I'm really scared about being homeless and I think that's the direction I'm going in because I can't get a job anywhere. The emails that I send to jobs get ignored and I think the problem is is because my resume is weak because I don't have a good work history. I don't have a lot of job skills and the only jobs I'm good at are cleaning and porter work at a apartment. I was let go from my daytime job today because the building engineer who's a white man was complaining too much and he never seemed satisfied. He really got on my nerves about the glass doors not being cleaned and he felt i wasn't doing enough cleaning the cobwebs on the building. He also complained about the trash not being picked up outside. So he was just a as*hole. I've worked for white men bosses at all my jobs and I didn't like any of them because they complain too much and they're too demanding. So I don't know what I'm gonna do for money and I thank God I still got my part time evening job. If I didn't have that, I would really be in trouble because I got a $2,500 credit card bill and I got a car I gotta take care of and it's 22 years old. I'm probably in the near future gonna have to file for bankruptcy again because I can't pay my credit card bill. I've already filed for bankruptcy before in 2000. I can't pay my parents rent and if they weren't around, I would be homeless and living on the streets.



Sometimes I wish I was dead because when I think about how I've continued to struggle to find a job and I'm 39 years old, it makes me really mad. It makes me mad that I've never had my own apartment because I can't keep a job long enough to live on my own and I've never made enough money to live on my own. I've always had to live with my parents and grandparents. I think it's possible that I may have a learning disability because I'm afraid to learn other jobs besides cleaning and porter work at a apartment. My brain doesn't concentrate very well when I try to learn new jobs and that's why I don't apply for jobs that pay good because I'm not good at learning challenging jobs that require me to use my brain. I would like to know if anybody can offer me some advice as to what I should do regarding getting money. Is it possible that I should try to apply for social security disability? I just recently lost my health insurance because I have to renew it and I don't know why because I haven't had it that long. I need to see a doctor or psychiatrist to find out what's wrong with me as to why I can't keep a job and why I struggle to find a job. If I don't get a job soon, it's only a matter of time that I will end up homeless and without a car.

I'm really scared about being homeless and I think that's the direction I'm going in because I can't get a job anywhere. The emails that I send to jobs get ignored and I think the problem is is because my resume is weak because I don't have a good work history. I don't have a lot of job skills and the only jobs I'm good at are cleaning and porter work at a apartment. I was let go from my daytime job today because the building engineer who's a white man was complaining too much and he never seemed satisfied. He really got on my nerves about the glass doors not being cleaned and he felt i wasn't doing enough cleaning the cobwebs on the building. He also complained about the trash not being picked up outside. So he was just a as*hole. I've worked for white men bosses at all my jobs and I didn't like any of them because they complain too much and they're too demanding. So I don't know what I'm gonna do for money and I thank God I still got my part time evening job. If I didn't have that, I would really be in trouble because I got a $2,500 credit card bill and I got a car I gotta take care of and it's 22 years old. I'm probably in the near future gonna have to file for bankruptcy again because I can't pay my credit card bill. I've already filed for bankruptcy before in 2000. I can't pay my parents rent and if they weren't around, I would be homeless and living on the streets.



Sometimes I wish I was dead because when I think about how I've continued to struggle to find a job and I'm 39 years old, it makes me really mad. It makes me mad that I've never had my own apartment because I can't keep a job long enough to live on my own and I've never made enough money to live on my own. I've always had to live with my parents and grandparents. I think it's possible that I may have a learning disability because I'm afraid to learn other jobs besides cleaning and porter work at a apartment. My brain doesn't concentrate very well when I try to learn new jobs and that's why I don't apply for jobs that pay good because I'm not good at learning challenging jobs that require me to use my brain. I would like to know if anybody can offer me some advice as to what I should do regarding getting money. Is it possible that I should try to apply for social security disability? I just recently lost my health insurance because I have to renew it and I don't know why because I haven't had it that long. I need to see a doctor or psychiatrist to find out what's wrong with me as to why I can't keep a job and why I struggle to find a job. If I don't get a job soon, it's only a matter of time that I will end up homeless and without a car.


Yes! I really do think you should apply for SSD! You seem to be suffering from depression. By saying wishing you were dead sometimes, that isn't good! :( I think you really should seek professional counseling. If you apply for SSD and tell them how you are feeling ,they will refer you to do what you need to do.

It is hard these days. The economy is bad. And if you are only applying to jobs you feel comfortable with and they aren't always available what can you do? Maybe you can get the confidence and the support from counseling to be able to seek out and land another type of job.

You have posted many times about this and you really need to do something. I strongly suggest you apply for SSD!

God bless you! :)

Good luck buddy,I am so sorry..........

Bonniegirl, alright I'm gonna look at applying for social security disability but that's gonna be very hard to get because I have no proof from a doctor that I'm disabled. So I'm gonna have to see a doctor or psychiatrist again to find out what's wrong with me because I can't get a job and I have a hard time keeping a job. So maybe it's possible that I might not be able to work anymore because I have a mental disability which is preventing me from getting a job. Bonniegirl, I told you that I'm not good at other jobs besides cleaning and that's why I don't apply for other jobs. I've tried working different jobs before and I didn't keep any of them. I've worked at several factories, I worked at Walmart and Target, I worked at a dollar store and I worked at a couple of grocery stores. I also worked at a beverage company. I didn't keep any of those jobs long.



So there's a serious problem that I have keeping a job unless it's cleaning work. I worked for a cleaning company in Virginia part time for 10 years and the only reason why I quit was because my boss who's the owner would never let me have any days off. Plus the job was far away from where I lived. Last full time job I was laid off from last year, I was there for almost 9 years. Those jobs are the only ones i've been at a long time. I saw a psychiatrist this past summer and she didn't think anything was wrong with me mentally because she couldn't diagnose me for having a disability. I didn't understand how she couldn't figure out something was wrong with me. I was telling her that my work history isn't good and you would think that she would see something is wrong. So I'm gonna get my health insurance renewed because I called the Medicaid company today to talk to somebody but I couldn't get through to anybody. So I left a message and I'm gonna call again tomorrow because I have to get my health insurance renewed before September 30th or I'm gonna lose my insurance. I'm also gonna apply for food stamps.



I might even move back to Cleveland next spring if I don't find a job here because I don't think I'm gonna find a job here. There's too many Hispanic men in Virginia and Maryland and they're getting the cleaning and porter jobs I want. There's not a lot of Hispanic men in Cleveland. So I think i'll have a better chance of getting a job there. Bonniegirl, I don't think there's anything wrong with people talking about suicide because nobody likes being poor and unemployed because you can't live without money. That's why I hate the government because they're not doing enough to help unemployed and homeless people get jobs and housing. Unemployment and homelessness are 2 serious issues in America that the government and politicans don't seem to care about because these issues continue to exist. There's no way that people should be without jobs and sleeping at homeless shelters and sleeping in the streets. That's no way to live.

Well, I hope you get on your feet soon. I know it sucks when your unemployed. You barely have enough money to buy food. Your right. Its no way to live.

I make enough money to buy food but it's not enough because I only spend $60 every week. Before I used to spend $100 every 2 weeks for food when I had a full time job. I just applied for food stamps from Maryland's social services office and I'm gonna mail them my application tomorrow. I hope I get approved. It really pisses me off that social services won't gimme a welfare check unless I'm disabled or I have kids. It seems to me like they aren't taking my money situation seriously because if I didn't need money, I wouldn't be coming to them for help. It really disturbs me that there's so many blacks unemployed because when I went to the social services office for the first time earlier this year, I saw mostly blacks and a few Hispanics. It's really sad that so many blacks have to depend on welfare and food stamps to survive because they can't get jobs. Sometimes I hear people say that there's more whites that are on welfare than blacks and I don't agree. If there was more whites on welfare and getting food stamps, how come I don't see a lot of them at the social services office? There's always gonna be more blacks unemployed and on welfare than whites.

Make sure you're applying for General Relief and not TANF. You should visit www.servicelocator.org or your local Regional Center for employment services. Calling 211 would be recommended as well.

Best of luck

You don't keep getting fired because you are doing a good job. Your negative attitude is a self-fulfilling prophesy. See a psychologist - and because you are poor it will probably be free - and he will show you that you have to change and not the world. You do simple work and it's not that tough to do it well enough to keep your job. And stop hiding behind your race. Millions of black people work and do just fine.

SBTB Geek, what's General Relief and TANF?

TANF stands for Temporary Assistance to Needy Families. Given to people with kids.
General Relief is for people who have no children and need food stamps(EBT) and some money to help with shelter costs and medical expenses.

If you apply for General Relief or Temporary Assistance, they will expect you to apply for work and possibly attend a workshop for the county. You may also have to get a paper signed stating that you filled out an application at the place that you applied. Furthermore, they may expect you to also apply for Unemployment benefits even though you don't qualify. General Relief is easy to apply for and anyone can but it's a lot of work to keep.

Isiahthomas,
Just from what I have read, that you have posted.
You show signs of a very serious condition know as "DEPRESSION".

It is a serious medical condition, but can be treated.
(You probably have suffered from this most of your life)

Please seek help first from a "Social Worker" describe to them what you have shared with us. Make sure you tell them you have had "feelings that you would be better off dead."
If the social worker can't or won't help--ask to see/talk to a "Manager or Supervisor." Be insisted until they help!
Do not leave!! Every life is important!!
I know what I'm saying will be hard to do, but YOU have to do it!!
I wish that there was more that I could do, then post.....
when you suffer from DEPRESSION, you almost alway suffer alone, until you can get someone to LISTEN.

We had a very famous Actor/Comedian, who felt the same as YOU....His name was ROBIN WILLIAMS!

Isiahthomas,
Just from what I have read, that you have posted.
You show signs of a very serious condition know as "DEPRESSION".

It is a serious medical condition, but can be treated.
(You probably have suffered from this most of your life)

Please seek help first from a "Social Worker" describe to them what you have shared with us. Make sure you tell them you have had "feelings that you would be better off dead."
If the social worker can't or won't help--ask to see/talk to a "Manager or Supervisor." Be insisted until they help!
Do not leave!! Every life is important!!
I know what I'm saying will be hard to do, but YOU have to do it!!
I wish that there was more that I could do, then post.....
when you suffer from DEPRESSION, you almost alway suffer alone, until you can get someone to LISTEN.

We had a very famous Actor/Comedian, who felt the same as YOU....His name was ROBIN WILLIAMS!


Foggy is so right! That is what I think is the root of a lot of your problems!::(

I would get rid of the car, not important right now

Also this place should be able to help with you employment because the same type of place helped me in Philadelphia when I was close to being homeless in December of 2013

http://www.city.cleveland.oh.us/CityofCleveland/Home/Community/CareerCenter

Flying Dutchman and Foggy, thanks for the advice. TVFactFan, I don't live in Cleveland. I'm in Maryland.

Flying Dutchman and Foggy, thanks for the advice. TVFactFan, I don't live in Cleveland. I'm in Maryland.


Look for that same type of state career center in Maryland

TVFactFan, I said earlier that my mind doesn't work well trying to learn new jobs. So trying to recommend a jobs career center to me isn't gonna make a difference but I appreciate your help. I have a learning disability which is preventing me from applying for different jobs that pay good. That's why I want to see a psychiatrist or a doctor to find out why I have trouble keeping a job and I'm gonna apply for SSI which is social supplemental income because it's possible I may not work a full time job again. I'm gonna need money from the government some kind of way because like I said, I may not be able to work again because I can't get a job anywhere and my emails that I send to jobs have gotten ignored.

TVFactFan, I said earlier that my mind doesn't work well trying to learn new jobs. So trying to recommend a jobs career center to me isn't gonna make a difference but I appreciate your help. I have a learning disability which is preventing me from applying for different jobs that pay good. That's why I want to see a psychiatrist or a doctor to find out why I have trouble keeping a job and I'm gonna apply for SSI which is social supplemental income because it's possible I may not work a full time job again. I'm gonna need money from the government some kind of way because like I said, I may not be able to work again because I can't get a job anywhere and my emails that I send to jobs have gotten ignored.


Well it's nothing no one here can do for you

Bonniegirl and Flying Dutchman gave me some good advice. Bonniegirl said I should apply for SSD which is social security disability but I can't get that unless I'm 61 because I tried applying for it. That's why I said I'm gonna look at applying for SSI which is different than SSD. I'm still gonna look for a job but it's possible I may not work again.

SSI stands for supplemental security income and I tried filling out the application and it said I have to be outta work for 12 months to apply. I guess I can forget about trying to get that but I wouldn't be surprised if I couldn't find a full time job for 12 months. If that happens, then I'm gonna apply. Like I said, I'm gonna need government money because I know I'm not gonna find a full time job for awhile because I don't have good luck with finding work. I'll continue to look for a job because that's all I can do until I can find something.

I've worked for white men bosses at all my jobs and I didn't like any of them because they complain too much and they're too demanding.

White people can be very demanding at times. This is me being a white man saying that.

White people can be way too picky. When I think about going to restaurants, it's always the white people asking a ton of questions about the food on the menu. I don't see too many non-Whites asking if something is Organic, has Gluten, or is cage-free.

White people demanding to be treated like kings from people being paid minimum wage is why work these days is so unsatisfying.

Customer Service = Paid Slavery. It often just sucks having to serve people. Service jobs are necessary but people shouldn't expect to have their butts kissed because they're paying $5 for an Extra Value Meal. Having to follow orders with a smile on your face goes against nature. You're going to get sick of having to do that after a while.

Too bad 70 percent of all jobs in the American market these days are service jobs. Sure would be nice if we manufactured things again.

White people can be very demanding at times. This is me being a white man saying that.

White people can be way too picky. When I think about going to restaurants, it's always the white people asking a ton of questions about the food on the menu. I don't see too many non-Whites asking if something is Organic, has Gluten, or is cage-free.

White people demanding to be treated like kings from people being paid minimum wage is why work these days is so unsatisfying.

Customer Service = Paid Slavery. It often just sucks having to serve people. Service jobs are necessary but people shouldn't expect to have their butts kissed because they're paying $5 for an Extra Value Meal. Having to follow orders with a smile on your face goes against nature. You're going to get sick of having to do that after a while.

Too bad 70 percent of all jobs in the American market these days are service jobs. Sure would be nice if we manufactured things again.

Well...I'm white too, but I don't ask for much. I take what I can get.

isiahthomas, do you believe in a higher power like God?

JSP speaking the truth. I would prefer to work for a black man or a Hispanic man as my boss. White man I worked for at my last job who was the building engineer is the reason I'm not there because he complained like a b*tch. I wanna punch him in his face. I bet he's glad now that he got a Hispanic woman working for him because he's told me before a few times that the Hispanics that worked for him before I came did my work in 4 hours and it's taking me 6 hours to do the same work. So I'm thinking how come the Hispanics didn't stay? LOL. They obviously didn't like working for him even though he thinks they liked working for him. He complained to me that most of them didn't speak English but they did good work. I don't wanna hear that because I could care less about Hispanics work performance is better than mine. I don't hate Hispanics but I hate white men job bosses. So f*ck them.


I feel the same way about white men politicans running for president. That's why i'll never vote again because I'm tired of them doing nothing for blacks. Blacks are the ones that are gonna continue to struggle to survive because they can't get jobs, they're homeless and crime is very bad in their neighborhoods. There's always gonna be crime in their neighborhoods and black men are gonna sell drugs because they can't get jobs. White men politicans could care less about black men selling drugs, killing each other, going to prison and being unemployed. I read in the newspaper today that Jeb Bush made a speech recently at a dinner in South Carolina talking about blacks like getting stuff for free from the government because they don't believe in working which is a lie. Does he really think most of unemployed blacks would rather get a welfare check and live in the projects instead of having a job and living in the suburbs? I don't want a welfare check and I don't wanna live in the projects because it's not safe to live there because of crime.



I'm wondering if homeless shelters have job programs for homeless people because it seems that they don't. I continue to see homeless blacks and I know they aren't being trained on how to do jobs. It makes me mad that the workers at homeless shelters want homeless blacks to be outta their shelter early in the morning. Where are they gonna go when they don't have jobs? These people will be living in shelters and on the street until they die. What kind of life is that? They don't have health and dental insurance. What are they supposed to do when they get sick? Nobody wants to live like that and I know I don't.

Isn't general relief the same thing as a welfare check and food stamps? I applied for food stamps recently and I don't know if social services got my application but I hope they did. I'm sure I won't hear from them and if I do hear from them, they'll tell me I don't qualify since I live with my parents. They think my parents should be able to feed me. I don't wanna eat my parents food because I don't like some of the food they eat. I want my own food and I should be able to qualify for food stamps since I only got a part time job.

Please, knock it off on blaming white people for everything. Yes some white people stink but that can be said of all races. At my last employer the head of HR was a black woman and she was a racist and evil. Maybe you're not getting a job because you aren't qualified for the ones you want. I used to go to a job forum for Monster and this guy on there was like you. He couldn't find a job until we figured out why: he had no skills and was applying for jobs he was unqualified for and would send nasty emails. Seriously take anything, even if it means working fast food. I have a masters and I took a job waitressing because I needed money.

As for SSI unless you are truly disabled they will reject you. I know this because I truly have a condition that makes a lot of jobs not open to me. I applied and was rejected because to them my psoriatic arthritis and psoriasis wasn't severe enough. Forget the fact that during my flares all I can do is lay down, and I can't stand long or carry much this wasn't good enough for them.

I just filled out a online letter today to the social services office in Baltimore, Maryland and I told them how serious my living situation is. I told them that if I don't get some temporary cash that i'm gonna be without a car and i'm gonna be homeless because I don't know when i'm gonna get a full time job. I hope they get in touch with me soon because my living situation isn't good and the part time job I have isn't enough money to pay for car repairs, buy clothes and shoes. The money is enough for paying my 2 bills, buying gas for my car and food. I haven't paid my parents rent since I lost my full time job in June of last year. If I was living in a apartment, I would've been homeless a long time ago. I've always had to live with my parents and grandparents because i've never made enough money to have a apartment. The rent for a apartment in Maryland and Virginia is so expensive that I have to have a very good job and I know i'm never gonna get one because my work history is bad and I don't comprehend well when trying to learn new jobs. I have a hard time figuring things out on how to learn a new job. That's why I avoid applying for good jobs and I only apply for cleaning and porter jobs because those are the only jobs i'm good at.

Then why not look for more cleaning and porter jobs? meanwhile learn a new skill.

Sorry to hear about your health issue. That sucks. I hope I don't have a health issue anytime soon because I don't have health insurance. I gotta reapply for it next week when I get my paycheck this weekend because they wanna see how much money I make on my pay stub. I don't know why I gotta reapply when I haven't had health insurance that long. I just got it last year.

I've emailed lots of cleaning and porter jobs and they've ignored me. How many times I gotta tell you my mind doesn't work well when trying to learn new jobs because I have a hard time remembering how to do jobs I think are hard? I've worked at several factories and I didn't keep any of those jobs. I worked at Walmart and Target as a merchandise stocker and I didn't keep those jobs because my bosses felt I was too slow. That's why I said I wanna apply for government cash because I may not work a full time job again. I know it's gonna be hard to get but I'm gonna need government assistance because that's the only way I can take care of myself. It's obvious jobs don't wanna hire me. I'm supposed to have a interview this week or next week for a cleaning job. I faxed my resume to the company and the lady who does the hiring said she got it and she's gonna give me a call. I'll believe it when I see it.




White women job bosses are just as bad as white men job bosses. There's a white woman who's the property manager at a apartment I used to work at that I got laid off from and this evil b*tch tells me before it was time for me to leave that she was gonna let me go because she feels I don't care about my job anymore which is bullsh*t. If I didn't care about my job, I wouldn't have come to work 7 days a week when I wasn't supposed to. She also had a problem with me telling some of the residents that I was leaving and I don't see nothing wrong with that.