Yeah, I know, another fic! :D I really should be doing other things atm, but oh well...... Enjoy! :cool:
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"Mommy, what's this?" Ten-year-old Elena Basso walked up to her mother, carrying some letters in her hands. CD was sitting on her bed, while she folded laundry. She looked at the little girl with long, blonde hair and blue eyes. Although she was rapidly growing taller like her parents, she was still their baby to them. Elena had an expression on her face that showed a mixture of hurt and confusion.

"Let me see what you have there," CD said and reached out her hand. Elena hopped on the bed next to her mom and handed her the frayed, yellowed slips of paper. CD skimmed her eyes over them, and felt a knot tighten in her stomach. "Where did you find these?" she asked.

"In the basement. I was just looking for my summer clothes, and I saw a box that I hadn't notice before. It was open, so...."

"It's OK, Elena. I just didn't know that Daddy had kept these, that's all," CD sighed. She didn't know what to tell her daughter, though. Her eyes again scanned the first note. It was on a sheet of paper torn from CD's police notebook. The SFPD letterhead was at the top, and the body beneath it, in CD's handwriting, read:

Dear Nate,
This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, but I feel that it's best for everyone involved. I can't deal with being a cop anymore. I just can't handle the whole life of it, and that includes you. I'm so sorry, Nate. Don't try to follow me; it won't do any good. And please don't think that I never loved you. I did love you, and always will.
C

CD wished desperately that she had never written the note. 'How on earth could I do that to him? Act like everything was perfect, and then move out and leave him with nothing but a note? ' she thought.

"Mommy? Are you leaving us? Are you and Daddy getting a divorce?" Elena asked with a tremble in her voice. Her little lip shook, and she fought to keep back tears.

"Oh, no, honey! I will never leave Daddy and your little brothers and you. I love you all more than anything!" CD exclaimed. She then kissed her little girl on the top of her head and stroked her hair.

"Then why did you write this?" Elena insisted.

CD sighed. "Because I was very scared and confused. It was a long time ago, before you were even born. It was just.....it's a long story, sweetie."

"Why were you scared? You've always said that Daddy makes you feel safe."

"He does, Elena, he does. But like I said, it's a long story."

"Tell me, please? I'm old enough, and I won't tell Brennan or Andy!"

CD looked at her for a moment with an unsure look, but then gave a little smile. "Well.....OK." Elena grinned and kept her eyes glued on her mom. CD took a deep breath. "OK, now, you know how Daddy and I were work partners, and that mean woman shot me, and I almost died?"

"Uh-huh."

"Well, that happened just right after Daddy and I decided that we were going to start dating," CD said. Elena's eyes glistened in anticipation. She could hardly imagine her parents before they were a couple. CD continued, "After I recovered and left the hospital, I moved into Daddy's apartment. We were so happy, and we even started talking about getting married. But when we talked about me going back to work, I started getting really scared. I just was afraid of getting hurt again."

"Yeah, there's a lot of bad guys out there!" Elena agreed.

CD smiled. "Yes, there are!.....Then I started thinking about Daddy. I didn't want him to get hurt, either, if something happened to me. So I thought the best thing would be to get out of his life, completely."

"But didn't you love him?"

"Oh, of course I loved him, sweetie. But I thought that it was for his own good, if I left. I thought he would be hurt less if I left him, than if I died. But I was wrong. I hurt him really bad."

"Is that when you wrote this note?" Elena asked.

"Mm hmm. Daddy had taken a leave of absence from work to stay with me while I got better. One day I waited until he went grocery shopping, and then I packed up my stuff, wrote the note, and left. I also left my gun, badge, and star on the kitchen table, and mailed Grandma Kate my resignation letter on the way out of town."

"Oh, that's so sad! Then what happend?"

Then CD continued on with her story......

(To Be Continued)

TO BE CONTINUED IS RIIIIIGHT!!!!! and this continuation had better be FAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! B/C 1)i wasn't expecting a new fic from u ;) ;) ;), 2)it's obviously amazing!! 3)i love to read ur stuff b/c they make me really happy!!!!

so get ur butt back here and do that again!!! :)

Originally posted by candace~n~nathan
TO BE CONTINUED IS RIIIIIGHT!!!!! and this continuation had better be FAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! B/C 1)i wasn't expecting a new fic from u ;) ;) ;), 2)it's obviously amazing!! 3)i love to read ur stuff b/c they make me really happy!!!!

so get ur butt back here and do that again!!! :)

What Lisa said! Get back here and post more!!! :D:D

okay, i'm sorry, but TWO replies does NOT do this new fic justice!! i'm gonna reply again b/c it was obviously awesome, and i want mooooooooooooooooooooooooooore!!!! :) :D

o yeah, btw, this fic is STILL awesome!!!

Yeah I agree with Lisa!! This is great so far! Get your booty back here and post some more!!!:D

OMG that was soooooo good. Pleace post more sooon!

Awwww, thanks so much for all the SWEET replies! I feel so honored! :D Here's more!
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Then CD continued on with her story......

~ CD's Story ~

Nate let himself into his apartment, carrying 2 bags of groceries. "CD? Sweetie? CD, I'm home! Geez, you wouldn't believe the weather today. The rain is really coming down. You should see---" Nate had set the bags on the kitchen counter, but frowned when he didn't hear CD respond. He looked around, and noticed her gun, badge, and star on a piece of paper on the table. He walked over to it, thinking, 'She must be here. She wouldn't leave the house without her gun!' Nate picked up the slip of paper and read it. He reread it 3 times, not accepting it as truth. Nate felt his heart race, and panic overtook him. He began to shake, and ran to the bedroom and bathroom, shouting CD's name. He felt his whole world crashing down around him, in the blink of an eye.

Nate ran back out of his apartment, not knowing what to do. He raked his hands through his hair and began to hyperventilate. "CD! CD!" he screamed outside. "CD! WHERE ARE YOU? I LOVE YOU! PLEASE COME BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!" He got into his car and started driving. He didn't know where to go. Nate found himself at CD's old apartment, but she wasn't there. He dialed both Kate's and Jinny's numbers, and asked them if they knew where CD went. Neither of them had heard anything. He frantically began going to all the places that he knew CD liked, like the Anchorside, Alamo Square, her favorite stores and restaurants. He even called he mother to see if she had heard fromher, but Polly hadn't received any word from her daughter.

Nate searched for CD all day. He finally decided to let it go for the day and try again in the morning. He wearily drove himself home, and let himself into his and CD's apartment. He walked back inside, and the emptiness of it seemed to overtake him. For the first time in months, CD's cheery voice and face did not greet him when he came inside. A lump formed in Nate's throat. He tried to swallow it, but it didn't work. He dropped his keys on the table in the entryway and thew his jacket on the sofa. Then he walked into the bedroom and looked at the bed. It was made the way CD did it every morning. Tears sprang to his eyes as he surveyed the room, where they had shared countless devotions of love to each other. There were signs of her everywhere, even though her clothes were gone. The bedding was what CD and Nate had picked out together. Get well cards were still fanned out on her dresser. A picture of her was at its usual spot on Nate's dresser. The tears now began to roll, one by one, down Nate's cheeks. He felt as though his heart had been ripped from his chest and stomped on. Nate took his gun, badge, star, and cell phone off his belt and put them in his sock drawer. He laid down on top of the bed, and gathered CD's pillow into his arms. He could smell her sweet distinctive scent on it, and he yearned for her touch. He squeezed the pillow tightly against his chest, and the sobs started to come. He cried until there were no more tears, and sleep overtook him.

This is great. I love this fanfic. Post more soon.

Here is another pic for ya to brighten up your day. Well, I hope that does. :D

I loved it Tara! I want more:D:D

wow, i wanna go bawl my eyes out now...... :crying:

but then I want to come back and read it again....it was so incredibly powerful; i can definitely picture every word u wrote, it was THAT good.

please post more of this fic very soon!!!! :)

I hope you'll write a happy end here Tara! :)

and as for the two grafittis, the pics don't do them justice, all the glittery highlights and stuff, you can't see that on the scans :( Come visit me and I'll show you my originals ;)

Ohhhh I can't wait for more!! please post more soon!




ohhhhhh Cat great pics!!! Hmmm I wonder if, those were in an art musame and someone placed it as their own without letting you know how much money or prision time they would have to do?

Originally posted by CD DeLorenzo
I hope you'll write a happy end here Tara! :)

and as for the two grafittis, the pics don't do them justice, all the glittery highlights and stuff, you can't see that on the scans :( Come visit me and I'll show you my originals ;)


actually I started another one a while back, I didn't color it yet though...

Originally posted by Irish_Rose_Kate
Ohhhh I can't wait for more!! please post more soon!




ohhhhhh Cat great pics!!! Hmmm I wonder if, those were in an art musame and someone placed it as their own without letting you know how much money or prision time they would have to do?

LMAO, yeah, some jerk named Picasso stole all my art... j/k but those grafittis are really mine :) I have a lot other not division stuff too...

oops, i'm sorry i can't remember if i said to post more or not..........

Originally posted by CD DeLorenzo
actually I started another one a while back, I didn't color it yet though...

what does that say? lol can't read it......

Originally posted by CD DeLorenzo
I hope you'll write a happy end here Tara! :)


Awww, you all know me! LOL. :D Well, it'll still be pretty sad for a while, but I promise it will be worth it!
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Nate tossed and turned all night. It was the first night since CD left the hospital that he spent without her next to him. He kept imagining that she was there, only to open his eyes and be saddened yet again that she wasn't. He only managed to get a few hours of sleep that night. Not only was the love of his life not in his arms, but she had left him, and he began to worry that he wouldn't find her. As he laid in bed and stared at the ceiling, the thoughts raced through his mind. 'What did I do to make her leave? Why doesn't she love me anymore? Did she ever love me? I should have sensed that something was wrong. I should have know. I'm her lover, her partner, her best friend---how could I have not seen anything coming? This is all my fault. If only I had listened to her more, and told her that I loved her more. Then she'd probably still be here beside me.'

Finally, Nate gave in and got up again. He knew that he wouldn't be able to rest until he found CD again. He had waited too long for her---he wasn't going to just let her go. He took a quick shower, but didn't bother to shave. He was too depressed. Nate pulled on a pair of jeans and a long sleeved T-shirt. He went into the kitchen and sorted through some bills on the counter, until he found CD's credit card statement. He stuck it in his coat pocket and left. By 6 am, he was at the Division. He called CD's credit card company to see if she had used it in the past couple of days. He was told that she had used it to charge a flight from the San Francisco airport, a hotel in Los Angeles, and dinner the night before. A surge of hope filled Nate's body. He quickly jotted down a note for Cap to let her know the status and left for the airport.

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Nate took the next flight to LA, and then took a taxi where CD was staying, and looked at the line at the front desk. He waited all of 3 seconds before he pushed to the front as he flashed his badge. "Excuse me, excuse me, official police business. Sorry, people," he said.

"Wow, really? I thought you guys finished that," the desk clerk said.

"Um, what?" Nate asked, confused.

"You know, that investigation last night? Some other cop from San Francisco came here on official police business yesterday, but today she said that she got what she needed."

Nate quickly figured out what was happening. "Oh, yeah, well, we discovered that we just needed to tie up a couple of loose ends. Do you remember what cop that was?"

"I don't remember her name, but she was tall, with shoulder-length blonde hair, early thirties, I'd say."

Nate felt a knot form in his stomach again. He'd missed her. "Oh, OK, thanks. I need to get in touch with her, but I can't find her. Did she say where she was going?"

"Geez, you cops really should be talking to each other, not me. I do have customers here, you know."

Nate got mad. He grabbed the clerk's shirt collar and got in his face. "Maybe yu didn't understand me when I said, 'police business'! I need to know everything you know, is that clear?" he yelled at him.

The clerk swallowed. "Uh, yeah, I'm sorry, officer."

Nate rolled his eyes at being called 'officer.' "It's Inspector. Now do you have anything for me, or not?"

"OK, she had me make a reservation for her at one of our hotels in Chicago. The one on Michigan Avenue. That's all I know, I swear."

"See, now that wasn't so hard, now was it?" Nate replied sarcastically. He went back outside. "Taxi!" he yelled, and signaled with a wave of his hand. One soon stopped and took Nate back to the airport. He just couldn't seem to catch up to her. No matter what, she always seemed to be a step ahead of him. Still, he wasn't mad at CD. He knew taht he should be furious with her, but he just couldn't be. He loved her too much to do anything but bring her back to him. He decided that he would do anything it took to win her back. Anything.

awwwwwww, that nate dude is sooooo sweet!!! I love that guy!! and i love this fic, so get back here and do that again! help him find his momma!! ;)

awwww Nate! Go catch her!

actually there's a song that reminds me of this...

I heard she drove a silvery sportscar
along the empty streets last night
hanging around with hairdos like mine
no, I haven't seen the kids for some time

Picked up her shoes from the red-brick stairway
just like a harpsichord as she moves
and back upstairs at half past two
with a paper folded outside the loo

Rain falls like elvis' tears
oh no, no sugar tonight
out on the highstreets
dim all the lights now
bright colour tears again

Baby, don't forget to catch me
don't forget to catch me
don't forget to catch me

Hold on princess, don't you think that it's time
on the platform with a drizzle in my eye

I had a friend from over the harbour
he said he stayed with a neighbourhood girl
and sometimes when it won't go right
I can hear his voice inside me at night

Rain falls like elvis' tears
oh no, no sugar tonight
out on the hightstreets
dim all the lights now
bright colour tears again

Baby, don't forget to catch me
don't forget to catch me
don't forget to catch me

Hold on princess, don't you think that it's time
on the platform with a drizzle in my eye

Baby, don't forget to catch me
don't forget to catch me
don't forget to catch me

Hold on princess, don't you think that it's time
the ticket in my hand,
the train pulls down the line

Catch Me - Bandits

This is great! Post more soon. :D

Originally posted by candace~n~nathan
awwwwwww, that nate dude is sooooo sweet!!! I love that guy!! and i love this fic, so get back here and do that again! help him find his momma!! ;)

Awwww, thanks! I love that guy, too. ;) :D

And Cat, I really liked that song! It does fit. There's another one that fits pretty well, too, I think. Well, you'll see. ;)
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"Hi, I'd like a flight to Chicago, the next one possible," Nate said to the desk clerk at the airport.

"O'Hare or Midway?"

"Um, O'Hare."

"OK, there's a plane that will be taking off in less than an hour, but that'll cost you $1100. If you want to wait until 6, though, the rate is $800."

Nate pulled his VISA card out of his wallet and slapped it on the counter. "I don't care what it costs. Get me the flight."

"Yes, sir," the clerk replied and swiped his credit card. He handed Nate a ticket, and directed him to the security area for processing. He stood at security while they verified again that he was a cop, and that's why he was carrying a gun. He hated how they always put him through so much hassle at airports. Nate kept checking his watch, noticing that the time was ticking dangerously by. The loudspeaker made an announcement that his flight was boarding, and Nate got mad again.

"Hey, come on, that's my flight! I've got to go!" he exclaimed, and pointed to the terminal.

"We're moving as fast as we can, sir. We have to wait for verification that you are a police officer."

"WHAT? My star and badge aren't proof enough?!"

"Well, I believe you, but if my boss found out that---"

"Look. I was in here not even 2 hours ago, on my way into this damn city! I've already gone through this!"

"Please be patient. We'll get you on the plane after you've been checked out."

"You'd better," Nate muttered.

A few more minutes passed by, and another announcement came on the loudspeaker. "Final call for flight 315. Final call for flight 315."

With that, Nate made a run for it. He took off for the terminal. Just as it came into sight, Nate recognized a familiar image, and his heart skipped a beat. He saw the back of CD as she disappeared through the terminal door.

Nate watched CD slip from his grasp yet again. He immediately tried to follow her, but security came up and grabbed him. "Sir, you're going to have to come with us. You have breached security."

"I HAVE NOT! I am a homicide inspector, damn it! And you just made me miss her AGAIN!" he screamed at the guards.

"Calm down. You missed who?"

Nate realized what he had let slip out. "Um, uh, the plane! You made me miss the plane! THAT I PAID $300 EXTRA FOR!!!!"

"We'll refund the $300, OK?"

Nate knew that if he made any more of a scene. somebody was going to arrest him, so he just sucked it in. He did get clearance after a few more minutes, just as the plane was carrying CD took off. He stood at the window, staring at her airplane. The one that he had a ticket in his hand for. The music on the sound system changed to a Michelle Branch song:

Of all the things I believed in
I just want to get it over with
Tears form behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that pass me by...

Nate didn't realize the signifance of it until the second verse and chorus:

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing
Are starting to get old
If feels like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend
And I said,

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where
I am blinded by the light
But it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And it hurts to want everything and
Nothing at the same time
I want what's yours
And I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

And when the stars fall
I will lie awake
You're my shooting star.

A great sadness came over him. All he could do was watch the plane disappear into the clouds and listen to the song. 'Why did you say goodbye to me, CD?' he thought. He crossed his arms to hug himself. He didn't know how much longer he could take this, but he knew he had to try until he died.

awwww, that was so sad!! :( poor nate!!!!!! :(

but i want u to continue ASAP b/c i KNOW u wouldn't disappoint us.....................;) :D

Originally posted by candace~n~nathan
awwww, that was so sad!! :( poor nate!!!!!! :(

but i want u to continue ASAP b/c i KNOW u wouldn't disappoint us.....................;) :D

Yeah, poor Nate....:( . Awww, you figured it out that I won't disappoint you? Dang it, and I thought I hid my feelings about Nate and CD so well..... ;) ;) :D
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Nate finally got his flight to Chicago. He ended up having to wait for the 6 o'clock one.

Meanwhile, the disappearing blonde landed, and took a cab to her hotel to check in. After that, she decided to go for a walk. CD strolled down Michigan Avenue, window shopping. She felt such a severe depression within her heart and soul. She felt as though half of her was missing. In a way, there was. CD didn't know where to go or what to do. She had never been happier than had been with Nate; it was just that she got scared when Nate started talking about her going back to work. She didn't want Nate to get hurt if something happened to her. Her recent brush with death had shown her how possible it was. She felt like a bitch for leaving him with nothing but a note and memories, but she felt that she was only doing what was best for him. It tore her up inside to do it.

CD finally came to a stop in front of the breathtaking Buckingham Fountain. She stood and stared at it. Her hands rested in the pockets of her baby blue peacoat. The cold night breeze blew through her hair. She was cold from the Chicago winter weather, but didn't want to go back to her hotel room just yet, so she sat on the edge of the fountain and watched the world pass by. Even this late at night, the streets were still buzzing. Everyone seemed to be hurrying home. CD imagined that everyone was rushing to go home to be with someone they loved. Tears sprang to her eyes. She remembered the feeling of going home to Nate. She felt like she had left her heart back in San Francisco with Nate. Perhaps it's because she had. CD so desperately wished that she was still in Nate's loving arms, being loved and protected. She began to think that she had been wrong. She started to sob silently. 'Even if I went back now, Nate probably wouldn't want me back. Who could blame him? I broke his heart, with no more notice that a lousy note,' she thought. Little did she know that Nate had been looking for her to 2 days now.

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For the second time that day, Nate landed. He was was exhausted, but didn't let himself think about it. All he could think about was finding CD. Knowing that they were in the same city again have him a second wind. He went outside and tried to get a cab, but since it was now after midnight with the time change, not many were running. All he could get was a ride on the airport's shuttle bus that took him to The Loop. Afte that, he decided to walk. What he didn't realize, though, was how big Chicago was, and how far away Michigan Avenue was from The Loop. He trudged past Buckingham Fountain, and turned the corner.

AND YOU LEFT IT THERE!!!!! Get back here and post more !!! :mad:

OHHHHHH MYYYYY GOSHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! :mad: :mad:


YOU ARE OBVIOUSLY THE BIGGEST JERK HERE!!!!!!!! GET UR ASS BACK HERE AND POST MORE!!!!!! :mad:

Originally posted by candace~n~nathan
OHHHHHH MYYYYY GOSHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! :mad: :mad:


YOU ARE OBVIOUSLY THE BIGGEST JERK HERE!!!!!!!! GET UR ASS BACK HERE AND POST MORE!!!!!! :mad:

Yeah, ya got a problem with that??!! ;) ;) :D J/K! I know, I'm cruel....well, everybody, I was going to make you guys sweat it out for another day or two, but Lisa threatened to stop writing fic forever, so I was blackmailed! At least it's good blackmail, though. :)
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He trudged past Buckingham Fountain, and passed the corner. As he he did, Nate looked ahead to see what was ahead of him. Then he saw it---the most beautiful thing in the world. Nate stopped and stared at the blonde woman in the familiar blue coat, who had hear face buried in her hands. He shook his head in disbelief. 'Nah. It couldn't be her. What would she be doing out at this ungodly hour?' he thought. He walked a little closer to see. His heart skipped another beat, and he felt hope welling up inside of him. Nate stopped about 10 feet away from CD.

Just then, CD looked up. 'Oh my god,' she thought. She couldn't believe that Nate had found her. Tears streamed down her cheeks at the sight of him. She was so happy to see him, but didn't know what to say. Nate fought back his tears and slowly walked up to her. They never broke eye contact. Nate took her hand in his, and stood up to face him. They were speechless, so all they could do was hug. Nate's embrace was tight around her, and CD buried her face in his neck. She loved him so much. CD began to kiss his neck. Nate felt the familiar shivers go up his spine at her touch. He turned his head to meet her lips with his, and intensely kissed her.

After half a minute, they pulled back and stared into each other's eyes. "How did you find me?" CD asked.

"I did what I had to do," Nate answered.

CD didn't want to answer any questions just yet, so before Nate could ask them, she kissed him again. As they stood there next to the fountain, the streetlights shone on them, and soft, silent snow began to fall around them. After a moment, though, Nate pulled away. CD got a little worried. "What?" she said.

"CD.....CD, I can only imagine how you're feeling about being a cop after what you went through. If it's the cop thing that made you leave me---then I'll just quit! I mean it, I'll quit!"

"Nate," CD interrupted, but Nate continued anyway.

"You're more important to me than any job. I'll do anything. I don't care. I'd rather live in a mud hut with you than in a mansion without you. Don't you know that?" he pleaded with her. His piercing eyes seemed to reach into hers as he spoke.

Another tear rolled down CD's cheek, only this time it was from happiness. "Oh, Nate," she cried and fell into his arms and cried more.

Nate held her and smoothed her hair as she cried on his shoulder. "I'll do whatever it takes, CD. Just please don't leave me. I love you so much."

"I love you, too," CD mumbled in a wobbly voice. "I promise I won't leave you again. I promise." They kissed once more, and then walked hand in hand to the hotel.
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So, do you like? :D Now THAT is the way the premiere should have gone. I think it works MUCH better LOL. Do I get more fic, now, Lisa?

Originally posted by Snowfall
"I love you, too," CD mumbled in a wobbly voice. "I promise I won't leave you again. I promise." They kissed once more, and then walked hand in hand to the hotel.

FINALLY!! He found her. I love it!! Get back here and post more!!!!!:D

Oooh, kick DJL out, and you can be the writer for TD!!! Yeah, that SHOULD have been the way it was. Too bad that DJL is the writer, or creator, or whateva she does, huh? :confused:

Originally posted by Snowfall
So, do you like? :D Now THAT is the way the premiere should have gone. I think it works MUCH better LOL. Do I get more fic, now, Lisa?


UMMMMMMMMMMMMMM, you get WHATEVER u want!!!! lol, that was SOOOOOOO great, Tara!!!! and so freakin adorable!!!!!! and are u gonna tell us what happens at that hotel that they're walking to??? ;) heh heh, u BETTER!! ;) :wave:

awww how sweet, btw i'm a:newbie:

Awwwwwwwww.............Yaaaayyyyy!!!!!!!!!!! He found her!!! That was SOOOO great Tara! Post more! And tell us everything that happens in that hotel room. :D

Originally posted by croatian_princess
Oooh, kick DJL out, and you can be the writer for TD!!! Yeah, that SHOULD have been the way it was. Too bad that DJL is the writer, or creator, or whateva she does, huh? :confused:

Wow, thanks! I'm so flattered! Yeah, I WISH I could kick DJL out, and then guess what my first order of business would be..... ;) :D . I'd #1, beg Tracey Needham to come back, #2, fire Stacy, #3, have CD and Nate have a super-huge emotional episode where they get back together.......*sigh*......#4, have Raina go back to what she did and have CD and Nate be partners again.....yeah, that's what I'd do. ;) :D Hey, I can dream, can't I? LOL
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CD unlocked the door to the room while Nate was kissing the back of her neck and running his hands up and down her sides. CD smiled and kissed him, and they shuffled into the room. They dropped their coats to the floor. While still kissing, they sat down on the bed together. CD noticed that Nate hadn't shaved in a couple of days, and tried to push the guilt from the hurt she'd caused him from her mind. The kissing grew more intense, and Nate clawed at her shirt to get it off of her. She gladly lifted her arms for it to come off, and moved her lips to Nate's neck. She pulled Nate's shirt off of him as well, and then hugged him as close against her body as possible. She wanted to feel him next to her body so badly. She hadn't realized how much she needed him. "I missed you," she whispered in between kisses.

Nate's body cried out for her as well. He needed her and her love so badly, it almost hurt. He had never had to depend on someone else as he depended on CD. "I missed you, too, CD, more than you can imagine." His hands moved to her breasts, and he cupped them through her bra. She slowly leaned back on the bed, pulling Nate with her. Nate then worked on getting her jeans off. CD felt shivers go down her spine at his touch. His hands traveled further south down her body and massaged her.

CD groaned and purred, "You are way too overdressed here." Nate grinned and removed the rest of his clothes. Then CD grabbed the back of his neck and crushed her mouth to his. She lifted her arms up and rested her elbows on his shoulders, which made Nate leave a trail of kisses, leading to her chest. He unhooked her bra and removed it, so he could kiss her breasts. CD moved her hands all the way down the backside of his body, and Nate groaned as well.

"Oh, god, CD, I want you. I love you so much."

CD arched her back as Nate's kisses moved even further south. "Make love to me," she whispered. "I want to feel your love forever."

"Forever and a day, babe," he breathed between gasps for air, and they made love.

After they climaxed, Nate collapsed on top of her. "Oh, geez, CD, I missed you so much," Nate panted.

"And I love you, too. And I'm sorry," CD said.

"I know you are. You don't need to tell me."

"But I want to. I owe you an explanation."

"Only if you want to, CD. If you're not ready to tell me, I can wait."

"Nate....I didn't want you to get hurt if something happened to me again. I was so close to dying when the marshal shot me, and I could see how unbelieveably close we were getting...."

Nate finished her sentence, "So we'll cherish the time that we do have, honey. I know what the risks are. But they're worth it. You're worth it. I thought you knew that."

"I guess so."

"And like I said before, if it's the job that's the problem, we'll both quit. We don't have to be cops if that's what it takes for us to be together. "

"Oh, honey, you don't have to give up your job. That's not it. But me, I don't know....I just don't know if I can do it anymore."

"Well, I'll support you in whatever you decide, sweetheart. I'm here for you, no matter what. Remember that. Just like I've always been there for you, right?"

"I know. Thanks." CD gave Nate a sad little smile. Her face was inches from his, and they stared into each other's eyes. She loved this man so much. She just couldn't believe that he could love her, too, the way he did. No one had ever loved her, truly. Not like Nate did. But over and over again, Nate proved it to her, so CD tried to accept his love and return it, too.

"Always remember that I love you, CD. I will always love you, and nothing you can do will push me away. I'm here for you, forever." With that, CD gave Nate another slow kiss, and then they nestled into each other's arms and fell asleep.

Originally posted by Snowfall
Wow, thanks! I'm so flattered! Yeah, I WISH I could kick DJL out, and then guess what my first order of business would be..... ;) :D . I'd #1, beg Tracey Needham to come back, #2, fire Stacy, #3, have CD and Nate have a super-huge emotional episode where they get back together.......*sigh*......#4, have Raina go back to what she did and have CD and Nate be partners again.....yeah, that's what I'd do. ;) :D Hey, I can dream, can't I? LOL

Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I say we kick her out, and we'll decide on our own writers!!!!! And then we can not just have Stacy kicked out, we can have someone "accidently" shoot her, and have her leave, although, no one would care, coz we'd all be way too excited that our CD was back!!!! Wahoo, what a speech. BTW, that last part was sweet. Post more ASAP!

aw, TARA!!!!!! that was so incredible!!!!so sweet and lovely and awesome and AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :) more!!!!!!!!!!!! :cool:

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww that was so sweet.....I loved it! Post more soooon! And dont wait till the next week please...like some mean people do!:D

Originally posted by planet_stella
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww that was so sweet.....I loved it! Post more soooon! And dont wait till the next week please...like some mean people do!:D

Yeah, it drives me crazy when people do that, huh, Rasa? ;) ;)

OK, I have a few minutes here to sneak on and post some for everybody. Thanks for all the sweet replies! :)
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~ Back to CD and her daughter ~

CD explained the story to her daughter, while carefully omitting the last part, of course. "So then you and Daddy got married?" Elena asked.

"Yeah, pretty soon after that, we decided to get married."

"And you went back to being a cop, too!" Elena grinned.

"Yup! I missed it, and I missed being with Daddy all day....."

"But you're not with Daddy all day now, anyway, now that you have Grandma Kate's old job!" Elena replied, proudly.

"Well, not as much, but we still do see each other pretty often at work."

"Yeah, I know. I want to be a cop when I grow up, too, just like you and Daddy, and Grandma Kate, and Aunt Jinny, and Aunt Raina!"

CD laughed and gave her daughter a hug. "You'll make a great cop, sweetie."

As they were still hugging, Nate and the boys came home, and walked into the room to see CD and Elena. Eight year old Brennan carried a Walmart bag and Nate held four year old Andy in one arm and his and CD's dry cleaning in the other. "Hey, girls, we're home!" Nate announced with a grin. He kissed Elena on top of her head, and then gave CD a quick kiss on her lips. CD smiled back at him.

"These are for you, Mommy!" Andy exclaimed, and with his little hands he thrust towards her a bouquet of flowers.

CD grinned and took them. "Oh, my! Thank you so much, honey! Are these from you?"

"They're from Daddy!" he squealed.

Nate just smiled and gazed at his wife and the mother of his children. Twelve years of marriage hadn't dampered their joy and love at all for each other. "He did, did he?" CD said and sweetly smiled at Nate. She got up and kissed Nate on the cheek.

"We got all the errands done," Nate said.

"And Daddy stopped at the Dairy Dream and got us ice cream cones!" Brennan announced with a grin.

"Of course, I brought some home for my two best girls, too," Nate added.

"Oooooh, yay! Did you bring me a heath blizzard?" Elena asked and jumped up excitedly.

"What else?" Nate replied with a grin. "So what were you two giggling about when we came home?" he asked with a twinkle in his eye.

"Uh, that," CD said and then whispered in his ear, "She found the note."

"What note?"

"The one I told you to throw away, like 12 years ago! Remember?!"

"Uh, sweetie, there's a good explanation.....I'll tell you later," he replied. "So what did you tell her?"

"I told her the truth. There was no point in hiding it."

"Yeah, I guess you're right," Nate said.

"Um, Mom? What about the other letters?" Elena asked.

"Oh, yeah, I was getting to those but then got distracted. Those are just the love letters that Daddy and I wrote each other."

"Awww, that's so sweet!" Elena said, but then wrinkled her nose. "But it's really weird the way you guys talked to each other."

CD and Nate laughed. "Like how?" CD asked.

"Ugh, it's too gross to say! It's just all this lovey-dovey-I-can't-live-without-you stuff! Yeccchh!" Elena spat out.

Her parents laughed again, and winked at each other. Nate sat Andy down, and wrapped his arm around CD. "Sorry that you're stuck with parents that love each other," Nate chuckled and his eyes sparkled at his CD.

I love this fic. I think Elena is so cute. Keep the good stuff comin' :D


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AGAIN, the SWEETNESS!!!!!!!! :) :D i loooooooooooooooooooved that post so much!!!!!!!!!!! WAHOO!!!!!!!! Give me more, give me more!!

Originally posted by candace~n~nathan
AGAIN, the SWEETNESS!!!!!!!! :) :D i loooooooooooooooooooved that post so much!!!!!!!!!!! WAHOO!!!!!!!! Give me more, give me more!!

yes yes more! :)


and THAT is MY pic.... and if you keep on ignoring me and using my stuff I'm gonna report you Snowflake345

Hey great post. love this fic.

CD Delorenzo I am using your pics because I like them and if you don't like that then maybe you should make one for me or tell me how to make one of my own.

I am still the person that has the sn Snowflake345, I had to change it because my computer messed up. :(

well neither of the pics you're using right now is mine, but I know for a fact that Miranda doesn't like it either when others use her pics unasked, no idea about Rasa though. And I already offered you to make you your own avator, you rudely ignored that and took yet another one for your new screenname. Then I already left you another message at Love Is In The Air, and you apparently ignored that too! Like I said there, it's not that I mind that someone takes my pics, and hell I made a lot of avatars for my friends here already. I'm glad you like the pics, but ignoring me, that's what's kicking me over the edge, and you've overdone it with that.

I'm sorry. *asking nicely as possible* Can you please show me show me how to make one of my own? I really love CD and Nate (just thought you would like to know)

And I am truely sorry for ignoring you. :D SMILE!

AWWWWW Tara!!!! That was sooooo incredibly sweet!!!! I love this fic!!!!!!!!! PLEASE post more!!!!

And about that whole avatar-pic thingie, i don't mind people taking my pics, and i'm glad that someone likes them. Though, it would be nice if people asked my persmission first....


party: party: party: party: party: party:

Originally posted by Shortcake31
I'm sorry. *asking nicely as possible* Can you please show me show me how to make one of my own? I really love CD and Nate (just thought you would like to know)

And I am truely sorry for ignoring you. :D SMILE!

like I said before, IM me and we can talk there

New page! I guess I have to post more, right? Sorry, this is the last installment. :(
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Late that night, after the kids were asleep, CD and Nate dressed for bed and crawled under the covers. Nate held her in his arms. CD said, "So, you told me you'd tell me why you kept the note."

Nate took a deep breath. "Yeah...I'm sorry about that, sweetheart. OK, this may sound strange, but.....I kept it to remind myself of how lucky I am."

"How on earth does that abysmal piece of drivel remind you of how lucky you are? I hate that I wrote that."

"I know you do, and I will get rid of it, if you want. I kept it to remind myself of how lucky I am, because we could have ended then. I'm just so lucky that you were willing to come back to me. I didn't deserve it."

"Oh, yes you did, honey. I'm the one who didn't deserve you, after what I did to you."

"Everyone deserves a second chance. You said so yourself. And besides, what kind of friend would I have been to not find out what was wrong?"

CD's eyes cast over Nate's face. She brought her lips to his and gave him a long, passionate kiss.

"What's that for?" Nate asked with a smile on his face.

"Have I told you lately that I love you?" CD replied with a grin, and stroked the small grey streaks of hair at his temples.

"Only every day of my life. And I love you, too, CD."

CD kissed him again, and rolled on top of him. Nate turned the light out beside them and wrapped his arms around her body. He started to kiss her neck, which made shivers go up her spine. "Let's just put the note behind us, OK, sweetie?" CD moaned and then kissed him on the neck as well.

"Definately," Nate replied and pulled her nightshirt off. They made love and then laid in each other's arms.

"Goodnight, sweetheart," they whispered to each other as they had every night for 12 years, and would continue to every night for the rest of their lives.

OMG that was the best. KEEP IT COMIN' :D :cool:

AWWWWW was that the end?!!! *bawls* that was so beautiful!!!! i loved it so much, so listen up DJL-- CHECK THIS FIC OUT AND WRITE UR DAMN DIVISION LIKE TARA WROTE THIS!! ;) :) lol, nice job Tara baby!! :)

Originally posted by candace~n~nathan
AWWWWW was that the end?!!! *bawls* that was so beautiful!!!! i loved it so much, so listen up DJL-- CHECK THIS FIC OUT AND WRITE UR DAMN DIVISION LIKE TARA WROTE THIS!! ;) :) lol, nice job Tara baby!! :)

Yeah, that was the end. :( And awwwww, thanks SO MUCH for the fantastic compliments! :) About DJL, yeah......don't think I haven't thought some very scary plans about her.....;) ;) :D I would say them here, but I'm afraid of getting sued or something. ;)

Aww I loved it. That was a great fic and I know you will write some more great fics in the future. I loved this fic:):):)

Awwwwww that was so cute and sweet and adorable!!!!! I absolutely loved this fic!!!!!! Great job Tara!!!!:D