All right. I'm downright frustrated now. Today, I woke around 10:00am, ate about 1000 cals worth of breakfast (most of which were cookies/cakes/pasta... all carbs). Anyway, so then, to make up for all I've ate, and to ease the guilt a bit, I went to the park and I rollerbladed for three hours straight, went home and then immediately jump-roped for another 30 minutes. Then I had a binge episode (comsuming amount about 5.5 grands worth of calories). I was SO mad at myself. And so, after I ate all that, I went out and ran for another 15 minutes (burning only 99 calories however).

As you can see, I have quiiiiiite a big problem here. This is pretty much a typical day for me. I spend my days exercising, eating, exercising, and then eating. It's all I do nowadays and "all" I "care" about. I always eat more than I burn, though, so I have no idea why I exercise to begin with, but whatever...

ANYWAY, as I am SOOOO desperate at this point to lose weight. I want to try... diet pills. Normally, I'd oppose them and refuse to take them. BUT I am beginning to think that I'm hopeless, and hence I must, must know the "best" brand (and preferably cheapest) brand that I can take in which I can purchase... off eBay, LOL! (I can't risk having my parents know or a neighborhood friend catch me purchasing them!!). Anyway, if you've taken any of them before, what brand was it? Did it WORK? How much did you lose and in what duration? What are the side effects? Is it safe? Did you gain back after having gotten off the pills (if you did)? How much did it cost you, and how many did you take in total?

Thanks!!

I don't need to lose weight! I'm about to 16, am 5'11" and am 130 lbs. I am so skinny.

I wanna lose weight too but I would NEVER take diet pills. I wanna lose weight without the aide of such things. I'd rather lose the weight by just exercising and watching what I eat. And I have to say, I lost about 40 pounds in less than a year doing just that. So, for me that works. Its just getting focused and keeping up with it that's the most difficult. So I would never take diet pills simply because I feel that its stupid to spend money on something like that. And I think its unsafe. I'd rather not be popping pills in order to lose weight. Plus, I'd rather have the satisfaction of knowing I can do it myself without using things like that.

Originally posted by consentida
I wanna lose weight too but I would NEVER take diet pills. I wanna lose weight without the aide of such things. I'd rather lose the weight by just exercising and watching what I eat. And I have to say, I lost about 40 pounds in less than a year doing just that. So, for me that works. Its just getting focused and keeping up with it that's the most difficult. So I would never take diet pills simply because I feel that its stupid to spend money on something like that. And I think its unsafe. I'd rather not be popping pills in order to lose weight. Plus, I'd rather have the satisfaction of knowing I can do it myself without using things like that. I completely understand where you're coming from, as I too, once thought as you did. But like I said in my previous post, it's almost hopeless for me. Compulsive eating combined with compulsive exercising has become an obsession for me, and it's SO hard to break it. I KNOW what I have to do, but I can't seem to motivate myself to do it. You know, they say that for compulsive overeaters and binge eaters, food is like alcohol to alcoholics. It triggers the same part of the brain. Alcoholics drink for comfort, to drive their troubles away, and/or to forget. I do the same... only with food. Which, in my opinion, is as big of a problem as alcohol is for it's SO available. It's...everywhere!!!! :eek: :eek: Man, I wish I were obsessed with something else other than food/exercising. :(

Originally posted by Brent88
I don't need to lose weight! I'm about to 16, am 5'11" and am 130 lbs. I am so skinny.
im skinnier, i win.

I was on Meridia once but I quit using them they made me feel really weird. I also tried Stackers DON'T EVER USE THEM THEY ARE SO DANGEROUS! They gave me the jitters for a really long time and I only took them once.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
I completely understand where you're coming from, as I too, once thought as you did. But like I said in my previous post, it's almost hopeless for me. Compulsive eating combined with compulsive exercising has become an obsession for me, and it's SO hard to break it. I KNOW what I have to do, but I can't seem to motivate myself to do it. You know, they say that for compulsive overeaters and binge eaters, food is like alcohol to alcoholics. It triggers the same part of the brain. Alcoholics drink for comfort, to drive their troubles away, and/or to forget. I do the same... only with food. Which, in my opinion, is as big of a problem as alcohol is for it's SO available. It's...everywhere!!!! :eek: :eek: Man, I wish I were obsessed with something else other than food/exercising. :(

I'm not a compulsive eater and I dont overeat all the time (only when I'm PMSing), but I've been overweight all my life due to all the steroidal medications (for asthma) I was on when I was little. So thats pretty much my problem. I've been heavy all my life. There was a time though when I was really depressed and I started "comfort" eating so I guess thats counts. So I kinda know where you're coming from. But even though you have all this stuff going on, I dont think you should resort to diet pills. God knows what'll happen if they're dangerous. I know this is easier said than done but try occupying yourself with other things. And honestly, dont eliminate things from your diet just because they're fattening or because they're carbs. I've found and I've also been told that if you eliminate such things, it makes you want them even more and you're more likely to binge. Just limit the amount you eat. Again, I know thats easier said than done...

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
im skinnier, i win.

LOL... I don't care. :wave:

Originally posted by Brent88
LOL... I don't care. :wave:
jealousy is a very ugly emotion

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
jealousy is a very ugly emotion

Speaking of ugly, someone still hasn't cleaned up their act. Looks like you learned nothing from our little episode over in the photo thread.

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
jealousy is a very ugly emotion

I don't give a rat's behind if your skinner. I'm not jealous at all. I'm hoping to gain some weight.

Why don't you just go away? :rolleyes:

I've taken diet pills, but they didn't work for me. I know how it feels to binge and feel terrible about it. Just be careful, it can lead to other things.

I'm really sad for you Jenny. I wish you could become "obsessed" with something else, but I know where you're coming from. When I was going thru my bad anxiety period, pre-Paxil basically, I was obsessed with food. But not to lose weight. I was so scared about upsetting my stomach that I'd freak out if I ate certain things. And that's all I ever thought about; my stomach and getting sick. It was so depressing.

I've also kinda gone the route of worrying about weight. But I just more get mad at myself for sitting on my ass too much. But then I don't do much about it. I need to get to liking exercise more I guess. :lol:

I dunno, I guess I don't think diet pills are the way for you to go. This is sooooo easier said than done, I know, but you need to find something else to focus that energy on. Like, if you feel like eating when you aren't really hungry, go and drink some water, or paint a picture. That made no sense probably, but I hope you understand. :lol:

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
im skinnier, i win.

I'm 5'4" and 128. I win! :happyface

Originally posted by dawsongirl
I'm really sad for you Jenny. I wish you could become "obsessed" with something else, but I know where you're coming from. When I was going thru my bad anxiety period, pre-Paxil basically, I was obsessed with food. But not to lose weight. I was so scared about upsetting my stomach that I'd freak out if I ate certain things. And that's all I ever thought about; my stomach and getting sick. It was so depressing.

I've also kinda gone the route of worrying about weight. But I just more get mad at myself for sitting on my ass too much. But then I don't do much about it. I need to get to liking exercise more I guess. :lol:

I dunno, I guess I don't think diet pills are the way for you to go. This is sooooo easier said than done, I know, but you need to find something else to focus that energy on. Like, if you feel like eating when you aren't really hungry, go and drink some water, or paint a picture. That made no sense probably, but I hope you understand. :lol: I started out initially being obsessed with losing weight because of what my dad said. He told me I had a fat ass and that when I was younger, I was skinnier, hence it wasn't as noticeable. But now, I'm fatter and he "notices" it. It's just a bunch of crap. He's a preverted creep if you haven't already noticed, LOL.

So anyway, summer 2003, I went on a diet. I did pretty well, actually. I lost 10 pounds over the summer, and I was happy. I had a job as well, with a bunch of amazing people to keep me motivated. Then, in September, school started. I started gaining back some weight. And as the numbers on the scale continued to grow despite my efforts to maintain, I just "gave in." I threw in the towel and stopped trying, and I became really depressed, hopeless, lifeless, and out of control. I binged and binged and binged, and exercised, and starved myself, and stuck toothbrushes down my throat in attempt to make myself purge. I tried EVERYTHING I could possibly think of. My self-confidence just drowned and I isolated myself from the very few friends I had to begin with, and I disregarded most who tried to speak with me. Hence, if you're interested, this is why I left SOL for the past year. (Among other reasons, of course-- for example, it having gone COMPLETELY downhill. In fact, I think it may have hit rock bottom now. No offense. Yet, I'm still here. Go figure. LOL.)

Anyhoo, it was just hell. I had an episode with sucidal thoughts, as well. I never told anyone, though. That's how bad it was. So, I decided to "get help," well-- rather, rant on another message board. I didn't want to do it on SOL because I "knew people" and people "knew me." I wanted it confidential. So, I joined another message board. Anyway, there, I met another set of AMAZING people who supported me through everything. Unfortunately, throughout this period of self-esteem-reboosting, I got fired from my job. And THAT just drove me through the roof, and my eating habits became worse regardless of the support.

At this time, my weight wasn't so much my concern. But rather, my eating habits. Which is a good thing because I finally realized that if I ever wanted to lose, I must first learn to suppress my poor eating habits and learn a bit of self-control, and mope about my weight later on. I must learn to walk before I can run, right? ;) But, despite what I knew, it just kept getting worse and worse... and my poor grades at school, upcoming finals, etc weren't exactly helping either. But I had a place to rant, so I was happi-ER. THEN, a few weeks ago, I got banned from that site, and I got all my other friends banned stimutaneously. (What a hoot, huh? LOL). Thank goodness, they've been given another chance, though.

Anyway, I went downhill again, and I knew that I MUST find an alternative place to rant before I go back to square one. So, I came back here (suggestion by Georgia's on my Mind). And what did I see? I saw, threads entitled:

M&M's or Skittles
Weight Maintenance Calculator
Why are Americans so fat?
What Time Do You Eat Dinner?
What Time Do You Eat Breakfast?
What Time Do You Eat Lunch?

What a horror that was! :eek: :lol: And then, I come across inconsiderate members like "I Am Him." Then, I post this thread, and I get a response from GOMM saying how skinny he is, and a fight-type situation commencing. And I thought, "You know what? That's it. I'm out of here." I was considering leaving again, as I thought that no one was gonna understand. And every other thread turns into a fight anyway. Then, I read your post and Tara's post, and you both dragged me back. You both drove me back because I now know that SOMEONE (I hope, haha), was going to take me seriously. Someone was gonna listen and not just refer me to a "pig" or whatnot.

I really appreciate your efforts to try and help... suggesting solutions and whatnot. But, honestly, I don't think they'll help me because I KNOW all of it already. I've heard it all. I just can't... DO THEM, LOL, as it's so easier said than done. I know. For shame, for shame. I think what I need is "professional" help. But I'm SO afraid to seek it. No one in the physical life knows about this. They only realize my weight gain, but they've never associated it with a disordered way of thinking about food. My best friend, however, she made a comment just this Friday that she thought I may have been anorexic given I "don't eat anything." I have NO idea WHERE she got that from. If I were anorexic, I wouldn't be in the fat body that I am in now. The only reason why I didn't eat when I was at the restaurant was because I wanted to "conserve calories" before my binge at night, ROTFL. It's almost a habit, I tell yah. My day... is not "complete" without a binge. It's insane. And ahhhhhhhhh look at this novel I'm typing up. Typical me ranting, haha. And completely off-topic. Thanks for reading, though. :D And as for the diet pills. Arggggggghh. I can't make a decision. They're the coward's way out. And I'm SO tempted to take that road because it'll be so much...easier.

Oh, and Chris. I do not wish to hear about your skinniness on this thread. And it was very rude of you to have IM-ed me and call me a b!tch and tell me not to not lose weight. Your comments are not appreciated. And granted I can't tell you where and where not to post. I'd like to ask that you didn't unless you have something worth reading to say. Of course I know I can't stop you from doing so, anyway. -sigh- I'm just wasting my breath.

I do not take diet pills and I never would. I've heard that they can give you permanent heart problems. I'd rather lose the weight excercising and eating right. It gives me more satisfaction.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
I started out initially being obsessed with losing weight because of what my dad said.

So anyway, summer 2003, I went on a diet. I did pretty well, actually. I lost 10 pounds over the summer, and I was happy. I had a job as well, with a bunch of amazing people to keep me motivated. Then, in September, school started. I started gaining back some weight. And as the numbers on the scale continued to grow despite my efforts to maintain, I just "gave in." I threw in the towel and stopped trying, and I became really depressed, hopeless, lifeless, and out of control.

Anyhoo, it was just hell. I had an episode with sucidal thoughts, as well. I never told anyone, though. That's how bad it was.

But, despite what I knew, it just kept getting worse and worse... and my poor grades at school, upcoming finals, etc weren't exactly helping either.



All of what you said right there was me from Summer 2003 until about March 2004. Glad I'm not the only one.

Originally posted by consentida
All of what you said right there was me from Summer 2003 until about March 2004. Glad I'm not the only one. Ironically, March 2004 was when I lost my job, haha. I'm glad that you're no longer like that, right? Hopefully... as it's such a nerve-wrecking position to be in.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Ironically, March 2004 was when I lost my job, haha. I'm glad that you're no longer like that, right? Hopefully... as it's such a nerve-wrecking position to be in.

For the most part I've gotten better. But I have to say though, that period of time was the absolute worst for me. I look back and I'm just like "Who the hell was that?" I really had no idea who I was back then. I was really lost then. Thank God its pretty much over. If I can get through that plus my parents' divorce all at once, you can pull through. I have faith in you. :)

Originally posted by consentida
For the most part I've gotten better. But I have to say though, that period of time was the absolute worst for me. I look back and I'm just like "Who the hell was that?" I really had no idea who I was back then. I was really lost then. Thank God its pretty much over. If I can get through that plus my parents' divorce all at once, you can pull through. I have faith in you. :) Awwww. I'm sorry to hear about your parent's divorce. That must've been really hard for you. I'm wondering, though, how did you get over it? Did you self-teach or did you seek professional help, or what? Again, I'm so glad to hear that you're better. :) And it took you only 2 months to recover? Wow. I give you BIG props.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Awwww. I'm sorry to hear about your parent's divorce. That must've been really hard for you. I'm wondering, though, how did you get over it? Did you self-teach or did you seek professional help, or what? Again, I'm so glad to hear that you're better. :) And it took you only 2 months to recover? Wow. I give you BIG props.

How did I get over it? Hmm. I didnt seek professional help or anything. I came very close to doing so though. I actually just prayed to God one night to help me get through it. And in the last two years I had gone through a lot of things with my dad and after praying that one night, I wrote my dad a 10 page letter telling him how I felt about all the crap he had put me through and it just lifted a great weight off my shoulders. That, I guess, was one of the main things bringing me down. So, after getting things off my chest and clearing my mind a bit, I felt extremely relieved. I cant say that everything's all better and that I'm this extremely happy person now. But I am A LOT happier than I was and I dont feel hopeless or lost anymore. So...yeah. Thats pretty much how I got over it and I'm glad I lived to tell the tale because there were times where I just didnt want to live anymore...

Originally posted by consentida
How did I get over it? Hmm. I didnt seek professional help or anything. I came very close to doing so though. I actually just prayed to God one night to help me get through it. And in the last two years I had gone through a lot of things with my dad and after praying that one night, I wrote my dad a 10 page letter telling him how I felt about all the crap he had put me through and it just lifted a great weight off my shoulders. That, I guess, was one of the main things bringing me down. So, after getting things off my chest and clearing my mind a bit, I felt extremely relieved. I cant say that everything's all better and that I'm this extremely happy person now. But I am A LOT happier than I was and I dont feel hopeless or lost anymore. So...yeah. Thats pretty much how I got over it and I'm glad I lived to tell the tale because there were times where I just didnt want to live anymore... I must say I'm delighted to hear of your recovery and that you're happier than you were beforehand. RE how you approached it, it was very bright of you to have written your father that 10 page letter. I wish I can do the same, but unfortunately, I can't. As for living, I'm glad for that to. Promise me you won't have those thoughts again? :nonono:
;)

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Promise me you won't have those thoughts again? :nonono:
;)

:nod: I promise.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
I started out initially being obsessed with losing weight because of what my dad said. He told me I had a fat ass and that when I was younger, I was skinnier, hence it wasn't as noticeable. But now, I'm fatter and he "notices" it. It's just a bunch of crap. He's a preverted creep if you haven't already noticed, LOL.

So anyway, summer 2003, I went on a diet. I did pretty well, actually. I lost 10 pounds over the summer, and I was happy. I had a job as well, with a bunch of amazing people to keep me motivated. Then, in September, school started. I started gaining back some weight. And as the numbers on the scale continued to grow despite my efforts to maintain, I just "gave in." I threw in the towel and stopped trying, and I became really depressed, hopeless, lifeless, and out of control. I binged and binged and binged, and exercised, and starved myself, and stuck toothbrushes down my throat in attempt to make myself purge. I tried EVERYTHING I could possibly think of. My self-confidence just drowned and I isolated myself from the very few friends I had to begin with, and I disregarded most who tried to speak with me. Hence, if you're interested, this is why I left SOL for the past year. (Among other reasons, of course-- for example, it having gone COMPLETELY downhill. In fact, I think it may have hit rock bottom now. No offense. Yet, I'm still here. Go figure. LOL.)

Anyhoo, it was just hell. I had an episode with sucidal thoughts, as well. I never told anyone, though. That's how bad it was. So, I decided to "get help," well-- rather, rant on another message board. I didn't want to do it on SOL because I "knew people" and people "knew me." I wanted it confidential. So, I joined another message board. Anyway, there, I met another set of AMAZING people who supported me through everything. Unfortunately, throughout this period of self-esteem-reboosting, I got fired from my job. And THAT just drove me through the roof, and my eating habits became worse regardless of the support.

At this time, my weight wasn't so much my concern. But rather, my eating habits. Which is a good thing because I finally realized that if I ever wanted to lose, I must first learn to suppress my poor eating habits and learn a bit of self-control, and mope about my weight later on. I must learn to walk before I can run, right? ;) But, despite what I knew, it just kept getting worse and worse... and my poor grades at school, upcoming finals, etc weren't exactly helping either. But I had a place to rant, so I was happi-ER. THEN, a few weeks ago, I got banned from that site, and I got all my other friends banned stimutaneously. (What a hoot, huh? LOL). Thank goodness, they've been given another chance, though.

Anyway, I went downhill again, and I knew that I MUST find an alternative place to rant before I go back to square one. So, I came back here (suggestion by Georgia's on my Mind). And what did I see? I saw, threads entitled:

M&M's or Skittles
Weight Maintenance Calculator
Why are Americans so fat?
What Time Do You Eat Dinner?
What Time Do You Eat Breakfast?
What Time Do You Eat Lunch?

What a horror that was! :eek: :lol: And then, I come across inconsiderate members like "I Am Him." Then, I post this thread, and I get a response from GOMM saying how skinny he is, and a fight-type situation commencing. And I thought, "You know what? That's it. I'm out of here." I was considering leaving again, as I thought that no one was gonna understand. And every other thread turns into a fight anyway. Then, I read your post and Tara's post, and you both dragged me back. You both drove me back because I now know that SOMEONE (I hope, haha), was going to take me seriously. Someone was gonna listen and not just refer me to a "pig" or whatnot.

I really appreciate your efforts to try and help... suggesting solutions and whatnot. But, honestly, I don't think they'll help me because I KNOW all of it already. I've heard it all. I just can't... DO THEM, LOL, as it's so easier said than done. I know. For shame, for shame. I think what I need is "professional" help. But I'm SO afraid to seek it. No one in the physical life knows about this. They only realize my weight gain, but they've never associated it with a disordered way of thinking about food. My best friend, however, she made a comment just this Friday that she thought I may have been anorexic given I "don't eat anything." I have NO idea WHERE she got that from. If I were anorexic, I wouldn't be in the fat body that I am in now. The only reason why I didn't eat when I was at the restaurant was because I wanted to "conserve calories" before my binge at night, ROTFL. It's almost a habit, I tell yah. My day... is not "complete" without a binge. It's insane. And ahhhhhhhhh look at this novel I'm typing up. Typical me ranting, haha. And completely off-topic. Thanks for reading, though. :D And as for the diet pills. Arggggggghh. I can't make a decision. They're the coward's way out. And I'm SO tempted to take that road because it'll be so much...easier.

Oh, and Chris. I do not wish to hear about your skinniness on this thread. And it was very rude of you to have IM-ed me and call me a b!tch and tell me not to not lose weight. Your comments are not appreciated. And granted I can't tell you where and where not to post. I'd like to ask that you didn't unless you have something worth reading to say. Of course I know I can't stop you from doing so, anyway. -sigh- I'm just wasting my breath.

I'm glad you decided to stay. There's so few of us old timers left. :(

Anyway, I totally get it. If I put my anxiety problems in place of your weight problems, I have been down that road too. Suicide, not talking to people, comfort food, not wanting to go to the doctor, saying something like, "Screw pills, they're not going to help."

Basically, it took my mom to look me in the eyes and say enough is enough and drag me to the doctor. Do you have a person like that in your life? Sometimes you need someone else to be your strength.

And how awful what your dad said! :eek: I'd have problems too if my dad said something like that to me. Hell, he's hurt my feelings enough when he implies I have no friends.

Originally posted by Brent88
I don't give a rat's behind if your skinner. I'm not jealous at all. I'm hoping to gain some weight.

Why don't you just go away? :rolleyes: ive been here for years. i own you.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
I started out initially being obsessed with losing weight because of what my dad said. He told me I had a fat ass and that when I was younger, I was skinnier, hence it wasn't as noticeable. But now, I'm fatter and he "notices" it. It's just a bunch of crap. He's a preverted creep if you haven't already noticed, LOL.

So anyway, summer 2003, I went on a diet. I did pretty well, actually. I lost 10 pounds over the summer, and I was happy. I had a job as well, with a bunch of amazing people to keep me motivated. Then, in September, school started. I started gaining back some weight. And as the numbers on the scale continued to grow despite my efforts to maintain, I just "gave in." I threw in the towel and stopped trying, and I became really depressed, hopeless, lifeless, and out of control. I binged and binged and binged, and exercised, and starved myself, and stuck toothbrushes down my throat in attempt to make myself purge. I tried EVERYTHING I could possibly think of. My self-confidence just drowned and I isolated myself from the very few friends I had to begin with, and I disregarded most who tried to speak with me. Hence, if you're interested, this is why I left SOL for the past year. (Among other reasons, of course-- for example, it having gone COMPLETELY downhill. In fact, I think it may have hit rock bottom now. No offense. Yet, I'm still here. Go figure. LOL.)

Anyhoo, it was just hell. I had an episode with sucidal thoughts, as well. I never told anyone, though. That's how bad it was. So, I decided to "get help," well-- rather, rant on another message board. I didn't want to do it on SOL because I "knew people" and people "knew me." I wanted it confidential. So, I joined another message board. Anyway, there, I met another set of AMAZING people who supported me through everything. Unfortunately, throughout this period of self-esteem-reboosting, I got fired from my job. And THAT just drove me through the roof, and my eating habits became worse regardless of the support.

At this time, my weight wasn't so much my concern. But rather, my eating habits. Which is a good thing because I finally realized that if I ever wanted to lose, I must first learn to suppress my poor eating habits and learn a bit of self-control, and mope about my weight later on. I must learn to walk before I can run, right? ;) But, despite what I knew, it just kept getting worse and worse... and my poor grades at school, upcoming finals, etc weren't exactly helping either. But I had a place to rant, so I was happi-ER. THEN, a few weeks ago, I got banned from that site, and I got all my other friends banned stimutaneously. (What a hoot, huh? LOL). Thank goodness, they've been given another chance, though.

Anyway, I went downhill again, and I knew that I MUST find an alternative place to rant before I go back to square one. So, I came back here (suggestion by Georgia's on my Mind). And what did I see? I saw, threads entitled:

M&M's or Skittles
Weight Maintenance Calculator
Why are Americans so fat?
What Time Do You Eat Dinner?
What Time Do You Eat Breakfast?
What Time Do You Eat Lunch?

What a horror that was! :eek: :lol: And then, I come across inconsiderate members like "I Am Him." Then, I post this thread, and I get a response from GOMM saying how skinny he is, and a fight-type situation commencing. And I thought, "You know what? That's it. I'm out of here." I was considering leaving again, as I thought that no one was gonna understand. And every other thread turns into a fight anyway. Then, I read your post and Tara's post, and you both dragged me back. You both drove me back because I now know that SOMEONE (I hope, haha), was going to take me seriously. Someone was gonna listen and not just refer me to a "pig" or whatnot.

I really appreciate your efforts to try and help... suggesting solutions and whatnot. But, honestly, I don't think they'll help me because I KNOW all of it already. I've heard it all. I just can't... DO THEM, LOL, as it's so easier said than done. I know. For shame, for shame. I think what I need is "professional" help. But I'm SO afraid to seek it. No one in the physical life knows about this. They only realize my weight gain, but they've never associated it with a disordered way of thinking about food. My best friend, however, she made a comment just this Friday that she thought I may have been anorexic given I "don't eat anything." I have NO idea WHERE she got that from. If I were anorexic, I wouldn't be in the fat body that I am in now. The only reason why I didn't eat when I was at the restaurant was because I wanted to "conserve calories" before my binge at night, ROTFL. It's almost a habit, I tell yah. My day... is not "complete" without a binge. It's insane. And ahhhhhhhhh look at this novel I'm typing up. Typical me ranting, haha. And completely off-topic. Thanks for reading, though. :D And as for the diet pills. Arggggggghh. I can't make a decision. They're the coward's way out. And I'm SO tempted to take that road because it'll be so much...easier.

Oh, and Chris. I do not wish to hear about your skinniness on this thread. And it was very rude of you to have IM-ed me and call me a b!tch and tell me not to not lose weight. Your comments are not appreciated. And granted I can't tell you where and where not to post. I'd like to ask that you didn't unless you have something worth reading to say. Of course I know I can't stop you from doing so, anyway. -sigh- I'm just wasting my breath.

okay you ask for my opinion and i give it to you...if you dont like it thats too bad. i said you dont need to lose weight and you shouldnt resort to diet pills. you are the rude one. and i do not wish to talk to you anymore.

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
ive been here for years. i own you. *gets out Official Sitcoms Online Rule Book*

hmmmm, i guess you're right ....

*acquiesces*

Originally posted by robyrob
*gets out Official Sitcoms Online Rule Book*

hmmmm, i guess you're right ....

*acquiesces*

Well, then, since I've been here longer than him...I own him. :D


And TJ owns us all. mwahahaha

Originally posted by dawsongirl
I'm glad you decided to stay. There's so few of us old timers left. :(

Anyway, I totally get it. If I put my anxiety problems in place of your weight problems, I have been down that road too. Suicide, not talking to people, comfort food, not wanting to go to the doctor, saying something like, "Screw pills, they're not going to help."

Basically, it took my mom to look me in the eyes and say enough is enough and drag me to the doctor. Do you have a person like that in your life? Sometimes you need someone else to be your strength.

And how awful what your dad said! :eek: I'd have problems too if my dad said something like that to me. Hell, he's hurt my feelings enough when he implies I have no friends. Old timer? Awwwwww. :hug:

Heck, I wish I had someone like your mom in my life. I feel that a little shove and drive is what I need now, too.

If only! :lol:

Originally posted by Georgia's on my Mind
okay you ask for my opinion and i give it to you...if you dont like it thats too bad. i said you dont need to lose weight and you shouldnt resort to diet pills. you are the rude one. and i do not wish to talk to you anymore. I am the rude one?? You call me a bitch, and I'm supposed to be the rude one? R-right.

And for the record... initially, you didn't say it half as nice as you did here on SOL. You said, and I quote, "DON'T LOSE WEIGHT. BITCH!" ... Not "you dont need to lose weight and you shouldnt resort to diet pills." :rolleyes:

But anyway, there's no use arguing with you. If you don't wish to talk to me anymore. Fine by me.

It's just my opinion, that diet pills are too dangerous to take. I sure wouldn't.

Hmm... How about those diet patches? LOL. Are they half as dangerous as the pills are?

Ahh crap, I just found out a few minutes ago that my family and I are going to a buffet tonight to celebrate I forgot what. What the BEEP is wrong with them?? Do they want to KILL me??????????????? Drive me through the freaking roof????? :wallbang :cuss: :mumble: The whole world's against me, I tell yah!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!! :mad:

I've just done 4 hours worth of rollerblading, and I'm soar as hell. After I got the call from my mom, I jump-roped for another 5 minutes. If I exercise ANY more, I think I'm gonna faint, LOL. But a BUFFET? Com'on now!!! The PERFECT time. :rolleyes: :crying:

Ugh, what should I have to maintain the right amount of calories?? How will I suppress myself?? How will I get through this without having my parents know I'm trying to restrict?? Arghhhh. :faint:

The only thing that has worked for me is not eating junk food at all. It sucks, a lot, but that's the only way I've been able to lose any weight. Plus, it IS healthier...except I just can't give up my Diet Coke. *sigh* It's my downfall. My mom's been using diet pills off and on, for a while now, and they haven't worked for her. I don't know how well they work for everyone else, but the few people I know who have tried them, don't like them.

Good luck, though, Jenny! And don't let a few rude people chase you off the boards.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Hmm... How about those diet patches? LOL. Are they half as dangerous as the pills are?

Ahh crap, I just found out a few minutes ago that my family and I are going to a buffet tonight to celebrate I forgot what. What the BEEP is wrong with them?? Do they want to KILL me??????????????? Drive me through the freaking roof????? :wallbang :cuss: :mumble: The whole world's against me, I tell yah!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!! :mad:

I've just done 4 hours worth of rollerblading, and I'm soar as hell. After I got the call from my mom, I jump-roped for another 5 minutes. If I exercise ANY more, I think I'm gonna faint, LOL. But a BUFFET? Com'on now!!! The PERFECT time. :rolleyes: :crying:

Ugh, what should I have to maintain the right amount of calories?? How will I suppress myself?? How will I get through this without having my parents know I'm trying to restrict?? Arghhhh. :faint:

A salad. And if they have it, like roast turkey or grilled chicken. But def a salad, with some sort of light dressing.

Hey, Cathy. Well, unfortunately I read your post AFTER the dinner, haha. All throughout, I was keeping count of the number of calories I was consuming. (I'm getting pretty good at this mental math stuff). But anyway, my first plate was 1000 calories worth. Ehh.. not bad, I suppose. Second plate I added a bunch of pineapples/grapes/melon dews/cataloups and a cup of fried rice so that it wouldn't look "suspcious." I'll say that was about 500 calories. Ehh, not bad, either.

The final plate, however, was well over who knows what!?! LOL. It was dessert time. -sigh- Sweets are my downfall. I had WAY too many servings of icecream, cake, jello, cookies, and what have you.

All in all, I'll say that was a 3000 calories dinner? (Most likely more, though.) :lol: Then again, that's actually MUCH less than a typical binge, though. But nonetheless, it's still a lot, I know. :(

And guess what I have to attend tomorrow?? A PARTY first thing in the morning at 9am. Then, a whole afternoon at the theatres (with popcorn/nachos, etc). And THEN ANOTHER dinner!!! I HATE this time of the year, ugh!!! Told yah the whole world was against me. ;) :wallbang

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Hey, Cathy. Well, unfortunately I read your post AFTER the dinner, haha. All throughout, I was keeping count of the number of calories I was consuming. (I'm getting pretty good at this mental math stuff). But anyway, my first plate was 1000 calories worth. Ehh.. not bad, I suppose. Second plate I added a bunch of pineapples/grapes/melon dews/cataloups and a cup of fried rice so that it wouldn't look "suspcious." I'll say that was about 500 calories. Ehh, not bad, either.

The final plate, however, was well over who knows what!?! LOL. It was dessert time. -sigh- Sweets are my downfall. I had WAY too many servings of icecream, cake, jello, cookies, and what have you.

All in all, I'll say that was a 3000 calories dinner? (Most likely more, though.) :lol: Then again, that's actually MUCH less than a typical binge, though. But nonetheless, it's still a lot, I know. :(

And guess what I have to attend tomorrow?? A PARTY first thing in the morning at 9am. Then, a whole afternoon at the theatres (with popcorn/nachos, etc). And THEN ANOTHER dinner!!! I HATE this time of the year, ugh!!! Told yah the whole world was against me. ;) :wallbang

eek! too many opportunities. :lol: Just stay away from the chocolate at the theatre. Twizzlers are good. They're fat free.

As you can see, I have quiiiiiite a big problem here. This is pretty much a typical day for me. I spend my days exercising, eating, exercising, and then eating. It's all I do nowadays and "all" I "care" about. I always eat more than I burn, though, so I have no idea why I exercise to begin with, but whatever...



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i would cramp up if a ate then excercised.

Gosh I hope I'm not going to sound preachy...


Okay--I know your focus is losing weight, and you're wondering if diet pills can work for you. But think into the future. How long do you expect those to work? You need to change your lifestyle. I know you know that because you're really educated on binge eating. The only thing that will help you in the long run is overcoming the binge eating. I think I know how you feel about professional assistance, and I don't blame you for not wanting to do it. But this may be something you never can overcome on your own... In any case, diet pills would probably be pointless.

Cash:
Oh, boy do I know I need to beat the binge eating! But I've already tried every trick in the book, and none of them has worked. Why? No idea. I've pretty much deemed it hopeless. So therefore, as a bit of a "boost," I would say some weight loss would make me feel better, and perhaps... just perhaps, help to even suppress the urges to binge! But yeah, you're probably right. I'm probably never gonna be able to beat it on my own. But I would like to, and I'm a fool. Therefore, I will think like one and continue to convince myself that I can. What a jerk I am, huh? :rolleyes: