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KissMyGrits · 09-04-2005, 04:02 PM

Song is "Breathing" by Lifehouse.
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm going to do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I'm looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel
And break these calluses off me
One more time

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the straps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

Terri sits in her bedroom looking out the window. Her bedroom overlooks a cliff by the ocean. She loves her house, but it has never felt more empty than it does tonight. She sighs as she gets ready for bed. Her husband was killed in a car accident three months ago. Since then she had shut herself off in a tight cocoon of grief and misery. She allowed no one inside and had locked her heart away. She was totally and completely alone. They had has so many dreams they want to live, but somehow they got lost in everyday life. So she felt more miserable than ever. Thinking about what could have been. It was here that he found her. She had just got done with another crying spell when he showed up at her door. At first she was shocked and then she was sad. He was part of her past. Someone that she had once loved and love was something that she wasn't sure that she wanted to ever feel again. It just hurt too much to love. She looked at him and asked "What do you want Larry?"

Larry looked hurt. He had heard thru Janet that Terri's husband had passed away. He stayed away out of respect for her. They had dated for six months. Six months of the most incredible months of his life. He had followed her to Hawaii. They had stayed friends until one fateful night. Too much wine and good company and they had admitted their feeling for each other. Terri admitted that she loved Larry. Larry said the same thing about his feelings for Terri. They had dated for six months. Something happened to drive them apart. That something was Terri had met her husband. She had hurt Larry in the worst way. Although, Larry was hurting he was willing to give her up. He loved her that much. So when Larry heard that her husband had been killed he rushed to her side. His heart ached for her. It felt as though it were only yesterday and his love for her was as strong as ever.

She didn't really want to talk to him. She tried to shut the door, but he put his foot in the door and walked inside...

"Terri, we need to talk...."

Okay comments please....

Tibbs · 09-04-2005, 04:06 PM

yay! a Larry and Terri

Moonlight Lady · 09-04-2005, 04:50 PM

I love Larry and Terri stories. Please continue, I can't wait to read more.

JJ4EVER · 09-04-2005, 05:31 PM

Yay, great start!

Number 9 Dream · 09-04-2005, 07:11 PM

OMG yay! Terri and Larry <3

KissMyGrits · 09-04-2005, 08:34 PM

Terri stared at him. She was surprised at the love she felt for him. At the same time her heart felt disloyal to her husband. She hated the conflicting emotions of the moment. So it with anger that she lashed out at him "Larry, what is there to talk about? I just want to be alone. I am surprised that you would show up here."

"Terri, I have always loved you. Maybe from the first minute I met you. Maybe that is why I always acted like I did."

Terri walked over to the couch and sat down. Her heart was heavy and it hurt to look at Larry. She wished that she had never answered the door. She looked at him and asked "So, which one of my friends took the chance to tell you about Todd? Oh, let me guess, was is Janet? Jack? Or any other of my well meaning friends?" The tears that she had been holding back threatened to come out. She would not cry in front of Larry. She did have a little bit of pride left. She hated that he brought out these emotions in her.

Lary didn't understand why she was shutting him out. He had come here as a friend and wanted to comfort her. It had taken him this long to get here because he had been overseas. He was working for a car company. It bought cars overseas and had them shipped here. Larry looked at her and said "Does it really matter who told me? I am here because you look like you could use a friend. Who better than me?"

She smiled and immediately hated herself for it. She realized at the moment that she still loved Larry Dallas. As much as she hated to admit it to herself she wished that things had been different. Who knows what would have happened had she married him when he asked her. She smiled at the memory and let her mind drift back to that time 5 years ago.

***Flashback***
Larry had arranged a romantic dinner for two at the most exclusive restaurant on Maui. They had a private table in the back. They were dining by candlelight. It was a wonderful night. Larry felt happier than he had in ages. He touched his coat pocket to make sure the box was there. His heart was beating so fast that he was sure Terri could hear it. She looked so beautiful that night. Her blue eyes twinkled and shone as bright as the stars in the sky. After dinner he stood up and got down on one knee. He then put himself out there and asked "Terri Alden, will you marry me?"

Terri's eyes filled with tears as she answered him "Larry, I would love nothing more than to marry you."

"Why do i sense a but in there..."

"Because I have fallen in love with someone else. I was planning on telling you tonight... It was unexpected.... I just..."

Seeing the unshed tears in her eyes he said "Terri, it kills me to say this but, I hope you are happy. Just know that if he ever hurts you I will be there for you!! I will always love you!!"

With that Larry walked out of her life.
***Flashback Ends***

Larry was looking at Terri. He was trying to figure out why she was starting to cry. He knew that she was emition over her husband passing away, but this seemed to be something different. It was almost as if she wanted to tell him something. She just seemed afraid. Larry finally said "Terri what is wrong sweetheart?"

With that Terri broke down crying. She hated the fact that she couldn't keep her emotions in check. He could always read her so well. When they were dating she couldn't hide anything from him. Terri looked him in the eyes and said "I was just thinking about what could have been. If only I had accepted your proposal. Who knows what we could have been together."

She looked him in the eyes and waited for him to respond.

Tibbs · 09-04-2005, 08:41 PM

I love it

LuLu Rogers · 09-04-2005, 09:17 PM

Great Job Michelle!

Moonlight Lady · 09-04-2005, 09:23 PM

I'm close to tears over here...I love it. More more.

Number 9 Dream · 09-05-2005, 12:07 PM

Wow, this is so amazing! It's so touching and sad, yet I have a good feeling all will work out for the best...Terri and Larry deserve each other!

Heart Shaped Box · 09-05-2005, 02:56 PM

Yay! I'm glad someone did a Terri/Larry story.

This is a really good story, please continue!

KissMyGrits · 09-05-2005, 07:52 PM

Larry looked Terri in the eyes and said "Terri, we can't think about what might have been. Sweetheart, we can only build on the memories of the time that we had together. Our pasts make us who we are today. We can only live each day as it comes. Terri has to walk out of the room. The emotions of the day are getting to her. She goes into the bathroom and Larry walks over to the window and we see him thinking as the song "Not a day goes by." by Lonestar is playing in the background.

Got a picture of you, I carry in my heart
Close my eyes to see it, when the world gets dark
Got a memory of you, I carry in my soul
Wrap it close around me, when the world gets cold

If you asked me how I'm doing
I'd say just fine
But the truth is, baby
If you could read my mind

Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you
After all this time
You're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain
Locked so deep inside
That baby, baby, oh, baby
Not a day goes by

I still wait for the phone
In the middle of the night
Thinking you might call me
If your dreams don't turn out right
And it still amazes me
That I lie here in the dark
Wishin' you were next to me
With your head against my heart

If you asked me how I'm doing
I'd say just fine
But the truth is, baby
If you could read my mind

Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you
After all this time
You're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain
Locked so deep inside
That baby, baby, oh, baby
Not a day goes by

Minutes turn to hours
And the hours to days
Seems it's been forever
That I felt this way

Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you
After all this time
You're still with me it's true
Somehow you remain
Locked so deep inside
That baby, baby, oh, baby
Not a day goes by
That I don't think of you

We see Larry walking out of the house as Terri comes out of the bathroom. She wiped her eyes and started talking "Larry, we need to talk..." She realizes that she is talking to herself. She frowns and thinks "He finally gave up on me..." Then she sees a note on the kitchen table.

Terri,
We still need to talk. I still love you. I realize
That you need time to think. Call me love!

Love always,
Larry

Terri smiles as she holds the letter to her heart. She looks out the window and sees Larry's car driving away.....

Moonlight Lady · 09-06-2005, 09:06 AM

It's really good, I can't wait to read more.

Number 9 Dream · 09-06-2005, 12:25 PM

Aww, I do hope they talk! Great job, Michelle

KissMyGrits · 09-07-2005, 11:58 AM

Warning- This could be a tear jerker.....

It took Terri a week to work up the nerve to call Larry. She realized that she had hurt him terribly all those years ago. She also realized that for better or worse she still loved him. Her heart broke every time she remembered that night so long ago. If she had to tell the truth she would say that she was scared back then. Larry had always had his eye on every good looking woman there was. She had a hard time believing that he could be faithful to her. She cried every time she thought of the look on his face as he walked out of the restaurant. It was a look of complete and utter heartbreak. She wished she was strong enough to ask for his forgiveness, but she didn't want to loose what little sanity she had left. She called him and asked him to meet her at a coffee shop down the street from her house.

Larry had been surprised to hear from Terri. He figured that she was trying to leave her past in the past. He had no way of knowing about the conflicting emotions that were going thru her. He entered the coffee shop and saw her sitting at the table. His heart raced and his stomach had what felt like a million butterflies in it. She was looking down at her coffee cup when he approached. He said simply "Hi, Terri."

Terri looked up at him and smiled. She had unshed tears in her eyes. She was full of conflicting emotions.

Larry smiled at her and said "How have you been holding up?"

Terri looked at him and said "Well, I have my good days and my bad days. Most of the time they are just so-so days. I have to remind myself to eat, drink and just go about the process of living. Somedays it feels like too much of an effort. I have to remind myself to breath in and out. I feel like I am in a vacuum and that no amount of time is going to change that. I know that life around me has to go on, but it is just so hard. I feel so completely and totally alone. All my married friends have left me. I guess they don't know what to say. All my single friends try to get me to go out on dates. What I really want is to be able to live again without my heart feeling like it is going to break into a million pieces. I live in a huge house full of beautiful things. What good is all of it when I have no one to go home to at night? I sleep in a huge bed every night. I reach over to his side of the bed for him. I just keep on reaching. Then I wake up and remember that he is gone forever. It is then that I cry myself back to sleep and everything starts all over again. The pain is a constant ache that never goes away. Right in my heart. You know what I want more than anything?"

With an emotional voice Larry asked "What do you want?"

"I want the pain to go away. I want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be all right again. I want to sleep thru the night without waking up in tears. I want to feel alive again!! Is that too much to ask?"

She buried her face in her hands and cried softly. Larry was at a loss for words. He knew that she needed someone to hold her tight. He got up and sat next to her. He had tears in his eyes and his voice was breaking when he said "We need to go somewhere private to talk Terri."

She nodded and they walked to her car. Larry opened the passenger door and motioned for Terri to sit. He got in on the driver's side and the drove off to her house.

Once inside Larry made them some tea and they sat on the couch to talk. Terri talked some more about her feelings. Then she looked and him and said simply "Hold me Larry."

Larry's heart stopped at that moment. He reached out for her and held her in his arms. She sighed peacefully and looked up at him. Taking the first move she leaned forward to kiss him. Gently at first then something took over her mind and body. She kissed him with what seemed like a lifetime of pent up passion. After a few minutes she pulled away and looked at him and whispered "Make love to me Larry."

Larry was torn. He knew that she was very emotional right now. He wanted nothing more than to take her to upstairs to her bedroom. He wanted to make sure that she knew what she was doing. He looked her in the eyes and asked "Are you sure sweetheart?"

Terri simply nodded as she led him up the stairs and into her bedroom.

Terri awoke the next morning to an empty bed. She was sure the night before had been a dream. A very pleasant dream, but a dream nonetheless. She walked down the stairs and there standing in her kitchen was Larry. He was dressed in nothing but a pair of his boxer shorts. Terri smiled as she realized that it hadn't been a dream after all. She walked up behind him and threw her arms around him and asked "Sleep well?"

Larry smiled softly. Although he did have a wonderful night he felt guilty. He thought that he had taken advantage of Terri when she was an emotional wreck. He smiled again and said "I slept wonderfully. Terri look about last night...."

Terri's smile faded as she said "Please don't tell me you regret what we did. I have never been more sure of my feelings for you Larry Dallas. If you tell me you are sorry then I will feel like nothing more than a cheap woman...." The tears threatened to come again as she stood in her kitchen watching Larry. Suddenly she realized that she was in love with him. Not that she had ever lost any love for him. But this was different. She felt like she could almost start living again......

09-04-2005, 04:02 PM	#1
KissMyGrits HEGM! Senior Member Join Date: Jul 01, 2004 Location: Las Vegas Baby! Posts: 2,135	Breathing Song is "Breathing" by Lifehouse. I'm finding my way back to sanity again Though I don't really know what I'm going to do when I get there Take a breath and hold on tight Spin around one more time And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace I am hanging on every word you say And even if you don't want to speak tonight That's alright, alright with me 'Cause I want nothing more than to sit Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing Is where I want to be I'm looking past the shadows Of my mind into the truth and I'm trying to identify The voices in my head God which one's you? Let me feel one more time What it feels like to feel And break these calluses off me One more time 'Cause I am hanging on every word you say And even if you don't want to speak tonight That's alright, alright with me 'Cause I want nothing more than to sit Outside your door and listen to you breathing Is where I want to be I don't want a thing from you Bet you're tired of me waiting For the straps to fall Off your table to the ground I just want to be here now 'Cause I am hanging on every word you say And even if you don't want to speak tonight That's alright, alright with me 'Cause I want nothing more than to sit Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing Is where I want to be I am hanging on every word you say And even if you don't want to speak tonight That's alright, alright with me 'Cause I want nothing more than to sit Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing Is where I want to be Terri sits in her bedroom looking out the window. Her bedroom overlooks a cliff by the ocean. She loves her house, but it has never felt more empty than it does tonight. She sighs as she gets ready for bed. Her husband was killed in a car accident three months ago. Since then she had shut herself off in a tight cocoon of grief and misery. She allowed no one inside and had locked her heart away. She was totally and completely alone. They had has so many dreams they want to live, but somehow they got lost in everyday life. So she felt more miserable than ever. Thinking about what could have been. It was here that he found her. She had just got done with another crying spell when he showed up at her door. At first she was shocked and then she was sad. He was part of her past. Someone that she had once loved and love was something that she wasn't sure that she wanted to ever feel again. It just hurt too much to love. She looked at him and asked "What do you want Larry?" Larry looked hurt. He had heard thru Janet that Terri's husband had passed away. He stayed away out of respect for her. They had dated for six months. Six months of the most incredible months of his life. He had followed her to Hawaii. They had stayed friends until one fateful night. Too much wine and good company and they had admitted their feeling for each other. Terri admitted that she loved Larry. Larry said the same thing about his feelings for Terri. They had dated for six months. Something happened to drive them apart. That something was Terri had met her husband. She had hurt Larry in the worst way. Although, Larry was hurting he was willing to give her up. He loved her that much. So when Larry heard that her husband had been killed he rushed to her side. His heart ached for her. It felt as though it were only yesterday and his love for her was as strong as ever. She didn't really want to talk to him. She tried to shut the door, but he put his foot in the door and walked inside... "Terri, we need to talk...." Okay comments please....
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09-04-2005, 04:06 PM	#2
Tibbs Aww! Frequent Poster Join Date: Dec 28, 2004 Location: --Stranded on the other side of the island Posts: 380	yay! a Larry and Terri
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09-04-2005, 04:50 PM	#3
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09-04-2005, 05:31 PM	#4
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09-04-2005, 07:11 PM	#5
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09-04-2005, 08:34 PM	#6
KissMyGrits HEGM! Senior Member Join Date: Jul 01, 2004 Location: Las Vegas Baby! Posts: 2,135	Terri stared at him. She was surprised at the love she felt for him. At the same time her heart felt disloyal to her husband. She hated the conflicting emotions of the moment. So it with anger that she lashed out at him "Larry, what is there to talk about? I just want to be alone. I am surprised that you would show up here." "Terri, I have always loved you. Maybe from the first minute I met you. Maybe that is why I always acted like I did." Terri walked over to the couch and sat down. Her heart was heavy and it hurt to look at Larry. She wished that she had never answered the door. She looked at him and asked "So, which one of my friends took the chance to tell you about Todd? Oh, let me guess, was is Janet? Jack? Or any other of my well meaning friends?" The tears that she had been holding back threatened to come out. She would not cry in front of Larry. She did have a little bit of pride left. She hated that he brought out these emotions in her. Lary didn't understand why she was shutting him out. He had come here as a friend and wanted to comfort her. It had taken him this long to get here because he had been overseas. He was working for a car company. It bought cars overseas and had them shipped here. Larry looked at her and said "Does it really matter who told me? I am here because you look like you could use a friend. Who better than me?" She smiled and immediately hated herself for it. She realized at the moment that she still loved Larry Dallas. As much as she hated to admit it to herself she wished that things had been different. Who knows what would have happened had she married him when he asked her. She smiled at the memory and let her mind drift back to that time 5 years ago. *Flashback* Larry had arranged a romantic dinner for two at the most exclusive restaurant on Maui. They had a private table in the back. They were dining by candlelight. It was a wonderful night. Larry felt happier than he had in ages. He touched his coat pocket to make sure the box was there. His heart was beating so fast that he was sure Terri could hear it. She looked so beautiful that night. Her blue eyes twinkled and shone as bright as the stars in the sky. After dinner he stood up and got down on one knee. He then put himself out there and asked "Terri Alden, will you marry me?" Terri's eyes filled with tears as she answered him "Larry, I would love nothing more than to marry you." "Why do i sense a but in there..." "Because I have fallen in love with someone else. I was planning on telling you tonight... It was unexpected.... I just..." Seeing the unshed tears in her eyes he said "Terri, it kills me to say this but, I hope you are happy. Just know that if he ever hurts you I will be there for you!! I will always love you!!" With that Larry walked out of her life. *Flashback Ends* Larry was looking at Terri. He was trying to figure out why she was starting to cry. He knew that she was emition over her husband passing away, but this seemed to be something different. It was almost as if she wanted to tell him something. She just seemed afraid. Larry finally said "Terri what is wrong sweetheart?" With that Terri broke down crying. She hated the fact that she couldn't keep her emotions in check. He could always read her so well. When they were dating she couldn't hide anything from him. Terri looked him in the eyes and said "I was just thinking about what could have been. If only I had accepted your proposal. Who knows what we could have been together." She looked him in the eyes and waited for him to respond.

09-04-2005, 08:41 PM	#7
Tibbs Aww! Frequent Poster Join Date: Dec 28, 2004 Location: --Stranded on the other side of the island Posts: 380	I love it

09-04-2005, 09:17 PM	#8
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09-04-2005, 09:23 PM	#9
Moonlight Lady Member Forum Star Join Date: Aug 18, 2002 Posts: 16,052	I'm close to tears over here...I love it. More more.

09-05-2005, 12:07 PM	#10
Number 9 Dream That '70s Girl Forum Veteran Join Date: Jan 18, 2005 Location: Long Island, NY Posts: 5,875	Wow, this is so amazing! It's so touching and sad, yet I have a good feeling all will work out for the best...Terri and Larry deserve each other!

09-05-2005, 02:56 PM	#11
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09-05-2005, 07:52 PM	#12
KissMyGrits HEGM! Senior Member Join Date: Jul 01, 2004 Location: Las Vegas Baby! Posts: 2,135	Larry looked Terri in the eyes and said "Terri, we can't think about what might have been. Sweetheart, we can only build on the memories of the time that we had together. Our pasts make us who we are today. We can only live each day as it comes. Terri has to walk out of the room. The emotions of the day are getting to her. She goes into the bathroom and Larry walks over to the window and we see him thinking as the song "Not a day goes by." by Lonestar is playing in the background. Got a picture of you, I carry in my heart Close my eyes to see it, when the world gets dark Got a memory of you, I carry in my soul Wrap it close around me, when the world gets cold If you asked me how I'm doing I'd say just fine But the truth is, baby If you could read my mind Not a day goes by That I don't think of you After all this time You're still with me it's true Somehow you remain Locked so deep inside That baby, baby, oh, baby Not a day goes by I still wait for the phone In the middle of the night Thinking you might call me If your dreams don't turn out right And it still amazes me That I lie here in the dark Wishin' you were next to me With your head against my heart If you asked me how I'm doing I'd say just fine But the truth is, baby If you could read my mind Not a day goes by That I don't think of you After all this time You're still with me it's true Somehow you remain Locked so deep inside That baby, baby, oh, baby Not a day goes by Minutes turn to hours And the hours to days Seems it's been forever That I felt this way Not a day goes by That I don't think of you After all this time You're still with me it's true Somehow you remain Locked so deep inside That baby, baby, oh, baby Not a day goes by That I don't think of you We see Larry walking out of the house as Terri comes out of the bathroom. She wiped her eyes and started talking "Larry, we need to talk..." She realizes that she is talking to herself. She frowns and thinks "He finally gave up on me..." Then she sees a note on the kitchen table. Terri, We still need to talk. I still love you. I realize That you need time to think. Call me love! Love always, Larry Terri smiles as she holds the letter to her heart. She looks out the window and sees Larry's car driving away.....

09-06-2005, 09:06 AM	#13
Moonlight Lady Member Forum Star Join Date: Aug 18, 2002 Posts: 16,052	It's really good, I can't wait to read more.

09-06-2005, 12:25 PM	#14
Number 9 Dream That '70s Girl Forum Veteran Join Date: Jan 18, 2005 Location: Long Island, NY Posts: 5,875	Aww, I do hope they talk! Great job, Michelle

09-07-2005, 11:58 AM	#15
KissMyGrits HEGM! Senior Member Join Date: Jul 01, 2004 Location: Las Vegas Baby! Posts: 2,135	Warning- This could be a tear jerker..... It took Terri a week to work up the nerve to call Larry. She realized that she had hurt him terribly all those years ago. She also realized that for better or worse she still loved him. Her heart broke every time she remembered that night so long ago. If she had to tell the truth she would say that she was scared back then. Larry had always had his eye on every good looking woman there was. She had a hard time believing that he could be faithful to her. She cried every time she thought of the look on his face as he walked out of the restaurant. It was a look of complete and utter heartbreak. She wished she was strong enough to ask for his forgiveness, but she didn't want to loose what little sanity she had left. She called him and asked him to meet her at a coffee shop down the street from her house. Larry had been surprised to hear from Terri. He figured that she was trying to leave her past in the past. He had no way of knowing about the conflicting emotions that were going thru her. He entered the coffee shop and saw her sitting at the table. His heart raced and his stomach had what felt like a million butterflies in it. She was looking down at her coffee cup when he approached. He said simply "Hi, Terri." Terri looked up at him and smiled. She had unshed tears in her eyes. She was full of conflicting emotions. Larry smiled at her and said "How have you been holding up?" Terri looked at him and said "Well, I have my good days and my bad days. Most of the time they are just so-so days. I have to remind myself to eat, drink and just go about the process of living. Somedays it feels like too much of an effort. I have to remind myself to breath in and out. I feel like I am in a vacuum and that no amount of time is going to change that. I know that life around me has to go on, but it is just so hard. I feel so completely and totally alone. All my married friends have left me. I guess they don't know what to say. All my single friends try to get me to go out on dates. What I really want is to be able to live again without my heart feeling like it is going to break into a million pieces. I live in a huge house full of beautiful things. What good is all of it when I have no one to go home to at night? I sleep in a huge bed every night. I reach over to his side of the bed for him. I just keep on reaching. Then I wake up and remember that he is gone forever. It is then that I cry myself back to sleep and everything starts all over again. The pain is a constant ache that never goes away. Right in my heart. You know what I want more than anything?" With an emotional voice Larry asked "What do you want?" "I want the pain to go away. I want someone to hold me and tell me that everything is going to be all right again. I want to sleep thru the night without waking up in tears. I want to feel alive again!! Is that too much to ask?" She buried her face in her hands and cried softly. Larry was at a loss for words. He knew that she needed someone to hold her tight. He got up and sat next to her. He had tears in his eyes and his voice was breaking when he said "We need to go somewhere private to talk Terri." She nodded and they walked to her car. Larry opened the passenger door and motioned for Terri to sit. He got in on the driver's side and the drove off to her house. Once inside Larry made them some tea and they sat on the couch to talk. Terri talked some more about her feelings. Then she looked and him and said simply "Hold me Larry." Larry's heart stopped at that moment. He reached out for her and held her in his arms. She sighed peacefully and looked up at him. Taking the first move she leaned forward to kiss him. Gently at first then something took over her mind and body. She kissed him with what seemed like a lifetime of pent up passion. After a few minutes she pulled away and looked at him and whispered "Make love to me Larry." Larry was torn. He knew that she was very emotional right now. He wanted nothing more than to take her to upstairs to her bedroom. He wanted to make sure that she knew what she was doing. He looked her in the eyes and asked "Are you sure sweetheart?" Terri simply nodded as she led him up the stairs and into her bedroom. Terri awoke the next morning to an empty bed. She was sure the night before had been a dream. A very pleasant dream, but a dream nonetheless. She walked down the stairs and there standing in her kitchen was Larry. He was dressed in nothing but a pair of his boxer shorts. Terri smiled as she realized that it hadn't been a dream after all. She walked up behind him and threw her arms around him and asked "Sleep well?" Larry smiled softly. Although he did have a wonderful night he felt guilty. He thought that he had taken advantage of Terri when she was an emotional wreck. He smiled again and said "I slept wonderfully. Terri look about last night...." Terri's smile faded as she said "Please don't tell me you regret what we did. I have never been more sure of my feelings for you Larry Dallas. If you tell me you are sorry then I will feel like nothing more than a cheap woman...." The tears threatened to come again as she stood in her kitchen watching Larry. Suddenly she realized that she was in love with him. Not that she had ever lost any love for him. But this was different. She felt like she could almost start living again......