Cheryl Harrell
01-29-2002, 05:01 PM
Yesterday, I got my Freddie autograph in the mail. I should've gotten it much earlier but my payment never got to the seller so I had to re-send the payment.
It was a very emotional moment for me getting the autograph. I opened up the envelope. Fortuntately the seller put it inside a plastic card thing like you put baseball & trading cards in to protect them. I still gotta decide. Do I put it in the picture frame with my pic of Chico & Ed Brown or do I put it in an album cover frame with the cover to my LOOKING GOOD album?
When I opened it up & looked at it I cried. I had to go get a hanky. It just hit me then that today is the day he shot himself. Realizing that I broke down & cried & cried. It was sooo sad. My hanky got soggy & I had to get another one. That is such a weird coincidence that it came on the day he shot himself. I wonder if maybe it came on the day he shot himself on purpose as a message to us to tell us to never forget him & always remember him & keep his memory alive? Maybe he was giving me that message. I think he wants us to remember him & never forget him. :crying:
I went into the bedroom & sat down on the bed & went & looked at some pics of him in my scrapbook of him at the same time I was looking at the autograph. I fell asleep across the bed looking at them. I had a dream about Freddie. I can't remember what it was about but a bunch of people from the CATM boards/sites like Luckymama, Mariposa, Joy, Hillbilly & so forth were in it & we all became friends with him & knew him.
I now want to know the dear sweet boy who signed his name on that piece of paper. To some folks it's just a name on a piece of paper but to me that's all that is left of him. Freddie I never knew you but I care about you... :crying: :crying:
Here is a scan of the autograph:
It was a very emotional moment for me getting the autograph. I opened up the envelope. Fortuntately the seller put it inside a plastic card thing like you put baseball & trading cards in to protect them. I still gotta decide. Do I put it in the picture frame with my pic of Chico & Ed Brown or do I put it in an album cover frame with the cover to my LOOKING GOOD album?
When I opened it up & looked at it I cried. I had to go get a hanky. It just hit me then that today is the day he shot himself. Realizing that I broke down & cried & cried. It was sooo sad. My hanky got soggy & I had to get another one. That is such a weird coincidence that it came on the day he shot himself. I wonder if maybe it came on the day he shot himself on purpose as a message to us to tell us to never forget him & always remember him & keep his memory alive? Maybe he was giving me that message. I think he wants us to remember him & never forget him. :crying:
I went into the bedroom & sat down on the bed & went & looked at some pics of him in my scrapbook of him at the same time I was looking at the autograph. I fell asleep across the bed looking at them. I had a dream about Freddie. I can't remember what it was about but a bunch of people from the CATM boards/sites like Luckymama, Mariposa, Joy, Hillbilly & so forth were in it & we all became friends with him & knew him.
I now want to know the dear sweet boy who signed his name on that piece of paper. To some folks it's just a name on a piece of paper but to me that's all that is left of him. Freddie I never knew you but I care about you... :crying: :crying:
Here is a scan of the autograph: