John meant the world to me, not only was he a very caring and lovable man, he was also one of my idols. I know all to well what it feels like to lose someone close to my heart. I lost my mom in 1980 when a 24 yr old man murdered her at random because she refused his sexual advances. I also lost my only sister/sibling in 1971 due to a malfunction in the innovator after a lengthy operation to correct her life threatening birth defect. Ive always believed that when we pass away we will be reunited with our loved ones. I also believe that talking about our feelings and remembering those people who have passed helps out the recovering process. If any of yous would like help talking about John or simply need someone to guide you through the loss, please feel free to email me at smgowan@new.rr.com. Thanks