Hope the title didn't come off as too sarcastic, it's just whenever I share how I feel about myself people tend to think I'm just looking for pity. I'm actually just looking for someone who will understand. And the list:

I always feel stupid
I always feel like I'm bothering people
I avoid people I like
I feel bad complaining about my life when I know lots of others have it way worse
I'm rude
I'm too shy to be polite
Whenever I try not to be shy, people end up hating me
The people that like me are nice people...and I don't like them
I'm not the best at anything
My dad made me feel wrong all the time
My friends made me feel wrong all the time
I'm lazy
I'm too shy to ever get anywhere in life
I feel like I little whiney bitch right now
I made my parents nervous in 8th grade when I'd cry every morning and not go to school
These problems probably arn't half as bad as some of yours
I'll never be who I want to be because I'm scared of everything
I have a bad case of jealousy of better people
I'm stubborn
I have a short temper
Being shy towards some people and not towards others (because, for some reason or other, I'm less afraid of them) probably makes the other think I don't like them
I try so hard not to mess up, that I end up messing up worse than I would have...and it's such a habit, I can't stop it
I think too hard so that when I go to say things, or write things or whatever they don't make any sense
I always jokingly tease people, but when they do it back I can't take it
I'm spoiled, but I complain
I'm too negative, but I can't be positive
I feel like everyone hates me, or is at least annoyed by my presence

Well, that was miserable.

i feel fat, ugly, and stupid all the time. i have no self esteem and it hurts all the relationships in my life. Mine and Jonathan's relationship suffer from it. My mom constantly tells me that I look a little chubby; i'm starting to get frown lines; anything that's wrong w/ me, she points it out and that makes me feel like ****. Some mornings I don't want to get out of bed I hate myself so much.

I have aweful self esteem and it blows.

I have no friends. I have people who say they are my friends but no friends. No one I can really talk to or anyone I can really trust without thinking they are out to decieve me. That makes me think what is wrong with me and why everyone hates me. And because of me thinking that I sound like I AM looking for pity. So I turn to dealing with pain in all of the wrong ways. So in conclucio"n I hate myself because I'm an ungrateful, emotional, insecure, drama queen/teenie.

I walk like a ******.
I hardly fix my hair.
I talk funny.
I say dumb things sometimes.

I'll think of more later. :D

I'll respond the next time I'm in a bad mood.

Oh yeah...

I need to lose weight (AKA exercise and cut back on soda).
I procrastinate.

I'll respond the next time I'm in a bad mood.

Same here.

Im too shy
Im too quiet
I don't think ahead

i annoy people
my "friends" only talk to me when it's convenient
i'm bossy
i'm too shy to be polite
i buy too much **** and waste my money
i'm too dumb to study so i can pass classes

i feel fat, ugly, and stupid all the time. i have no self esteem and it hurts all the relationships in my life. Mine and Jonathan's relationship suffer from it. My mom constantly tells me that I look a little chubby; i'm starting to get frown lines; anything that's wrong w/ me, she points it out and that makes me feel like ****. Some mornings I don't want to get out of bed I hate myself so much.

I have aweful self esteem and it blows.


That's sad that your mother criticizes you. She sounds like my grandma. Anyway, I hate the fact that I'm fat. Even though I'm working on it and it's paying off drastically. I also hate the fact that I don't seem to have friends anymore. It sucks that I can't seem to get into any kind of a relationship with a guy.

i annoy people
my "friends" only talk to me when it's convenient
i'm bossy
i'm too shy to be polite
i buy too much **** and waste my money
i'm too dumb to study so i can pass classes

I know what you mean about "friends." Ever since my friends found out I was Diabetic, they don't talk to me anymore. I don't really understand why, it's not like they can catch it from me. The last time I spoke to either one of them, was right before school let out. That was about a month ago. I think the reason we got along so well is because all we ever did was eat. Now that I have this disease, I've had to change all of habits, including eating. I think I'm just going to move on.

I'm not really in a bad mood, but lemme try anyway. I'm bored.

I'm scared of guys who like me
I'm scared of getting too close (emotion-wise) to a guy
I always act like a freakin bitch around a guy that likes me, whether or not I like him back
I apparently don't think before I speak and I say really stupid things, especially to guys
I want to have a steady boyfriend and get married, but I'm scared of it and would most likely screw it up
Intimacy scares me ****less
I bitch about not having any offline friends, but I don't like doing things with people, like going out and being social
I don't act my age
I don't think rationally most of the time
I'm lazy
I think I'm getting dumber
People annoy me
I have a terrible temper
I have a big ego sometimes and want to control everything
I hate how most of the people my age act
I hate how most teenagers act
I'm going to die single and alone

I know what you mean about "friends." Ever since my friends found out I was Diabetic, they don't talk to me anymore. I don't really understand why, it's not like they can catch it from me. The last time I spoke to either one of them, was right before school let out. That was about a month ago. I think the reason we got along so well is because all we ever did was eat. Now that I have this disease, I've had to change all of habits, including eating. I think I'm just going to move on.

They just liked you because you ate with them?? ohno: Do move on. I'm sure you can find friends who don't care what you eat or don't eat.

Im fat
I diet during the day, and binge at night. This needs to stop. I have no self control
I dont know how to manage money
I cant say no
Ive never had a boyfriend
Ill probably never get married
I get way too jealous
I have no friends up here
Im fat
Im not very pretty
I have no motivation
I dont know how to express my emotions without feeling uncomfortable
I cant handle 'serious' situations in public
Im too shy
Im a bitch
I live in a dream world
I feel stupid
Im an underachiever

I have another couple:

I assume things that usually turn out not to be true.
I think everyone is ignoring me. I feel pretty confident about that one.
I can't do a ****ing thing with my hair and it pisses me off.
I get depressed when I think I look ugly.
I get depressed when I don't get any sleep.

People think that I am a bitch
I hate being shy
I feel that I have been cursed in the love department; every ****ing guy that I end up liking is either married, or is in a relationship :(
Though I have a lot of male friends..I am still lonely
Most men think that I am an idiot because I have ample breasts and attractive, even though I have graduated from college.

Every one of my friends is in a committed relationship but I and that SUCKS!
I am picky as all hell when it comes to men, but strangely I am attracted to musicians (go figure).
Since February I was in love with this guy and just a couple of days ago I founds out that he is now seeing someone and it broke my heart...
:(

Since February I was in love with this guy and just a couple of days ago I founds out that he is now seeing someone and it broke my heart...
:(

:( I'm sorry.

:( I'm sorry.
Thanks, life has not been too kind to me in the love department...

I never do homework until the last minute. I get distracted by everything. :( Its a really annoying bad habit I've gotten into and I can't stop it.

i can't do anything right.
i hate how i look.
i'm too shy to live in society or be polite.
i'm too stupid intelligence-wise, academic-wise, and just in general, to get anywhere in the world.
i always make an ass of myself.
i cry very easily.
i'm never as good or as smart as my peers.
i'm extremely sensitive to criticism and just can't take it.
i'm too defensive.
i hate being with people.
my addictions are too controlling.
i have a stupid personality.
i can't really be myself without feeling like i'm annoying everyone.
people give me the impression that i'm tactless/offensive/not taking things seriously enough.
i can hardly accomplish anything because i'm so lazy and fall asleep so much.
i have panic attacks when i call someone on the phone or just give them a note.
i can't be around anyone and be comfortable without sort of acting like them.
people my age usually hate me.
i always feel like i'm being too whiny.
i can't talk or do anything when i'm around anyone i don't really know, and if i do i usually just say something really stupid.
i always feel like i'm being bossy.
i always feel like people take things the wrong way when i'm just kidding.
it would probably be better if i died.
i probably always look like i'm trying to be funny.
i'm worthless and empty.
i take things out on people sometimes and am rude to them.
i can't pay attention in school and am too stupid to be there.
i can't say "no" to peers. if they invite me over to their house, i have to say yes even though i was just not born to go other people's houses whom i don't really know, otherwise i just have to make up an excuse. even if they just ask me if i want a piece of gum. or if i just say "ok i have to go" or something. i feel like i'm being mean if i say no to anything.
i'm way too shy and scared to ask anyone if THEY want a piece of gum or something, and sometimes to just IM someone or something without them IMing me first.
i hate everything.
i always feel like i'm being a know-it-all.
i have too many compulsions.
i probably always look like i'm bragging.
people probably only pretend to care about me.
i probably always look like i want attention/sympathy.
i care too much what people think of me sometimes.
i always feel like people think i'm being mean to them when i'm not trying to.
i'm physically and mentally weak.
i get mad at myself way too often for doing stupid things i regret or kept trying to tell myself not to do, like procrastinating.
i make entirely too many mistakes.
i'm too weird.
i feel like i'm not acting my age sometimes.
i deny too much.
i'm too paranoid and scared of everything.

that's all i can think of. there isn't really anything i like about myself.

i feel fat, ugly, and stupid all the time. i have no self esteem and it hurts all the relationships in my life. Mine and Jonathan's relationship suffer from it. My mom constantly tells me that I look a little chubby; i'm starting to get frown lines; anything that's wrong w/ me, she points it out and that makes me feel like ****. Some mornings I don't want to get out of bed I hate myself so much.

I have aweful self esteem and it blows.
my dad puts me down too. he tells me i'm stupid and makes fun of me for things like my OCD. "so are you gonna go to school tomorrow and keep turning the light switch on and off?" i quote.

ehh.... I dont hate myself.

I could loose a little weight, but I'm not really fat.

other than that, I don't really have a problem with myself. I have plenty of friends, a nice family, an easy job, I have good grades, and I'm one sexy beast.

So, I'm going to leave now, before I piss anybody off....





ohh, that might be a problem, I tend to piss people off a lot.

I know what you mean about "friends." Ever since my friends found out I was Diabetic, they don't talk to me anymore. I don't really understand why, it's not like they can catch it from me. The last time I spoke to either one of them, was right before school let out. That was about a month ago. I think the reason we got along so well is because all we ever did was eat. Now that I have this disease, I've had to change all of habits, including eating. I think I'm just going to move on.

That's crazy. Freinds should respect you and love you for who you are, not what or how you eat.

-I have to be too freaking nice to people. It's hard for me to tell people what I think sometimes because I'm too worried about their feelings.
-I can't get along with many people my own age.
-I'm an attention whore.
-I annoy the hell out of everyone.
-I try too hard to be funny.
-Even though I don't look it, I'm at least 40 pounds overweight for being 5'1.
-I'm really really really unattractive.
-I think I'm cool and I'm not.
-My friends talk behind my back, so I guess I don't really have any.

-I can't get along with many people my own age.



ditto. I also cry all the time.

Got my yearbook today. Another one where I'm only on one page because I'm a loser that doesn't do anything. Add that to the list: "Lazy Loser **** Who's Afraid to do Anything and Therefore Won't Get Anywhere in Life"

I know what you mean about "friends." Ever since my friends found out I was Diabetic, they don't talk to me anymore. I don't really understand why, it's not like they can catch it from me. The last time I spoke to either one of them, was right before school let out. That was about a month ago. I think the reason we got along so well is because all we ever did was eat. Now that I have this disease, I've had to change all of habits, including eating. I think I'm just going to move on.

Not that I'm justifying what they're doing.... but it sort of makes sense. It's like if drinking buddies spent less time with one of them when he/she finds out they're an alcoholic.

Not that I'm justifying what they're doing.... but it sort of makes sense. It's like if drinking buddies spent less time with one of them when he/she finds out they're an alcoholic.

Yeah, I understand what you mean. One out of the two is obese, just like me. I think before we could both understand each other and how difficult things were, and now that I've changed how I'm eating and walking 3 miles a day, she can't identify with me as well anymore. My other friend I'm not so sure about. I think she's being very busy this summer with taking classes and things like that.

-I feel like everything I do is wrong.
-I try to hard to please everyone around me.
-I hate almost everything.
-I automatically dislike most people that I meet.
-It's physically impossible for me to be myself around anyone other than people in my family.
-I'm paranoid.
-I'm extremely self conscience and have zero self esteem.
-I'm moody.
-I'm sensitive.
-I give up on almost everything that I start.
-I stress myself out over nothing.
-I feel like everyone hates me and talks about me behind my back.
-I feel like everyone ignores me and that I'm not good enough for anyone.
-I put too much pressure on myself.
-I try and blame my family for all of my problems when in reality I won't let them know enough for them to help me.
-I feel awkward and uncomfortable in any situation that isn't normal for me.
-I hate the way I look.
-I hate leaving my house.
-I get anxious and start freaking out for no reason on a regular basis.
-I can't carry a social conversation with anyone in my school.
-I'm EXTREMELY indesisive. It's horrible. I regret everything that I do.
-I'm obessive.
-My personality and the way I act embarasses me.
-I always feel completely worthless.
-I am socially inept. Therefore I have no real friends that I can talk to and am very lonely.
-Whenever I try to talk to someone about my problems I feel like they're just going to think I'm being dramatic.

I can complain all day. Seriously. The last one applies right now... I feel like everyone is going to read this and think I'm just being dramatic and hate me. Uggh.

-I feel like everything I do is wrong.
-I try to hard to please everyone around me.
-I hate almost everything.
-I automatically dislike most people that I meet.
-It's physically impossible for me to be myself around anyone other than people in my family.
-I'm paranoid.
-I'm extremely self conscience and have zero self esteem.
-I'm moody.
-I'm sensitive.
-I give up on almost everything that I start.
-I stress myself out over nothing.
-I feel like everyone hates me and talks about me behind my back.
-I feel like everyone ignores me and that I'm not good enough for anyone.
-I put too much pressure on myself.
-I try and blame my family for all of my problems when in reality I won't let them know enough for them to help me.
-I feel awkward and uncomfortable in any situation that isn't normal for me.
-I hate the way I look.
-I hate leaving my house.
-I get anxious and start freaking out for no reason on a regular basis.
-I can't carry a social conversation with anyone in my school.
-I'm EXTREMELY indesisive. It's horrible. I regret everything that I do.
-I'm obessive.
-My personality and the way I act embarasses me.
-I always feel completely worthless.
-I am socially inept. Therefore I have no real friends that I can talk to and am very lonely.
-Whenever I try to talk to someone about my problems I feel like they're just going to think I'm being dramatic.

I can complain all day. Seriously. The last one applies right now... I feel like everyone is going to read this and think I'm just being dramatic and hate me. Uggh.
That's what I thought when I posted this. I thought everyone would just think I'm a whiney bitch and not respond because I'm annoying. I'm sure some do. **** them.

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I can't get along with many people my own age.


Yeah I have that problem too. Besides my friends I hate everyone in my school.

Yeah I have that problem too. Besides my friends I hate everyone in my school.
me too. i sure as **** don't know what i did, but within the first month of my freshman year i was already being called a whore and having **** thrown at me, and my friends supported the kids who were doing it when i talked to them about it. i usually get along with people like 3-5 years older than me better because i'm socially more mature than other kids my age who still think it's cool and funny to call people "gay" and make fun of others for being different, etc. my counselor agrees that i've probably just learned a lot from all the ****ty experiences i've had with friends and peers.

i'm too stupid intelligence-wise, academic-wise, and just in general, to get anywhere in the world.
i can't really be myself without feeling like i'm annoying everyone.
i'm way too shy and scared to ask anyone if THEY want a piece of gum or something, and sometimes to just IM someone or something without them IMing me first.


I totally wouldn't say you were stupid. You've got great talent with graphics and making smilies, etc. And you've got a great sense of humor. You can't be funny and be an idiot. You just can't.

I feel like I annoy everyone and they'd rather I just go away. Well, change everyone to Ryan at least.

I simply cannot IM someone first. Anytime I IM Ryan first, 95% of the time I get no response and then I assume he's ignoring me and is mad at me and then I feel like ****.

Okay, I hate the fact that I let my crush have so much power over me as to make myself feel like **** and make me wanna kill myself because I feel hopeless. Just because I can't get him to talk to me. And it's not even in person. I haven't seen him in person in a ****ing year.

I hate that I have a crush on a guy like him in the first place...and I hate that I don't want to let it go.

I hate that I'm 25, never had a boyfriend, and my brain keeps telling me I'm desperate.

I hate that I'm petrified of being left alone for the rest of my life.

Sometimes I don't like to share things (mostly food)

Okay, I hate the fact that I let my crush have so much power over me as to make myself feel like **** and make me wanna kill myself because I feel hopeless. Just because I can't get him to talk to me. And it's not even in person. I haven't seen him in person in a ****ing year.

I hate that I have a crush on a guy like him in the first place...and I hate that I don't want to let it go.

I hate that I'm 25, never had a boyfriend, and my brain keeps telling me I'm desperate.

I hate that I'm petrified of being left alone for the rest of my life.
^ Trust me Cathy, you are not going to be ALONE for the rest of your life; you are way too pretty and way too intelligent, you just basically need to overcome some barriers and trust me sweety..you are going to be fine :)

^ Trust me Cathy, you are not going to be ALONE for the rest of your life; you are way too pretty and way too intelligent, you just basically need to overcome some barriers and trust me sweety..you are going to be fine :)

Thanks. :) My luck, my soulmate is in southern Florida or something. :lol:

Thanks. :) My luck, my soulmate is in southern Florida or something. :lol:
Nah, he is probably just around the corner; and when you least expect it will show up in your life :)

Nah, he is probably just around the corner; and when you least expect it will show up in your life :)

That's true. You can't go looking for love..it just shows up.

That's true. You can't go looking for love..it just shows up.

lol...good reason to stay out of the bars then. :)

lol...good reason to stay out of the bars then. :)
I love to going to bars for only one reason and that is to see a band, but I definitely do not go to a bar to A) to get drunk or B) to meet a man; most guys that patronize bars are usually losers and are only looking to get laid...

That's true. You can't go looking for love..it just shows up.
Just focus your life on other things and when you least expect..there HE is!!!

I do stupid things and people must think I'm a total idiot scumbag loser.

I know what you mean about "friends." Ever since my friends found out I was Diabetic, they don't talk to me anymore. I don't really understand why, it's not like they can catch it from me. The last time I spoke to either one of them, was right before school let out. That was about a month ago. I think the reason we got along so well is because all we ever did was eat. Now that I have this disease, I've had to change all of habits, including eating. I think I'm just going to move on.
Thats how my friends reacted when I told them I was diabetic. :( Some people ohno:

Thats how my friends reacted when I told them I was diabetic. :( Some people ohno:

I'm sorry to hear that. You're right, some people.

I'm sorry to hear that. You're right, some people.
yep.People are ****.

1. Nothing makes me happy.
2. I'm going to worry away the rest of my summer.
3. I'm never good enough in my eyes.
4. I'm not worthy of people liking me.
5. I hate my body image.

1. Nothing makes me happy.
2. I'm going to worry away the rest of my summer.
3. I'm never good enough in my eyes.
4. I'm not worthy of people liking me.
5. I hate my body image.
I thought I made you happy!

And Jeff, UGH you just got done telling me you were fine. Ima have to give it to you DP style when you get back. And youre obviously good enough with the grades you got and such. And dont say youre never not worthy of something. *SLAP* Everyone is worthy of something.

1. Nothing makes me happy.
2. I'm going to worry away the rest of my summer.
3. I'm never good enough in my eyes.
4. I'm not worthy of people liking me.
5. I hate my body image.
You're worthy :( :bighug: And plus, you have the coolest avatar in existance.

You're worthy :( :bighug: And plus, you have the coolest avatar in existance.
:heart: thanks. :lol: I knew you'd like the av. It's stolen from LJ.

I thought I made you happy!

And Jeff, UGH you just got done telling me you were fine. Ima have to give it to you DP style when you get back. And youre obviously good enough with the grades you got and such. And dont say youre never not worthy of something. *SLAP* Everyone is worthy of something.
heyyy im doin better. everyone just wants to rant a little.

-I have paranoia
-I can never relax
-I am a deeply analytical person who just thinks, thinks, and does MORE thinking
-I over-analyze MINUTE things to death - things that people can just be passive about, I seem to analyze about that
-I think irrationally (people who don't IM or email me hate me or have something against me - I know someone whom I IM where we just don't see eye-to-eye on this. If I can't chat, I will tell the other person or set my status to "Busy" and he says he just ignores it. We just have to agree to disagree on each of our views)
-I obsess over people I care about or want to befriend/them to befriend me
-I feel I have an anxiety disorder
-I am uptight
-I take things personally
-I am afraid of people (I fear getting close to them and causing them grief by "holding tight" onto them as though they have to treat me as their priority..again..irrational behavior! One person has not given up on me yet - amazingly!)
-I feel my emotions are uncontrollable
-I care TOO much about people who don't really reciprocate and it hurts but I keep getting into the same loop. Same as "holding onto them tightly."
-It takes me SUCH a long time to get over people who I *thought* was a good friend of mine.
-I misinterpret people's kindness/asking out to hang out or interested in vacations or something about me for them WANTING to get to know me more as a friend - yeah right!
-I fear I won't go on a date before I am 30....
-I fear not having kids or getting married and growing like an old, maid
...

Bla, bla, bla... those are my "pity" rants... Well, you asked.

-I think irrationally (people who don't IM or email me hate me or have something against me - I know someone whom I IM where we just don't see eye-to-eye on this. If I can't chat, I will tell the other person or set my status to "Busy" and he says he just ignores it. We just have to agree to disagree on each of our views)


OMG! I'm the exact same way. In fact, I got into a fight with this guy over it and he ended up calling me a stalker. He'd never talk to me on IM (meaning I'd say hi or something and I got nothing back), or when I would sign on, he'd sign off almost right away. Coincidence at first, sure, but not after 2 weeks of it. So I write and ask him *again, because apparently I'm just annoying like that* what's up because, well excuse me, but I have this problem where if someone doesn't talk to me for awhile, I think they hate me. Why?? BECAUSE IT'S HAPPENED BEFORE, namely in HS. I'm paranoid about that like some people are paraniod of identity theft. Maybe if I wasn't mental or hadn't been burned in the past, I wouldn't think that way. He tells me I'm a stalker. Yeah, alright, I suppose I would annoy me too, but Jesus. What was so wrong with "**** off, bitch." Got my answer though.

I'm just going to have to learn to have no friends except my online friends whom I never see...and that's probably why they are still friends with me. I was never meant to talk to people. Never. Thanks, God...appreciate it.

That's hardly the end of my problems, but at least I'm glad I'm not the only irrational one out there.

-I have paranoia
-I can never relax
-I am a deeply analytical person who just thinks, thinks, and does MORE thinking
-I over-analyze MINUTE things to death - things that people can just be passive about, I seem to analyze about that
-I think irrationally (people who don't IM or email me hate me or have something against me - I know someone whom I IM where we just don't see eye-to-eye on this. If I can't chat, I will tell the other person or set my status to "Busy" and he says he just ignores it. We just have to agree to disagree on each of our views)
-I obsess over people I care about or want to befriend/them to befriend me
-I feel I have an anxiety disorder
-I am uptight
-I take things personally
-I am afraid of people (I fear getting close to them and causing them grief by "holding tight" onto them as though they have to treat me as their priority..again..irrational behavior! One person has not given up on me yet - amazingly!)
-I feel my emotions are uncontrollable
-I care TOO much about people who don't really reciprocate and it hurts but I keep getting into the same loop. Same as "holding onto them tightly."
-It takes me SUCH a long time to get over people who I *thought* was a good friend of mine.
-I misinterpret people's kindness/asking out to hang out or interested in vacations or something about me for them WANTING to get to know me more as a friend - yeah right!
-I fear I won't go on a date before I am 30....
-I fear not having kids or getting married and growing like an old, maid
...

Bla, bla, bla... those are my "pity" rants... Well, you asked.

Actually, that whole list is me.