Alright ladies and gentlemen here we go with the frist part of my fan fic, It's gonna be pretty short though. i'm pretty muchout of it right now. It's starting out as frist POV( Kate)

I watched as Jinny paced around the living room of the home they were now shareing and wondered what was going on inside of her head. She had a pretty good Idea of what it was but, she knew she couldn't be sure Afterall, these was Jinny and with Jinny you never know whats going on in head from one minute to the next. I also knew that Jinny wasn't sleeping and as much as that worries me her reaction to CD's prisioner really out me on egde.
It had been just before lunch when CD walked in with a suspect cuffed. Jinny heard his voice and fliped out. As usal there were no tears but, her anger was seething out . It was what she did next that left us all stuned . Well all of us except Magda who just shock her head. I couldn't belive it I have never known this woman to react this way to anything and belive me i have been there for too many of her crisis.

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As much as my heart was breaking I knew I had to stay there and be all business afterall I am kate Mcafferty hard ass police captian to most people but, my people know diffent . Each one of these people hold a special place in my heart Jinny just happens to the one who holds the largest and most special of places.
Charles just happened to be in my office when all Hell broke loose. He stood in my office with one of his what the hell kind of zoo do you think your running on his face, his mouth agape and began one of his usal " What The Hell is going on around here" rants. I , just stood there my mind spinning out of control but, I was trying to stay calm becose I knew I had try to cover up all the things running rampant in my head . I knew I had to cover the best I could and then I saw Madga get up and break into a run almost knocking CD over as she made her way to the door. The next thing I know I get a brids eye view of the man I have come to hate with a passion. I have an idea where Magda and Jinny have gone so as soon as my assnanie male chovisnist pig of a boss leaves I head down there too. I just knew they were in the bathroom afterall where else would they met. BY the time I got down there I was shocked in a way by what I found Magda was on her knees in front of Jinny talking to her about what I couldn't tell but, I knew it was serouis. Mag's head was bent and was in close to Jinny's and jinny was crying her head in her hands. I wanted to be there so I sat down beside Jinny on the bench and put my arm around her wanting to cry myself becouse I knew she had to be going through Hell for to be crying like this. It was at that moment that my heart shattered becouse Jinny turned away from me. The woman I was in about to propose to turned away from me. She would not even let me touch her. As much as I wanted to set there with her at that moment I couldn't and I knew it. I wouldn't let her see how much that had hurt me.
All I wanted to do was go into my office and close the blinds . I wanted to be alone becouse I was sure I had done something to Jinny. It tore me up inside that she didnt want me there but, to tell the truth I thought she was about to break it off with me. I didn't want anybody to know anything was wrong after all not to many people knew about us and i knew I neeed to keep it that way. I could hear the mumurs of peoples convestions as I walked down the hall but, it was as I neared the door to the volient crime division, My divsion that I heared some one call out my name that I realize that i really am out of it. It was CD and she wanted to know what was wrong with me. I couldn't tell her . I was at this piont finding it hard to breath and I was trying to blink back the tears that had began to from in my eyes. I had conviced myself that it was over and that in someway it was my fault. I kept my head low as I walked through the divsion tryiing to make it my office before anyone could notice how i look. Too late the keen eyes of Nate Bassco saw me and lunched in to his questions of what was wrong. By this time I was still fighting with the tears as they were threating to spill over and they were consturing my thoart . I was barely able to tell him I was ok before I shut the door and pulled the blinds. As hard as nails as i usally am I could keep the tears from falling and I collosped in my chair with my head in my hands, the tears free flowing. I must have changed my postion and put my head on the desk at some piont becouse sometime later I heard a soft knock on my door . It was Magda telling her Jinny had gone home for the day.
Magda stood there before me looking about as emotionly spent as I knew I was but, i could see in her eyes that there was more going on with Jinny than a little bit but, I knew she wouldn't tell me what was going on but, I knew I had to try. I knew that Magda had to know something and I was completly teffied of what I was going to find when I got home. Was JInny gonna be there or not. I guess Magda could see the worry in my eyes but, she finally told of her suspions of what had happened the night Jinny had been found in the alley. I sat there dumbfouned but, I could see it.

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It was an odd night to say the least and once again my mind was running wild. I really needed to know what was going on in her mind. I didn't know what to do but, I wanted to do something . I watched her and tried to fiqure it out but as much as I tried the more questions came to mind. I looked into her eyes and I knew we needed to talk but, I just couldn't do it. I guess in some small way I didn't want to know becouse I knew if what Magda told me was true i wouldn't be able to handle it very well.
I know I'll always remember that day becouse it's they day Jinny blew me out of the water with her confession. It was on that sent me rrreeling even after what I had already heard from Magda. This was gonna be hard on us both if it was even true and I still didn't knew if Jinny was going to leave.

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It took a while but, i finally did get her to stop paceing and I looked at her as she sat down in one of the dining room chairs and hung her head. She was crying once again although it was a quite crying and had I not seen her face I wouldn't have even known. It is then that I notice something . a suite case by the door . It was then that I lost it for a second time in one day I just knew it was over. Jinny was leaveing me. How in the world was I gonna go on?
I couldn't hide the tears any longer and fell apart right there on the couch. I didn't even see Jinny when she left. That night was sheer hell . I don't know when or how I managed to do it but, I at some point got off the couch and found my jounrnal . It was well after 4 am whenI finally finshed reading the entrys from the five months we'd been togather at that time.
When the sleep finally overtook me I dreamed of nothing but, the woman I loved more than anything else in life except for Amanda and the one person I needed more than I had ever needed anybody in my life. Much the same way I went to sleep I woke up the tears just rolling down my face. The clock was buzzing in my head and i could smell the coffee brewing down stairs. I really didn't want to get up and face the day I guess thats why I threw the clock across the room screaming at myself at Jinny and at everything else. I didn't even want to go to work but, i knew I had to be there, the last thing I needed right then was to have charles up my ass yet again . I didn't know how i was going to handle being there but, I would pull it outta my ass some way just like I had done some many other times . I knew I looked like something out of a horror magazine but, I'd do the best I could to cover it up. I had no choice . As much as I was hurting I was twice that worried about Jinny. I wanted to see her just to make sure she wasn't off on a bender or haveing a drunken one night stand. As much as i prayed that it was nethier of these the things the last one made me cringe at the mere thought of it.

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I stood there in the bathroom getting ready as the fear and the appahession bulit even more . I knew that they were all goning to know something was wrong but, even mopre than that I knew there was more of Charles to deal with and I knew Magda would know something was wrong but, there was CD and there was Nate along with Amanda and Jill who we were suppose to be haveing lunch with. I knew no of them would have a second thought about questioning me about what was wrong with me.
I knew there would be glances and I knew people would be talking behind my back but, I never expected what I found when I got to work that moroing. As soon as I walked in I scanned the office for jinny and didn't see her there. It was like my heart took another plunge and I didn't know what to do. There were obvoious stares from my best inspectors sidelong glances from other's that I caught and Magda just shock her head as I made my way toward her desk. the coments that were being made were not only couseing her to blush with embrassment but, to becomeing flush with anger. I was on the verge of losseing my temper with a young inspector who was new to the department when I felt an assureing hand on my shoulder . Magda had walked the few feet from her desk to my door were I was now standing when she she heard the same comment I did and she knew what my reaction would be. I still can't belive what he said . "I wonder if Mr. X the mystery man did this to her I heard him say CD who turned away in a huff only to turn back around and give him apiece of her mind. It was one that would have made Jinny proud if she had have been there to see it.
Cap I hear Magda rich voice call out from beside of me " call on line 3" "Take a message" I tell her. I then hear her tell me it's from Casey Exstead I hear her tell me trying to sound as professonally as she could. I take it in my office. I don't remember if i told her she could come but, when i looked up Magda was standing there and it was a good thing that she was becouse had she not have been i know it would have been a good thing . I knew something was wrong when I heard Casey's voice. My heart fell even futher than it already had. He addressed me as kate and told me to sit down. I could feel myself began to shake afarid of what Casey was going to tell me .

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I sat there shakeing like a leaf and the tears were beganing to fall again. Casey must have heard the distress in my voice becouse he told me that he would be in my office in 20 minuites. That had to have been the most anozoning twenty minutes I'd every spent in my life includeing all the times I'd had to wait for back up. I was falling apart right there in my office I was glad that madga was there becouse I could have handleed it other wise. It was her who lowered the blinds so i could have the pravite time I needed. It was also her who called the head inspectors of our divsion. CD, Nate, and even Rania who had shown up late and missed all this moronings happenings.
It was just as Magda had called them in that Charles showed up and started in on me. Frist he was calling me to the matt for haveing my shades closed then he started in on the state of my apparance, Then he once again thearted my job. I was getting quite fed up with him when I heard him mumble something about a rumor going around about me. I wasn't about to let that get by me and i questioned him about it. This is when he told me that it was all over the department that I was in the middle of a bad breakup with some unknown man but, that didn't bother me as much as the next words out of this man's mouth. I wanted to beat him to death right there on the spot. He acuttally had the never to tell me that maybe if I was more of what a woman was suppose to be then maybe i could keep a man . If I did'nt go after men's jobs maybe I could ocssionaly get some and it would be a good thing becouse maybe i wouldn't be such a bitch. That marked the beganing of the end of my SFPD career.
It was as I heard a knock at the door that he dropped his rant and was on his way out the door when he saw Casey and started another rant something about have one to many f_ uped exsteads on his police force and the final nail in his coffin of my hate was when he looked over his shoulder and threw out something to the effect of " oh, Kate, Jinny Exstead was shot this moroning he said with an almost smriking grin on his face. That's pretty much all I know except for the fact that it happened in an alley behind some night club or bar. I want an investgation started yesterday he damanded and i'll send IA down later. I wanted this case finshed as soon as possable. Got me he growled.
I was glad my chair was under me as a fell back into it not knowing what to think. I was wondering if she'd be there drinking , Was she Ok , What had happened , Why was she in an alley behind a bar . Most of all was she alright. Charles walked out and I heard a knock on my door and see Magda standing there with Casey both looking like they had found out somebody had kicked thier dog. I had known them both a long time and never once had seen Casey look this way and only once with mag and that was when Ben was sick. I lost it as I motioned for them to come. I really began to cry for all I was worth for I don't know how many times in one day. It was now to the point that whenI lost it this time what little breakfest I had only an hour before come back .
Casey sat on one side of me in the chair beside of me and layed his arm around me. Mag took the chair from behind my desk and pulled it up beside of me putting her arm around me on the other side . It was then that I screamed out just knowing what they were going to tell me Jinny was dead is what I was thinking. Lucky it wasn't but, my bastard of a boss had me thinking that way.

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Casey was sitting there stareing into my eyes when he finally told me Jinny was shot this moroning but it was Kind of serious he told me. She'lll be ok though he told me . SHe's in surgery right now he told me. Kate, he called me after I zoned out theres more. SHe lost a lot of blood but and they are wanting me to get the family to the hosptial. I can't remember leaveing the office but, I know I did becouse the next thing I remember is standing beside Jhon Sr and casey, in the waiting room. All I remeber is that I was paceing when my cell rang ( I had forgotten to turn it off). Amanda was trying to find me and couldn't . I was struggleing to talk hen Casey took the phone and walked outside to talk to Amanda about what was going on. I don't know what they said but, it wasn't oo long after that Amanda and Jill walked into the emergency room where we were sititng. I remeber her looking at me hugging me and asking me how I was doing . Amanda sat down and I saw a doctor come our way
He was asking for Jinny's family I remember Jhon and casey standing up I watched as they both motioned for the rest of us to join them . I couldn't move it was almost as though I was frozen in place. Amanda grabbed my hand and walked like that to the doctor. I heard him as he started to tell us about Jinny and how she was. I heard him launch into what i quessed was his usaul speech. Ms Exstead will be fine she lost a bit of blood abd we had to profrom surgery to remove the bullet that was lodged in her right shoulder but, she gonna be just fine. Two of you can go see her now and the other's can see her in about two hours. I couldn't belive it when Casey looked at me and told me to go ahead. He was letting me go ahead of him. I have to admit Jinny looks alot better than I thought she would have but, I was still scared.
I was worried but, I knew she'd be alright so I went to lunch with ny daughter and back to work I didn't want too but, I needed to talk to my inspecters and I needed to assign the case. I didn't want to think about it but, I knew Ia would be there when I got there After all Ranina had called me and given me the heads up. I was scared to death and I still had to tell them what was going on. I walked back into the office little better than before and called a meeting of all thosse in the office. I remenber telling them to gather around I needed to tell them something. I just went for broke and told them JInny Exstead was shot in the shoulder this moroning. She IS ok . I also remember calling Nate, CD, Magda and Ranina into my office to tell them more about the sistution. It was then that the Ia officer walked in nd knock on Kate's door.

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I looked up in slient demand as Magda opened the door as she backed off and let me finsh what I was telling my officers but, I was sure that she was listen to every word being said. we all knew this and we knew we had to be carefull in regards to what we said .These four knew the struggles we'd faced trying to keep our relationship a serect and they were all behind us now but, it had been a long fight for that to happen. It was sometime later that I let them go and the IA officer come in . This woman knew Jinny and knew that she'd had rough patches in her career but, she also told me that she knew Jinny with help had gotton back on track to being one Hell of a fine officer. Captian, I remember her asking me did I have any Idea what she was doing in that neighborhood at that time of night. I couldn't tell her becouse honestly I couldn't be sure. I told her your going to have to wait untill Jinny woke up and ask her. I have one question for you though I looked at her and asked what else do you know about what happened? The IA looked at me and told me " From what we can gather it looks as though Inspector Exstead was in a gas station when she relized the story was being robbed and she followed the suspect out in to the alley behind the store. The store shares the alley with the barand that explians that." The suspect was later apperhened thanks to the servailliance camreas in the store also we have been able to see the video of what happened in the alley. We can clearly see Inspector EXstead being theartened by both the man she followed into alley and by a second man. One man grabed her from behind but,she managed to use some type of combat based martial art on him and sent him running. The second guy was the one seen on the tape was also the one who shot Inspector EXstead. He caught her off guard. EXstead did even have a chance to do anything more than take the bullet and play dead. She said that we should all be glad that she passed out when she did or she would be dead now. I have to admit one thing this woman did not pull any punchs, she told it stright up I would later find out when I viewed the tape. She also told me that with what they had found that No Charges would be filled aganist JInny . I was glad to hear that! I have one question I can remeber commenting. SHe ask what it was and I ask her the question in total confussion I thought we got all these kind of cases. She answered me in a way that I thought was fitting it was Charles doing he thought that we would screw it up. I didn't have anytime to be angery with Charles right now I had to catch the two crimnals who'd done this to Jinny or have my inspectors do it. I needed to go to the hosptial and be with Jinny and I needed to do so many other things to but, just being near Jinny was all that counted.

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ok , frist things frist we all know I don't own TD or AW or ATWT so everthing I write is pruely for entertainment vaule. Secondly to those of you who have been following this story I am sorry about the lack of post but, I have been haveing some trouble with connections.

So here we go.

I wanted to nothing more than to go see Jinny and that's just where I went . It had been a long day but, I was with the woman who had truely changed my life. I walked into the room and couldn't help but, to start to chuckle at what I saw but, the laugh soon turned into an all out laugh as i saw Jinny reeking havoc on the Doctor who was standing by her bed. I hadn't even stoped to notice who he was . It was none other than Dr.Jamie Frame who was suppose to be one of the best doctors around. I reconzied him from the short time I had worked in Bay City and more so becouse the case I know him from. I know every officer has a case that haunts but Dr. Frame's ex wife case was the one that always haunted me. I guess becouse I was a rookie and we inttaly charged the wrong woman. I froze for a min when I saw his face and knew he reconised me. I spoke only beifly to him as he looked at me and started a converstion . he was telling me that his wife the now famous becouse of her adventures Victoria Love Frame Harisson Mckeon Frame would love to see her. I thought it was strange that we were talking about a woman who had it had only recently been found alive after people had though her dead for four years. Anyway, Jamie told me that they had been talking about me just the night before. It seemed strange becouse it had been through some contact that Jinny was the one to arrest the man who was responble for all this one grant Harrisson.
I was was wondering could this day get any werider I was beganing to feel like I was in a soap opera and i hadn't even got to speak to Jinny yet. I could see in her eyes the warmth that I was so famliar with and I anted so badly to hold her in my arms and i still wanted to know what had coused all the friction between us but, at the moment i was more intressed in just being with her. This was my Jinny and I be damned if anything was going take her away from me.
When Jamie left the room I almost ran to were Jinny was laying on the hosptial bed arm bandaged but, looking far less banged-up than I had seen her on so many occassions. I just stood there as see told me sit next to her on the bed. The next thing I know I was in the tightest embrace I think I have ever felt. Jinny just held on as tight she possably could refuseing to go as I gently talk to her. I rememer her words as clearly as though it were yesterday that all this happened.

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Jinny began to babble incohertly about something and I could see the pain in her eyes. I could make out her telling me she was sorry for everything over the last 24 hours but, at that moment all I cared about was that she was Ok. I had gotten to see that with my own eyes just before the doctor came in and relesed Jinny into my care.
I listened as the nurse gave her the insturtions she needed and told her not to go to work for a couple of days but, I can laugh about that now becouse i knew Jinny wouldn't listen maybe in the not so distance past she might have ( and went and got drunk ) but, now it was a diffent story. I watched from the driver's seat of Jinny's car as the nurse pushed her out in the wheelchair. I got out and helped her into the car as we shut the door I heard two nurses comment on how close we were and comment as to wethier we were togather. As we drove Jinny snuggled into me and dosed off. I can remember it was the best feeling I have ever had. I knew we had made up and I also knew I could face whatever it was she had to tell me but, I also wanted to know if what Magda told was true but, i also knew better than to push Jinny. I just hoped that she would tell me what ever it was.
I wasn't to be let down becouse it would all come out latter that night. Jinny was beging me to forgive her for leaveing the way she had when she fell asleep me trying assure her it would be Ok and that I still loved her. I layed down beside her in our bed and watched as she sleep for a while. At some piont I must have fallen asleep becouse I was awaked by a screaming jinny althought I couldn't quiet make out what she was saying. I gently shook her and talked to her as she woke up . I ask her what the dream had been about and she got up in a huff and went to the bathroom i still haven't been able to fiqure out if she was trying to avoid me , if she was afaird to tell me what the dre am was about or if she was in genranl afarid of me knowing what I had serectly supected all along the same thing that Magda had almost totaly confirmed with her own supections .
I'll never forget what happened next , i got worried about Jinny and went into the bathroom to see if she was ok . i opened the door to find my spitfire beauty of a grilfriend in a postion I never thought I would she was screaming no at the top of her lungs kicking and screaming. Jinny was freaking out she was strikeing at an seeming insivable force and I knew then and there that it was true but, Jinny would later confirm it.
I knew whe was haveing a flashback and I remembered that I had read somewhere that sometimes that you can get a person to tell you in detail what they are flashing back to. I fiquired whynot try it so I did. I knew it would be bad but, I just didn't didn't know how bad it would be. I spoke very softly to her and coaxed her into telling me everything that had happened that night. It was agnoy hearing the things she told me but, it confirmed the rape theroy. SHe told me of the fact that she hadn't even drank that much yet I think she said that she'd had like two of three beers when he came up to her and started to come on two her. Ishe told me that she started to kiss him and that she was enjoing herself but, that he began to get violent and more demanding and he almostpulled me outside and that's when he raped her. Jinny also told me that it was sometime later that she was woke up by a cop and hauled off to jail and from there magda was called. I was crying from the things Jinny had told me and I wanted five minutes alongwith this Joe. I left Jinny alone and went downstairs to do something i had to get away from Jinny before she could feel the anger I was sure that was now radateing in wavesoff of me.
I guess that at some piont jinny must have laied back down becouse she was asleep wheni came back into the room. I sat there beside of her and at some point fell asleep. When i woke up Jinny wasn't there and i had a blanket on me. I then caught a wiff of the best smell in the world Jinny was cooking.
It was sometime later as we both sat down to eat that Jinny spoke to me . I'll never forget what she said to me not knowing that I already knew she'd bben raped that night. She looked me in the eye and told me after i tell you this you maynot want to be with me anymore. I watched as Jinny tryed to emotionlessly get the words out it took her a while but, she got there Kate, I was raped that night almost three years ago in that alley. Do you remember the night that Magda had to come bail me out of Jail. I said yes to her again with tears in my eyes. I remember asking her was this way she'd been acting so strange and searched my mind for the date and come up with my answer. It was one week shy of being three years to the day that it happened. I also remember her telling me she was tried of living with it as a serect and was eady to come clean and that is what she did but, only with CD, Nate, Ranina, Magda and of course with me.
Standing here today I can't belive that is the memroy that comes to mind but, it is I guess it's becouse I am seeing Jinny in pain I know that even though she is smileing at me now in a few minuntes as the next contraction hits she won't be I really can't belive that we are about to become parents togather and i also can't belive we have already shared nine years of adventures togather as Kate and Jinny mcafarety_Exstead , What still has me in shock is that Nate agreed to father our children. I was happy when he and Cd married five years ago and when thier son was born .

I also must say that I can't belive where life can take you. It was six months after the whole Jinny got shot that both Jinny and I both decided to leave SFPD . It was the only way we could be togather. It was soon after that I hard that my old stompimg ground Bay city needed a new police chief and since that was my next step up and i had already passed the exam i went for it and got the job. Jinny decided she wanted to branch out and become a PI along with Josie watts and the Joe Carolino. Sometime later C D deloronzo would join us then came Nate, then Magda came bringing her family and finally Ranina came to baycity just last year . The family was all here in BayCity now. They were all basicly working togather now with no Charles Haysbreth .
Ok about the flashback stuff im not sure it's true like in the story i think i read it somewhere. I needed to know something should I countiue this in another story for Jinny's POV. Should i countiue it in this story (I thought it might get confusing if i did). Or should I just call it finshed.

No,do NOT call it finished!
You defenantly should do a part 2!!
pleez,hurry and get started on it,i can't wait to read it!

In my opinion....I think you should write more from Jinny's Point of View...or something. You have to keep this going..this is soooo goooood.......:D :D :D

Ok after a bout with writer's block im back with Jinny's Pov.

Disclaimer: i don't own TD so please don't sue me.


I'm laying here in this hosptal bed in between contractions looking at Kate and thinking of all the years we have been togather and back to the one time that I really thought that I had lost her . We had been togather for five months at the time and things had been good up untill this time. I will be the frist to admit it hadn't been easy but, we had dealt with all the things that had arisen. It had been one of those days when it seemed like that anything that could go wrong would. It had been just after lunch when CD walked into the division with a prisoner , one that i reconzied just by hearing his voice . It was Joe , the man who had raped me in the alley almost three years before. I had been haveing problems with this whole thing for sometimes but, at the time it had been bothering me at the time . I wasn't sleeping and I was more angery than I had been . I knew kate was supecting that something was wrong but, I didn't know that she was acuttally was on the right track about what was going on.
I was bent over Madga desk talking about a case with her when I heard his voice and felt myself start to shake . I knew that if i didn't get out of there I was going to embrass myself . I left the desk and made my way to the door trying to get out as quickly as I could . I didn't know it at the time but, kate had been watching me all the time. I also didn't know that Magda was going to follow me.
I went to the bathroom and sat down on the bench and lost it right there hop[eing noone would come in but, as much as I hope aganist I was glad to say Mag. The one i wasn't glad to see came in later. I know I hurt kate when I would talk to her and when I turned away from her. I just didn't know what to tell her about what was wrong with me

I wanted to tell Kate all those things but, I just couldn't . Looking back on it now I have to say it was just one of those things that happens . I guess that I was just insurcure with it all and I was ashamed of it too. But, kate has been there for me for so long now I have told her everything that happeved that night.
I must admit we have had our hard times when we didn't think we were going to mke it and this was one pf them. I remeber all that happened like it was just yesterday. It was just after lunch when CD walked in a prisoner cuffed . I heard him giveing her a hard way to go and thought I reconinzed the voice but, wasn't for sure so I listen closer and confired that it was in fact no other than Joe thePiece of------ that had raped me so long ago.

see guys i havent forgotton about the fic . I Just go my computer back after it being down for 5and 1/2 months since Aug 30th