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Warm & Fuzzy · 12-12-2004, 03:46 PM

I guess I haven't updated you guys about my eating, lately... god, you guys must be sick and tired of hearing about this... but, gosh, I seriously think I'm gonna break down.. that is, if I haven't ALREADY. Several weeks ago, I thought I had this eating disorder beat... I thought I had everything under control. I was in the process of giving up calorie-counting and eating like a normal person. I had gone 28 days without bingeing, or obsessing too much about food. I was doing great. I had lost 10 pounds. I thought my life was turning around. i thought I would be happy again. But then, two weeks ago, my parents brought me to a buffet, and it has just been down hill from there. That 6,000 cals just didn't cut it. I couldn't take it... I still can't take it. So yeah, last night I had a major binge, and it continued on till this afternoon... and it is STILL continuing on.... I've eaten all the foods listed below... the same amount of cals I would normally have in FOUR days... and it's only 4:00 pm!!!!! [edited] .... and I am still going. I'm full as hell, my stomach's bloated... my sides are hurting, my heart is pounding... I've tried purging, but gave up.... I'm a mess. But i STILL intend to eat more.... because that's how stupid I am. I'm stuffed like hell.. but I STILL want to continue eating. I plan to have pizza later... What a loser, OMG, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Why do I do this to myself?? Please help me out, I don't know what to do with myself.. I'm so disgusted..

noodles w/ soup (.75 quart): 500
EDY's Orange Sherbet Ice Cream w/ Chocolate Chips: (4.5 cups): 1350
bread: 200
peanut butter: 450
Jelly: 200
raisin bread: 200
Frosted animal crackers: 300
Corn Flakes: 200
Milk (2 cups): 300
Babe Ruth Bar (33% larger than conventional size): 310
Kit Kat (33% larger than conventional size): 310
100 Grand (33% larger than conventional size): 360
Sesame beef patty: 1300
pound cake: 500

total: 8803 [edited]

I am Him · 12-12-2004, 03:53 PM

All I've eaten so far today is a hotdog.

ThirteenInchEscape · 12-12-2004, 03:57 PM

I havnt eaten yet...I was thinking of getting some cereal or something...

I would try to say something to help you, but I really dont get the intense urge to food people have...and what the **** were your parents thinking taking you to a buffet?

edit: and holy ****, that was more than one peanutbutter and jelly sandwhich, because you know, if that much was in one...well...jesus christ (I eat those alot)

how many was that?

Kristina · 12-12-2004, 04:10 PM

Wow, that's a lot of calories. Try to do something to get your mind off food, maybe going shopping? Have you considered diet pills? Or maybe something that will help with supressing your appetite, but I dunno you say you're stuffed. I would say to talk to a therapist or something, but i'm just a lil person online to you and probably wouldn't have any impact. And I really have no room to talk, I don't care too much about my health and yet I try to preach stuff about it.

I also have an eating disorder, except mine is with being obsessed with not eating and trying to lose weight. I'm starting to doubt it's anorexia, because I don't consider myself fat anymore, I'm just obsessed with weight loss. I also tend to go on diets with fast food, lol. I don't do healthy diets. I have a weird heart beat, definitely something wrong with me yet I bought diet pills yesterday. Stacker 2, though it's ephedra free I did buy asthma medication with ephedrine to mix with it. I hope I don't get a heart attack! I'm trying to get down to 90lbs, but I know I won't be satisfied.

I know it's hard to get your mind off things, because when you try to do that it just makes you concentrate on it more. Whenever my OCD is getting really stessful (some days are worse than others) I just force myself to go to sleep. If you're having a bad day with overeating, maybe you could try to sleep or... I dunno.

Warm & Fuzzy · 12-12-2004, 04:16 PM

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Originally posted by ThirteenInchEscape
I havnt eaten yet...I was thinking of getting some cereal or something...

I would try to say something to help you, but I really dont get the intense urge to food people have...and what the **** were your parents thinking taking you to a buffet?

edit: and holy ****, that was more than one peanutbutter and jelly sandwhich, because you know, if that much was in one...well...jesus christ (I eat those alot)

how many was that?

That was more than one PBJ sandwich. More like 2.5 or so.

¤I Love Clay Aiken¤ · 12-12-2004, 04:20 PM

Ive been like that all week! I think because Ive had the week off for vaca, Ive been sitting on the comp. most of the time just noshing on foods. Thing is.. Ill go to the kitchen to get a snack, but I come back with 4. Ill be full but eat it anyways!

Warm & Fuzzy · 12-12-2004, 04:24 PM

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Originally posted by Kristina
Wow, that's a lot of calories. Try to do something to get your mind off food, maybe going shopping? Have you considered diet pills? Or maybe something that will help with supressing your appetite, but I dunno you say you're stuffed. I would say to talk to a therapist or something, but i'm just a lil person online to you and probably wouldn't have any impact. And I really have no room to talk, I don't care too much about my health and yet I try to preach stuff about it.

I also have an eating disorder, except mine is with being obsessed with not eating and trying to lose weight. I'm starting to doubt it's anorexia, because I don't consider myself fat anymore, I'm just obsessed with weight loss. I also tend to go on diets with fast food, lol. I don't do healthy diets. I have a weird heart beat, definitely something wrong with me yet I bought diet pills yesterday. Stacker 2, though it's ephedra free I did buy asthma medication with ephedrine to mix with it. I hope I don't get a heart attack! I'm trying to get down to 90lbs, but I know I won't be satisfied.

I know it's hard to get your mind off things, because when you try to do that it just makes you concentrate on it more. Whenever my OCD is getting really stessful (some days are worse than others) I just force myself to go to sleep. If you're having a bad day with overeating, maybe you could try to sleep or... I dunno.

Heya, Kris.

Funny you should mention sleep. I just fell asleep a few minutes ago, LOL. As for taking my mind off food? See, that's the thing is... I have problems. I CAN'T take my mind off food, and I don't have an appetite... not at ALL.. I just... eat, sigh. I'm a binge eater with anorexic and bulimic tendancies. I admit it. Sometimes I'll fast, sometimes I'll throw up or whatever.... it's a mess. It's so strong of an obsession it's insane. It has totally gone out of control. As for diet pills? I don't believe in them. I am pro-health, pro-recovery, so I would never take them. I am TRYING so hard here to turn things around, it isn't working...

As for YOU, missy, 90 lbs would be considered underweight for someone of your height. YOU don't need to diet, nor do you need to lose any weight!!! And diet pills aren't the way to go, they do a whole lot more worse to your body than better. Don't take them. I would flush them down the toilet if I were you. If you want to lose weight, do it the conventional way. Use the healthy approach or you'll be sorry. Don't mean to be blunt, but I only speak the truth. You don't want to turn into me, okay? I started off with a diet, too. Now look at me. Learn from it.

Also....eating disorders aren't always about weight, tho that plays a major role. Many anorexics don't even want to be skinny... they use it as an excuse for the things they do because there's no excuse otherwise. ED's lie much deeper than weight. I can finally admit that food for me is a coping mechanism... I can't live without it. Which is why I can't NOT focus on it. It soothes the soul... and tho it's physically uncomfortable to eat so much, it's emotionally satisfying. It makes me feel like I'm on the top of the world.... for a moment. But this feeling is almost immeaditely replaced by feelings of guilt... which is why then I go back for more... and more and more. I am often depressed and angry, and food is my key to "happiness."

Warm & Fuzzy · 12-12-2004, 04:33 PM

Just binged on some sesame pancake/beef thingies......... 6030 cals. Just great. And its only 3:30!!!!!!

Superstar · 12-12-2004, 04:36 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Kristina
Wow, that's a lot of calories. Try to do something to get your mind off food, maybe going shopping? Have you considered diet pills? Or maybe something that will help with supressing your appetite, but I dunno you say you're stuffed. I would say to talk to a therapist or something, but i'm just a lil person online to you and probably wouldn't have any impact. And I really have no room to talk, I don't care too much about my health and yet I try to preach stuff about it.

I also have an eating disorder, except mine is with being obsessed with not eating and trying to lose weight. I'm starting to doubt it's anorexia, because I don't consider myself fat anymore, I'm just obsessed with weight loss. I also tend to go on diets with fast food, lol. I don't do healthy diets. I have a weird heart beat, definitely something wrong with me yet I bought diet pills yesterday. Stacker 2, though it's ephedra free I did buy asthma medication with ephedrine to mix with it. I hope I don't get a heart attack! I'm trying to get down to 90lbs, but I know I won't be satisfied.

I know it's hard to get your mind off things, because when you try to do that it just makes you concentrate on it more. Whenever my OCD is getting really stessful (some days are worse than others) I just force myself to go to sleep. If you're having a bad day with overeating, maybe you could try to sleep or... I dunno.

Kristina, for once we agree with each other. You should try to do something to get your mind of it, read, listen to music, do ANYTHING to try and get your off mind of it.

Kristina · 12-12-2004, 05:00 PM

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Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Heya, Kris. Funny you should mention sleep. I just fell asleep a few minutes ago, LOL. As for taking my mind off food? See, that's the thing is... I have problems. I CAN'T take my mind off food, and I don't have an appetite... not at ALL.. I just... eat, sigh. I'm a binge eater with anorexic and bulimic tendancies. I admit it. Sometimes I'll fast, sometimes I'll throw up or whatever.... it's a mess. It's so strong of an obsession it's insane. It has totally gone out of control. As for diet pills? I don't believe in them. I am pro-health, pro-recovery, so I would never take them. I am TRYING so hard here to turn things around, it isn't working...

As for YOU, missy, 90 lbs would be considered underweight for someone of your height. YOU don't need to diet, nor do you need to lose any weight!!! And diet pills aren't the way to go, they do a whole lot more worse to your body than better. Don't take them. I would flush them down the toilet if I were you. If you want to lose weight, do it the conventional way. Use the healthy approach or you'll be sorry. Don't mean to be blunt, but I only speak the truth. You don't want to turn into me, okay? I started off with a diet, too. Now look at me. Learn from it.

Also....eating disorders aren't always about weight, tho that plays a major role. Many anorexics don't even want to be skinny... they use it as an excuse for the things they do because there's no excuse otherwise. ED's lie much deeper than weight. I can finally admit that food for me is a coping mechanism... I can't live without it. Which is why I can't NOT focus on it. It soothes the soul... and tho it's physically uncomfortable to eat so much, it's emotionally satisfying. It makes me feel like I'm on the top of the world.... for a moment. But this feeling is almost immeaditely replaced by feelings of guilt... which is why then I go back for more... and more and more. I am often depressed and angry, and food is my key to "happiness."

I'm sorry it's like that for you, I do hope you try recovery soon because I mean, it just doesn't go away by itself, sadly. I'm thinking about seeing a psychiatrist soon about many things, just trying to work up the courage.

And I can understand what you're saying about the pills, though I don't think I'm gonna flush them. Might as well take them back to the store and get my money back.

I didn't try them yet, I'm afraid to. Especially since my heartbeat is odd, I don't know if something is wrong or what. But the beats are different than normal. Probably another thing I need a doctor for.

Warm & Fuzzy · 12-12-2004, 05:01 PM

6530 cals now..... I think I will easily reach 10,000 today..... sigh...

Kris: Yes! Go and get your money back.

Oh, and you should really go see a dr ASAP about your irregular heartbeat. I have an irregular heartbeat, too, but that's 'cause I put too stress on it from the exercise.... bingeing... purging... fasting.. it does so much bad. Anyway, I think you should go see a pysc, most definitely. As for me? I'm a doomed failure.. I can't see one. But I know you can!

Chambers · 12-12-2004, 05:08 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
6530 cals now..... I think I will easily reach 10,000 today..... sigh...

Kris: Yes! Go and get your money back. Oh, and you should really go see a dr ASAP about your irregular heartbeat. I have an irregular heartbeat, too, but that's 'cause I put too stress on it from the exercise.... bingeing... purging... fasting.. it does so much bad. Anyway, I think you should go see a pysc, most definitely. As for me? I'm a doomed failure.. I can't see one. But I know you can!

Stop giving other people advice. Follow it yourself.

Stop fulfilling whatever doomed prophesy you have set up for yourself.

Superstar · 12-12-2004, 05:08 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Kristina
I'm sorry it's like that for you, I do hope you try recovery soon because I mean, it just doesn't go away by itself, sadly. I'm thinking about seeing a psychiatrist soon about many things, just trying to work up the courage.

And I can understand what you're saying about the pills, though I don't think I'm gonna flush them. Might as well take them back to the store and get my money back. I didn't try them yet, I'm afraid to. Especially since my heartbeat is odd, I don't know if something is wrong or what. But the beats are different than normal. Probably another thing I need a doctor for.

Yeah, you should probably see a doctor about that, just to be on the safe side

Warm & Fuzzy · 12-12-2004, 05:14 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Chambers
Stop giving other people advice. Follow it yourself.

Stop fulfilling whatever doomed prophesy you have set up for yourself.

Something you should know.. I'm a hypocrite. I will give advice, but I won't follow them myself. Why, you ask?? Because I'm already doomed. I have no hope in myself anymore. I don't know what to do with myself. I can only try my best to help others.

Chambers · 12-12-2004, 05:24 PM

Quote:

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Something you should know.. I'm a hypocrite. I will give advice, but I won't follow them myself. Why, you ask?? Because I'm already doomed. I have no hope in myself anymore. I don't know what to do with myself. I can only try my best to help others.

I know where you're coming from. Seriously, I do.

But you don't have to be at the edge of a crisis to feel as if you matter. You matter now. You mattered back when your behavior was going unoticed. You mattered before you even had a problem. You matter enough to get yourself help, to ask for help, to get yourself fixed so that you can learn that all this drama is actually dull. Health and normalcy is hard, yes. But it is infinitely more exciting and romantic once you learn how to deal with life in a healthy way.

Just do yourself and everybody here a favor and set your mind on getting help. You aren't doomed. NOBODY is doomed. That's just a word. Something your mind creates. Something that does not exist. You, on the other hand, exist. Learn how to deal with your existence. Don't chicken out.

12-12-2004, 03:46 PM	#1
Warm & Fuzzy Member Forum Fanatic Join Date: Feb 02, 2001 Posts: 10,254	Breaking down... need help I guess I haven't updated you guys about my eating, lately... god, you guys must be sick and tired of hearing about this... but, gosh, I seriously think I'm gonna break down.. that is, if I haven't ALREADY. Several weeks ago, I thought I had this eating disorder beat... I thought I had everything under control. I was in the process of giving up calorie-counting and eating like a normal person. I had gone 28 days without bingeing, or obsessing too much about food. I was doing great. I had lost 10 pounds. I thought my life was turning around. i thought I would be happy again. But then, two weeks ago, my parents brought me to a buffet, and it has just been down hill from there. That 6,000 cals just didn't cut it. I couldn't take it... I still can't take it. So yeah, last night I had a major binge, and it continued on till this afternoon... and it is STILL continuing on.... I've eaten all the foods listed below... the same amount of cals I would normally have in FOUR days... and it's only 4:00 pm!!!!! [edited] .... and I am still going. I'm full as hell, my stomach's bloated... my sides are hurting, my heart is pounding... I've tried purging, but gave up.... I'm a mess. But i STILL intend to eat more.... because that's how stupid I am. I'm stuffed like hell.. but I STILL want to continue eating. I plan to have pizza later... What a loser, OMG, I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Why do I do this to myself?? Please help me out, I don't know what to do with myself.. I'm so disgusted.. noodles w/ soup (.75 quart): 500 EDY's Orange Sherbet Ice Cream w/ Chocolate Chips: (4.5 cups): 1350 bread: 200 peanut butter: 450 Jelly: 200 raisin bread: 200 Frosted animal crackers: 300 Corn Flakes: 200 Milk (2 cups): 300 Babe Ruth Bar (33% larger than conventional size): 310 Kit Kat (33% larger than conventional size): 310 100 Grand (33% larger than conventional size): 360 Sesame beef patty: 1300 pound cake: 500 total: 8803 [edited]
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12-12-2004, 03:57 PM	#3
ThirteenInchEscape Member Senior Member Join Date: Jul 21, 2004 Location: Palouse, Washington Posts: 1,218	I havnt eaten yet...I was thinking of getting some cereal or something... I would try to say something to help you, but I really dont get the intense urge to food people have...and what the ** were your parents thinking taking you to a buffet? edit: and holy **, that was more than one peanutbutter and jelly sandwhich, because you know, if that much was in one...well...jesus christ (I eat those alot) how many was that?
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12-12-2004, 04:20 PM	#6
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12-12-2004, 03:53 PM	#2
I am Him Six Senior Member Join Date: May 15, 2003 Posts: 1,529	All I've eaten so far today is a hotdog.

12-12-2004, 04:10 PM	#4
Kristina Member Forum Fanatic Join Date: Mar 27, 2001 Location: CaLiFoRnIa, UsA Posts: 8,890	Wow, that's a lot of calories. Try to do something to get your mind off food, maybe going shopping? Have you considered diet pills? Or maybe something that will help with supressing your appetite, but I dunno you say you're stuffed. I would say to talk to a therapist or something, but i'm just a lil person online to you and probably wouldn't have any impact. And I really have no room to talk, I don't care too much about my health and yet I try to preach stuff about it. I also have an eating disorder, except mine is with being obsessed with not eating and trying to lose weight. I'm starting to doubt it's anorexia, because I don't consider myself fat anymore, I'm just obsessed with weight loss. I also tend to go on diets with fast food, lol. I don't do healthy diets. I have a weird heart beat, definitely something wrong with me yet I bought diet pills yesterday. Stacker 2, though it's ephedra free I did buy asthma medication with ephedrine to mix with it. I hope I don't get a heart attack! I'm trying to get down to 90lbs, but I know I won't be satisfied. I know it's hard to get your mind off things, because when you try to do that it just makes you concentrate on it more. Whenever my OCD is getting really stessful (some days are worse than others) I just force myself to go to sleep. If you're having a bad day with overeating, maybe you could try to sleep or... I dunno.

12-12-2004, 04:33 PM	#8
Warm & Fuzzy Member Forum Fanatic Join Date: Feb 02, 2001 Posts: 10,254	Just binged on some sesame pancake/beef thingies......... 6030 cals. Just great. And its only 3:30!!!!!!

12-12-2004, 05:01 PM	#11
Warm & Fuzzy Member Forum Fanatic Join Date: Feb 02, 2001 Posts: 10,254	6530 cals now..... I think I will easily reach 10,000 today..... sigh... Kris: Yes! Go and get your money back. Oh, and you should really go see a dr ASAP about your irregular heartbeat. I have an irregular heartbeat, too, but that's 'cause I put too stress on it from the exercise.... bingeing... purging... fasting.. it does so much bad. Anyway, I think you should go see a pysc, most definitely. As for me? I'm a doomed failure.. I can't see one. But I know you can!