Anyone take diet pills?

[Warm & Fuzzy]

All right. I'm downright frustrated now. Today, I woke around 10:00am, ate about 1000 cals worth of breakfast (most of which were cookies/cakes/pasta... all carbs). Anyway, so then, to make up for all I've ate, and to ease the guilt a bit, I went to the park and I rollerbladed for three hours straight, went home and then immediately jump-roped for another 30 minutes. Then I had a binge episode (comsuming amount about 5.5 grands worth of calories). I was SO mad at myself. And so, after I ate all that, I went out and ran for another 15 minutes (burning only 99 calories however).

As you can see, I have quiiiiiite a big problem here. This is pretty much a typical day for me. I spend my days exercising, eating, exercising, and then eating. It's all I do nowadays and "all" I "care" about. I always eat more than I burn, though, so I have no idea why I exercise to begin with, but whatever...

ANYWAY, as I am SOOOO desperate at this point to lose weight. I want to try... diet pills. Normally, I'd oppose them and refuse to take them. BUT I am beginning to think that I'm hopeless, and hence I must, must know the "best" brand (and preferably cheapest) brand that I can take in which I can purchase... off eBay, LOL! (I can't risk having my parents know or a neighborhood friend catch me purchasing them!!). Anyway, if you've taken any of them before, what brand was it? Did it WORK? How much did you lose and in what duration? What are the side effects? Is it safe? Did you gain back after having gotten off the pills (if you did)? How much did it cost you, and how many did you take in total?

Thanks!!

[Brent88]

I don't need to lose weight! I'm about to 16, am 5'11" and am 130 lbs. I am so skinny.

[consentida]

I wanna lose weight too but I would NEVER take diet pills. I wanna lose weight without the aide of such things. I'd rather lose the weight by just exercising and watching what I eat. And I have to say, I lost about 40 pounds in less than a year doing just that. So, for me that works. Its just getting focused and keeping up with it that's the most difficult. So I would never take diet pills simply because I feel that its stupid to spend money on something like that. And I think its unsafe. I'd rather not be popping pills in order to lose weight. Plus, I'd rather have the satisfaction of knowing I can do it myself without using things like that.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Originally posted by consentida
I wanna lose weight too but I would NEVER take diet pills. I wanna lose weight without the aide of such things. I'd rather lose the weight by just exercising and watching what I eat. And I have to say, I lost about 40 pounds in less than a year doing just that. So, for me that works. Its just getting focused and keeping up with it that's the most difficult. So I would never take diet pills simply because I feel that its stupid to spend money on something like that. And I think its unsafe. I'd rather not be popping pills in order to lose weight. Plus, I'd rather have the satisfaction of knowing I can do it myself without using things like that.

I completely understand where you're coming from, as I too, once thought as you did. But like I said in my previous post, it's almost hopeless for me. Compulsive eating combined with compulsive exercising has become an obsession for me, and it's SO hard to break it. I KNOW what I have to do, but I can't seem to motivate myself to do it. You know, they say that for compulsive overeaters and binge eaters, food is like alcohol to alcoholics. It triggers the same part of the brain. Alcoholics drink for comfort, to drive their troubles away, and/or to forget. I do the same... only with food. Which, in my opinion, is as big of a problem as alcohol is for it's SO available. It's...everywhere!!!! Man, I wish I were obsessed with something else other than food/exercising.

[Georgia's on my Mind]

Originally posted by Brent88
I don't need to lose weight! I'm about to 16, am 5'11" and am 130 lbs. I am so skinny.

im skinnier, i win.

[MandieR1980]

I was on Meridia once but I quit using them they made me feel really weird. I also tried Stackers DON'T EVER USE THEM THEY ARE SO DANGEROUS! They gave me the jitters for a really long time and I only took them once.

[consentida]

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
I completely understand where you're coming from, as I too, once thought as you did. But like I said in my previous post, it's almost hopeless for me. Compulsive eating combined with compulsive exercising has become an obsession for me, and it's SO hard to break it. I KNOW what I have to do, but I can't seem to motivate myself to do it. You know, they say that for compulsive overeaters and binge eaters, food is like alcohol to alcoholics. It triggers the same part of the brain. Alcoholics drink for comfort, to drive their troubles away, and/or to forget. I do the same... only with food. Which, in my opinion, is as big of a problem as alcohol is for it's SO available. It's...everywhere!!!! Man, I wish I were obsessed with something else other than food/exercising.

I'm not a compulsive eater and I dont overeat all the time (only when I'm PMSing), but I've been overweight all my life due to all the steroidal medications (for asthma) I was on when I was little. So thats pretty much my problem. I've been heavy all my life. There was a time though when I was really depressed and I started "comfort" eating so I guess thats counts. So I kinda know where you're coming from. But even though you have all this stuff going on, I dont think you should resort to diet pills. God knows what'll happen if they're dangerous. I know this is easier said than done but try occupying yourself with other things. And honestly, dont eliminate things from your diet just because they're fattening or because they're carbs. I've found and I've also been told that if you eliminate such things, it makes you want them even more and you're more likely to binge. Just limit the amount you eat. Again, I know thats easier said than done...

[Brent88]

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
im skinnier, i win.

LOL... I don't care.

[Georgia's on my Mind]

Originally posted by Brent88
LOL... I don't care.

jealousy is a very ugly emotion

[Czas na Zywiec]

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
jealousy is a very ugly emotion

Speaking of ugly, someone still hasn't cleaned up their act. Looks like you learned nothing from our little episode over in the photo thread.

[Brent88]

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
jealousy is a very ugly emotion

I don't give a rat's behind if your skinner. I'm not jealous at all. I'm hoping to gain some weight.

Why don't you just go away?

[laceyinthesky]

I've taken diet pills, but they didn't work for me. I know how it feels to binge and feel terrible about it. Just be careful, it can lead to other things.

[dawsongirl]

I'm really sad for you Jenny. I wish you could become "obsessed" with something else, but I know where you're coming from. When I was going thru my bad anxiety period, pre-Paxil basically, I was obsessed with food. But not to lose weight. I was so scared about upsetting my stomach that I'd freak out if I ate certain things. And that's all I ever thought about; my stomach and getting sick. It was so depressing.

I've also kinda gone the route of worrying about weight. But I just more get mad at myself for sitting on my ass too much. But then I don't do much about it. I need to get to liking exercise more I guess.

I dunno, I guess I don't think diet pills are the way for you to go. This is sooooo easier said than done, I know, but you need to find something else to focus that energy on. Like, if you feel like eating when you aren't really hungry, go and drink some water, or paint a picture. That made no sense probably, but I hope you understand.

[dawsongirl]

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
im skinnier, i win.

I'm 5'4" and 128. I win!

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Originally posted by dawsongirl
I'm really sad for you Jenny. I wish you could become "obsessed" with something else, but I know where you're coming from. When I was going thru my bad anxiety period, pre-Paxil basically, I was obsessed with food. But not to lose weight. I was so scared about upsetting my stomach that I'd freak out if I ate certain things. And that's all I ever thought about; my stomach and getting sick. It was so depressing.

I've also kinda gone the route of worrying about weight. But I just more get mad at myself for sitting on my ass too much. But then I don't do much about it. I need to get to liking exercise more I guess.

I dunno, I guess I don't think diet pills are the way for you to go. This is sooooo easier said than done, I know, but you need to find something else to focus that energy on. Like, if you feel like eating when you aren't really hungry, go and drink some water, or paint a picture. That made no sense probably, but I hope you understand.

I started out initially being obsessed with losing weight because of what my dad said. He told me I had a fat ass and that when I was younger, I was skinnier, hence it wasn't as noticeable. But now, I'm fatter and he "notices" it. It's just a bunch of crap. He's a preverted creep if you haven't already noticed, LOL.

So anyway, summer 2003, I went on a diet. I did pretty well, actually. I lost 10 pounds over the summer, and I was happy. I had a job as well, with a bunch of amazing people to keep me motivated. Then, in September, school started. I started gaining back some weight. And as the numbers on the scale continued to grow despite my efforts to maintain, I just "gave in." I threw in the towel and stopped trying, and I became really depressed, hopeless, lifeless, and out of control. I binged and binged and binged, and exercised, and starved myself, and stuck toothbrushes down my throat in attempt to make myself purge. I tried EVERYTHING I could possibly think of. My self-confidence just drowned and I isolated myself from the very few friends I had to begin with, and I disregarded most who tried to speak with me. Hence, if you're interested, this is why I left SOL for the past year. (Among other reasons, of course-- for example, it having gone COMPLETELY downhill. In fact, I think it may have hit rock bottom now. No offense. Yet, I'm still here. Go figure. LOL.)

Anyhoo, it was just hell. I had an episode with sucidal thoughts, as well. I never told anyone, though. That's how bad it was. So, I decided to "get help," well-- rather, rant on another message board. I didn't want to do it on SOL because I "knew people" and people "knew me." I wanted it confidential. So, I joined another message board. Anyway, there, I met another set of AMAZING people who supported me through everything. Unfortunately, throughout this period of self-esteem-reboosting, I got fired from my job. And THAT just drove me through the roof, and my eating habits became worse regardless of the support.

At this time, my weight wasn't so much my concern. But rather, my eating habits. Which is a good thing because I finally realized that if I ever wanted to lose, I must first learn to suppress my poor eating habits and learn a bit of self-control, and mope about my weight later on. I must learn to walk before I can run, right? But, despite what I knew, it just kept getting worse and worse... and my poor grades at school, upcoming finals, etc weren't exactly helping either. But I had a place to rant, so I was happi-ER. THEN, a few weeks ago, I got banned from that site, and I got all my other friends banned stimutaneously. (What a hoot, huh? LOL). Thank goodness, they've been given another chance, though.

Anyway, I went downhill again, and I knew that I MUST find an alternative place to rant before I go back to square one. So, I came back here (suggestion by Georgia's on my Mind). And what did I see? I saw, threads entitled:

M&M's or Skittles
Weight Maintenance Calculator
Why are Americans so fat?
What Time Do You Eat Dinner?
What Time Do You Eat Breakfast?
What Time Do You Eat Lunch?

What a horror that was! And then, I come across inconsiderate members like "I Am Him." Then, I post this thread, and I get a response from GOMM saying how skinny he is, and a fight-type situation commencing. And I thought, "You know what? That's it. I'm out of here." I was considering leaving again, as I thought that no one was gonna understand. And every other thread turns into a fight anyway. Then, I read your post and Tara's post, and you both dragged me back. You both drove me back because I now know that SOMEONE (I hope, haha), was going to take me seriously. Someone was gonna listen and not just refer me to a "pig" or whatnot.

I really appreciate your efforts to try and help... suggesting solutions and whatnot. But, honestly, I don't think they'll help me because I KNOW all of it already. I've heard it all. I just can't... DO THEM, LOL, as it's so easier said than done. I know. For shame, for shame. I think what I need is "professional" help. But I'm SO afraid to seek it. No one in the physical life knows about this. They only realize my weight gain, but they've never associated it with a disordered way of thinking about food. My best friend, however, she made a comment just this Friday that she thought I may have been anorexic given I "don't eat anything." I have NO idea WHERE she got that from. If I were anorexic, I wouldn't be in the fat body that I am in now. The only reason why I didn't eat when I was at the restaurant was because I wanted to "conserve calories" before my binge at night, ROTFL. It's almost a habit, I tell yah. My day... is not "complete" without a binge. It's insane. And ahhhhhhhhh look at this novel I'm typing up. Typical me ranting, haha. And completely off-topic. Thanks for reading, though. And as for the diet pills. Arggggggghh. I can't make a decision. They're the coward's way out. And I'm SO tempted to take that road because it'll be so much...easier.

Oh, and Chris. I do not wish to hear about your skinniness on this thread. And it was very rude of you to have IM-ed me and call me a b!tch and tell me not to not lose weight. Your comments are not appreciated. And granted I can't tell you where and where not to post. I'd like to ask that you didn't unless you have something worth reading to say. Of course I know I can't stop you from doing so, anyway. -sigh- I'm just wasting my breath.