my bars in my teeth are hurting me BADLY. i wish whoever had invented dental work hadnt.

Yup. Not going to get any sleep tonight. Wondering how I'm going to get through the day without any caffeine...

&^%$%!!1 :cuss:

Even while I'm on the pill, the cramps are HORRIBLE!!! :sarah:

Has anyone heard from Kelly Ketchup? She hasn't posted either here or on her own board in over a day.

Has anyone heard from Kelly Ketchup? She hasn't posted either here or on her own board in over a day.
Hey Mike, thanks for worrying. I'll send you a PM.:wave:

Omg we had some Pio bread tonight at dinner and I feel sooooo sick. I don't think I'll eat anything for a week.

Hey Mike, thanks for worrying. I'll send you a PM.:wave:

Omg we had some Pio bread tonight at dinner and I feel sooooo sick. I don't think I'll eat anything for a week.


Good to see you, Kelly. :wave: I'm sorry that you are not feeling well though. :( I hope that you feel better soon.

Good to see you, Kelly. :wave: I'm sorry that you are not feeling well though. :( I hope that you feel better soon.
Thanks Mike.

Okay I'm 18. I know I'm not a full adult, but I am capable of making decisions. IT IS MY LIFE!!!!! pissed:

Dear God, I am such an *******; you would think at my age, that I would have known better; but no, I am an idiot!
First, I have this friend, I love him to death, but the dude has a BIG ****ING MOUTH!, now, I am afraid, that I am going to end up looking like a big, ****ing psycho; and I do not need that added stress in my life:(

I'm supposed to take Propanolol twice a day, but I have been forgetting to take my night dose. I think that's why I have been back on my headaches. Argh.... I've been experiencing one since yesterday evening. I hate this.... :crying: Headaches hurt. Mooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmy!!!!!!!

I'm supposed to take Propanolol twice a day, but I have been forgetting to take my night dose. I think that's why I have been back on my headaches. Argh.... I've been experiencing one since yesterday evening. I hate this.... :crying: Headaches hurt. Mooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmy!!!!!!!
Mona, I suffer from headaches, too; hang in there, girl!

Okay I'm 18. I know I'm not a full adult, but I am capable of making decisions. IT IS MY LIFE!!!!! pissed:


Is everyhing okay, Kelly?

Legally 18 is an adult. And I think that you act more mature than the typical 18 year old. You certainly act more mature than I did at 18. And I've always thought that I acted more mature at 18 than many of my peers. So I think that you should be allowed to make your own decisions.

Guess what, Kelly? My email is down again. :mad:

Dear God, I am such an *******; you would think at my age, that I would have known better; but no, I am an idiot!
First, I have this friend, I love him to death, but the dude has a BIG ****ING MOUTH!, now, I am afraid, that I am going to end up looking like a big, ****ing psycho; and I do not need that added stress in my life:(


I hope that everything works out for the best, Tara.

I'm supposed to take Propanolol twice a day, but I have been forgetting to take my night dose. I think that's why I have been back on my headaches. Argh.... I've been experiencing one since yesterday evening. I hate this.... :crying: Headaches hurt. Mooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmy!!!!!!!


I hope that you feel better soon, Mona. :bighug:

URg, my bird won't stop chriping!!! :sarah:

Thanks, Tara, Mike, and Jenny.

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I think a co-worker friend is upset or angry with me. I just got that feeling when I greeted her and when she left. She had a cold shoulder feeling for some reason. It bothers me a bit.

I think a co-worker friend is upset or angry with me. I just got that feeling when I greeted her and when she left. She had a cold shoulder feeling for some reason. It bothers me a bit.

My roommate is acting the same way. It's starting to worry me. I guess it's time to talk, again....

There's a creepy lady chasing me at work. I have no interest in her. I can ignore her, easily enough I suppose... I just hope this doesn't become a serious issue...

Is everyhing okay, Kelly?

Legally 18 is an adult. And I think that you act more mature than the typical 18 year old. You certainly act more mature than I did at 18. And I've always thought that I acted more mature at 18 than many of my peers. So I think that you should be allowed to make your own decisions.

Guess what, Kelly? My email is down again. :mad:

Yeah I'm okay. I got into another arguement with my brother last night. I'm just sick of everyone else deciding my life, which is what I discussed with everyone else and they are going to work on it, so hopefully it will be better.

Looks like I'm going to the hospital tomorrow. :( Ovarian cysts are so incredibly painful tonight I can't sleep and the pain meds aren't helping. I don't want to go but my mom's making me. :(

Thanks, Tara, Mike, and Jenny.

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I think a co-worker friend is upset or angry with me. I just got that feeling when I greeted her and when she left. She had a cold shoulder feeling for some reason. It bothers me a bit.

I hope that you and your co-worker friend can work out whatever problems that you are having, Mona.

Looks like I'm going to the hospital tomorrow. :( Ovarian cysts are so incredibly painful tonight I can't sleep and the pain meds aren't helping. I don't want to go but my mom's making me. :(


Going to the hospital is probably your best bet, Kelly. I hope that they are able to help you out.

I hope that you and your co-worker friend can work out whatever problems that you are having, Mona.
Thanks, Mike. I didn't even know there was a problem. I only saw her for a few minutes, but it was not like her to not say "bye" when she walked out. When I came in, I greeted her with, "Hi! How are you?," and she said, "okay" in a cold monotone manner. Hmmmm..... Makes me confused. I won't see her until Monday, so I will be thinking a lot about it.

I hope that everything works out for the best, Tara.
I told my friend not to reveal any information regarding my private life to people; when it is none of their business. I am just a very private person...

I've been saving up for MONTHS to go and get my hair done, and what happens? My crazy ass mother ruins it for me and I had to cancel.

Damn everything.

I need answers. I want advice. I want to get out and mingle. I don't know where to go/what to do. I wouldn't dare go out alone. It's building up inside me, and I just want to scream. I can't stand looking at others having it easier than me when it comes to this. *wipes tears from cheeks, huffs and walks away* :(

I need answers. I want advice. I want to get out and mingle. I don't know where to go/what to do. I wouldn't dare go out alone. It's building up inside me, and I just want to scream. I can't stand looking at others having it easier than me when it comes to this. *wipes tears from cheeks, huffs and walks away* :(
Mona, there is nothing wrong about going out alone; sometimes, that is the best way to make new friends. I do it all the time, and have a blast!

Mona, there is nothing wrong about going out alone; sometimes, that is the best way to make new friends. I do it all the time, and have a blast!
Ooops...I failed to mention that I actually do go alone, but I was referring about not going alone at night, especially dances at night. I am afraid of being obvious that I am alone and having someone follow me or something.

Ooops...I failed to mention that I actually do go alone, but I was referring about not going alone at night, especially dances at night. I am afraid of being obvious that I am alone and having someone follow me or something.
Heck, I go to clubs by myself all the time, sometimes I even have a better time when I am alone. I used to travel to Hollywood solo all the way from San Diego; attend the clubs there.

Ooops...I failed to mention that I actually do go alone, but I was referring about not going alone at night, especially dances at night. I am afraid of being obvious that I am alone and having someone follow me or something.


I think that Tara is right, Mona. I think that you can have just as enjoyable of a time on your own as you would with a friend.

People wonder why I'm in such a mood to transfer from Western Kentucky University to the University of Kentucky:

There are only two things in this country for which WKU qualifies as a top 25 program for. Journalism/Broadcasting. And illegal music downloading. (Seriously, in a list released, WKU is 22nd among ALL universities).

Way to go there Western. Brilliant.

Ooops...I failed to mention that I actually do go alone, but I was referring about not going alone at night, especially dances at night. I am afraid of being obvious that I am alone and having someone follow me or something.

Arggggg!!!!!!!!!

Arggggg!!!!!!!!!
Are you ok?

Ugh I'm still in pain and the doctor says I have to wait it out. The new pain pills I was given aren't helping either. :(

Ugh I'm still in pain and the doctor says I have to wait it out. The new pain pills I was given aren't helping either. :(

Feel better soon, Kelly. :bighug:

Max Whittaker, it doesn't matter. Self defense can also be quite a handy backup, most importantly. That pepper spray can used against a victim, so that freaks me out as well. My city is VERY unsafe.

This society is so backwards! The politicians and bureaucrats get paid the big bucks, while the teachers and the firefighters and social workers are forced to only get by.

Does that seem right to everyone? Apparently so, as it's not changing! Those that provide a service to others should be rewarded the most. This is so Wrong!

Perhaps the world would be a better place if you could get rich off helping others.

Heck, I go to clubs by myself all the time, sometimes I even have a better time when I am alone. I used to travel to Hollywood solo all the way from San Diego; attend the clubs there.

I think that Tara is right, Mona. I think that you can have just as enjoyable of a time on your own as you would with a friend.
I think my point is being missed here. I didn't mean to imply that I would have a lousy time going out alone....in general. I have done so many things alone such as dining, shopping, and so on. I just meant to say that certain places and especially at night where there are dances and funner things to do certainly make me uneasy. For one thing, I do not know how to do self-defense, so I would not really be fully prepared to ward off any potential attackers. In my eyes, a girl who is alone is such an easy target. I would be really scared if some weirdo who won't take "no" for an answer would follow me around and not leave me alone and do something to me. I fear that bystanders will NOT do anything about it. So, it is up to me. I live in such a high temperamental and physically-violent state. We have such a high percentage of overall domestic violence. Therefore, something bad or fatal could happen to me in a fit of rage. I am scared. When a crowd of other friends is present, I wouldn't be such an easy target because we would stick together.

All of my friends are either usually always busy or even have kids or just plain lazy and unmotivated about going out. I was like this too, but now I suddenly wanna go out more! Plus, just saying, "Make more friends with this interest" isn't helpful either. I don't know where to begin looking for these local people to befriend. I did make two friends who LOVE dancing, but when I invited one of them, she always has something going on. I get the hint she isn't too interested since we began talking months ago. I dunno. I wanna go out, damnit! :(

I think my point is being missed here. I didn't mean to imply that I would have a lousy time going out alone....in general. I have done so many things alone such as dining, shopping, and so on. I just meant to say that certain places and especially at night where there are dances and funner things to do certainly make me uneasy. For one thing, I do not know how to do self-defense, so I would not really be fully prepared to ward off any potential attackers. In my eyes, a girl who is alone is such an easy target. I would be really scared if some weirdo who won't take "no" for an answer would follow me around and not leave me alone and do something to me. I fear that bystanders will NOT do anything about it. So, it is up to me. I live in such a high temperamental and physically-violent state. We have such a high percentage of overall domestic violence. Therefore, something bad or fatal could happen to me in a fit of rage. I am scared. When a crowd of other friends is present, I wouldn't be such an easy target because we would stick together.

All of my friends are either usually always busy or even have kids or just plain lazy and unmotivated about going out. I was like this too, but now I suddenly wanna go out more! Plus, just saying, "Make more friends with this interest" isn't helpful either. I don't know where to begin looking for these local people to befriend. I did make two friends who LOVE dancing, but when I invited one of them, she always has something going on. I get the hint she isn't too interested since we began talking months ago. I dunno. I wanna go out, damnit! :(


I'm sorry that I misunderstood, Mona. I see where you are coming from. I understand your not wanting to be out alone after hours. That is totally understandable.

Every once in a while, I get this feeling that I've offended a higher being. Not necessarily God, but somebody or something greater than myself. A being that I would never have offended if I had known I was about to do it. I feel as though I've done something terrible without knowing, and I could never really atone for it... I might have walked over someone's grave(whatever that means). Perhaps I stepped on a insect I shouldn't have. Yes it sounds funny. But I'm being serious.

I told this to a co-worker the other day. All he said was, "I don't give a ****".

Now, I realize my ideas may not be conventional. I realize my feelings fluctuate, as everybody's feeling do. But I shared something with you that I have never shared with anybody else, and I expected you to respect it. Damn you for not. And damn me for trusting you. Rest assured. That will never happen again.

I think my point is being missed here. I didn't mean to imply that I would have a lousy time going out alone....in general. I have done so many things alone such as dining, shopping, and so on. I just meant to say that certain places and especially at night where there are dances and funner things to do certainly make me uneasy. For one thing, I do not know how to do self-defense, so I would not really be fully prepared to ward off any potential attackers. In my eyes, a girl who is alone is such an easy target. I would be really scared if some weirdo who won't take "no" for an answer would follow me around and not leave me alone and do something to me. I fear that bystanders will NOT do anything about it. So, it is up to me. I live in such a high temperamental and physically-violent state. We have such a high percentage of overall domestic violence. Therefore, something bad or fatal could happen to me in a fit of rage. I am scared. When a crowd of other friends is present, I wouldn't be such an easy target because we would stick together.

All of my friends are either usually always busy or even have kids or just plain lazy and unmotivated about going out. I was like this too, but now I suddenly wanna go out more! Plus, just saying, "Make more friends with this interest" isn't helpful either. I don't know where to begin looking for these local people to befriend. I did make two friends who LOVE dancing, but when I invited one of them, she always has something going on. I get the hint she isn't too interested since we began talking months ago. I dunno. I wanna go out, damnit! :(

Well that is understandable!!!
Los Angeles is one of the safest cities, either; and also like you, majority of my friends are either too poor, too lazy or basically are not into the same kind of music as I am; but I go out anyways; regardless of the risks. I protect myself and tend to go to places where it is safe and I know I will not be harrassed, etc...I just cannot handle (or stand) being stuck at home on the weekends, (it depresses me), so I just go out and do it..and yeah, there are many times that I am scared or afraid, but life is too short;( to stay at home, being bored)..screw that!!!. I like going out alone now, because in a lot of ways I do not have the opition of going out with a friend or two; and also, I have found if I am out alone, I usually have a blast, because I am on my own time line (meaning, I can go if I choose, instead of the other way around, if I was with a buddy)...regardless if you do not live in the safest city, and you have this innate desire to go out; sometimes, you just have to break out of your fear and your comfort zone and JUST DO IT!!!

And, I know that you are implying about going to places to dance; and what I was implying was going to clubs and bars ALONE; if I cannot find a buddy to go with me, let's say, to see a band, screw them, I will go alone; yeah, I am a little scared, but I just do it anyways; you cannot always rely on others for a good time, sometimes you have to do it alone!

Ugh I'm still in pain and the doctor says I have to wait it out. The new pain pills I was given aren't helping either. :(
Is it still problems with your ovaries? A warm bath helps me when I have pains. I don't have a cycst, but I do have unexplained pains. (I've been checked for them.)

i'll find out Friday...
... I have to wait 3 more days... ugg!

Is it still problems with your ovaries? A warm bath helps me when I have pains. I don't have a cycst, but I do have unexplained pains. (I've been checked for them.)
Ooh really? I'll have to try that. My mom wants to take me back to the hospital since the pain meds they gave me aren't helping. :( AND I have a test tomorrow, 3 hours long and I don't know how I'm going to get through it!

I visited some old friends today. I'm reminded once again how far apart we've become. And I wonder if we were ever really close to begin with...

I'm complaining an awful lot lately. It's not in my nature... I should see to that. I may be overdue for a good, healing cry. It just doesn't come!

Ooh really? I'll have to try that. My mom wants to take me back to the hospital since the pain meds they gave me aren't helping. :( AND I have a test tomorrow, 3 hours long and I don't know how I'm going to get through it!

Try to hang in there, Kelly. :wave: :bighug:

Try to hang in there, Kelly. :wave: :bighug:
:bighug:

Every once in a while, I get this feeling that I've offended a higher being. Not necessarily God, but somebody or something greater than myself. A being that I would never have offended if I had known I was about to do it. I feel as though I've done something terrible without knowing, and I could never really atone for it... I might have walked over someone's grave(whatever that means). Perhaps I stepped on a insect I shouldn't have. Yes it sounds funny. But I'm being serious.

I feel the same way sometimes.

I visited some old friends today. I'm reminded once again how far apart we've become. And I wonder if we were ever really close to begin with...

I'm complaining an awful lot lately. It's not in my nature... I should see to that. I may be overdue for a good, healing cry. It just doesn't come!
I did that with some high school friends after we graduated. It's weird how everyone seems to change.

And it's weird how crying actually makes you feel better, but it often does!

My e-mail is temporary down as of a few minutes ago. :(

I seem to not hear from people like I used to. :( Some of my posts, pm's and e-mails only get a response sometimes. :( This is not directed at any one specific person.


I'm sorry, Jenny. My email has been down for a whole week now. :eek:

2 more days

I did that with some high school friends after we graduated. It's weird how everyone seems to change.

And it's weird how crying actually makes you feel better, but it often does!

It's an awful feeling, isn't it? Those people and I shared a lot together. For them to have so easily brushed me away and so soon, really hurts...

A LOT of people need to return to their junior high English classes. OMG. Peer editing other peoples' papers gives me a headache for the rest of the day. :wallbang

A LOT of people need to return to their junior high English classes. OMG. Peer editing other peoples' papers gives me a headache for the rest of the day. :wallbang

OMG lyk r ne of em writn n txtspk (We were working on a group project once - one person's was written entirely in that abomination against the English language....most of the other group members ran in opposite directions while I chewed out the other person)

A LOT of people need to return to their junior high English classes. OMG. Peer editing other peoples' papers gives me a headache for the rest of the day. :wallbang
heh, you too, huh? omg...I wanted to tear this one paper I read to shreads, but reaaly couldn't, because grammar and style didn't matter.

OMG lyk r ne of em writn n txtspk (We were working on a group project once - one person's was written entirely in that abomination against the English language....most of the other group members ran in opposite directions while I chewed out the other person)
wtfh? someone did that on purpose?? idiot!!!

OMG lyk r ne of em writn n txtspk (We were working on a group project once - one person's was written entirely in that abomination against the English language....most of the other group members ran in opposite directions while I chewed out the other person)
AUGH.

AUGH.

AUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH.

I SO feel for you. UGH. What a HEADACHE. :wallbang

heh, you too, huh? omg...I wanted to tear this one paper I read to shreads, but reaaly couldn't, because grammar and style didn't matter.

And teachers wonder why there are so many students who don't know jack **** about writing. :crazy:

It was PAINFULLY obvious that this guy did *NOT* double-check his paper, either. UGH. I had to peer edit this guy's paper in my botany class this morning. CHRIST. I thought I had that behind me when I completed English Composition II in 2004. :cuss: BAD PAPERS BAD GRAMMAR BAD PUNCTUATION FHJDSHFDHJFDHSADHJLFDSAHJKL FDSDSDS; *brain explode* He did his paper on paleobotany, but NONE Of it made sense. I did, however, tell him that he needed stronger paragraph structuring. The whole paper was just useless, jumpy word diarrhea.

I didn't make danceline, but I'm a shoo in for pep squad.

A LOT of people need to return to their junior high English classes. OMG. Peer editing other peoples' papers gives me a headache for the rest of the day. :wallbang
I agree. *blows brains out*

tommorow morning's it... i'm so freakin nervous..and excited...and anxious...

I'm so damn lazy. I have so many visions of cleaning/organizing that I want to do, but I am just too damn lazy. *sigh*

And teachers wonder why there are so many students who don't know jack **** about writing. :crazy:

It was PAINFULLY obvious that this guy did *NOT* double-check his paper, either. UGH. I had to peer edit this guy's paper in my botany class this morning. CHRIST. I thought I had that behind me when I completed English Composition II in 2004. :cuss: BAD PAPERS BAD GRAMMAR BAD PUNCTUATION FHJDSHFDHJFDHSADHJLFDSAHJKL FDSDSDS; *brain explode* He did his paper on paleobotany, but NONE Of it made sense. I did, however, tell him that he needed stronger paragraph structuring. The whole paper was just useless, jumpy word diarrhea.

I had to read 2 classmate's papers in my medical terminology class these past couple weeks, and this one, man...sentences that made no sense, awful citing, incorrect word usage...I mean, I'm sure I'm the only one in this class with an English degree, but still...if any of these others are going for a degree, they would have had to have taken a Comp class sometime!

get the results next week

I've had the evening from hell.

I can't believe the appointment was this early. I am rather nervous for some reason.

I've had the evening from hell.
what happend?

I've had the evening from hell.

I'm sorry, Kelly. :( :bighug:

what happend?
Well I collapsed at my house from this pain, got rushed to the hospital again and this bitchy doctor told me it was menstrual cramps. Helllo!! I don't have my .!!! After I got some rest they released me, didn't get home until late last night but boy was I upset, so was my mom. We're going to my family doctor to get this figured out once and for all. I've had cramps before, I know it's not that!

I have texted and left messages to a couple of friends about seeing if they wanna join me for dancing tonight. No one has replied/responded yet. *sigh* Regardless, I will go alone because it's not in our downtown area. I just wanted to see if anyone wanted to join in as well.

It's sad - I mean, I love my mom, and vice versa - but we can't even be in the same room 45 minutes before we're at each other's throats

I used to come home *every* weekend, like clockwork. (Campus isn't THAT far away, the laundry and food are free, etc.) Today is my first day in this house in a couple or so weeks, and while I was originally going back Monday, I'm now planning to leave tomorrow when I get up. And the only reason I even came back today, truth be told: My Amazon order shipped here by mistake, and my insurance bill is due (which I get the pleasure of paying my freakin self, thank you very much).

And I mean, yeah, I don't always completely help the matter...I could be a little neater, and if you held a gun to me I *could* do the dishes while here (and lucky me there's no dishwasher) - but having a bad day at work (the fun of managing a store) is no reason to start biting my head off the minute you walk in the door, is it?

I was nearly run over by a truck. It was a stop sign, Mister... Let's not do that again, shall we? :mad:

Then I was hit on by another man. What the **** is wrong with me that I can't attract a decent female????

I was nearly run over by a truck. It was a stop sign, Mister... Let's not do that again, shall we? :mad:
Awww...sorry to hear. :( Glad you are okay, though. That's most important.

What the **** is wrong with me that I can't attract a decent female????
That's how I feel about guys. I seem to be the kiss of death in attraction. :(

dad: (knocks) can you open?
me: i'm getting changed.
dad: SO AM I SUPPOSED TO JUST STAND HERE UNTIL YOU'RE READY TO COME OUT?
me: i guess so!
dad: WELL I'M NOT GOING TO! (leaves, goes to his room, slams door loud enough to wake up everyone in tokyo)

:lookaroun

dad: (knocks) can you open?
me: i'm getting changed.
dad: SO AM I SUPPOSED TO JUST STAND HERE UNTIL YOU'RE READY TO COME OUT?
me: i guess so!
dad: WELL I'M NOT GOING TO! (leaves, goes to his room, slams door loud enough to wake up everyone in tokyo)

:lookaroun
He's a dick.

I need single friends who want to go out and hang out, dance, coffee house, scope guys, etc. All of my friends are so damn busy with their kids/babies or already have a significant other who don't wanna get out and hang out. SIGH!

I need single friends who want to go out and hang out, dance, coffee house, scope guys, etc. All of my friends are so damn busy with their kids/babies or already have a significant other who don't wanna get out and hang out. SIGH!


Mona, if I were in New Mexico I would be there to do these things with you. :) Well, except for the dancing and scoping guys. :lol: Scoping guys really isn't me. :lol:

dad: (knocks) can you open?
me: i'm getting changed.
dad: SO AM I SUPPOSED TO JUST STAND HERE UNTIL YOU'RE READY TO COME OUT?
me: i guess so!
dad: WELL I'M NOT GOING TO! (leaves, goes to his room, slams door loud enough to wake up everyone in tokyo)

:lookaroun
O_O wtf?

Mona, if I were in New Mexico I would be there to do these things with you. :) Well, except for the dancing and scoping guys. :lol: Scoping guys really isn't me. :lol:
:lol: Awww...come on, Mike. It could be fun! ;) Well, you made me laugh. Thanks!

I don't see how girls aren't falling over to get to you, Max...you seem like a very kind person who cares for others and the environment around you (and that is rare indeed!) :D



Then I was hit on by another man. What the **** is wrong with me that I can't attract a decent female????

I don't see how girls aren't falling over to get to you, Max...you seem like a very kind person who cares for others and the environment around you (and that is rare indeed!) :D

That does seem to be the popular theory. I've been told the same thing by my "real-world" friends, as well.

Hell! I wouldn't know what to do with a girl if she begged me to be with her...

Thanks for the kind words. I will now throw myself a pity party and fall asleep with a good book!

A LOT of people need to return to their junior high English classes. OMG. Peer editing other peoples' papers gives me a headache for the rest of the day. :wallbang
AUGH FOR THE LOVE OF GOD MAKE IT STOP OMG.

I PEER EDITED AN EVEN WORSE PAPER TODAY.

(I seriously had no idea what it was supposed to be about. Something about genetically altered foods and government programs?)

I think it should be perfectly legal to stop, pull someone out of thier car & beat the crap out of them when they ride my bumper! Especially when this person is riding my @ss because I'm not speeding in a SCHOOL ZONE when kids are eveywhere! Randomly stepping on my brakes does make it a little better though :whistle:

I haven't heard from my roommate in while. I hope he's alright. I'm not worried yet, but I'm starting to think about getting worried...

holy crap...HD receivers are about the price of the tv, even on ebay.

I can't get this bottle of water opened.

I have to go to the dentist.

I had to take my dog to the vet this morning. He has been really sick for a few days now. He hasn't eaten his food since Tuesday. Last night he kept throwing up. He also had a bad case of the shakes. The vet gave him a shot and some medication and he seems to be doing at least a little better.


I had to break off a friendship today. I didn't want to, but I thought it was best for both me and my friend. This friend was keeping a lot of distance between us, so I knew that they were uncomfortable around me. I was also really uncomfrotable around them. I wish things could have ended differently.:(

I had to break off a friendship today. I didn't want to, but I thought it was best for both me and my friend. This friend was keeping a lot of distance between us, so I knew that they were uncomfortable around me. I was also really uncomfrotable around them. I wish things could have ended differently.:(
I don't even know what to say.

I don't even know what to say.


It's okay, Kelly. That's just the way things go sometimes.

Mike, I'm really sorry that Duke is sick. I hope he gets better very soon.

He seems to be feeling better. :)


I'm sorry that you had to end a friendship. That must have been hard. I hope that you feel better soon.

Thanks for your concern, Jenny. I am doing okay though. :)

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. *SCREAMS* JESUS. Certain blood relatives are REALLY PISSING ME THE **** OFF RIGHT NOW.

I would so very much like to be able to smack them across the face and tell them to mind their own ****ing business. JKL;SADFDSAFGHJKLHJKL;FDSAHJKLHJKL

O. M. G.

Gee ive been waiting for this watch from amazon for over 2 weeks now i need it by next week as its a birthday pressie for my brother eeekkk!

:cuss: :wallbang

Mike, awww....sorry to hear about the friendship. That is always tough.

Jenny, are ALL the vets closed tomorrow? You might wann check more out. Also, check with your local vets because ometimes there can be an arrangement to pick up animals and the owners. Maybe you can do something like that.

Our cat Chava has been scratching at his ears, more so on one ear. My mother thinks that he probably has an ear infection. :( The vet isn't open tomorrow because this is a holiday weekend. We will have to wait until next Saturday to take him. My mother has to work all week and can't take him. I can't drive to take him and my transportation doesn't allow pets. We have clipped his nails, but he's still scratching his ears/neck. I'm trying to keep an eye on him so that when he scratches I can gently stop him.


I'm sorry, Jenny. :( I think you should try to get him to a vet as soon as possible. Even if you have to take him to a pet hospital. I hope that he feels better soon.

This picture is self-explanatory. This was my first DVD player ever. It was with me through two moves, one of them being across the state. It went through quite a bit of wear (you can't see it too well in the pic, but it got scratched up pretty good on top :lol:), but it was always good to me. It was made a long enough time ago that I could skip through whatever the hell I wanted to on my discs... Like, for instance, I could skip right through the FBI screen and such, and go right to the menu. I can't do that on the DVD recorder I got back in 2005.


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Some vets are on call through the holidays. My cousin is always on call.

I'm on a medication, and it makes me want to eat everything in sight. It also gives me insomnia. It's 2:40 am, and I'm still posting, lol.

I have the stomach flu. Sucks balls.

I have a bad stomach too tonight i cant sleep gee i have work in 5hours i can not sleep :(

I Had two Bites of A Sandwitch And Now I Have To Hurl.

Gae.

I didn't know that. Thanks. I will look into that. I have to keep a close eye on him because we want to try and keep him from scratching as much as possible. It's not easy, but we are trying. Hopefully some type of arrangement can be made so that we can get him into the vet.
Any word yet?

I wanna go Cosmic Bowling tonight! It starts at 9:30 p.m. (in about 45 minutes from now), but I have no one to go with! I can't really go by myself because bowling is a two or more player game. :(

I wanna go Cosmic Bowling tonight! It starts at 9:30 p.m. (in about 45 minutes from now), but I have no one to go with! I can't really go by myself because bowling is a two or more player game. :(


I'm sorry, Mona.

I have the stomach flu. Sucks balls.


I hope that you feel better soon.

I'm on a medication, and it makes me want to eat everything in sight. It also gives me insomnia. It's 2:40 am, and I'm still posting, lol.

I know what that is like, I'm afraid.

Starting to feel sick again :barf:

thanks jen. :)

My complaint now is that my period is waaaaaaay early. I'm still on my light blue pills...it usually doesn't start untill I'm on my dark green ones. -_-

thanks jen. :)

My complaint now is that my period is waaaaaaay early. I'm still on my light blue pills...it usually doesn't start untill I'm on my dark green ones. -_-
Courtnee, do you think the reason you are sick to your stomach, might be due to you taking the pill?. I had the same problem, when I was your age...but, honey, I hope that you feel better soon:bighug:

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This is a shockingly accurate smiley to describe how I am feeling right now. I feel ****ing ROTTEN now :'C

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This is a shockingly accurate smiley to describe how I am feeling right now. I feel ****ing ROTTEN now :'C
:( I am sorry, Allison...Hang in there, girl..

Lactose intolerance. F. Can't eat cheese first thing in the day....spent some quality bathroom time thanks to some really awesome mac and cheese.

So what did I eat about 40 mins ago? Ice cream so I could eat the rest of the strawberries in the fridge before they went bad. Bleech...I feel ick. I took an acidophilous...or however you spell it...pill before I ate it, so I hope that helps.

I would hate to be lactose intolerance. I hope you feel better.
It does stink. I can usually handle cheese and milk at dinner or after, if I've eaten breakfast and lunch during the day. But all I had today before dinner was half a donut. Should have known better! I don't know why a day's worth of food makes digesting dairy easier, but it sometimes does. :confused:

Still stinks though, because before I went undiagnosed with an anxiety disorder for 3 years, which damaged my GI tract, I could eat dairy all the time, no problem.

Courtnee, do you think the reason you are sick to your stomach, might be due to you taking the pill?. I had the same problem, when I was your age...but, honey, I hope that you feel better soon:bighug:
I never thought about that. I've been on it for 3 months and I've never had a problem. Plus, my whole family got sick, too. I think it was just the flu or something.

Physically speaking, I am feeling terrible today. I've got a headache accompanied with a feverish/burning up feeling, and I am soooooo sleepy! The headache is really piercing the top of my right eye socket. It's really hurting me. Today is my late work day, and I won't get out until another two hours. I just wanna go home and crash out and nap for a couple of hours. Oh, the horror and agony of waiting! ohno:

I never thought about that. I've been on it for 3 months and I've never had a problem. Plus, my whole family got sick, too. I think it was just the flu or something.
Okay, the reason why I asked, because I was placed on the pill when I was around your age, and it made me really sick to my stomach; but it sounds to me, that this is not the case, that you just have the stomach flu..well, I hope that you are feeling better, pretty lady; being sick sucks...

Okay, the reason why I asked, because I was placed on the pill when I was around your age, and it made me really sick to my stomach; but it sounds to me, that this is not the case, that you just have the stomach flu..well, I hope that you are feeling better, pretty lady; being sick sucks...
Thanks, Tara. :hug: And I hope you feel better, Mona. :)

ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
First, someone hacked into my MySpace site, and that ass, whom I went on the date with hell with is STILL calling me....damn, **** off, please!

Thanks, Courtnee and Jen.

I did was lie on my couch and nap yesterday evening after work and then went to bed at night. I had a headache that would just linger. I planned on going out doing some Swing Dance, but I felt super tired and nauseous when I got there. As soon as I felt their doors were locked, I got back into my car and drove back home. I was nearly falling alseep on the road, and it was only a sunny 7:00 p.m.! That's dangerous! I came home and just crashed out.

I woke up slightly with the headache, but I wish it would go away. You can tell I am not feeling well today. I just feel cranky.

I received an open invitation to an online friend's birthday bash get-together at this place where a local band is playing. This means - live music!!! It sounds a lot like fun, and I RSVPed, but I am sooooo nervous. I am going to meet this friend and possibly meet her best friend who I am also friends with. This will be the first time I will be meeting the two of them, but I am a bit nervous about it.

ARRRRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
First, someone hacked into my MySpace site, and that ass, whom I went on the date with hell with is STILL calling me....damn, **** off, please!
THE ASS called me again TONIGHT!!! wtf!!! this is the reason why I never date anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!:rolleyes:

damn......someone has a hard time getting a clue. Maybe he needs a note nailed to his head.

Just remember: When ticked, I tend to play the revenge card. :lol:

My roommate's stepped in it this time. Last night I couldn't go to bed until 6 AM because he was playing Gears of War, and while he DID turn down the TV, it's still an awfully bright light, and he couldn't stop cackling like an idiot with every win or loss.

Then, tonight, I went to bed at 8 PM since 1)He wasn't here, and 2)I havae a test tomorrow.

Well, about 10:30 he walks in, and turns on aa baseball game from the get-go, while IM'ing people with the sound on his laptop up, and other varaious things.

Sleep's already been an issue before, he's just acting like a dick at this point. Talking is out of the question as well aat this point.

You wouldn't like me when I'm angry.

In about 1.5 hours, I am going to be meeting up with S and possibly M in person. I've talked/written/texted to both of them online, but I am still feeling a bit nervous about "first impressions." I don't want to say/do something stupid, and I really want them to want to like talking/hanging out with them for future invites. M's birthday will be in early May, so....

*tries to breathe deeply*

In about 1.5 hours, I am going to be meeting up with S and possibly M in person. I've talked/written/texted to both of them online, but I am still feeling a bit nervous about "first impressions." I don't want to say/do something stupid, and I really want them to want to like talking/hanging out with them for future invites. M's birthday will be in early May, so....

*tries to breathe deeply*

Be yourself. If they don't like that, that's not your problem. Move on to J and Q. :lol:

Just remember: When ticked, I tend to play the revenge card. :lol:

My roommate's stepped in it this time. Last night I couldn't go to bed until 6 AM because he was playing Gears of War, and while he DID turn down the TV, it's still an awfully bright light, and he couldn't stop cackling like an idiot with every win or loss.

Then, tonight, I went to bed at 8 PM since 1)He wasn't here, and 2)I havae a test tomorrow.

Well, about 10:30 he walks in, and turns on aa baseball game from the get-go, while IM'ing people with the sound on his laptop up, and other varaious things.

Sleep's already been an issue before, he's just acting like a dick at this point. Talking is out of the question as well aat this point.

You wouldn't like me when I'm angry.
oh, you should **** him up.

Certain people that I don't like are going to be on the pep squad this year. I'm not going to let them ruin it for me. no, sir.

You wouldn't like me when I'm angry.

*grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* *throws roommate out the window* *grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* *muscle flex*

*grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* *throws roommate out the window* *grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr* *muscle flex*

I've had that urge more than once... Problem was, he was twice my size, and he had anger issues. Both factors wouldn't have propelled events in a very pleasant direction... for me... or for him, after I called the police.

Yeah. Those were stressful times. Roommates are a risky sort of adventure.

Be yourself. If they don't like that, that's not your problem. Move on to J and Q. :lol:
:lol:

The birthday get-together was fun! It was like I expected it to be - really fun, but I was quiet and out of conversation topics (like always). I am concerned about the married friend. Her husband sounds to be such a ********. I learned last night this was her first actual friends outing in five months because her husband is always out with his friends and leaves her with their two kids.

Last night I accidently burned my right index finger on the stove. :( :( We always make sure the stove gets turned off, but we somehow accidently left the stove on and later when I went to clean up I accidently touched the surface on the stove where the burner was still on. It hurt soooo bad! I was crying soooo much. We have a flat top stove. The kind that has burners, but they are not raised up. My mother looked at the burn. My finger was really red from it. She said I'll probably get a blister from it. :( It still hurts. :( I put ice on it last night.
I burnt the top of my hand in the oven (trying to turn something that was baking, I accidentally touched the top). I can still see where I did it and this has to have been over a year ago.

Weird....I found out a couple of hours ago that an old high school nemesis (okay, an old bully, more like it...) and I are mutual friends to one of my online friends who I met up with yesterday in person. This old bully sent greetings to me through our mutual friend. I found that to be funny! :rofl:

Weird....I found out a couple of hours ago that an old high school nemesis (okay, an old bully, more like it...) and I are mutual friends to one of my online friends who I met up with yesterday in person. This old bully sent greetings to me through our mutual friend. I found that to be funny! :rofl:
:lol: that's crazy.

:lol: that's crazy.
It is, isn't it? :lol:

Well, she was never a full bully, but she did pull my leg a couple of times and used my questionnaire I created about my crush against me when we were high school sophomores. Ack!

I guess she forgot about this or didn't think much of it??? She only mentioned remembering me from middle school. She probably forgot the high school scenario.

i can't stand it when he talks about himself this way....

i'm gonna go kill myself !

Last night I accidently burned my right index finger on the stove. :( :( We always make sure the stove gets turned off, but we somehow accidently left the stove on and later when I went to clean up I accidently touched the surface on the stove where the burner was still on. It hurt soooo bad! I was crying soooo much. We have a flat top stove. The kind that has burners, but they are not raised up. My mother looked at the burn. My finger was really red from it. She said I'll probably get a blister from it. :( It still hurts. :( I put ice on it last night.

I hope that you are feeling better, Jenny.

It is, isn't it? :lol:

Well, she was never a full bully, but she did pull my leg a couple of times and used my questionnaire I created about my crush against me when we were high school sophomores. Ack!

I guess she forgot about this or didn't think much of it??? She only mentioned remembering me from middle school. She probably forgot the high school scenario.


This sort of thing has happend to me a couple of times, Mona. I'll run into people in the store who were total jerks towards me in high school and they'll be like "Oh, hi!" :eek2: :lol: And I'll be like, "Huh?" :lol:

it seems like every time we get the exterminator to douse the house in scorpion poison, MORE of them flock in and they don't die. it's like the guy mixes up the poison with soda.

it seems like every time we get the exterminator to douse the house in scorpion poison, MORE of them flock in and they don't die. it's like the guy mixes up the poison with soda.
I just found an ant crawling on the ceiling and thought that was horrible. I can't imagine having scorpions!

i'm gonna go kill myself !
I hope you're not serious!!

This sort of thing has happend to me a couple of times, Mona. I'll run into people in the store who were total jerks towards me in high school and they'll be like "Oh, hi!" :eek2: :lol: And I'll be like, "Huh?" :lol:
Yeah, what I figure is that these jerks/bullies have grown up and just phased out their mean behavior once they have come across us. Either that, or they wanna subtley make peace.

Right before I came home, I hung out with some friends. We were talking about some real-life haunted houses in their neighborhood and around this area. Now, I am totally freaked out by them! They are intriguing yet creepy just by the stories they have told me. I can't even go to sleep!!!

I wanna research the houses, but I am finding dead-ends online. Argh.

My email is down again. Go figure. :lol:


Tickets went on sale this morning for Rush's September 8th performance here in Chicago. With all the recent drains on my income I was unable to buy a ticket. Thankfully, they are playing at a place which almost never sells out so I hope within a month or so I can get myself a ticket. I'll have to go to the show by myself though since none of my friends like Rush. Our local Classic Rock radio station has been playing blocks of Rush songs all day. :rock:

This sort of thing has happend to me a couple of times, Mona. I'll run into people in the store who were total jerks towards me in high school and they'll be like "Oh, hi!" :eek2: :lol: And I'll be like, "Huh?" :lol:
Ha ha, that happened to me a couple times as well; while I was growing up I had this ass, who used to tease the hell out of me, and was a total bully from hell; then one day, several years later, I ran into him at a 7-11 and he asked me out...I said, no thanks!:lol:

So, I didn't end up going to the club grand opening in my state captial that's 45 minutes north of my city. I really wanted to go, but driving through the highway intimidates me way too much. Instead, I bailed out and stayed in town.

Ha ha, that happened to me a couple times as well; while I was growing up I had this ass, who used to tease the hell out of me, and was a total bully from hell; then one day, several years later, I ran into him at a 7-11 and he asked me out...I said, no thanks!:lol:

He probably had a crush on you. I used to torment this girl in 4th grade. I would pull her hair everyday. I just liked her, is all! :rolleyes: Kids...

He probably had a crush on you. I used to torment this girl in 4th grade. I would pull her hair everyday. I just liked her, is all! :rolleyes: Kids...
True..I remember I used to tease the hell out of this guy in the 8th grade, because I had the worse crush on him, but I did not want him or others to know...

I'm currently in a 99% cranky mood while I am around here. Maybe I should stay away from here for a couple of hours to calm down.

my shins hurt because I ran like a half mile yesterday. I need to go run everyday, maybe then I wouldn't be so gross looking.

my shins hurt because I ran like a half mile yesterday. I need to go run everyday, maybe then I wouldn't be so gross looking.
An excellent idea! Ride a bike. It's easier on your joints.

Ha ha, that happened to me a couple times as well; while I was growing up I had this ass, who used to tease the hell out of me, and was a total bully from hell; then one day, several years later, I ran into him at a 7-11 and he asked me out...I said, no thanks!:lol:


That must have been some sweet revenge though. :lol:

I'm currently in a 99% cranky mood while I am around here. Maybe I should stay away from here for a couple of hours to calm down.

I'm sorry that you are feeling bad, Mona. :( I hope that you feel better soon.

I'm sorry that your e-mail is down again Mike. I hope that you are able to get tickets to the concert so that you're able to go.


Thanks, Jenny. My email is still down though. :lol: You know the way my email is though. It could be down for the next three weeks. :eek: :lol:

my shins hurt because I ran like a half mile yesterday. I need to go run everyday, maybe then I wouldn't be so gross looking.
Did you stretch first? I cannot stress the importance of warm-up stretches beforehand. I don't do them often enough myself, but I know to do it whenever you want to go out and be active.

I agree w/ Max. I actually just got back from a brisk 12-mile bike ride. That was my first ride for the season -- once I get into my stride for the season, it's not a problem for me to do 18-20 miles on my bike in a single afternoon.

Really, the best thing for you to do is a variety of activities. Switch it up. :) Go jogging one week, lap swimming the second week, biking the third week. Or go jogging, and THEN swimming one day, biking and swimming the next day and so on. It's totally up to you. Just remember that when you get bored, you can always switch it up a little.

But remember, STRETCH! ;)

Did you stretch first? I cannot stress the importance of warm-up stretches beforehand. I don't do them often enough myself, but I know to do it whenever you want to go out and be active.

I agree w/ Max. I actually just got back from a brisk 12-mile bike ride. That was my first ride for the season -- once I get into my stride for the season, it's not a problem for me to do 18-20 miles on my bike in a single afternoon.

Really, the best thing for you to do is a variety of activities. Switch it up. :) Go jogging one week, lap swimming the second week, biking the third week. Or go jogging, and THEN swimming one day, biking and swimming the next day and so on. It's totally up to you. Just remember that when you get bored, you can always switch it up a little.

But remember, STRETCH! ;)
LOL, I stretched. I even made my DAD stretch. [he a HUGE 5k runner and he's all, "stretching is pansy-ish -LOL."]

Most of the time, stretching is my only form of excersize. But I'm realizing that I'm an emotional eater and I'm getting some unattractive love handles :barf:

LOL, I stretched. I even made my DAD stretch. [he a HUGE 5k runner and he's all, "stretching is pansy-ish -LOL."]

Most of the time, stretching is my only form of excersize. But I'm realizing that I'm an emotional eater and I'm getting some unattractive love handles :barf:
Good girl :D

You're lucky. I've had love handles since I was a kid. Don't think I can get rid of 'em unless I get a tummy tuck. Oh well.

Good luck with that, BTW. :)

That must have been some sweet revenge though. :lol:
Nah, not really...I was not affected by this ass; so when I turned him down for a date, I felt nothing, because he was a nothing in my life.

Good girl :D

You're lucky. I've had love handles since I was a kid. Don't think I can get rid of 'em unless I get a tummy tuck. Oh well.

Good luck with that, BTW. :)
thanks. :)

I'm getting some unattractive love handles :barf:

I have that garbage that sits on your hips and thighs. It's so nasty.

@&%$!@#($%$#@ The card we use to get in the door at recess can't be found and I looked in all my pants and in my coat and it's nowhere here. Great....I'm gonna get blamed. My boss already hates me. I might as well just go tell him I quit.

@&%$!@#($%$#@ The card we use to get in the door at recess can't be found and I looked in all my pants and in my coat and it's nowhere here. Great....I'm gonna get blamed. My boss already hates me. I might as well just go tell him I quit.


I'm sure it will not come down to you having to quit, Cathy. Even if you did lose the card, your're only human. We've all lost things from time to time.

I'm sure it will not come down to you having to quit, Cathy. Even if you did lose the card, your're only human. We've all lost things from time to time.
I know. My mom says it's my paranoia.

I hate my brain sometimes. grrrr


Plus we had 2 at the beginning of the year and one got lost awhile ago. No idea who lost that one, but if they do anything to me, my parents told me I'd have a good case of discrimination because no one was ever reprimended for the first card.

my shins hurt because I ran like a half mile yesterday. I need to go run everyday, maybe then I wouldn't be so gross looking.
Hon, you are far from being GROSS looking (you are very beautiful), but if you feel out of shape, just exercise for an hour, either, running or walking, and cut your sugar intake; trust me, you will be in the best shape in your life in less than a month; and PLEASE, strench before and after you exercise, so your muscles will not be so sore..and drink a lot of water, that also helps as well:)

Hon, you are far from being GROSS looking (you are very beautiful), but if you feel out of shape, just exercise for an hour, either, running or walking, and cut your sugar intake; trust me, you will be in the best shape in your life in less than a month; and PLEASE, strench before and after you exercise, so your muscles will not be so sore..and drink a lot of water, that also helps as well:)
thanks for the advice, my dad basicly said the same thing. I've been watching what I eat, calories and such.

thanks for the advice, my dad basicly said the same thing. I've been watching what I eat, calories and such.
Do not limit too much of a calorie intake, that can actually cause you NOT to loose weight; the key is to exercise and stay active.

My co-worker friend's fiance's cousin passed away from a horrible motorcycle accident this past Sunday. :( The cousins were really close and grew up in the same house. Plus, he was going to be in their wedding this coming July in Las Vegas. :(

My co-worker friend's fiance's cousin passed away from a horrible motorcycle accident this past Sunday. :( The cousins were really close and grew up in the same house. Plus, he was going to be in their wedding this coming July in Las Vegas. :(


That is awful news, Mona. :( I'm sorry.

Do not limit too much of a calorie intake, that can actually cause you NOT to loose weight; the key is to exercise and stay active.
Or do what I do...

Eat a lot of fruits and vegetables. And a lot of water. And, oh yeah, lean meat. It worked for me last time, it's working for me now. :lol:

Last night I had a dream about my cat Foxy, who died almost a year and a half ago, at age 17. On one hand, it was so nice holding him and kissing him. The dream felt so real. I just hated the feeling of waking up and realizing that it was only a dream. That's happened to me with deceased family members too. It's an awful way to start the day.

Or do what I do...

Eat a lot of fruits and vegetables. And a lot of water. And, oh yeah, lean meat. It worked for me last time, it's working for me now. :lol:
And, you look wonderful, too:)
If you are trying to shed a few pounds, then I recommend, sticking to a 1500 calorie a day diet and exercising for 45 minutes each day.

Last night I had a dream about my cat Foxy, who died almost a year and a half ago, at age 17. On one hand, it was so nice holding him and kissing him. The dream felt so real. I just hated the feeling of waking up and realizing that it was only a dream. That's happened to me with deceased family members too. It's an awful way to start the day.
Janice, remember it was only a dream; but I will pray for both you and Foxy for protection:)

Last night I had a dream about my cat Foxy, who died almost a year and a half ago, at age 17. On one hand, it was so nice holding him and kissing him. The dream felt so real. I just hated the feeling of waking up and realizing that it was only a dream. That's happened to me with deceased family members too. It's an awful way to start the day.


I'm so very sorry, Janice. :(

I woke up this morning at 3:49am from a nightmare. I woke up crying. The worst part is I remember the nightmare. I haven't gone back to sleep. I don't even want to.

My sister has been acting up this week in school. She's causing problems. Her teacher called my mother at work Monday. She got in trouble again yesterday (Tuesday).

This week isn't going very well for me. The only good part of this week is that our cat is getting better.



I'm sorry, Jenny. :( I hope that the week begins to improve for you. :bighug:

It'll take me 20-freakin'-months to save up for my camera. :cuss:

I'm kind of disappointed and a little hurt that two people that I thought were friends didn't post in the thread I made about being here five years. :(
If I am one of those two people in question, then I apologize. I just really don't post in SO anniversary threads. There are too many of those threads emerging that I just don't really take interest in replying to them. Sorry if I hurt your feelings. All in all, congrats! :D

If I am one of those two people in question, then I apologize. I just really don't post in SO anniversary threads. There are too many of those threads emerging that I just don't really take interest in replying to them. Sorry if I hurt your feelings. All in all, congrats! :D
I'm the same way as Mona. So I apologize as well if I was included.

If I am one of those two people in question, then I apologize. I just really don't post in SO anniversary threads. There are too many of those threads emerging that I just don't really take interest in replying to them. Sorry if I hurt your feelings. All in all, congrats! :D


Actually Mona, I remember being pretty hurt when you did not post in my anniversary thread either. Or when you didn't post in the "Prayers Needed" thread for my dog. I guess I understand a little bit more now why you didn't.

Actually Mona, I remember being pretty hurt when you did not post in my anniversary thread either. Or when you didn't post in the "Prayers Needed" thread for my dog. I guess I understand a little bit more now why you didn't.
Oh, I thought I posted in the Prayers Needed thread. I must've accidentally and completely overlooked the thread. Sorry about that. Oh, now I remember that I did post about your dog in the Complaint Department (as I also mentioned in my last email). I apologize for this particular stand-alone thread. What happens sometimes when I come into SO is that I read my email notifications and/or check out the new threads, I overlook some of the newer ones listed that are bolded. When I later come back to the new threads, the bold ones (which are newer) are no longer bolded and end up being missed. Plus, I also reponded that it was good news your dog is doing better when you posted about him the other day at Feel Good. :)

Mona, I didn't realize that you don't like to post in those types of threads. I was hurt that you didn't want to post in my thread, but now I understand why. I thought perhaps I said something wrong and in turn you didn't want to post in my thread. I didn't realize you felt that way also Cathy about those threads.
Yeah, I see so many of those "I have reached x posts" and "This is my X year at SO," so I do read them and acknowledge them. I do enter them and smile, but I just don't usually post in them. They're always the same, and the only thing I can post is "Congrats." I really don't like to post one-word replies in threads. I'm wordy, if you can tell, so I like actual wordiness and on-going conversations in threads in. It's nothing personal against you or anyone. I thought would Cathy would have wished me a happy birthday in December, but she totally did not post in it. I felt really hurt as she had wished me a happy birthday the previous year. There are times when I think that Tara would post advice or words in my particular posts, but she doesn't. Oh, well. I guess I have to think maybe sometimes others overlook things as well. I can see where you are coming from. I'm glad you can understand and to prevent future hurt feelings. :)

Oh, I thought I posted in the Prayers Needed thread. I must've accidentally and completely overlooked the thread. Sorry about that. Oh, now I remember that I did post about your dog in the Complaint Department (as I also mentioned in my last email). I apologize for this particular stand-alone thread. What happens sometimes when I come into SO is that I read my email notifications and/or check out the new threads, I overlook some of the newer ones listed that are bolded. When I later come back to the new threads, the bold ones (which are newer) are no longer bolded and end up being missed. Plus, I also reponded that it was good news your dog is doing better when you posted about him the other day at Feel Good. :)


Yeah, I see so many of those "I have reached x posts" and "This is my X year at SO," so I do read them and acknowledge them. I do enter them and smile, but I just don't usually post in them. They're always the same, and the only thing I can post is "Congrats." I really don't like to post one-word replies in threads. I'm wordy, if you can tell, so I like actual wordiness and on-going conversations in threads in. It's nothing personal against you or anyone. I thought would Cathy would have wished me a happy birthday in December, but she totally did not post in it. I felt really hurt as she had wished me a happy birthday the previous year. There are times when I think that Tara would post advice or words in my particular posts, but she doesn't. Oh, well. I guess I have to think maybe sometimes others overlook things as well. I can see where you are coming from. I'm glad you can understand and to prevent future hurt feelings. :)


Mona, I truly apologize about that as well; sometimes, I get wrapped into other matters while I am here on this board. I adore you, and always wish you the best..also, I am there for me, if you need me (for advice):):bighug:
Send me a PM if you ever want to talk:)

My dad is not well. I need to go see him, but I just don't know how I'm going to manage it. I'm in the process of moving, I don't know how I'll get away from work...

I've never left my life behind to see an ailing family member before. What do I do?

My dad is not well. I need to go see him, but I just don't know how I'm going to manage it. I'm in the process of moving, I don't know how I'll get away from work...

I've never left my life behind to see an ailing family member before. What do I do?
I am very sorry that your dad is not well, but remember, he is your father and family should be most importance over other things..I have a mom that is not of the greatest of health, and I do not care if I am in a serious situation, she comes first..so, please go over to see your dad, even if it is for a short period of time.

Mona, I truly apologize about that as well; sometimes, I get wrapped into other matters while I am here on this board. I adore you, and always wish you the best..also, I am there for me, if you need me (for advice):):bighug:
Send me a PM if you ever want to talk:)
Thanks, Tara. I will keep that in mind. Granted, I have not been as depressed and have not felt as much self-hatred toward myself since mid-March. So, that is helping so much. It's okay about the posts and stuff. I have to tell myself that the world does not revolve around me, and sometimes we all get caught up in other matters too. I understand. :)

Thanks, Tara. I will keep that in mind. Granted, I have not been as depressed and have not felt as much self-hatred toward myself since mid-March. So, that is helping so much. It's okay about the posts and stuff. I have to tell myself that the world does not revolve around me, and sometimes we all get caught up in other matters too. I understand. :)
If you ever feel the need to talk, I will always be there for you.

Thanks, Tara. I will keep that in mind. Granted, I have not been as depressed and have not felt as much self-hatred toward myself since mid-March. So, that is helping so much. It's okay about the posts and stuff. I have to tell myself that the world does not revolve around me, and sometimes we all get caught up in other matters too. I understand. :)
That's good! Hope it's all uphill from here. I suppose summer sunshine helps too.

I am very sorry that your dad is not well, but remember, he is your father and family should be most importance over other things..I have a mom that is not of the greatest of health, and I do not care if I am in a serious situation, she comes first..so, please go over to see your dad, even if it is for a short period of time.

I told my supervisors. We'll work the details out in the morning. You're right. Everything else will happen in time. I can move later.

*makes pouty face*

Argh...I still woke up with this damn ongoing headache! ENOUGH already!!! I am totally uncomfortable right now. How in the world am I gonna survive this evening for my sister's graduation and after-dinner outing? I feel like crying now, and I haven't even cried since about six weeks ago! That's how much pain I am in. It has been ongoing since nearly 48 hours, and this is ridiculous! I feel nauseous and quite feverish. I hate this already! :crying: My Propanolol was doing well since I switched taking two doses at once at night, as per my doctor's order. Looks like I'm gonna be calling her and asking to switch to a stronger dose. I can't stand this.

I told my supervisors. We'll work the details out in the morning. You're right. Everything else will happen in time. I can move later.
I am glad...and i hope that you have a good time visiting your dad, too:)

*makes pouty face*

Argh...I still woke up with this damn ongoing headache! ENOUGH already!!! I am totally uncomfortable right now. How in the world am I gonna survive this evening for my sister's graduation and after-dinner outing? I feel like crying now, and I haven't even cried since about six weeks ago! That's how much pain I am in. It has been ongoing since nearly 48 hours, and this is ridiculous! I feel nauseous and quite feverish. I hate this already! :crying: My Propanolol was doing well since I switched taking two doses at once at night, as per my doctor's order. Looks like I'm gonna be calling her and asking to switch to a stronger dose. I can't stand this.
Hey Pretty Lady!!!
I am sorry that you are in pain, but I hope and pray, that you feel better, and soon!:bighug: :)

SHUT THE HELL UP!!!
I am sooooo freaking tired of guys asking why I am single..**** YOU!!!
Why am I single, because A.) I am really really picky when it comes to men B.) Hey, I suck in relationships, and (BELIEVE OR NOT) like being single..



Sorry about the vent.

Thanks, Jenny and Tara. I am feeling better. Finally! I am now certain that 48-hour ongoing headache was hormone-based.

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Um...the email....yes, I am rather disappointed that Sydney was selected as our new dean over Emil. Ugh....sucks....

Thanks, Jenny and Tara. I am feeling better. Finally! I am now certain that 48-hour ongoing headache was hormone-based.

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Um...the email....yes, I am rather disappointed that Sydney was selected as our new dean over Emil. Ugh....sucks....
I am glad that you are feeling better..hormone based headaches suck...

my back is KILLING ME. It's because I haven't been back to PT in forever and a day.

i'm pretty depressed. i have this friend. me and her are kind of similar except she has a lot more friends than i do. and i hate it because she's always like 'mrehh i only have three friends' but then like, she is always out with people having fun while i am at home literally about to kill myself. oh well, she probably doesn't like me for real. i hope she's having a good pot day with her gay friends.

lol@me being a jealous biotch. i just wish she would invite me to go places with her sometimes. it's not her fault. i'm just socially ******** and depend on other people to bring me places. that is why i am always at home. but yeah, this situation is getting sooo old.

for an experiment my brother is being assigned to do in his psychology class, he needs me to go to school and carry a bunch of books in the hall and pretend to accidently drop them all and see how many people come to help me pick them up...he needs both a boy and a girl to do it at different times and compare the results of how many people helped. um, no. i don't know what kind of a wacko teacher assigns students to have their friends go out and publicly humiliate themselves. :rolleyes:

for an experiment my brother is being assigned to do in his psychology class, he needs me to go to school and carry a bunch of books in the hall and pretend to accidently drop them all and see how many people come to help me pick them up...he needs both a boy and a girl to do it at different times and compare the results of how many people helped. um, no. i don't know what kind of a wacko teacher assigns students to have their friends go out and publicly humiliate themselves. :rolleyes:

Where do I sign up? :lol:

I'm on my SECOND PERIOD for the month of April. :cuss:

I'm on my SECOND PERIOD for the month of April. :cuss:
Aww I'm sorry Courtnee. I'm just on my first right now for this month and I'm pretty pissy lol. Cramps suck!:mad:

Aww I'm sorry Courtnee. I'm just on my first right now for this month and I'm pretty pissy lol. Cramps suck!:mad:
you got that right.

Something is not right here. :cuss:

I'm on my SECOND PERIOD for the month of April. :cuss:
that's happened to me a few times...i'd have two in one month and none the next, so it does pay off.

that's happened to me a few times...i'd have two in one month and none the next, so it does pay off.
It's not like it's light or anything like you would think, it's heavier than it was before :cuss:

What a weird evening!!!

First, I was phished. Then, I came across young punks driving through a strip mall who almost hit me!!!

Argh...I am sooo ready to start my homemade fruit smoothie! :grr:

What a weird evening!!!

First, I was phished. Then, I came across young punks driving through a strip mall who almost hit me!!!

Argh...I am sooo ready to start my homemade fruit smoothie! :grr:
Damn, what a bunch of bastards!!!
I almost got runned over myself, while I was out jogging!; and far as being hackd. I was phished once!!! Those hackers need to die..:mad:

Phished? What's that?
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phishing

I am pissed off at myspace it says my account has been Pished and I need to change my password, so i got pissed at it and I freaken canceld my account..
I think someone hacked into myspace today, and why can't people get effin lifes. if you don't see me on your myspace, you know why now!!!!.:mad:

URg, I just feel very depressed right now. I feel very unloved.

URg, I just feel very depressed right now. I feel very unloved.
:( awwww, sweety..trust me, all of us, feel that we are unloved; it is a very common feeling, but trust me, you are more "LOVED" than you realize:) :bighug:

URg, I just feel very depressed right now. I feel very unloved.

Sending love particles your way! :)

Thanks everyone. I'm feeling better today. :)

Things have gone from bad to worse this week with my sister. Monday she kicked someone, Tuesday she slapped someone upside the head, and today she punched someone. I don't know what's gotten into her. She tried to say that when she punched the girl in her class today that it was an accident, which is not true. She was angry because she set her purse down on a table to go to the bathroom. When she came out of the bathroom a girl was holding her purse. She got angry and went over to the girl and punched her in the arm. THe girl gave my sister her purse back. The girl told her that she is going to tell her sister what she did and that her sister was going to beat my sister up. Monday she kicked someon in class because she wanted the teacher's attention. Tuesday she slapped a boy upside the head in gym because hs was following her around. My mother is going to be angry when she finds out that my sister punched someone. She had a talk with her about not hitting, kicking, punching etc. earlier this week.

I'm sorry, Jenny.

Thanks everyone. I'm feeling better today. :)


I'm glad to hear it. :)

Thanks everyone. I'm feeling better today. :)

Ok, then I'll have those love particles back, if you don't mind. Those ain't cheap! :lol:

Thanks, Tara. I will keep that in mind. Granted, I have not been as depressed and have not felt as much self-hatred toward myself since mid-March. So, that is helping so much. It's okay about the posts and stuff. I have to tell myself that the world does not revolve around me, and sometimes we all get caught up in other matters too. I understand. :)


I'm happy to hear that you are feeling a little better, Mona. :)

Ok, then I'll have those love particles back, if you don't mind. Those ain't cheap! :lol:
:lol:

I just realized that this is post 10,666 for me. It's cursedddddd.

My email has been down for over a week now. :mad:

:lol:

I just realized that this is post 10,666 for me. It's cursedddddd.


Then why'd you quote me? Stay away! Back! Back, demon! Back! I have a banana, and I'm not afraid to use it!

aHaHaHaHaHa! :rotflmao:

Then why'd you quote me? Stay away! Back! Back, demon! Back! I have a banana, and I'm not afraid to use it!

aHaHaHaHaHa! :rotflmao:
:rofl:

This whole scheduling thing has got me confused and worried.

I really want to do choir, but I have no room in my schedule. I have to take Alg. II, AAT, Chem., American History, Yearbook, English III AP, and Art

:stressed:

This whole scheduling thing has got me confused and worried.

I really want to do choir, but I have no room in my schedule. I have to take Alg. II, AAT, Chem., American History, Yearbook, English III AP, and Art

:stressed:
Would it be possible for you to do summer school for one or two of these classes?

This whole site makes me want to :wallbang

Daaaaaaaaamn! I just realized a few minutes ago that I have NOT been here since the 23rd - two days ago! :lol:

Gosh...I really got preoccupied.

Meltdown mode begin....

NOW.

jkldsahjdsadsadsufidsh

Daaaaaaaaamn! I just realized a few minutes ago that I have NOT been here since the 23rd - two days ago! :lol:

Gosh...I really got preoccupied.
Ha ha, maybe that is a good thing!;)

okay I never get on this thread but hey its here and i need to vent so here we go

So this week was the ACT...totally sucks btw... and that was Wednesday.. today we took another stupid test for the state. and Tuesday one of my best friends goes psycho on me and desides he doesnt want to talk to me anymore for no particular reason... and this is still going on and I dont even know whats going on with it and its still going on! So therefore. I was totally zoned out through the tests cause I was so pissed and so yeah I'mm going to explode before the years over with:angryfire :rant: :wallbang :cuss:

Would it be possible for you to do summer school for one or two of these classes?
Nope. Lucky me, my school doesn't do summer school. The only thing close to that is remediation...and that's only if you're failing and are just a slacker.

..but I have it all straight now. :)

chit chat's gone down the ****ter

chit chat's gone down the ****ter
basicly.

Ha ha, maybe that is a good thing!;)
:lol: That's true.

A work friend quit today. :(

Is this ****ing school year over yet?

Every night, a white van drives in circles around the apartment parking lot and the parking lot next door. Sometimes it parks there. Just idling. Lights on, engine running. Just there!

How creepy is that? It's after midnight, and this human is still out there and certainly isn't exhibiting behavior that is conducive to the warm and fuzzy feeling I desire right now...

my nose looks horrible and red today.

and I'm really confused about what I want in life.

my nose looks horrible and red today.

and I'm really confused about what I want in life.

Remember, a red nose once saved Christmas... :)

And you're not alone on that second point, I'm afraid... Yes. That is a tricky one. Let us brainstorm, shall we? I find :wallbang usually helps ideas come to mind!

I saw something what "could have been" between my sister and co-worker guy friend that I felt like someone punched me in the stomach. I have not felt this crappy in over a month....until tonight.

I really need someone to talk to via IM, but no one is replying to my IMs and/or is online. :(

I really need someone to talk to via IM, but no one is replying to my IMs and/or is online. :(
I am so sorry that you are feeling so crappy, Mona, I wish I was there for you..


Oh hell, did I have the night from hell, ran into an ex friend of mine, someone, whom I took everywhere in ****ing Southern California; all the top night clubs, to see good bands, etc. and this ****ing bitch, sticks her nose up at me; pretty disgusting coming from a 58 year old grandmother. I did absolutely nothing to this woman to treat me like this, nothing, it just breaks my heart in a way..this why I never trust anyone anymore..and remember kids, just because you are older does not mean that you are someone of maturity or wisdom..hell, I have met teen-agers (people who are 15 or 26 years old) far more mature than most adults I know..makes me ****ing sick to my stomach..:rolleyes:

Going home on monday. I don't like the sound of things.

I am so sorry that you are feeling so crappy, Mona, I wish I was there for you..


Oh hell, did I have the night from hell, ran into an ex friend of mine, someone, whom I took everywhere in ****ing Southern California; all the top night clubs, to see good bands, etc. and this ****ing bitch, sticks her nose up at me; pretty disgusting coming from a 58 year old grandmother. I did absolutely nothing to this woman to treat me like this, nothing, it just breaks my heart in a way..this why I never trust anyone anymore..and remember kids, just because you are older does not mean that you are someone of maturity or wisdom..hell, I have met teen-agers (people who are 15 or 26 years old) far more mature than most adults I know..makes me ****ing sick to my stomach..:rolleyes:
Urg. I hate when people older than me get cocky.

keep those grannies in LINE, Tara!!

Urg. I hate when people older than me get cocky.

keep those grannies in LINE, Tara!!
The sad and pathetic thing is, this woman, has nothing to be COCKY about; she is short, chubby (with a huge gut and ass) small boobs, basically horrible body, a crappy personality, and she is 57 years old, but acts like an immature 16 year old with a stick up her butt...AND, I did absolutely nothing to this woman, but show her kindness and to be a good friend:rolleyes:

I am so sorry that you are feeling so crappy, Mona, I wish I was there for you..
Thanks, Tara. I also wish you were around because I thought about you, but I figured it being a late Friday night, you would be out and not home. :hug:

Oh hell, did I have the night from hell, ran into an ex friend of mine, someone, whom I took everywhere in ****ing Southern California; all the top night clubs, to see good bands, etc. and this ****ing bitch, sticks her nose up at me; pretty disgusting coming from a 58 year old grandmother. I did absolutely nothing to this woman to treat me like this, nothing, it just breaks my heart in a way..this why I never trust anyone anymore..and remember kids, just because you are older does not mean that you are someone of maturity or wisdom..hell, I have met teen-agers (people who are 15 or 26 years old) far more mature than most adults I know..makes me ****ing sick to my stomach..:rolleyes:
Awww....so sorry this happened to you. I agree. Some adults can be as worse - if not much worse - than kids! How ignorant of these individuals. Don't let this woman get to you. Just know that she is NOT worth it.

I just found that the top of my shoulders are reddish from the sunburn during the four-mile MS charity walk. :mad: Damn...I totally spaced out applying sunscreen! I will have to take some tomorrow during the breast cancer walk!

[QUOTE=swedeace]Thanks, Tara. I also wish you were around because I thought about you, but I figured it being a late Friday night, you would be out and not home. :hug:


Mona, awwww hon..thank you so much, your kind words really made my day a lot brighter..thanks for cheering me up:) :bighug: :yourock:

I just found that the top of my shoulders are reddish from the sunburn during the four-mile MS charity walk. :mad: Damn...I totally spaced out applying sunscreen! I will have to take some tomorrow during the breast cancer walk!
Do you walk 5k's? My dad is an avid 5k runner. That's all he ever talks about is running. :lol:

i don't enjoy being pressured to go out with this stupid annoying freshman who likes me.

i don't enjoy being pressured to go out with this stupid annoying freshman who likes me.

There's this girl at work who keeps following me around. My co-workers keep pressuring me to go for it.

I'm not attracted to her at all(although by society standards, she is pretty), she is annoying, and quite frankly, everything about the way she's approached me either creeps me out or angers me.She literally gets in my way while I'm trying to work! There's not even a speck of interest that I can show to this woman. I wouldn't even what her as a friend!

But they keep saying she is just what I "need".

Humans are a strange people.

There's this girl at work who keeps following me around. My co-workers keep pressuring me to go for it.

I'm not attracted to her at all(although by society standards, she is pretty), she is annoying, and quite frankly, everything about the way she's approached me either creeps me out or angers me.She literally gets in my way while I'm trying to work! There's not even a speck of interest that I can show to this woman. I wouldn't even what her as a friend!

But they keep saying she is just what I "need".

Humans are a strange people.
O_O Stay away from her.

There's this girl at work who keeps following me around. My co-workers keep pressuring me to go for it.

I'm not attracted to her at all(although by society standards, she is pretty), she is annoying, and quite frankly, everything about the way she's approached me either creeps me out or angers me.She literally gets in my way while I'm trying to work! There's not even a speck of interest that I can show to this woman. I wouldn't even what her as a friend!

But they keep saying she is just what I "need".

Humans are a strange people.
It is chemistry that attracts a person to another, not looks; and yes, humans are both annoying and strange creatures; trust me, I had my share of bizarre people in my life.

If I have to hear ONE more damn time about how my sister is an adult and her choice, I am going to scream and punch something! pissed: :mad:

Hey mom,


KEEP YOUR GODDAMN ****ING HANDS OFF MY PIZZA THAT I ORDERED WITH MY OWN MONEY. That was my LAST $20 AND YOU GODDAMN ****ING FINISHED OFF MY PIZZA WITHOUT ASKING ME. GOD DAMN IT. THAT WAS GONNA BE MY ****ING LUNCH AND WHAT DOES YOUR ****ING FAT ASS DO?

EATEATEATEATEATEAT

GOD I AM SO SICK OF YOU EATING MY FOOD AND NOT ASKING. DO I HAVE TO PUT A ****ING PADLOCK ON MY SIDE OF THE ****ING FRIDGE? I AM ****ING HUNGRY AND I WAS REALLY CRAVING MY PIZZA AND NOW THERE ISN'T ANY MORE PIZZA. GOD **** IT.

Mona, awwww hon..thank you so much, your kind words really made my day a lot brighter..thanks for cheering me up:) :bighug: :yourock:
:bighug:

Do you walk 5k's? My dad is an avid 5k runner. That's all he ever talks about is running. :lol:
When I do the 5k's, I like to walk them. I hate running, and it quickly wears me out. So, your dad seems to keep in shape by running 5k's all the time. Interesting. Do you ever run with him?

Hey mom,


KEEP YOUR GODDAMN ****ING HANDS OFF MY PIZZA THAT I ORDERED WITH MY OWN MONEY. That was my LAST $20 AND YOU GODDAMN ****ING FINISHED OFF MY PIZZA WITHOUT ASKING ME. GOD DAMN IT. THAT WAS GONNA BE MY ****ING LUNCH AND WHAT DOES YOUR ****ING FAT ASS DO?

EATEATEATEATEATEAT

GOD I AM SO SICK OF YOU EATING MY FOOD AND NOT ASKING. DO I HAVE TO PUT A ****ING PADLOCK ON MY SIDE OF THE ****ING FRIDGE? I AM ****ING HUNGRY AND I WAS REALLY CRAVING MY PIZZA AND NOW THERE ISN'T ANY MORE PIZZA. GOD **** IT.

Been there....

Been there....
omg, I was SO mad. My mom could have at least ASKED if she could finish off MY pizza. It really burns me up when my mom eats MY pizza, because I love Papa John's pizza (which is where I ordered it from yesterday), and my mom is going on and on about how she thinks Papa John's pizza is nasty. Then what does she do? EAT MY FRIGGIN' PAPA JOHN'S PIZZA, EVEN THOUGH SHE GOES ON ABOUT HOW THEY TASTE LIKE ASS. :wallbang

Makes no damn ****ing sense to me.