fic: Don't Go Wasting Your Emotion

[CD DeLorenzo]

I guess there isn't a JAG fic board here, so I'll just post it here. Enjoy, and feedback please. This is the first part.

Don't Go Wasting Your Emotion

Disclaimers: DPB and DJL suck.... each other and in general...

Note: I haven't done this in a while so forgive me if I accidentally call em CD and Nate or something...set somewhere during season one, or later if Meg was still there... something like that. Dunno yet for sure, heard a song, got an idea... the usual... actually... after Smoked

"Lay All Your Love On Me" is by ABBA and used for entertainment only, like any of the characters, unless they're mine. In that case they're used for torture and pain... no wait, that's my slaves....

DON'T GO WASTING YOUR EMOTIONS
by cat, the one and only feline CD

"So, I heard you had a visitor over the weekend?" The young blonde Lieutenant looked up from the sub she was having for lunch and addressed her handsome partner.

"Huh?" Rather puzzled he looked up to gaze into her deep blue eyes. It was a nice day outside and their first day back at work after their latest assignment, in Cuba.

Taking a sip of her Dr. Pepper she tried not to chuckle while swallowing the drink. Since it was so sunny and warm they had decided to grab something for lunch and eat it in the park, so now they were sitting here with their subs and enjoying the sun and each others company. "Come on Harm! I already know there was a woman under your shower, so just admit it... who's the new chick? And approximately how long do you think she will be in your life until you get your belt ready for the next notch?"

Shaking his head Harmon Rabb had to laugh, this woman astonished him all over again. And what was puzzling him the most was the fact that he never knew what exactly to think about her. Sometimes she was so sweet, innocent and shy and hardly dared to say as much as 'hello' when a superior officer was around, but at other times she was sassy, spunky and had the biggest mouth he'd ever seen, speaking her mind no matter who was around to hear it. Right now the latter was her state of mind apparently. "Lieutenant..." He spoke up, hoping to throw her off the track with the formal approach, but she just raised her eyebrow slightly and smirked, completely unimpressed by his use of her rank. "...Meg," he continued since addressing her formally hadn't showed any kind of sign from her that she would let him off the hook again. "First of all, I don't collect notches on my belt, or marks in my bedpost or whatever else."

Of course she didn't quite buy that and just gave him a 'yeah, right' look before she took another bite.

"So who told you anyway?" Trying to change the topic he started to eat himself.

"Believe it or not, the dragon lady." She chuckled after using the nickname they had given the aide to their CO. "After we came back in from Cuba, she brought me home, and left again... half an hour later she showed up again and told me all about how you had a naked woman under your shower. Needless to say that she was piss... getting on my nerves..."

Harm had to laugh at the change of the expression she used. In moments like this it became even clearer to him that two worlds were colliding inside of his partner: The Texan bigmouth tomboy and the classy sophisticated lady Lieutenant, but that was exactly what made her so remarkable. "So she pissed you off?" He smirked.

"Big time, that ho." Rolling her eyes she nodded. "So I asked her why she was getting so worked up over that, because surely it couldn't be because she was sexually interested in you herself... of course she said no way but was gone within the next five seconds, suddenly remembering something-"

Now it was his turn to laugh. "Suddenly remembering that you could get her into trouble I bet."

"Most likely." She chuckled herself. "So tell me about the woman under your shower."

Sighing he realized that even though he had managed to get off that topic for a while, she hadn't forgotten about it. "She's an old friend..." He tried to shrug it off, not wanting her to know that he had been with another woman, though he didn't even know why that bothered him.

"Oh yeah of course" Laughing she nodded. "Shoulda known... I mean that happens to me all the time, like last week for example, I was making dinner and suddenly the door rings, I open and there's this dude I went to highschool with, we hadn't seen each other since we graduated and he goes 'Hey yo, Meg, you mind if I use your shower?' So of course I let him in and he took a shower...."

Slightly slugging her Harm laughed himself. "Shut up you! Okay, here's the story, she used to be Keeter's babe on this cruise way back then... and well I had run into her a few years later.... and we still see each other every now and then..." He explained.

"Ahhh." Nodding she grinned. "Gotcha. You two call each other up when the mood strikes and no one else is around."

Sighing he rolled his eyes. "And they say romace is dead..." He muttered.

"You must talk, I ain't the one screwing around a chick who used to be my best bud's one night stand... and scaring off my horny senior officer with that cause she has the hots for me so bad that she's on the verge of stalking me..." She continued to laugh.

"Yeah yeah, very funny." Again he rolled his eyes. "I bet you wouldn't laugh anymore if the dragon lady actually started to stalk you instead of me."

"That'll be the day." Instead of silencing her his comment cracked her up even more. But his annoyed look did shut her up in the end. "Oh come on, you gotta admit it is kinda funny"

"I'm not in the mood for funny." He muttered. "I can't believe Krennick is telling around that she saw her under my shower."

"Don't worry, she isn't telling it around. She knows exactly everybody else would ask why exactly she saw whatever was going on under your shower in the first place, and she wouldn't wanna answer that. She only told me because she thinks I'm too dense to notice an elephant stepping on my toes. But since I already know why she was there, I just keep her thinking I'm a blond bimbo, and she thinks she doesn't have to fear me, and that's good." Meg grinned mischeviously.

Yet again surprised Harm looked at her. "That is... damn wicked. So what exactly are you making ME believe what you are, while you're something else?"

"Hmmm...." Winking she smirked at him. "I'll make you think I'm meek while I'm a vixen?"

At that Harm had to laugh. "I think neither meek nor vixen describes you. You're neither a damsel in distress nor a bitch."

She just smirked at him. "There are a lot of shades of myself that you haven't seen yet."

"I'm beginning to hope that I'll never see some of those..." He joked. "While I can't wait to see some others."

"Naughty, sir, naughty." She grinned back at him and got up. "We better head back to work."

"Yeah, we better." Sighing he got up himself and followed her back to their office.

[henpecked_friend]

fine. you made me sign up. just to get that second part. took me several minutes. happy now? see how commited i am?
I. want. that. part.

the rest you already know now can we get back to chatting?

[CD DeLorenzo]

Originally posted by henpecked_friend
fine. you made me sign up. just to get that second part. took me several minutes. happy now? see how commited i am?
I. want. that. part.

the rest you already know now can we get back to chatting?

LOL okay babe, here ya go

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When they walked into the office, somebody was awaiting them already. Smiling broadly the blonde woman was sitting in Harm's chair, her feet propped up on his desk. With a small smirk he acknowledged the woman who was claiming his turf. Even though he hated her constant attempts to somehow get into intimate contact with him, he had to admit that it also amused him and he was curious to find out what she had in mind at the moment. "Ma'am."

"Commander, what a pleasure to finally see you." Interpreting way too much into his smirk she leaned back self confident and just gave a slight nod towards his partner, who nodded back at her and sat down at her own desk, fully aware that Commander Krennick would rather be alone with Harm right now, but not giving that to her. On the one hand because she knew Harm didn't want that and that she was his buffer zone, but on the other hand she didn't want them to be alone either, fearing that one day Harm would give in to her temptations.

"We just got back from lunch, Ma'am." Answering truthfully Harm stood at ease and observed their commanding officer in his chair. "Do you need anything?"

Smirking she finally clared the chair again and walked up to him, stepping into his personal space. "The same I always need Commander." With a smirk playing on her lips she tried to look as seductive as she could, knowing that he would understand that once more she was offering herself to him, but unaware that the Lieutenant junior grade rolled her eyes behind her back at the very moment, fully aware of what she wanted as well. "Paperwork." Krennick started hammering her fingers on a stack of files on Harm's desk. "Those were due this morning and you haven't even started yet!" Of course she had an official reason to be there as well. "I expect those to be done by tonight, and I want you to personally deliver them to me! Is that clear Commander?"

"Aye Ma'am." Harm looked at her like a helpless puppy in the lion's den because he already dreaded what was ahead of him now, the paperwork, but even more so, having to deliver it to her alone, knowing she'd get even more obvious with her true intentions then. He had already considered to report her for sexual harassmet but knew that she was way too clever to get into trouble for that. He didn't have any clear evidences against her. Besides she was a good lawyer and he didn't want to ruin her career because she wasn't able to control her hormones. And admittingly it flattered him how hard she was trying to get into his pants.

"I'll be waiting." With another smirk and another nod she walked out of the office again.

"God, why doesn't she just get 'Fukk Me' tattooed on her forehead?" Rolling her eyes again Meg looked at Harm.

Shrugging he sighed and sat down in the previously occupied chair. "And here I was hoping she'd leave me alone now... I mean she saw that I'm seeing somebody, why doesn't she just give up?"

Getting up again Meg walked over to him and leaned against his desk. "Harm, she saw a woman under your shower. That doesn't classify as 'seeing someone' yet. That means you had a one-night stand or something, and now she knows you're not gay, so seeing that she's a woman she has a chance with you. She won't give up until you're married to somebody... on second thought, I doubt she'd give up even then."

Stunned he looked at his partner. "Okay first of all, she doesn't have a chance with me!" It was important to him that Meg knew that.

"In her eyes she does... besides you never know what might happen." Shrugging she pretended that she couldn't care less, while on the inside she started to feel a twinge of jealousy. She hadn't ever been jealous before she met him, but now every woman that came too close to her partner was a potential threat. What made it even worse was that she knew she didn't have the slightest chance with him either. She didn't posess him and he didn't even remotely return the feelings she had for him, hidden so deep inside. And that was something else she hadn't known before, that she could have such intense feelings for somebody, all the affairs she had had so far were fun and play for her, never had there been emotions involved. But then one day she met him and everything was new, she was flooded with all those feelings that she wasn't able to control.

"Nothing's ever gonna happen!" He growled, slightly angry that Meg could even think that was possible. There was only one woman he wanted, but ironically that was the only woman who was resistant to his charme and didn't want him. But even if she would, they couldn't have each other, so he tried to ban her and his desire off his mind, but failed miserably. "Besides, how the hell do you know all that stuff anyway? I mean that I'm not actually dating Maria, and that Krennick isn't going to give up and all that?"

Chuckling she looked down at him. "You're not seriously asking me that, are you?"

"I just did, didn't I?" Muttering he looked back at her, getting annoyed, not at her but at his own damn situation. The woman he wanted seemed to read him, and anybody around her for that matter, like an open book, the woman he didn't want kept on chasing him no matter what, and the woman he'd had to compensate his frustration was gone for now, so he'd have to live with the frustration that was rapidly building up again. "What is it, huh? You have a psychology degree or something, Miss Multitalent?"

Laughing she shook her head, amused by what he said and impressed because apparently he still remembered the first words spoken between them when they first met. "Something like that..." With a smirk she winked at him. "Call it female intuition or something, but it's just obvious. What happened under your shower was on your turf. But now you're here and at work again, and this is her territory. No other woman would dare to threaten her intentions like that here. She uses that to her advantage because she knows that none of the women here can get in her way because of the frat rules, and on the other side... the woman under your shower..." With a raised eyebrow Meg looked at him, not wanting him to know she remembered the name.

"Maria Elena Carmelita Moreno Gutierrez. That's her name...." Curiously he waited for Meg to finish.

"Right." Meg nodded, now having created the illusion that she couldn't care less. "Well she's on the outside and won't show up here."

Harm nodded, thinking about what Meg had said. "You know what? That even makes sense..."

"Well of course it makes sense. I told ya, there's more to me than appears to be." She smirked.

"I never doubted that partner." He smirked back at her.

[Irish_Rose_Kate]

I don't even watch the show, but I love your wrighitng!! That was awsome...Please post moreeeeeeee soooooonnnnnnnnnnn!

[henpecked_friend]

absolute power corrputs. you are corrupted. and mean.
unfortunately I'm addicted and need my fix.

[CD DeLorenzo]

ya know... I should raise my price

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After a short moment he spoke up again. "Say, your female psychological instincts don't happen to have an idea as to how I could get the dragonlady off my turf here again?"

"Sure do." Meg grinned. "Nothing easier than that... just get your girlfriend on your turf here..."

"Well good plan, little problem... apart from the fact that she isn't exactly my girlfriend... she's more like a good aquaintance..." He cleared his throat, not sure how to word it.

"She's your fukkbuddy." Bluntly Meg helped him out, glad that they weren't having a serious relationship.

A little shocked about how to the point that was Harm looked at her while she sweetly smiled at him. "However... she's out of town anyways, she's a flight attendant and left for Tokyo yesterday evening. So she can't just show up here, and I don't even know when I'll see her again."

That brought another playful smirk to Meg's lips. "So? What's the problem?"

"Uhh, did you hear what I just said? I don't even know where she is right now, so she can't possibly show up here..." Bedazzled he looked at the mischeviously grinning blonde.

"Well SHE doesn't know that, does she?" Nodding her head towards the door it was clear who Meg meant.

"Uhm, I don't think so, no... what are you up to?" He watched how Meg grabbed a piece of paper and a pen.

"She's missing you desperately right now and that's why she's going to send you a little something to remind you of her." Smirking she started to write the note: 'Dear Harm, I just can't stop thinking about last weekend, all the things you did to me... I can still feel my whole body tingle. Right now, I'm bored and lonely and I wish you were here by my side, doing the things I have to do myself right now. I'll include another hint, miss you, Maria'

"What the hell?" Reading it he started to wonder even more, when Meg now adressed a big envelope to him at the JAG HQ. "Okay, so how is sending a note to myself gonna help here?"

"Trust me Harm, I know what I'm doing." Grinning Meg put the note in the envelope. "I'm going to smuggle this out of the building, get an express delivery service and make sure they'll drop it off here while Krennick is watching. She's gonna get curious and see the little present from your special friend, and then we'll see what happens after that."

"Worth a shot." He nodded. "And what present?"

Smirking Meg reached under the skirt of her dress whites and slipped her white thong off and while Harm's eyes were glued to her, half in shock, half in arousal, she put it into the envelope and slowly licked over the flap and shut it, still grinning broadly, knowing that he hadn't expected that. "So, I'll go get us some coffee from that Starbucks around the corner then." Waving at him with the envelope she left while all he could do was nod and stare after her, still trying to get his brain to think clearly again, ignoring the fact that she wasn't wearing panties anymore right now.

Swallowing he realized that it was harder than he thought and quickly rushed into the men's room, hoping to solve his dilemma by splashing a lot of cold water into his face.

[henpecked_friend]

you cheated! this part was way shorter.

and please god no! have mercy! I'm a poor student. you're already robbing me blind

[CD DeLorenzo]

this is longer again, I think.... and shake off any prude thoughts please

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When he walked out of the bathroom again he saw Meg emerging from the elevator and smiled because she was grinning broadly. Leaning against the wall he crossed his arms and waited til she had reached him.

"Sir." Smirking she handed him the tray with coffees that she had been carrying.

"Lieutenant..." He smirked back at her as she took one of the papercups. "One for you, three for me?" Laughing he looked at the cups that were left.

"One with cream, three black as the night." She winked and approached the Admiral's office and knocked on the door, knowing he and Krennick had a meeting there.

"Enter!" His slightly annoyed voice rang through the door and Meg walked inside.

"Sir..." First she handed him the coffee and then stood at attention in front of him. "The coffeemachine here seems to be broken or something... the coffee was awful, so Commander Rabb sent me to get some good stuff, and while I was there..." She motioned at his cup.

Slightly surprised AJ looked at her and took a sip of the steaming liquid, deciding it was exactly like he loved it. "Thank you Lieutenant." Smiling he nodded at her, still wondering though. Something seemed to be fishy here, he just had a feeling that something was going on, and he hated not to know what was happening around him. But his thoughts were interrupted when Krennick spoke up.

"What about me?" Right away she glared at Meg.

"Oh I'm sorry Ma'am..." Apologizingly Meg smiled at her and AJ started to think that the coffee run had just been another stunt from Meg and Harm to show Krennick that they didn't give a frog's fart about her, even though she was their senior officer as well. He knew that even though they respected him, they couldn't care less about the Commander. But he didn't blame them, since even though she was higher in rank, they had the wits to outsmart her anytime, and continiously made a point in proving that. "... I didn't know you were in here..." Meg continued, still with that smile on her face, "... Commander Rabb has yours."

"Well, I'll go and get it then before it's cold." Grinning she walked out of the Admiral's office, thinking Meg had just done her a huge favor.

That was something AJ couldn't believe though. Shaking his head he looked at Meg. "I'll see to it that our own coffee machine will get replaced... and if Commander Krennick somehow coaxed you into this to get out of this meeting, she won't succeed."

Laughing Meg shook her head. "With all due respect sir, the Commander couldn't coax me into telling you the world is round. I just went on a coffee run, no more, no less."

Somehow he still thought there was more to it but he decided to let it slip for now and chuckled, knowing Krennick couldn't be behind this. She really wouldn't get Meg to do anything for her. "Thank you Lieutenant, that'd be all then." He dismissed her and watched how she walked out again, still grinning broadly.

Back in the hallway Meg saw a young civilian man approach Commander Krennik. "Excuse me, could you tell me where I can find..." He looked down at the envelope in his hand. "Commander Rabb?"

"Just give it to me, I'm on my way to talk to him anyways." She smirked and signed his pad.

He handed her the envelope and left again while Meg stayed behind her, curiously watching her inspect it.

For a moment she considered if she should open it, dying to know what was in it, especially when she recognized the sender's name was the woman she had seen under his shower.

"Ma'am." Meg greeted her and then walked into her and Harm's office again, sure that she would follow.

Of course she was right and while she still winked at Harm after entering, the dragonlady appeared in the doorframe already. "Something just got dropped off for you." She said and looked at Harm.

Meg sat down at her desk and then looked up again surprised when the Admiral entered the office as well. He just couldn't shake his feeling that something was going on, so he decided to check on them. "Commander Rabb, the Lieutenant is your partner, not your butler! Stop sending her to get coffee and stuff like that."

"Yes sir, of course." He nodded but something else had caught the Admiral's attention already.

"What's this?" Looking at Krennick now AJ pointed at the envelope.

"For Commander Rabb, it just got delivered here. From his... girlfriend." Shooting him a dirty look she handed him the envelope.

With a broad grin Harm opened it and first removed the note and smirked. "Aww she misses me and wishes she would be here with me." Knowing that she was dying to read it he handed the note to Krennick and watched her read it, seeing her anger rise by the expression on her face, while the Admiral slightly smirked, peeking over her shoulder to read it as well. "Yeah, my girl is red hot." Saying that he looked over at Meg, smirking broadly.

"If you say so sir..." She smirked back at him.

"You have no idea..." With everybody looking at him curiously he now pulled the panties out of the envelope and his smirk broadened even more just because he knew those actually were Meg's.

While Commander Krennick looked like she was about to explode the Admiral had to laugh a little because Harm seemed to completely live up to his jet-jock, hot-shot reputation.

But Harm was enjoying this way too much and he knew that now he could do something he'd never get another chance to do so he put the thong over his face and deeply inhaled the scent of it. "God I miss her too..." He muttered into the soft fabric.

At that point Meg stopped grinning too and her jaw dropped as she looked at him shocked, because she knew that infact those were her very own and that Harm was fully aware of that too. What she didn't know though was that just that was the reason why Harm did it in the first place and why he was enjoying it so much.

"I just wanted my coffee!" Furiously Krennick grabbed one of the cups, took a sip and then smashed it into the trashbin because it was without cream and then stormed out.

Her reaction amused the Admiral because he knew how hard she tried to seduce him but never succeeded. Meg's reaction on the other hand surprised him somewhat. It was obvious that she and Harm were attracted to each other, but he knew that they would never act on it because they were partners and the best of friends, who wouldn't want to risk that friendship, nor their jobs, by disobeying the fraternization rules. It just surprised him that she was showing her shock so openly, he had always thought she was able to completely control herself no matter what, especially with all the flirty banter between her and Harm. he would really hate to see their friendship turn into partnership ruled by hate and jealosy. So he decided to end Harm's little show. "Commander Rabb, get your hormones under control again!" He glared at him and stormed out of the office again.

At that Harm laughed and took the panties off his face again and grinned at Meg. "You were right! It worked!" Smirking he walked over to her and holding the thong with just his forefinger let it dangle in front of her face. "You want this back?"

"You know what Harm?" Having regained her composure again she looked up at him. "Just keep em and get lucky..."

Now he was the one to show his surprise a little but still grinned broadly because of his new trophy. "Oh I will." Winking at her he put the thong into his pocket and went back to work, pretending nothing unusual had happened.

[henpecked_friend]

well you didn't mention the other night that this was a smut fic...

[candace~n~nathan]

well u already know what i think of this fic....................


but i want to read the next part ASAP!!!!!!!!!!! so write more, post more, give me more NOW!!!!!!!!!!!

[Snowfall]

Wow, Cat, I finally got around to reading this and it's great, of course! Even though I'm not a big JAG fan, I love your writing, and anything Tracey. Post more soon!

[Inspector Bariteau]

WOW this rocks CAT! You are SUCH a better writter then the people on Jag. Why don't they right like this???? I could totally see all this happening. EASILY! And the way you word things is amazing! It rocks, keep it coming!