Part One
June 14, 1988
Dear Journal/Dairy,
So it's my birthday and Jake, my current boyfriend if two years,gave me this dairy thing. I love him so much that despite my hate for dairies, I am willing to write in it just for him. So anyway I'm officially 19 today. I don't feel different
I feel exactly the same, except maybe my constant sweating, headache, nausea, and a fever. Oh well! Should be expected! If I
told my dad or John I'd be dead before I could finish my sentence or explain. Casey
would understand, he knows me better than I know myself.And if I told Jake, I'd be in a
wedding dress before tomarrow. Mom would have been supportive at least,definatly
disapointed. She would let me handle the "situation" however I want to and understand and be there for me. John and Dad
would tell me what to do, when to do it, and that would be it.
"Sorry hun, can't read it. It's private"
Well that was Jake trying to sneak a peek at my emotions and thoughts.
Anyway if I can find my train of thought...
I would never be an Exstead again. Just Jinny. Not that it's bad or anything I'd just want a family. My family, which consists of One Dad and Two brothers. I know I will have kids, trust me I'm two months positive. I'll have a husband too. But it wouldn't be the same. It'll be better, but not Dad, John, and Casey. Ah, Im confused!
Got to go say goodbye to Jake.
Bye
JSE
PRESENT
"Got to go say goodbye to Jake.Bye JSE." A tear ran down the cheeks and over the lips of Jinny Exstead.

END OF PART ONE

Not bad Id like to read more post some more
soon.

PART TWO
June 23, 1988
Dear Diary,
7:42 am So I started the morning off with normal conversation with Mr.Flushy. It went well actually, no insults, and no jokes, although he did say I gained weight. Gee, I wonder why! I can't hide it from anymore, but i don't want him to feel obligated to marry me. Well I'm having lunch with him and my dad(God help us all!)just the three of us. I guess i have to tell him soon. Maybe after lunch. Well I have to tell him or Mr. Flushy will be very disapointed. Ah I crack myself up somethimes. Okay got to go find something to wear that won't make me look fat, okay really fat.
10:03pm Ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Jake took me and my dad to this lake out in the Wine Country, and out of nowhere Jake looked at my dad and said "Can I have your daughter's hand in marriage?" (and I was sitting right there)Well I completly lost my top, I was saying words that weren't words. Okay so Jake was totally serius about my dads permission. I was scared my dad would say no. But he said somehting to this effect "Hell yes, I didn't think anyone would take her." I think Dad appreciated Jake asking him first. So now finally when the men finished congragulatling eachother, Jake finally got on one knee and said those unforgetable words. "Jinny Samantha Exstead, will you please be my wife?" You know he had to use those puppy dog eyes.Haha. So being as stupid as I can be I, umm, well, kind of said,"I'm about three months pregnant, YES!!!!!" Well imagine my shock and everyone elses.It was humalitating.But they were okay with it. My dad took my champaine away(sob sob). Okay I got to go tell Mr. Flushy.
bye jse

PRESENT
As Jinny Exstead finished reading the entry, she ran around the house looking for the phone and a beer.Being unsucessful on both she simply closed the Dairy and headed for bed. But with all her emothions running wild it would be impossible, so she grabbed her gym bag and left.

-you'll understand it a bit better soon Baffledee

OOO I love it.post more soon;o)Oh hey I saw that the last post you made was your second.
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Jinny:This Is Who I am.

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"You're born,you move on,you die,that's life."-Jo
Nancy McKeon is #1!!

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Wisdom had two parts:
1) having a lot to say, and
2) not saying it.

Part 3
"Exstead, Your late!" Captain Kate McCaffredy hollared from her office. Jinny just ignored the comment, she didn't want to get into it. She walked to her desk and carefully pulled out the used diary. If anyone caught her with it she would never hear the end of it. She turned her head quickly in each direction and opened the book to the folded page. Right before she began to read she spun around in her chair and looked at her partner,Magda Rameriz.
"Magda, what are you doing?" Jinny asked already knowing the answer.
"Nothing!" Magda replied in a shakey voice.
"Oh really, cause I thought you were reading over my shoulder." When Jinny heard no response she decided to continue. " How much did you read? And don't plaese be honest. I really need to know." She lookede up at her guilty partner with pleading eyes, almost like she was holding in tears.
"Umm, enough, can we please drop the subject, it's making both of us uncomfortable?" she returned. Making Jinny mad is not good, making her cry was wrong.
" How much exactly is enough? Now, does that answer your question?"
"Yes it does, okay? The page! Now can we drop it, please?"
"Fine. It's easy for you to say that because it's not ME reading YOUR diary!!!"
After that their day was strictly work. Not one friendly smile or a warm hi. They were both surprizedby each others actions. Jinny thought that her partner and best friend would at least coughed up and apology. Magda Rameriz always knew her partner was hiding a past, and when she read just a tiny bit of it she wanted to cry. Instead she stood there defending herself as if what she did was not wrong. If she apologized she knew Jinny would never truly forgive her, maybe move on.But Magda wanted her old quiet, and protective partner back to normal.If that was even possible. She decided to give her some space to cool down then say 'I'm sorry'.
End of Part Three
- Thanx for the replies baffledee

Post more soon please! This is great!

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"You're born,you move on,you die,that's life."-Jo
Nancy McKeon is #1!!

Part 4
July 2, 1988
It's six days til the wedding! Jake and i will will be forever in matromony. It's a dream come true. I get to marry the one man that I love the most, more than anything, the man I can't live without, and the man that I feel completly safe with. He is everything I live for. without him I might as well kill myself. He keeps me alive, he makes me want to live. I love him and without him,life would be unbearable. He make sme admit my problems and conquer them. When I met him I want to say that it was love at first sight, but I honestly didn't want to give him the time a day. And now two years later I'm getting married and already starting a family. Wow this is true love. You know the one thing we seek the most is also the one thing we find ourselves hiding from. Love makes me feel lost, I really don't know whats right and whats wrong. If my heart tells me I'm in love then my mind becomes blinded. A man could do anything to me and I would never think it was wrong. But with Jake it was never like that, I loved him after the third date but could tell if he had good intentios, aparently he does. He clears the fog in my mind and warms the air in my heart. If someone asked what love means to me, I would stand there stuttering. Because honestly I don't know, it's just that
feeling. if you have ever been in love then you would know. Love to me is not trust, or honesty or even wanting to spend the rest of our lives with. It's not friendship, or a relationship to me, it is so much more, there can not possibly be a defination for loves it's what you feel in your heart and words simply do not exist to explain that feeling. love is Love. Defining it, is impossible. But I love Jake Mitchel, even if I can not define it. Nobody take him away, please. Did I just right my vows? Well I guess I should revise it a little. talk about procrastanation, six days til the wedding and I just finally wrote my vows. Okay I'm tired, Goodbye. jse

PRESENT
"Okay, so that's what Magda read,can't be that bad, I'll forgive her, say, Friday." Jinny said outloud to herself. For the first time reading her dairy she felt happy, until she realized she no longer had love.She had Theodore for a while, but he was not Jake. Relizing all of this she just broke down into tears. She despritly needed someone to talk to. It was either the bartender at the Anchorside or her friend Magda.
END OF PART FOUR

this is awesome, please add more soon~

MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!;o)

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Jinny:This Is Who I am.

*YeeHaw!*

Welcome to the board!!!!!! Awww, this fanfic is soooo sad! I'm just hoping it's not gonna lead up to what I think it's gonna lead up to... Or maybe I do, that'll make it more dramatic! http://www.sitcomsonline.com/ubb/smile.gif I just want this thing finished, plz! I LOVE IT!!!! :0 hehee, I'm weird...

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Isn't that great!!! :::sigh::: Now all that's wrong with him is that he doesn't have a leg... Well, I gotta be thankful that he lived. It's thanks to everyone's prayers, so thank you, everyone!

~*Danielle, Quiz Bowl Captain*~

Aw!! Can't wait for more.

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(-: Sourbabie :-)

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"If you touch my ass one more time, I'll kick yours." - Jinny Exstead

"Nice girls don't throw trees!" - Jo Polniaczek

Hello, my name is Sourbabie and I'm an ERoholic and a The Divsionoholic.

"That sugarcane that tasted good. That cinnamon that's Hollywood. C'mon, c'mon, no one can see you cry. . ." - Imitation of Life by REM

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Thanx for the replys

Part Five
Inspector Jinny Exstead arrived at the doorstep of her partner.
"Ah, forget it!" she said loudly to herself.
The door suddenly began to creek open.
"Jin, is that you?" Magda asked. She was thrilled that Jinny came to her. But it's not like Jinny to do so.The last thing Magda Rameriz expected was for Jinny to imediatly hug her and start crying hysterically.
"oh,come on, lets go inside." But Jinny wouldn't budge. She just stood there in the freezing San Fransisco temperature. Finnaly Magda backed up pulling Jinny with her.
"Jinny, I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry." She said referring to the Diary that was enclosed in Jinny's hand. All Magda could hear was the sound of jinny crying. Her shirt was beginning to get soaked with tears. There was nothing Magda could do, except feel bad and try her best to comfort her slightly secretive partner and best friend.
"Come on, stop crying,I'm starting to drown." Magda said hoping it would make Jinny smile. It worked she got a small laugh. Jinny let go of Magda and wiped the tears from her eyes and began to speak. "It's not your fault, I mean I'm still mad,but I guess..." Jinny cried. This time it was Magdas turn to hug Jinny.
"I guess it's good cause I can finally talk about it." she continued.
"should I make some coffee or Hot chocolate?" Magda asked.
"Hot Coco Maybe?"
"Ah, I'm raising two kids now! okay while I make the 'Hot Coco', why don't you tell Dr. Magda your problems?"she joked.
"Hey Doc can you ask some questions first, it would help a lot, please?"
"Okay. Okay. Who is the Guy? Did you get Married? Whats this about you starting a family? Where is the guy now? When Did he leave? How did he leave? And are you actually telling me that you, Jinny Exstead, can commit?"
"His name is Jake Mitchel. Yes we got married. We had a little boy who died. He is somewhere. We got a divorce a little after two years. and yes I can commit."
"I'm sorry about your little boy, I can't even imagine the pain you ent through. It must have been hell. Makes me glad that I still have Ben. Are you okay?" Magda said sincerly as a couple of tears rolled dowm her own face.
"The pain was unbearable still is.Why do you think I drink?...His name was Ryan Theodore Mitchel.He was three. He caught pneumonia an died soon after. It's all my fault, I should have checked the windows and plus he got my damn immune system. I'm sorry I can't." she cried. By this time she was crying so hard that she was chocking on her own tears.
"oh, honey, come on you have to stop crying like this, it's not healthy. I'm so sorry I asked. Please Jin calm down, That's all in the past." Magda was crying so hard when she heard Jinny start to cough uncontrollably.
Magda grabbed Jinny and began to rock her back and forth.

OH MY GOD This is Like SO Gr8 I Need You to
post more.(I love a good sad drama)

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Its my life!This is
who I am!And you tell me
it does'nt matter!
-Jinny
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If you want something bad
enough you go after it no
matter what the outcome may be
-My Quote
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"Love beliver
So take the love He's giving to you
A love receiver
Cause everything He's
Promised is true
Love beliver
Listen to the song that I
sing
You are the child of the
King"
-Love Beliver.
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Be a good girl(why be a good girl?)be a good girl
(why be a good girl?)she
is a see-saw seeing if it
matters she is a game of
Chutes and Laders.
be a good girl (why be a good girl?)
she needs the one who wrote the definition of
a love without condition
be a good girl.
-Good Girl.

Awwwww!!!!!! :::sniffle::: *tear* I'm crying now, please post more soon!!! Awww, that was so sweet, her son's name being Theodore... Well, his middle name, anywayz. Post more soon, plz!

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Jinny: Basically people are who people are. Your born, you die pretty much the same
person. All the rest is just window dressing.
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Lorelai: Well, I want to be in the Bangles, but that doesn't mean I quit my job and get a guitar and ruin my life to be a Bangle, does it?
Max: The Bangles broke up.
Lorelai: Yeah, that's not the point.
Max: Well, that's got to be part of the point if there's no band any more.
***~~!!kATie!!~~***

Originally posted by Wild Child:
That's the very day I was born! June 23,1988. http://www.sitcomsonline.com/ubb/smile.gif



OMG! I was born June 23, 1985!

Well, I wasn't born on June 23... But I loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove this story!

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On April 24, 2008 Kaley and I are going too meet in LA, and hancuff ourselfs too Nancy McKeons car, or better yet her! And your not! Were also gonna find Jay Harrington too.

Teddy: Be honest with me, not my parents!
Jinny: All right, fine. You want honesty? Why don't you let me tell you a little bit about my family? See, I never really had a birthday party unless you wanna count my 15th, when my father showed up for cake, plastered in his underwear! Oh, yeah, by the way, my mom couldn't make it that year either because, well, sadly, six months earlier she blew her brains out!!!!!
Teddy: Jinny, my God.
Jinny: As for my brother, uh yeah, John... see, he just doesn't like you unless your American, white, and straight! and for me, a few weeks ago when I had that nut case after me... yeah, I had to make a little list, of all the guys that I've slept with in the last two years. I couldn't remember some of their names.
Teddy:Stop! What are you...
Jinny: Ya know what? This is who I am, THIS IS MY FAMILY!!!! Come on, it's your turn. You go ahead, flash that all-American, prep school, choir boy smile and you tell me that it doesn't matter! *long pause* Yeah... Thats what I thought.

~DANA JINNY EXSTEAD ~

The Dana parts Real... The rest i stuck in there for fun.

All right you better post more soon.BlairandJo is not happy here.I love it you better post more soon;o)

sorry I haven't posted but I just got back from camping and plus I'm really stuck. I'll post some this week.

Good! This is really great!

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"You're born,you move on,you die,that's life."-Jo
Nancy McKeon is #1!!

Okay. Here is some more
PART SIX
"Wake up Jinny, we have go to work. Wake up."Magda Rameriz said as she shook her partner. It was so painful to see her friend in so much pain. "Wake up, before I do something hasty..." Is that going to work? she thought to herself. Porbably not. "like pour water on you."
"You wouldn't?"
That got her to wake up.And to think I thought I knew her. There is defintly more to Jinny then what meets the eye. Maybe i should say something to her like; it's okay,it wasn't your fault, i won't judge you on your past, I'm sorry I read your diary, I felt so helpless when you began to cry. Maybe i should just let it go. I can't do that, can I? But I'm her friend and she chose me to talk to. "Umm...Jinny about last night..."
"Yeah, thanks for listening. your a real friend. Now can we just forget this even happened? Do you by any chance have some coffee?"
"Yeah, I do. But I honestly think you shouldn't forget it. Maybe you should get in touch with Jake. or even get a new diary. You shouldn't hind these things. Without your past you be here today, not the same person anyway... I'll go get that coffee. You want anything in it?"
"Cream? I'll consider your advice."
END OF PART SIX
PART SEVEN
July 24,2001
Dear Diary,
I have decided to take Magda's advice. I miss Jake, I really do, but when Ryan died the easiest thing he could do was blame me, which led to me blaming myself, even hateing myself. It was a really hard year. Even if I did get in touch with Jake and we started to get close again I can not see any future with him. He is in the past and should stay there. I miss ryan as well. How can I not. He was my son. The only person that made me happy after Jake and I split. After he died I started to drown my sorrow in alcohol, drugs, physical pain, and others. Needless to say I was throwing my life away, Lost my job, all my money was going torwards drugs and alcohol. I didn't care if I died or was sent to prison, I just didn't matter to myself anymore, until Casey came to visit, He brought me home, to Dad's house. He made stop the drugs and the cutting, he really didn't see how bad the alcohol would be. he made me realize what I had to live for and got me an interveiw for the San Fransisco Police. I met with Captian McCaffredy, and soon got the job and waspromoted shortly to inspector. But It came with A price, I lied on my transcript, about my family and that I have never been a cop before. If she ever starts to get suspicious of me and checks everything with a fine toothed comb, I'd be dead. She would find out about the drugs and the attemped sucides.I'd be fired just for the lying but the drugs... I can't even think about that.If It wasn't for Casey, I would be dead in a ditch somewhere in San Diego.He made me move on with my life, which at the time was translated to forget everything and focus on now. Well now I can say that I have finally moved on and am willing to start over. Stop the drinking, and stop the cheating. And not let what happened with Jake and Ryan effect my relationships. I would love to find another man just like Jake but better. Someone like Theodore. Oh my God I still love Teddy!
Jinny

THE END
sequel? or no sequel?

SEQUEL!!! PLEAASE?!? http://www.sitcomsonline.com/ubb/smile.gif

~*~jenn~*~

I Loved it.YES DO a sequel!!!!!!!;o)