June 14, 1988 (fan fic)

[baffledee]

Part One
June 14, 1988
Dear Journal/Dairy,
So it's my birthday and Jake, my current boyfriend if two years,gave me this dairy thing. I love him so much that despite my hate for dairies, I am willing to write in it just for him. So anyway I'm officially 19 today. I don't feel different
I feel exactly the same, except maybe my constant sweating, headache, nausea, and a fever. Oh well! Should be expected! If I
told my dad or John I'd be dead before I could finish my sentence or explain. Casey
would understand, he knows me better than I know myself.And if I told Jake, I'd be in a
wedding dress before tomarrow. Mom would have been supportive at least,definatly
disapointed. She would let me handle the "situation" however I want to and understand and be there for me. John and Dad
would tell me what to do, when to do it, and that would be it.
"Sorry hun, can't read it. It's private"
Well that was Jake trying to sneak a peek at my emotions and thoughts.
Anyway if I can find my train of thought...
I would never be an Exstead again. Just Jinny. Not that it's bad or anything I'd just want a family. My family, which consists of One Dad and Two brothers. I know I will have kids, trust me I'm two months positive. I'll have a husband too. But it wouldn't be the same. It'll be better, but not Dad, John, and Casey. Ah, Im confused!
Got to go say goodbye to Jake.
Bye
JSE
PRESENT
"Got to go say goodbye to Jake.Bye JSE." A tear ran down the cheeks and over the lips of Jinny Exstead.

END OF PART ONE

[InspectorJinnyExstead]

Not bad Id like to read more post some more
soon.

[baffledee]

PART TWO
June 23, 1988
Dear Diary,
7:42 am So I started the morning off with normal conversation with Mr.Flushy. It went well actually, no insults, and no jokes, although he did say I gained weight. Gee, I wonder why! I can't hide it from anymore, but i don't want him to feel obligated to marry me. Well I'm having lunch with him and my dad(God help us all!)just the three of us. I guess i have to tell him soon. Maybe after lunch. Well I have to tell him or Mr. Flushy will be very disapointed. Ah I crack myself up somethimes. Okay got to go find something to wear that won't make me look fat, okay really fat.
10:03pm Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Jake took me and my dad to this lake out in the Wine Country, and out of nowhere Jake looked at my dad and said "Can I have your daughter's hand in marriage?" (and I was sitting right there)Well I completly lost my top, I was saying words that weren't words. Okay so Jake was totally serius about my dads permission. I was scared my dad would say no. But he said somehting to this effect "Hell yes, I didn't think anyone would take her." I think Dad appreciated Jake asking him first. So now finally when the men finished congragulatling eachother, Jake finally got on one knee and said those unforgetable words. "Jinny Samantha Exstead, will you please be my wife?" You know he had to use those puppy dog eyes.Haha. So being as stupid as I can be I, umm, well, kind of said,"I'm about three months pregnant, YES!!!!!" Well imagine my shock and everyone elses.It was humalitating.But they were okay with it. My dad took my champaine away(sob sob). Okay I got to go tell Mr. Flushy.
bye jse

PRESENT
As Jinny Exstead finished reading the entry, she ran around the house looking for the phone and a beer.Being unsucessful on both she simply closed the Dairy and headed for bed. But with all her emothions running wild it would be impossible, so she grabbed her gym bag and left.

-you'll understand it a bit better soon Baffledee

[InspectorJinnyExstead]

OOO I love it.post more soon;o)Oh hey I saw that the last post you made was your second.
WELCOME TO THE BOARD!!!!!!!


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Jinny:This Is Who I am.

*YeeHaw!*

[Wild Child]

That's the very day I was born! June 23,1988.

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"You're born,you move on,you die,that's life."-Jo
Nancy McKeon is #1!!

[Esperanza]

POST MORE!! It's great so far!

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Wisdom had two parts:
1) having a lot to say, and
2) not saying it.

[baffledee]

Part 3
"Exstead, Your late!" Captain Kate McCaffredy hollared from her office. Jinny just ignored the comment, she didn't want to get into it. She walked to her desk and carefully pulled out the used diary. If anyone caught her with it she would never hear the end of it. She turned her head quickly in each direction and opened the book to the folded page. Right before she began to read she spun around in her chair and looked at her partner,Magda Rameriz.
"Magda, what are you doing?" Jinny asked already knowing the answer.
"Nothing!" Magda replied in a shakey voice.
"Oh really, cause I thought you were reading over my shoulder." When Jinny heard no response she decided to continue. " How much did you read? And don't plaese be honest. I really need to know." She lookede up at her guilty partner with pleading eyes, almost like she was holding in tears.
"Umm, enough, can we please drop the subject, it's making both of us uncomfortable?" she returned. Making Jinny mad is not good, making her cry was wrong.
" How much exactly is enough? Now, does that answer your question?"
"Yes it does, okay? The page! Now can we drop it, please?"
"Fine. It's easy for you to say that because it's not ME reading YOUR diary!!!"
After that their day was strictly work. Not one friendly smile or a warm hi. They were both surprizedby each others actions. Jinny thought that her partner and best friend would at least coughed up and apology. Magda Rameriz always knew her partner was hiding a past, and when she read just a tiny bit of it she wanted to cry. Instead she stood there defending herself as if what she did was not wrong. If she apologized she knew Jinny would never truly forgive her, maybe move on.But Magda wanted her old quiet, and protective partner back to normal.If that was even possible. She decided to give her some space to cool down then say 'I'm sorry'.
End of Part Three
- Thanx for the replies baffledee

[Wild Child]

Post more soon please! This is great!

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"You're born,you move on,you die,that's life."-Jo
Nancy McKeon is #1!!

[baffledee]

Part 4
July 2, 1988
It's six days til the wedding! Jake and i will will be forever in matromony. It's a dream come true. I get to marry the one man that I love the most, more than anything, the man I can't live without, and the man that I feel completly safe with. He is everything I live for. without him I might as well kill myself. He keeps me alive, he makes me want to live. I love him and without him,life would be unbearable. He make sme admit my problems and conquer them. When I met him I want to say that it was love at first sight, but I honestly didn't want to give him the time a day. And now two years later I'm getting married and already starting a family. Wow this is true love. You know the one thing we seek the most is also the one thing we find ourselves hiding from. Love makes me feel lost, I really don't know whats right and whats wrong. If my heart tells me I'm in love then my mind becomes blinded. A man could do anything to me and I would never think it was wrong. But with Jake it was never like that, I loved him after the third date but could tell if he had good intentios, aparently he does. He clears the fog in my mind and warms the air in my heart. If someone asked what love means to me, I would stand there stuttering. Because honestly I don't know, it's just that
feeling. if you have ever been in love then you would know. Love to me is not trust, or honesty or even wanting to spend the rest of our lives with. It's not friendship, or a relationship to me, it is so much more, there can not possibly be a defination for loves it's what you feel in your heart and words simply do not exist to explain that feeling. love is Love. Defining it, is impossible. But I love Jake Mitchel, even if I can not define it. Nobody take him away, please. Did I just right my vows? Well I guess I should revise it a little. talk about procrastanation, six days til the wedding and I just finally wrote my vows. Okay I'm tired, Goodbye. jse

PRESENT
"Okay, so that's what Magda read,can't be that bad, I'll forgive her, say, Friday." Jinny said outloud to herself. For the first time reading her dairy she felt happy, until she realized she no longer had love.She had Theodore for a while, but he was not Jake. Relizing all of this she just broke down into tears. She despritly needed someone to talk to. It was either the bartender at the Anchorside or her friend Magda.
END OF PART FOUR

[Swimfan85]

this is awesome, please add more soon~

[InspectorJinnyExstead]

MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!;o)

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Jinny:This Is Who I am.

*YeeHaw!*

[BlairW_1]

Welcome to the board!!!!!! Awww, this fanfic is soooo sad! I'm just hoping it's not gonna lead up to what I think it's gonna lead up to... Or maybe I do, that'll make it more dramatic! I just want this thing finished, plz! I LOVE IT!!!! :0 hehee, I'm weird...

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Listen to this... Okay, one of my friends is quoted saying this about Brookshire Rowe...

Hey Brookshire is doing 100% better they called this morning and said he was going to make it they thought and my mom went up there and they did surgery and now he is 100% better

Isn't that great!!! :::sigh::: Now all that's wrong with him is that he doesn't have a leg... Well, I gotta be thankful that he lived. It's thanks to everyone's prayers, so thank you, everyone!

~*Danielle, Quiz Bowl Captain*~

[Bang A Gong]

Aw!! Can't wait for more.

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(-: Sourbabie :-)

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"If you touch my ass one more time, I'll kick yours." - Jinny Exstead

"Nice girls don't throw trees!" - Jo Polniaczek

Hello, my name is Sourbabie and I'm an ERoholic and a The Divsionoholic.

"That sugarcane that tasted good. That cinnamon that's Hollywood. C'mon, c'mon, no one can see you cry. . ." - Imitation of Life by REM

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[baffledee]

Thanx for the replys

Part Five
Inspector Jinny Exstead arrived at the doorstep of her partner.
"Ah, forget it!" she said loudly to herself.
The door suddenly began to creek open.
"Jin, is that you?" Magda asked. She was thrilled that Jinny came to her. But it's not like Jinny to do so.The last thing Magda Rameriz expected was for Jinny to imediatly hug her and start crying hysterically.
"oh,come on, lets go inside." But Jinny wouldn't budge. She just stood there in the freezing San Fransisco temperature. Finnaly Magda backed up pulling Jinny with her.
"Jinny, I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry." She said referring to the Diary that was enclosed in Jinny's hand. All Magda could hear was the sound of jinny crying. Her shirt was beginning to get soaked with tears. There was nothing Magda could do, except feel bad and try her best to comfort her slightly secretive partner and best friend.
"Come on, stop crying,I'm starting to drown." Magda said hoping it would make Jinny smile. It worked she got a small laugh. Jinny let go of Magda and wiped the tears from her eyes and began to speak. "It's not your fault, I mean I'm still mad,but I guess..." Jinny cried. This time it was Magdas turn to hug Jinny.
"I guess it's good cause I can finally talk about it." she continued.
"should I make some coffee or Hot chocolate?" Magda asked.
"Hot Coco Maybe?"
"Ah, I'm raising two kids now! okay while I make the 'Hot Coco', why don't you tell Dr. Magda your problems?"she joked.
"Hey Doc can you ask some questions first, it would help a lot, please?"
"Okay. Okay. Who is the Guy? Did you get Married? Whats this about you starting a family? Where is the guy now? When Did he leave? How did he leave? And are you actually telling me that you, Jinny Exstead, can commit?"
"His name is Jake Mitchel. Yes we got married. We had a little boy who died. He is somewhere. We got a divorce a little after two years. and yes I can commit."
"I'm sorry about your little boy, I can't even imagine the pain you ent through. It must have been hell. Makes me glad that I still have Ben. Are you okay?" Magda said sincerly as a couple of tears rolled dowm her own face.
"The pain was unbearable still is.Why do you think I drink?...His name was Ryan Theodore Mitchel.He was three. He caught pneumonia an died soon after. It's all my fault, I should have checked the windows and plus he got my damn immune system. I'm sorry I can't." she cried. By this time she was crying so hard that she was chocking on her own tears.
"oh, honey, come on you have to stop crying like this, it's not healthy. I'm so sorry I asked. Please Jin calm down, That's all in the past." Magda was crying so hard when she heard Jinny start to cough uncontrollably.
Magda grabbed Jinny and began to rock her back and forth.

[BlairandJo]

OH MY GOD This is Like SO Gr8 I Need You to
post more.(I love a good sad drama)

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Its my life!This is
who I am!And you tell me
it does'nt matter!
-Jinny
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If you want something bad
enough you go after it no
matter what the outcome may be
-My Quote
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"Love beliver
So take the love He's giving to you
A love receiver
Cause everything He's
Promised is true
Love beliver
Listen to the song that I
sing
You are the child of the
King"
-Love Beliver.
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Be a good girl(why be a good girl?)be a good girl
(why be a good girl?)she
is a see-saw seeing if it
matters she is a game of
Chutes and Laders.
be a good girl (why be a good girl?)
she needs the one who wrote the definition of
a love without condition
be a good girl.
-Good Girl.