She came in a narrow third on the debut season of "American Idol", but it sounds as though life went on a big decline into the detrimental world of drugs and alcohol for Nikki McKibbin following her singing success.

"I was a horrible person when I drank. I was awful and really mean and really angry and I started fights with people for no reason, I was a bad mom and a bad wife," McKibbin told Tarts at the recent "American Idol" finale in Los Angeles. "I took care of my son when I was high and was driving to school drunk, I was just really bad off."

Fortunately, McKibbin hit rock-bottom and realized she needed help so did what so many wannabe stars do and enrolled in Dr. Drew’s "Celebrity Rehab" last year.

"I just had come to a point in my life where I knew I needed help, so when they called and gave me the opportunity I just took them up on it," she said. "I need the help and I need it now so I might as well take them up on it. I am still clean and sober; it will be one year on June 10th."

Now that she’s clean and focused, McKibbin is working on a lighter rock album and has a single called "Inconsolable" out on iTunes which documents the pain of losing her mom. And despite being a comeback kid the winner of her "A.I" season, Kelly Clarkson, has given her the cold shoulder.

"I haven't talked to Kelly in a while. She sent me tickets to a concert three years ago and I showed up high and I don't think she wanted anything to do with me after that," McKibbin added. "But I do love her, I’m so proud of her. She’s such a great girl and she's getting everything she deserves."

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