No, this thread isn't about Adam Sandler's sophomore album. It's about the evils of the "Search for all posts by this user (http://www.sitcomsonline.com/boards/search.php?s=&action=finduser&userid=4328)" link in our profiles.

Let me explain: tonight I decided to take a trip down memory lane via my posts during my tenure here at Sitcoms Online. What I found wasn't pretty.

It's not what was on the other end of the wayback machine that I found disturbing; it's what's on this end. I was reminded of how good a writer I used to be; how quick-witted and sharp-tongued I was. Hell, I'll just go right out and say it - I was one erudite mother****er, and an all-around great guy.

Tonight, AKA of the past cracked AKA of the present up.

But he also depressed the hell out of AKA of the present. You see, I saw a lot of qualities I used to have, but no longer possess. I'm not that funny anymore, nor am I very creative. I can't write or do amateur stand-up comedy anymore. More importantly, I'm not as happy a guy as I used to be.

I feel like the antithesis of what I used to be.

You know what the funny thing is? Back when I registered, I was a big-time stoner. I'd smoke my brains out multiple times a day, seven days a week. It wasn't until a scary incident in October, 2002, that I stopped. Quitting the green stuff usually makes one wittier; not the other way around.

But forget about the pot. Things have changed in the last year and half; a lot of things. But what, specifically, caused my downfall? What caused AKA to become an unfunny, depressed son of a bitch, with the relative IQ of a doorknob?

A lot of things, actually, now that I think about it. I've gone through a lot of horrible things in the last two and a half years, especially within the last year. Things that have given me a cynical "nice guys always finish last" attitude.

I don't want to think that way anymore.

I'm also trying to find out when the old AKA turned into the new AKA. Much like Coca-Cola, the new product isn't as good as the old.

I usually don't get personal like this on message boards, and I'm sorry if I'm creeping anyone out. Hell, I'm creeping myself out. But the sole purpose of this thread is to blow off steam. I'm also sorry if this thread reads like one of the many sympathy ploys one frequently comes across on this board, because it really isn't. I just haven't been doing okay for the better part of the last year and a half, and you're all my makeshift Dr. Sidney Freedmans. Thanks for listening.

And let me just say I'm sorry to anyone if I didn't turn out to be all I was cracked up to be. This is especially directed at anyone on this board that I've alienated. You know who you are.

I'm really tired now, so I think I'm going to try and get some sleep. When I wake up tomorrow morning, I'll probably regret ever having posted this thread.

But let me just close by saying this: that guy who registered back in December, 2001? I'm going to try and bring him back. Minus the herbal enhancements, of course.

Seacrest out.

:eek:

Any chance of you changing to a Republican? :lol: :crazy:

One toke over the line?:lol:


Seriously, I'm glad you gave up smoking that stuff! Other than messing with your head it is said that Maryjane is a whole lot worse on your lungs than cigarettes!

Unfortunately, the more mature/ older one gets the more serious one usually becomes. Don't worry, you are just growing up!:happyface

I, myself found this thread to be witty. Glad you gave up the pot lol. Anyways, I hope you can find yourself again on your journey.

:rofl: Loved the Seacrest, out!

Thanks, everyone. And I feel better this morning, for some reason.

(If a person gets more serious as they get older, by the time I'm 50, I'm screwed)

Eh, we all change. I used to be a hyperactive, happy, overly optimistic fanfiction writere. Three years later, I'm a sedated, usually-not-emotitional (Besides the occasional rage), pessimistic cynical techie.

It's just a fact of life. You know, the more I think about it, the more I believe that heavy exposure to, and heavy debating on, topics on internet discussion groups (Usenet, Message Boards, etc.) gradually change people's personalities. It just happens

My big issue, besides, the wit, is that I'm not a great writer like I used to be. I was looking through my writing from my creative writing class in high school this morning, and there's a lot of great, creative stuff there.

Now, when I sit in front of my computer to do some writing, I freeze. It seems that I've had perpetual writer's block for quite some time now.

Well, I hope you don't regret writing that now, because it's a good post. It doesn't come across strange at all. There's nothing strange about it anyways, but it turned out especially well because of HOW you wrote it.

Now... you're really the only one to judge that your writing has changed (among other things) but I've always noticed that you come across real witty and sharp. Honestly. Your writing rocks now. If it has dwindled at all though, don't worry... it isn't gone all the way... because like I said, you still are writing great stuff. If you're hoping to get back to your old self though (with writing and everything else) I think it could definitely happen.

Maybe it's just one of those things... where you go through ****ty deals and it causes you to change. Then as you think about how you should get back to your old self, it causes almost this pressure to do so. That writer's block is a good example of that--The more you keep having it, the more it continues because it's turned into this pattern that won't seem to stop--of course, I could be wrong. It's just a theory. :D I would try to not worry about any of it too much. It might just take time, and maybe one day you'll notice that things are more like they used to be.

Actaully I can relate to your writing problem. The same thing has happened to me from time to time. There will be times where I write great stuff then I'll go through periods where my writing is simply terrible. I think that I'm going through that phase right now. Give it a couple of months and you'll probably see an improvment in your writing. The fact that you have been feeling down may also effect your writing ability. I'm taking a wild guess that you are about 23 or 24 years old. A couple of years ago when I was your age I also went through a period where I was kind of down. I think this happens because your moving farther away from childhood and you notice certain things changing about yourself, and some of these changes you might not like. You are also beginning to experience what it's like to be an adult and that it is more difficult to be an adult then it was to be a kid. However, you'll find out that being an adult has many advantages over being a kid. You might consider talking to a professional, it might really help. In the end I think you'll be okay. I'm sure of it in fact. It is good that you gave up the pot. :)

Thanks for the encouragement, everyone. :)

haha I liked the Seacrest out. Are you still with that girl that posts here? Doesn't she make you happy?

Originally posted by Idol Fanatic
haha I liked the Seacrest out. Are you still with that girl that posts here? Doesn't she make you happy?

Thanks. :)

I think you're confusing me with someone else, though. I've never been with anyone from the boards.

Peace,
AKA

This afternoon I started looking at my old posts from the very beginning.

I started out as a nice friendly helpful guy chock full of answers and opinions about old and obscure TV shows.


Then I found this guy: ;)

He made me the member I am today.

;)

Anyway, I just called my old shrink, and I'll be resuming therapy this Tuesday.

The reason I put it off for so long is because I hate being on the meds. But I think I hate being depressed more.

Originally posted by TJL
This afternoon I started looking at my old posts from the very beginning.

I started out as a nice friendly helpful guy chock full of answers and opinions about old and obscure TV shows.


Then I found this guy: ;)

He made me the member I am today.

;)

;) is becoming a good friend of mine, too. So is his brother, :D

Either I missed something or I'm really dense, but I still think you're one of the wittiest people on this board.

Originally posted by Seth Thrasher
(If a person gets more serious as they get older, by the time I'm 50, I'm screwed)

Eh, we all change. I used to be a hyperactive, happy, overly optimistic fanfiction writere. Three years later, I'm a sedated, usually-not-emotitional (Besides the occasional rage), pessimistic cynical techie.


That'll get you a better job though. ;)

I'm just...more confused and weird in general.

Originally posted by AKA
My big issue, besides, the wit, is that I'm not a great writer like I used to be. I was looking through my writing from my creative writing class in high school this morning, and there's a lot of great, creative stuff there.

Now, when I sit in front of my computer to do some writing, I freeze. It seems that I've had perpetual writer's block for quite some time now.

Hmm...maybe you just need some new inspiration. Surround yourself with new things and ideas and maybe something will spark.

Thanks a bunch for the kind words, Cathy. :)

Originally posted by dawsongirl
Either I missed something or I'm really dense, but I still think you're one of the wittiest people on this board.
:nod:

Originally posted by AKA
Thanks a bunch for the kind words, Cathy. :)

Sure. :)

I've been down that depression road. It can be really scary. Like you look in the mirror and don't know your own face. But despite all that, you haven't lost any of your humor.

Good luck with that; depression is a bitch ass.

Yeah. Depression is weird. When it hits you, it hits you hard. You're right - it makes you feel like a totally different person.

And when it first happened to me last fall, I didn't know I was depressed. I had to have a shrink tell me I was depressed. Very depressed.. She told me I've been depressed for longer than I think.

I was on Prozac for awhile, but stopped taking it. I also stopped seeing my shrink. Maybe it's time for me to start going again.

I wish she was as cute as Dr. Melfi, though. ;)

And really, thanks again, everyone, for your kind words. They're really making me feel a little better.

Originally posted by safety pin
:nod: ditto - even if you don't appreciate the finer subtleties of :grr:

Today I was feeling kind of depressed, not in control, really puzzled. I remembered this thread (some posts sort of stay in my mind)- and I realized, this has been happening to me too! From the Summer holidays began (even before that- but to a lesser degree)- I have had severe writer's block, only able to jot down 10 page treatments or synopses, or just jot down ideas with no transition in the story, or no context. I haven't came up with a good idea for ages- it used to be that for as long as I had paper and a pen I could let the ideas flow. I'm slightly more outgoing, yet at the same time feel more insecure. My sense of humour around people is almost no-existent, and when it is- it is a safe sense of humour in place of my dramatic, mimickry, jokes about Joan Rivers and using lines from movies and showtunes to make jokes. I feel like I've had the wit and personality sucked out of me, and I'm going crazy.

What's bothering me most is the writer's block- I feel like a day hasn't been productive unless I've catered to my dream of being a writer.

I'm trying to figure how to get everything into balance- as well as work out why this is happening. I think part of it is that now it's summer- I'm only hanging out with this group of people I just met round February- and haven't really seen my old friends, who live further away but go to school with me.I'm gonna phone my other friends- and invite them all to see a movie (without the newer ones- who, funny as some are, have different senses of humour)- hopefully a day with them (more than a day- hopefully they'll come down more often)- will make me happier, and more outgoing again.

:lol: Now I know I'm weird. I go thru periods of depression and whatnot and I have more story ideas!

For some reason, I thought that you and Ian were the same people... I guess that's why I thought you had a girlfriend here. I'm still puzzled though because I can't remember what his username was before "Ian" ...

It happens, people change. :) When I first came here, I was really quiet and shy, and now im a maniac- LOL :lol: Just Kidding
I do have to admit, I did change though. Im not shy like I was when I first came here ;)

Originally posted by Idol Fanatic
For some reason, I thought that you and Ian were the same people... I guess that's why I thought you had a girlfriend here. I'm still puzzled though because I can't remember what his username was before "Ian" ...

John Lennon Lives

Originally posted by AKA
Yeah. Depression is weird. When it hits you, it hits you hard. You're right - it makes you feel like a totally different person.



:nod: Im not depressed now, but I was in May when my grandfather died. It felt like my life had completley changed. It was scary.

Hey AKA, I've been down both of the long roads you've been down and then got chucked into rehab for them, so I understand what you're going through. Yes, it sucks, and unfortunately there's no quick-fix for any of it... but just remember, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel. It's all gonna be okay, eventually :)

Originally posted by Idol Fanatic
For some reason, I thought that you and Ian were the same people... I guess that's why I thought you had a girlfriend here. I'm still puzzled though because I can't remember what his username was before "Ian" ...

What Cathy said. Plus, it's in Ian's sig. :)

I'm cracking up- I've noticed my behaviour's changed so much in some aspects that I'm starting to feel like Lester in American Beauty!!!