Reunion

[Snowfall]

Here's a new fic! This is about the season 4 finale.
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All of Jinny’s family and friends and everyone from The Division were gathered around her and Hank, her brand-new husband. It had been a beautiful wedding and now the reception was wrapping up. Everyone had had a wonderful time, eating, laughing, sharing, and dancing. Even Nate had to admit that he’d had some fun. It had been extremely hard for him for the last year and a half. It seemed as though joy had left his life, and would never return. He had gone through many stages of grief since that day that he came home and found The Note: the note that symbolized the end of his world, the end of his life as he knew it, and haunted him ever since. He had first denied that CD would do that to him. The CD that he knew and loved would never have done that to anyone, let alone him, her lover and best friend. Then he freaked out at the thought that she was gone, and went on a search to find her, but was unable to track her down. She had left no leads, she being just as smart as he was. After Nate finally came to grips that the love of his life was gone and wasn’t coming back, he became angry. So angry, that it was a constant, daily struggle to not fume it out onto his friends and coworkers. Eventually, his anger passed, and depression set in. He hadn’t realized that it was depression, but it was. He found himself with so little faith in himself that he had an affair with a woman who wouldn’t and couldn’t ever love him. Only when he ended that mistake, did he admit to himself that he was still desperately in love with CD, and still felt tremendous pain for her. Every morning, he awoke, hoping that it had all been just a nightmare; and every morning, he was disappointed.

It had been a huge adjustment for Nate to get used to having a new partner, Raina. He liked Raina, and thought that she was a good cop, but she wasn’t CD. No one could compare to CD. He hadn’t wanted another female partner. He just couldn’t handle that again. However, he did get used to Raina, and didn’t mind her as a partner. In fact, she had been the only one who really cared about him and CD, and how he was handling his recovery.

The toasts of the wedding brought Nate back to focus on the event. Jinny held out her glass and declared with a big smile, “To the future.”

Nate smiled and clinked his glass with the guest next to him. ‘Well,’ he thought, ‘it’s nice that somebody has a future.’

The guests began to disperse again to mingle and chat. Nate found himself alone. He’d had to get used to that, but he still hated being at a wedding alone. Sure, he’d sat next to Raina and even danced one song with her, but it wasn’t the same. They weren’t dating, nor did they want to. The only other single woman there that he knew was Stacy, and he’d run through a blizzard naked before he’d strike up a conversation with her. A feeling of loneliness washed over him. He thought he’d be able to handle this wedding, but it was starting to get to him. He tried very hard to not think about the fact that he should have had this with CD by now, but it still occasionally crept across his mind. He didn’t want to just leave, so he went over to Raina. “Hey,” he said.

Raina was talking to John Exstead, and turned around to face Nate with a smile. “Hey!” she replied. “You want to dance?”

Nate shook his head and jingled his keys in his pocket. “Ah, no. I’m getting kind of tired, so I think I’m going to call it a night.”

“Oh, OK,” she replied. “Are you OK?” she asked, showing the expression that she gave when she knew what was bothering him.

Nate brushed it off. “Yeah, yeah, I’m fine. Just a long day. I’ll see you Monday?”

“Yeah, see you Monday.” She have his arm a little squeeze, and then Nate turned around and left.

Nate got into his car and turned on the radio. Nothing spectacular, but at least it broke the silence of being alone. Then another song began to play.
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A hundred days had made me older
Since the last time that I've saw your pretty face

A thousand lights had made me colder and I don’t think I can look at this the same

But all the miles had separate
They disappear now when I’m dreaming of your face.
~

After a few lines, it had Nate’s attention.

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I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight it’s only you and me

The miles just keep rollin
As the people either way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
~

He finally let himself think about the obvious. It was as though the song had been written for him. A tear sprang to the corner of his eye. He wiped it away, but more proceeded to follow. Part of him wanted to turn it off, but the other needed to listen to the song. It was almost a kind of therapy for him.

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I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me

Everything I know,
And anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls,
When it’s all said and done
It get hard but it won’t take away my love

I’m here without you baby
But you’re still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I’m here without you baby
But you’re still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl it’s only you and me.
~

A while later, Nate made it home. He let himself into his dark apartment, and stumbled to turn on the lights. As he laid his keys down on the entry table, he heard the beep of the answering machine. Nate sighed at that. ‘Now who would call me tonight? Everyone I know was at the wedding,’ he thought. Nate hit the “play” button on the machine and slipped out of his jacket.

The voice played. “Nate. It’s CD.”

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hehe, yeah, I'll leave you there for now.

Credit to "Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down.

[NMKsHoMeY]

Yepp yepp great fic i sense keep going please! It's just what i wanted..more of 4th season and on with the 5th! lol pot more soon!

[Snowfall]

Dang, only one reply? Yeah yeah, I know that Lisa and Angie read it too....oh well.....here's more.
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A while later, Nate made it home. He let himself into his dark apartment, and stumbled to turn on the lights. As he laid his keys down on the entry table, he heard the beep of the answering machine. Nate sighed at that. ‘Now who would call me tonight? Everyone I know was at the wedding,’ he thought. Nate hit the “play” button on the machine and slipped out of his jacket.

The voice played. “Nate. It’s CD.”

Nate's face went white as a sheet. The mail that he held in his hand slipped from his limp fingers and fell to the floor. A warm sensation crawled up his back and his heart began to beat faster. His hands and forehead broke out in a sweat, and he stood, frozen, listening to the message.

The message continued. "Listen, please, before you shut this off, please listen. I know that I am probably the last person you want to hear from right now and you want to pitch this machine out the window.....but I just really, really need to talk to you. I know how much I must have hurt you. I know how much of a bitch I was. It was inexcusable. But if you could find it in your heart.......just please, please, call me back, Nate. Please. My number is 555-7398. This is really important. OK, well.....have a nice night."

Nate still was frozen in his tracks. Then he heard the beep signaling the end of the message. "CD!!!!!" he yelled and ran towards the machine again to replay it. He hit the button and listened to it again. He must have listened to it ten times. Then Nate picked up his phone and stared at it in his hand. He sunk wearily into his recliner, his eyes still glued to the phone. He didn't know what to do. He couldn't act like nothing had happened. SHE had called him, finally, after all this time. This was something he had only ever dreamed about. It was all so unbelievable. He was broken man. He had been since the day CD walked out the door. This was the opportunity he had been wishing, praying, dreaming, and hoping for, but now that it had finally come, he didn't know what to do about it.

Nate stood up and walked down the hallway and into his bedroom. He stood at the doorway and studied the scope of the room. He was still using the sheets and comforter that he and CD had picked out together. It had been too painful to remove them. As he gazed at the room, his heart felt heavy. So many happy memories were born there. Unfortunately, memories of sleepless nights and tears and slutty bimbos filled the room as well. Nate went to the closet and pulled a box out of the back of it. He had sealed it up many months before, not expecting to ever look at its contents again. But now it felt the time was right to do through the contents again. Nate sat down on the bed with the box and opened it. On top was The Note. It was rumpled with Nate's dried tears. Nate read that again, and carefully laid it down beside him. Then he pulled out a card that CD had given him upon her recovery from her bullet wound. In it, she promised that she would never change her mind about them. A lump formed in Nate's throat and he placed that beside him as well. Then Nate pulled out a stack of photographs of her, and them together. The next memento was a napkin from the little Italian place on Polk, where they had finally had their first "date" after CD was released from the hospital. The last in the box was CD's name plate from her desk at the Divison. Kate had given it to Nate as the only way she could think of to help him.

Nate picked up the first two items again: The Note and the card about never changing her mind. He read them both once more, and then stared at the phone. He found his hand reaching for it and picked it up.

[NMKsHoMeY]

Nate and CD having more chemistry together soon i hope! Yay good post..more please! CD's reason will probably be because she was scared of when she got shot and that was the day she finally realized that she was in love with Nate. Then she had 2nd thoughts about how risky it would be with a cop relationship. She thought she could never turn back after she was gunned down by Liz Rue and be herself on the job again..or maybe she had a shock while she was unconcious after she got shot.

[candace~n~nathan]

awwwwwwww!!! come on, T!!!!!!!!!!! don't stop there, ya jerkface!!!!!! :-D


i want to know what happens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[NMKsHoMeY]

Yes yes yes please please post more!! Love it!*

[Snowfall]

I'm SO happy!!! So in honor of that, here's more!
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Nate picked up the first two items again: The Note and the card about never changing her mind. He read them both once more, and then stared at the phone. He found his hand reaching for it and picked it up. He dialed. The other end picked up.

"Raina?" Nate said.

"Hey, Nate," Raina replied on her cell phone. She was still at the wedding reception. "What's up?"

"You are not going to believe this," Nate said in disbelief.

"What?"

Nate took a deep breath. "CD called me."

"NO!" Raina shouted into the phone, with a mixture of feelings of shock and happiness.

"I told you you wouldn't believe it."

"What did she say? How did it happen? What did you say?" Raina rattled off in a stream of questions.

"I couldn't say anything. She left a message."

"And?"

"And she said that she was sorry, and she really needed to talk to me, and begged me to call her back."

"Oh my gosh, Nate, that is so AMAZING!!!" Raina exclaimed. Her face was lit up like a Christmas tree.

"So what should I do?" Nate, the typical, clueless guy asked.

"What should you do? WHAT should YOU DO?!" Raina shouted. "CALL HER!"

"But---" Nate began.

"But nothing!" Raina interrupted. "You have been waiting a year and a half for this, and you know it! Now's your chance! Call her back and don't let her get away this time!"

A smiled spread across Nate's face. "OK, I will."

"Good! Now get to it!"

"And Raina?"

"Yeah?"

"Thanks," Nate replied.

"It's my pleasure," Raina responded with a contented smile. She loved love stories, and the real ones were even better.

Nate finally started to dial. His fingers trembled. Of course, this is what he had been thinking of for well over a year. He wanted nothing more than to hold her in his arms forever.....but he didn't know if he could let himself fall for her again. He was afraid that she would only end up hurting him more.

The phone began to ring. Then it picked up. Nate's heart was beating faster and faster. He thought it skipped a beat when he heard the voice of his CD, at long last. "Hello?" she said. Nate didn't know what to say. "Hello?" she repeated again. Nate began to sweat. "Nate?" CD asked.

"Yeah," he replied.

"Nate! You called back!" CD exclaimed happily.

This was all so weird for Nate. He knew in his head that he was talking to CD, but it just didn't seem real. "Yeah, I did. It was....you know, not something that happens everyday, so....."

"Thank you so much, Nate. Listen, before you say anything else, I really feel like we need to talk."

"Oh, ya THINK?!" Nate replied sarcastically.

"I, Nate, I---"

"Because, it seems that you have some communication issues, because you seem to think that a NOTE is sufficient notice for LEAVING your fiance!" Nate shouted. He was surprised at himself. He hadn't expected to react so angrily.

"OK, first of all, we were never technically engaged. And secondly, I know how incomprehensible that was, and I want to apologize for that!"

"CD, you knew damn well that that's where we were headed. We might not have had a ring and a date yet, but we may as well have."

On the other end of the line, in North Beach, a tear slid down CD's cheek. If only Nate knew why she had left.....if only Nate knew what had happened....he'd know that the last 18 months had been even harder on her than it had been on him. She still loved him so much, but it grieved her heart that he probably would never love her again. "Nate.....I am so, so, so sorry. I beg your forgiveness. I didn't mean to hurt you, I swear."

"Bull," Nate replied.

"If only you knew why I did what I did....." She had to swallow the lump in her throat.

"And why would that be, CD?" Nate whispered.

"Because I loved you. Because.....OK, you've got to believe me when I tell you this story. I've never lied to you, right?"

"Yes you have. You told me that you loved me. You told me that you couldn't imagine your life without me. You told me that you wouldn't change your mind. And then....you did."

"No, that isn't what happened!"

"Then what happened, CD?"

[candace~n~nathan]

u ass!!!!!!!!!!!!!


that was sooooooo crappy to end there, ya jerkface!!!!!!!!!




:-D so more soon, RIGHT?!

[NMKsHoMeY]

MORE!!!!!!!!! BaD daY..until i read this ty for making me a bit happierr* post more soon!

[Snowfall]

MORE fic!
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"Yes you have. You told me that you loved me. You told me that you couldn't imagine your life without me. You told me that you wouldn't change your mind. And then....you did."

"No, that isn't what happened!"

"Then what happened, CD?"

CD sighed in desperation. She knew this would be hard, but didn't know how hard until now. "I....I can't talk about this over the phone. I need to tell you this in person. I need to see you."

Nate couldn't help but think to himself, 'Yeah, and I need to be married to you right now instead of listening to why you left me,' but he kept those thoughts to himself. He sighed as well. "OK....where do you want to meet?"

CD glanced around her living room. She bit her lip. "Um, I'd invite you here, but I'm living up in North Beach now, and I want to spare you the drive...."

Nate immediately replied, "That's OK." For some reason, all he wanted to do was see her. "I'll come there."

"No, that's OK, Nate, I can meet you downtown."

"It's OK, CD. I haven't been up to North Beach for while.....when?"

"Well, sooner the better, I guess. What's your schedule look like for tomorrow?"

"Um.....it's pretty flexible. I'll just get Raina to take care of it."

"Raina?" CD asked.

"Yeah, she's my partner now."

"Oh," CD replied, deflated. He had another female partner. And if history predicted the future......well, she was deflated. "OK, well, lunch then? About noon?"

"Yeah, that sounds great."

CD then gave him directions, and it was time to say goodbye. "Nate....I just want to say how grateful I am that you're agreeing to talk to me. You have no idea how much this means to me."

"I'm not doing this for you," Nate replied. Even though his spine shivered at the sound of her voice, he must not let his guard down.

CD felt a little pang of hurt at that. But, after all, it was only what she could expect. "Well, I'll see you tomorrow, Nate." She wanted to tell him that she was still desperately in love with him, but she knew better and held it back.

"Yeah....I'll see you tomorrow, CD.....Wow, that's weird."

"What's weird?"

"Saying that I'll see you tomorrow. I haven't said that to you in....um....a year and a half."

CD bit her lip again as another tear dropped off her lashes and rolled down her cheek. She knew exactly how long it had been: one year, six months, a week, and 3 days. She had been keeping track. Little did she know, so had Nate. "Alright, well....goodnight, Nate."

"Goodnight, CD," Nate replied and slowly turned off the phone. Then he looked off into space in a daze. It was a happy daze. What was it about that woman that set his heart to beating so? Why did he still love her so much, after all that she'd done to him? He hated himself for still loving her, but he did. He couldn't help it. She may have left him in reality, but she still remained in his heart.

CD hung up the phone as well. She heard a noise, and walked over to the playpen that was in the corner of her living room. She picked the baby up and cradled him in her arms to soothe his cry. "Shhhh, sweetie," she said in a maternal voice and kissed his head. "It'll be OK. We're going to see Daddy tomorrow."

[candace~n~nathan]

Originally posted by Snowfall
She may have left him in reality, but she still remained in his heart.

i loved that line so much!!! so sweet!!


time for more

[Swimgirl587]

That was really sweet. And I better see more!! Pleeeeeeaaaaaaaasssssssseeeeee!!!!!

[Jo_Luvs_Ketchup]

Tara! It was soo unfair to stop there! I will be back on tomorrow and I had better see a lot more here young lady!

[maria1986]

Awww...I just started reading this, and it is wonderful!!! Please keep going!

[NMKsHoMeY]

WhAt tHeY aLL saId lol mOre please~