View Full Version : I lost my grandmother a year ago tonight.


AKA
12-18-2010, 12:50 AM
It was the autumn of 2000. Grandma, who had been a very active, independent, older woman, was starting to show signs of her age. She was 72 now; eight years into her retirement. Her busy social schedule was still there, but she was starting to... well, resemble an old lady. She was starting to shuffle when she walked and she wasn't as quick on the uptake as we'd known her to be.

After some persuasion from my mom and aunt, Grandma went to the doctor to get checked out.

It was Parkinson's.

When I was given the news, I didn't realize what I was in for. That's what Michael J. Fox has, I thought. She's going to shake a lot. That sucks, but she's going to be just fine.

Unfortunately, she wasn't fine. In Grandma's case, her Parkinson's symptoms were not only physical, but also cognitive. Over the next few years, I had to slowly say goodbye as different aspects of my beloved grandmother began to be shed away forever by this horrible disease.

First it was her wit, then her ability to drive, then the ability to live alone (I moved in with her for awhile to take care of her). Then she had to move to an assisted living retirement facility. Then that became too much, and she had to move in with my aunt and be taken care of 24/7. Then that became too much, and it was a dementia ward in a nursing home.

Even through all that, every once in awhile, the Grandma I knew as a child and young adult would turn on like a lightbulb in a fleeting moment of lucidity, and we could have a great conversation.

Toward the end, Grandma's dementia gave her Alzheimer's-like symptoms, and most of the time, she didn't know who we were.

I'm thankful that I was there for her; that we were given notice by the staff that it was only "a matter of days." It turned out to be about five. I spent all five of those in her room days by her bed. I got to say goodbye to her. She slept most of that time and had ceased to speak, but I know she knew I was there, that much of her family was there, and that we loved her very much. I kissed her goodbye and went home after 9 pm on Thursday night, and she went home at around 3 am Friday morning, December 18, 2009.

I loved my grandma very much, and not a day has gone by in the last 365 days that I haven't thought of her.

This is the video I made for her memorial service:
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Yooch
12-18-2010, 01:20 AM
Losing a loved one is especially difficult this time of year; I know from experience.

Elvis Fonzie Dean
12-18-2010, 05:10 AM
Very nice tribute.

Stormtracker TF
12-18-2010, 06:43 AM
You did a really great job on that tribute. I'll be praying for you and your family, that you can all find peace this Holiday season knowing she is in a better place and that one day you will all be reunited again. I know you know that.

MrCleveland
12-18-2010, 11:31 AM
Even though it's almost 4 years...I miss my Grandpa.

But this is a VERY good tribute!

Retro4Life
12-18-2010, 11:43 AM
Death anniversaries are hard. Sending you good wishes on this sad remembrance, and hoping you can hold onto all the good memories. Sounds like you've got lots of them.

AKA
12-18-2010, 06:23 PM
Thanks everyone. You know, it's harder on the anniversary that it was the actual day she passed away.

Nighthawk76
12-20-2010, 01:36 AM
I'm very sorry, Brad. Its a very nice tribute though.

OH Nuts!
12-20-2010, 03:31 PM
Very touching tribute...please accept my thoughts and condolences on this day

AKA
12-20-2010, 06:52 PM
Thanks for the support, everyone. It was a hard weekend, but I'm doing a lot better now.

catlover79
12-20-2010, 09:51 PM
I'm so sorry, Brad. All of my grandparents are gone now, and I miss them all very much. God bless you!!!

AKA
12-20-2010, 10:48 PM
Thanks, Monika. My paternal grandmother and my maternal grandfather both died before I was born, and my paternal grandfather died in 2006 without my ever having met him, so when I say "Grandma," I mean "Supergrandma!" She did the job of four grandparents rolled into one.

sh3k
03-12-2011, 07:58 AM
WHEN YOU LOOSE SOME ONE VERY CLOSE,WHOM IS VERY CLOSE TO YOU,I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE,IT'S SO PAIN FUL.....MAY HER SOUL REST IN PEACE

Penny Lane
03-13-2011, 04:35 PM
My grandparents are all gone too. I lost my dad in 05 and I really miss him! My mom is 81 but she looks 10 years younger. She's very active and no one ever guesses her age. But I do know that no one lives forever.She being up in years will go too someday. When a person is young you think that they will always be there. It's a sad thing but that's life.:( Sorry for your loss Brad. I can tell that you really loved her!

Penny Lane
03-13-2011, 04:41 PM
The whole family was there when my dad died at home. Well, it was weird. He had this thing about turning off lights. When he passed the bedside lamp went out! It was really strange! The lamp was not defective at all! But we all laughed and it really brightened our mood. We all agreed that was typical of him!:lol: It was really funny!:)

Retro4Life
03-13-2011, 06:33 PM
Very sorry on this anniversary of your loss. They are hard days, aren't they?