver
Cause everything He's
Promised is true
Love beliver
Listen to the song that I
sing
You are the child of the
King"
-Love Beliver.
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"Be a good girl(why be a good girl?)be a good girl
(why be a good girl?)she
is a see-saw seeing if it
matters she is a game of
Chutes and Laders.
be a good girl (why be a good girl?)
she needs the one who wrote the definition of
a love without condition
be a good girl."
-Good Girl.

[sue z q]

I'm hooked girl! Post more!

[LuvJinny4ever]

thx guys, here's more:

The entire ride to school, Jinny sat in the passenger seat of Beth's car staring out the window thinking. She still couldn't believe what she had been told this morning and was still having conflicting issues about it... major ones. None of the options she was tossing around in her head, however, had anything to do with her thinking Beth's lifestyle was bad or wrong... there was just a lot of things to think about.

'She hates me' thought Beth as she drove into school in the awkward silence. Finally, not being able to take it anymore, she turned on the radio softly, humming to the music. She knew she shouldn't have told Jinny... she shouldn't have even brought up that she was having difficulties with her parents, let alone have told her she was gay. Sighing, she kept her eyes on the road and hoped they got to school soon.

Jinny was well aware that something was bothering Beth, and she had a pretty good feeling it was her. 'I'm being stupid' she thought once again. But no matter how hard she tried she couldn't shake what she was feeling, and it scared her. It scared her more than it had almost a year ago... because now it could be real. Shivering, Jinny sat up in her seat.

When they pulled into the school, Jinny quickly got out and smiled at Beth. "Thanks Beth. See you in English?" She knew she should stay to talk to her best friend, but she couldn't... not now. Closing the door, she sprinted across the parking lot to the building.

'She didn't even wait for me.' The thought brought tears to Beth's eyes and she quickly wiped them away. "I thought you were my best friend, Jinny" she said aloud to no one. Getting out of her car, she glanced over at the building and saw Jinny standing next to Bobby Fischer.

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Jinny smiled at Bobby. He'd always been cute, and she'd been playing hard to get with him for about a week now. She usually waited longer, but today was an extreme circumstance. "Yeah.. I totally agree" she said, referring to what Bobby had just said. Leaning in closer she whispered "Let's skip gym" and then leaned back, smiling.

Bobby stared at Jinny. He couldn't believe his luck. He'd been attracted to Jinny for months now, and when she had finally began paying him attention about a week ago he'd felt like flying... now he felt as if her WERE flying. Smiling back, her replyed "Sure." The bell rang and Bobby took Jinny's hand and led her into the building.

***ENGLISH CLASS***
English was the only class Beth and Jinny had together this year.. oh.. and lunch, but that didn't count. They sat next to each other and constantly passed notes back and forth during class. When the bell rang and Jinny wasn't there, Beth got angry. 'I can't believe she's not coming to class because of me' she thought.

A few minutes later, as the teacher was lecturing, the door to the classroom opened and Jinny walked in. She handed a note to Mrs. Langston, who raised her eyebrows in response to what the note said. Jinny ignored her teacher and kept walking to her seat.

Beth looked at Jinny with a puzzled expression and waited until her best friend got settled, then pulled out the note.

*note*
b: what happened? why are you late?
j: i was at the principals office.
b: what?! what for?
j: i skipped gym to make out with bobby fischer and we got caught.
b: wait... but didn't you want to lead him on a little more before you jumped him?
j: i didn't JUMP him. but yes... but i decided not to, ok? just drop it.

Beth didn't reply to Jinny that time, just crumpled up the note and threw it into her backback. She was tired of this attitude already and it was only second period.

Looking at her friend crumple the note, Jinny was shocked. 'I shouldn't be' she said to herself 'I've been acting like a jerk." Pulling out a fresh piece of notebook paper herself, Jinny began to write.

*note*
j: look, i'm sorry for being such a jerk today.. i don't mean it, really. and it has NOTHING to do with what you told me this morning. believe it or not, i'm going through issues... big surprise huh?
b: yes, you were being a jerk, but i guess i forgive you. issues? what issues?
j: just things i've been thinking about for almost a year. personal things.
b: okaaaay. i tell you the biggest secret i have and you can't tell me your issues...

Jinny sighed and looked at the note and then back up at the clock. She knew the bell was going to ring any second. Quickly scribbling something down on the paper, she handed it to Beth just as the bell rang. "See you at lunch" she called and ran out of the room.

Beth looked puzzled, but looked down at the note and almost dropped everything in her hands.

TO BE CONTINUED

what do u think, people? should i continue?

[ssgoalie8]

duh!!!! yeah you should continue and make it snappy! well as fast as you can go but still not where it messes up the story....just write more lol

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-colleen-
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jinny: who in the hell are you?
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JO rocks!!!!!!!!
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J: i'm gonna loosen some teeth!
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AIM ssgoalie8 or nmkjo

[FOL_lover]

Awesome. u shouldn't have to ask if you should continue. u know the answer! yes, yes, yes!!!!!!!!!!!

[LuvJinny4ever]

thx.. here's more:

Jinny was staring off into space. She'd been in Math class for 15 minutes now and had no idea what was going on... not like she did any other day, but today was different. On one hand, she was glad she wrote what she wrote in the note to Beth... she didn't want her best friend to feel she hated her. On the other hand, however, it was the stupidest thing she had ever done.

After class was over, Jinny gathered up her things and headed towards her locker to drop off her morning books, get her afternoon books, and head to lunch. 'Lunch' she thought, panicking. 'Oh god, I have to see Beth at lunch.' She stopped dead in her tracks, 3 feet from her locker and wondered what to do. When she felt a tap on her shoulder, she whirled around. There stood Bobby, with a smile on his face.

"Hey babe" he said, and leaned in to kiss her, but she backed away. Puzzled, he looked at her. "What's wrong? Am I suddenly not GOOD enough for you?!" he yelled. He was not in the mood for these mind games today... not after getting detention all because of.. her.

Jinny realized what she just did and shook her head. "No, Bobby, I'm just... upset about something. It's not you." she smiled and leaned in to kiss him this time. When she was in the middle of the kiss, Jinny slightly opened her eyes and made out the figure of Beth standing 5 feet away. Closing them again, she deepened the kiss with Bobby and wrapped her arms around him.

Beth saw the whole interchange between Jinny and Bobby. The WHOLE thing... even Jinny refusing to kiss Bobby at first... and then the deep kiss they were in now. Beth was confused and angry. She needed to talk to Jinny about what she had written to her this morning. Deciding to wait it out, she stood there, trying not to look at the make-out display that was going on a short distance away.

Jinny broke off the kiss and smiled at Bobby, who had the biggest grin on his face. "Hey... why don't you come over after school?" she asked coyly. When he responded with a yes, she smiled and gave him a quick kiss this time. "See you later." As he walked away, Jinny watched him and knew she shouldn't have done that. Turning around, she saw Beth standing there with her arms folded. "Hi" she said awkwardly and looked down.

"Hi" Beth said and studied her best friend. She wondered if she should even bring this morning up, but she had to. "Jinny.. about what you wrote... you weren't... lying, were you?"

Looking back up at her best friend, Jinnysmiled slightly. "No. I wasn't lying. I just don't know what to do about it." Jinny's hands were fidgetting and she looked at Beth, waiting for her to respond.

"Umm.." was all that Beth could come up with. She didn't know what to do either. It was a strange situation that couldn't be discussed in the middle of their high school hallway. "Let's just go to lunch, now. And then we'll talk about it after school."

Jinny nodded and headed for her locker, with Beth following. When she opened up her locker, a piece of notebook paper fell out. Picking it up she realized it was the note that she and Beth were writing this morning, but now it had the words "Sicko" written in big black letters across it.

TO BE CONTINUED.. if ya'll want me to. let me know what ya think.

~*~jenn~*~

[Jinny Girl]

You are really trying too kill me arent you? POST MORE!

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~Dana Jinny Exstead~

Well since Britt is a Jineddy (Jinny and Teddy) and Morganne is a Jinanybody (Jin and Anybody) I'm a JinMag, now you can figure that one out on your own.

*Me, Britt, and Morganne are self appointed message board bad girls...we rebel against self appointed moderators... You know who you are!*

"COME ON! SAY IT WITH ME!" *LOL!*

[NewsiesGurl229]

GONNA DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Post more ASAP!

[ssgoalie8]

stop the torture please write more please :::: n my knees:::::: i'm begging you

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-colleen-
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jinny: who in the hell are you?
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JO rocks!!!!!!!!
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J: i'm gonna loosen some teeth!
***************
AIM ssgoalie8 or nmkjo

[LuvJinny4ever]

k, everyone, here's more:

Jinny stared at the note in her hands. She still couldn't believe what she was seeing. Handing the note to Beth, her eyes welled up with tears. She grabbed her books and slammed her locker door before running down the hallway into the bathroom.

Beth looked at the note in her hand and her breathe stopped in her throat. 'Someone knows about Jinny' she thought. She read again what Jinny had written to her this morning: "ok, well, for about a year now I've been thinking that I might like girls.. like you." Beth then saw the big black letters again, and decided to run after Jinny.

When Jinny entered the bathroom it was packed full of girls looking themselves over before heading to lunch... the daily ritual. None of them paid particular attention to her as she went into one of the stalls and started to cry quietly. She listened as they filed out of the bathroom, and when she thought it was safe, opened the door again. No one was there. 'Thank God' she thought, as she looked at herself in the mirror.

Just then a girl walked into the bathroom and stopped dead in her tracks when she saw Jinny. "Hey... you're Jinny Exstead aren't you?" Jinny heard the girl ask. Turning around, she nodded.

"Yeah.. why?" Jinny knew her eyes were still puffy from crying, but at this point she didn't care.

"Because... everyone's talking about you." the girl stated matter-of-factly.

Jinny's eyes grew wide. "They are? Why?" she asked, even though she knew the answer. She needed to hear it from someone else's lips. And she needed to deny it... no matter what.

"Well..." the girl started out when Beth entered the bathroom. Jinny's gaze went from the girl to Beth and back. Jinny was about to say something when the girl just got a random smirk on her face and walked out.

"Damnit!" Jinny yelled and hit the stall door. "What?!" she shouted at Beth, who stood there looking scared and bewildered.

"I.. just.. wanted to make sure you were ok" Beth managed to get out. She realized that she probably shouldn't have come after Jinny in the first place, but there was nothing she could do about that now. Walking over to Jinny, she put her hand on Jinny's arm. "It'll be okay..."

Jinny wrenched her arm away from Beth and stared at her best friend. "Okay?! Okay?!?! Right... I just told you that... so... so that you would FEEL better about yourself!!!" Jinny shouted, not caring who over heard. In fact, she wanted people to hear. "Now everyone thinks I'm a SICK PERVERT.. like YOU!!!" Jinny stormed out of the bathroom and was greeted by a sea of faces. Some girls came up to her, giving her their sympathy.

Jinny didn't know what to do. All of these people had heard what she had said in the bathroom, and while she wanted them to stop talking about her, she didn't want them to talk about her best friend.

When Beth walked out of the bathroom she too, was greeted by the sea of faces, but this time they weren't so welcoming. She barely managed to get past them and run out of the school. 'How could she do this to me?!' Beth was screaming in her head as she ran to her car.

Jinny stood there, taking this all in and feeling like the lowest person in the universe. Her best friend was hurting, and it was her fault. Sighing, she started to walk away from the crowd when she felt a hand on her shoulder. Turning around, she saw Bobby there, a concerned look on his face.

"Don't worry, babe, I'll protect you..." he smiled "Especially after school today..." He leaned in to give Jinny a kiss, but she backed away and glared at him.

"I don't NEED your protection" she said coldly, and walked away, not paying attention to anyone. She still couldn't believe she had done that to her best friend. She couldn't believe she was so self-centered and concerned about herself that she could hurt someone she cared about. Reaching her locker, she grabbed for the canteena she stashed there and took a swig of the liquid inside.

She continued walking until she left the building, carrying her drink, and heading towards Beth's house. She didn't know what she was going to say to her, but she knew she had to say something.

TO BE CONTINUED.

whacha think????

[FOL_lover]

it's great!! post more asap