Lay Down My Life For You

[Snowfall]

As promised, here's another one of my sappy fics! This is an alternative ending to "Sweet Sorrow." Come on, we ALL know that CD didn't REALLY want to go on that vacation with Bryan! I know that you already know the beginning of this from the show, but I just had to include it because it's so great.
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"Do you see anything?" CD DeLorenzo called to her partner. They were in an empty synagogue, investigating a hate case that involved a bomb. It was near the end of a highly stessful day, and they just wanted to find the bomb and disable it so they could go home.

"No, nothing yet," Nate Basso replied.

CD stepped up onto the platform, and walked past the pulpit. Something started slowly beeping, and a feeling of terror washed over her. "OK, uh, the good news is, I found the bomb."

"And the bad news?" Nate asked.

CD looked at him. "I'm standing on the pressure pad the detonates it, and if I move---"

"Don't, don't move!" he yelled and rushed over to her. Nate's heart fell to his stomach as he realized that he could lose CD forever, in just a short while.

CD tried to be brave. "Nate, get out of here!"

At that moment, Nate knew that he loved her, and couldn't live without her. He had to do something. "Quiet! Let me think. You would have hidden me in the attic, right?"

"No, I wouldn't have, I lied," she replied sarcastically. "Just get out of here!"

"Hush! Let me think, alright?....OK, this is what we're going to do. You're going to take one foot off the pad, as I put one on, and then we're going to do the same thing with the other foot, OK?"

"Why?" CD asked uneasily.

"OK, just listen, here, I wanted to be on the bomb squad and I studied all this stuff, but first I need you out of the way. You ready?"

"OK."

"On three, left foot first. Alright---1...2...3. OK. !...2...3...OK." They switched places.

"OK."

"OK."

"Now what?" CD said, assuming Nate had a plan.

Nate pulled all the courage and nobility together that he could muster, while he was terrified. "Now you run like hell."

CD became enraged that. Feelings of fear, hopelessness, and loss welled up inside of her. She knew that Nate was trying to save her life, but now she didn't want to live if he wasn't there with her. "OK, you bastard, you did NOT want to be on the bomb squad!" she yelled at him.

"CD, CD, get out of here! I do NOT have time for this!" he yelled back.

"Neither do I! God!" She was mad at herself, more than mad at him. She thought fast, trying to find something similar to Nate's weight to put on the pressure pad. All the pews were bolted to the floor, but she spotted the altar table. With all her strength, she dragged the heavy table.

"It's not going to work," Nate said.

"It's going to have to," she replied, and slid it on the pad as Nate stepped off. The clock showed 10 seconds left. Nate grabbed CD's hand, and they ran like light to the exit. Just as the temple exploded, Nate wrapped his arm across her back, and CD did the same to him. They broke through a side door. The temple was on fire, in pieces, around them. They held each other tightly as they ran. Nate and CD felt a surge of relief course through their bodies, and felt a bond that was stronger than steel between them. They had almost died together, each laying down their life for the other. They stopped and looked desperately into each other's eyes, each knowing what the other was thinking and feeling. They quickly came together for an embrace. They clutched together, hanging onto each other, not needing to say anything.

Everything had quieted down, and CD and Nate went back to the division to do the paperwork. CD's boyfriend arrived to pick her up for their trip. CD had wrestled with the decision to go or not. She knew that he wasn't right for her, but she fet she needed a fling since her divorce from her cheating husband. Now, since the bombing, she felt even more unsure about the trip. She thought about Nate. Deep down, she knew that she loved him, but she was a cop who always went by the rules. She just didn't know what to do.
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Should I continue?

[candace~n~nathan]

nah, you don't really have to continue; I REALLY hate that episode so much anyway, so no big deal





















o wait, I've always been sarcastic --DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!! POST MORE NOW!!!!! RIGHT NOW BEFORE I COME ALL THE WAY OVER THERE AND........ Well, u'll find out if I don't get more fic soon!

[planet_stella]

YES! Continue!!! And you better make CD NOT go on that vacation! Or better yet,make CD GO on that vacation with Nate!!! Yup,make them go together!!!! Ain't that a brilliant idea? lol Post more Tara!!!

[turtle63102]

Hee hee hee. I know what happens next, and how this fic ends. But yeah, continue Tara!

[*Nancy Mckeon*]

mmmmmmmmmmoooooooooorrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Snowfall]

Originally posted by candace~n~nathan
nah, you don't really have to continue; I REALLY hate that episode so much anyway, so no big deal


o wait, I've always been sarcastic --DUH!!!!!!!!!!!!! POST MORE NOW!!!!! RIGHT NOW BEFORE I COME ALL THE WAY OVER THERE AND........ Well, u'll find out if I don't get more fic soon!

Well, in THAT case......... Actually, hmm, you coming over here doesn't sound that bad! J/K! Btw, I forgot to mention this in my first post, but this fic is dedicated to Lisa. This is her favorite ep!
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Deep down, she knew that she loved him, but she was a cop who always went by the rules. She just didn't know what to do.

Finally Bryan appeared, and CD guessed that her decision had been made for her. She got up from her desk, and picked up her coat. CD walked over to Nate, smiled, and kissed the top of his head. Nate looked up at her, and tried to muster a whimper of a smile. He loved the feeling of her lips on him, but was sad about her taking a vacation with her boyfriend. He had had a faint hope that after the bombing, she wouldn't go, but he guessed that she probably didn't feel the same way about him that he felt about her. He knew that she really didn't care that much for Bryan, and that Bryan wouldn't care for her nearly as well as Nate would. He watched CD and Bryan walk out of the division together, and he felt a deep sadness and lonliness well up inside of him. He didn't feel like working anymore, and didn't want to go back to his empty apartment. Nate put his jacket on and headed to the Anchorside. He sat down at a barstool and ordered a stiff drink. He knocked it down in one swallow, hoping to dull the pain. Then he ordered a beer and started to sip it. Ordinarily, he didn't drink to cope with his problems, but tonight was different.

A guy was sitting next to him who had obviously had one too many. In a slurred voice, the guy asked Nate, "What's her name?"

Nate looked at him. "Um, what?"

"The lady. What's her name? Is it Jennifer? Usually it's Jennifer."

Nate smiled and shook his head. "No, sorry."

"Is it Heather? Sometimes it's Heather."

Nate stared at his drink, and then slowly looked back at the guy. In a bittersweet way, he said, "It's Candace. But, we uh, call her CD." Nate then stared off into the distance.

A short while later, the other guy left the bar and Nate ordered another beer. He was trying to keep from thinking about what CD was doing at that moment, but he seemed to inflict it on himself as a sort of therapy. He was staring at a picture from his wallet. It was of him and CD smiling, and their arms across each other's shoulders. A tear escaped his eye, and slid down his cheek. It then dropped onto the picture. 'It's never gonna happen, man. Just forget about it,' he thought. What he didn't see was CD peering in through the window.

'I knew it,' she thought. 'He wanted me to stay just as much as I did.' She walked in the door, and kept her eyes glued to Nate. She was nervous, but knew what she had to do. CD sauntered over to him with a sad smile on her face. She sat down on the barstool next to him, rested her arms on the counter, and looked at him.

Nate still stared at his beer. 'It smells like her, and feels like her, but it couldn't be her. Wishful thinking. Put it out of your head,' he thought.

CD finally spoke. "Hi."

'What, some girl is hitting on me, even thought I look like I obviously look like I don't want company? Maybe it's a hooker. An arrest could really liven up this night,' Nate thought. He turned and looked at the woman next to him, and his eyes flew open wide. "CD! What are you doing here?!"

CD's eyes seemed to reach into his, looking at him seriously. "I decided not to go. Not after today. I couldn't go. I couldn't do it. " She spoke softly, slowly, and meaningfully.

Nate gazed back at her, being quite surprised. "Why?"

"You're the one I want." CD placed her hand behind his neck, and brought her lips to his. She kissed him with a passion she had never known. Nate eagerly returned the kiss. The kisses continued on, and they felt a year of pent-up tension and love being released. Nate felt her tongue make its way into his mouth, which he gladly accepted. He wrapped his arms around her, and brought one hand up into her hair. CD's other hand gripped his back, and then began to rub it. After a minute, they pulled apart to breathe. Panting, and with their lips bright pink, they studied each other's faces for signs of approval. "I'm the one you want?" Nate asked, still shocked.

"Yes," CD replied.

"I want you, too."

"Good." They kissed again. Nate paid his tab, and they stood up to leave. Nate took her hand in his, and they left for the car.
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Ooooh, I just LOVE that scene! Want more?

[planet_stella]

Awwwwwwwwwwwwww i loved this post!!!!! Yayyyy!!!!! CD and Nate together!!!! You have to post more NOW Tara! PLEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAASE!!!!

[candace~n~nathan]

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!! Tara, that was so incredibly amazing!!!!!!!!! I loved it so much; I think I have a little tear in my eye!!!!!!!!

MORE PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and soon!!!!

[Jo_Luvs_Ketchup]

I LOVED IT!! Post more please?

[maria1986]

Originally posted by Snowfall
Ooooh, I just LOVE that scene! Want more?

I WANT MORE!!!!!

[*Nancy Mckeon*]

mmmmmmmmmmooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!

[Snowfall]

Originally posted by candace~n~nathan
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!! Tara, that was so incredibly amazing!!!!!!!!! I loved it so much; I think I have a little tear in my eye!!!!!!!!

Awwww, thanks so much! Since you all asked for it, here's more!
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Nate took her hand in his, and they left for the car. Since he'd had a few drinks, CD drove. She pulled in at a secluded spot along the Bay, and parked. Nate put an oldies radio station on, which was playing "At Last." CD and Nate looked at each other longingly again, and leaned in to kiss.

At last my love has come along
My lonely days are over
And life is like a song

At last the skies above are blue
Well, my heart was wrapped up in clover
The night I looked at you

I found a dream that I could speak to
A dream that I could call my own
I found a thrill to press my cheek to
A thrill that I had never known

Well, you smile, you smile
Oh and the spell was cast
And here we are in heaven
For you are mine at last
At last.

They spent a while necking in the car. Nate could hardly believe that this was happening. Here he was, making out with his beloved CD. It was now well past midnight, and they had been together for almost 16 hours now. They had almost died together, CD had left for a trip with another man, and now they were exploring each other's tonsils like there was no tomorrow. It's amazing how the edge of death brings things into perspective. CD could hardly believe what she was doing, either. Was she, CD DeLorenzo, actually professing her love for her partner? She was amazed at herself, and knew that it must be the real thing to make her do it.

Eventually, they broke apart, and CD rested her head on Nate's shoulder. Her arm lay draped across his chest, and Nate held her protectively in his arms. "CD, I love you," he softly murmured into her hair.

She smiled and cooed, "I love you, too, Nate." They remained silent for a while, and CD said, "When you got on that pressure pad today, I was scared to death of losing you. I couldn't imagine my life without you. And then, I felt this wonderful bond with you when we made it out alive...I knew that no one but you would have done that for me. You were ready to die in my place. And I thought, 'how many people find someone, ever, in their whole lives, that would do that? If you're lucky enough to find that person, who loves you that much, shouldn't you accept it and do something about it?'"

Nate felt this surge of joy overcome him at her words. "I felt the same way. All I could think of was how to save your life. And then when you ended up saving mine, and we got out together just in time, I'd never felt closer to anyone on the planet, than I was to you. Than I am to you. I have loved you since the day I met you, Candace."

CD paused, soaking in the realization. She could hardly believe it, but she knew that Nate was sincere. She knew him inside and out, and trusted him more than she ever thought she could trust someone. She could see in his eyes that he spoke the truth. "I know," she said. "And I have, too."

Nate gazed back into her sapphire blue eyes, that sparkled with love. He cupped her face and gave her another kiss. Then he looked back at her, still holding her tight. "CD, I......CD........" he stammered.

"Nate, what is it?" she asked, slightly worried.

"CD...Candace...you want to get married?"
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Yup, I think I'll just leave you guys there for a lil while....

[candace~n~nathan]

you ****** ******* *******!!!!!!!!!!!!!!










If that post wasn't sooooooooo incredibly beautiful, lovely, amazing, and soooooooooooooooooooooooo romantic, I prolly would be mad at you.............


BUT!!

Since this is my FAVORITE EPISODE, what more can i say cept MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE?!!! AND-- i LOOOOOOOVE!!!

[maria1986]

awwwww that was sooo sweet!!! But I hate the way you just left us hangin' like that! Get back here and post more! NOW!!!

[planet_stella]

And you STOP???? In the place like that?!?! Get your ******* ass back here and post more!!!!


P.S. That was incredibly sweet!