:mad: I hate how the complaint threads fill up so much faster than the Feel Good one.

Thread opens when the other hits 5,000

Whoo hoo...let me post here 2nd...

This day is boring. I also want to say that a certain person annoyed me today. That is all I will say.

I also want to say that a certain person annoyed me today. That is all I will say.


I didn't mean to. ;)

I also want to say that a certain person annoyed me today. That is all I will say.



Ditto :mad:

I didn't mean to. ;)
:lol: If anything Charles, you make my day many times with your funny posts. ;)

Whoo hoo...let me post here 2nd...

This day is boring. I also want to say that a certain person annoyed me today. That is all I will say.
Lou finally pushed you over the edge, huh? :lol:

Lou finally pushed you over the edge, huh? :lol:
Oh my I think I need to change my avatar, too many people mistake me for Janice. :lol: Nothing wrong with being mistaken for Janice, but they make posts commenting to me thinking I am Janice. :lol:

My internet connection can SUCK IT.

**** YOU IN THE EYE, INTERNET. **** YOU IN THE EYE AND EVERYWHERE ELSE. :angryfire

Oh my I think I need to change my avatar, too many people mistake me for Janice. :lol: Nothing wrong with being mistaken for Janice, but they make posts commenting to me thinking I am Janice. :lol:
Oh, ****. Sorry, Irene. :blush:

Urg, so I'm probably NOT going over there tomorrow.
I didn't know it was such a big deal for me to spend his day off with him.

He was supposed to go to school in Buffalo...which is 3 hours away and bad enough as it is...but he got the scholarship/money package or something Emma told me his family can't afford it...frikkin...he might have to go to college further south. I haven't talked to him about it yet but if it's definite I swear I will jump off a cliff. I can't imagine he's too happy either.

didn't feel like typing it out again. ugh -_-

My brother is such a little ****.

Oh, ****. Sorry, Irene. :blush:
It's ok sweetie. I changed my avatar. Hopefully that helps. ;)

It's ok sweetie. I changed my avatar. Hopefully that helps. ;)
Haha, Now I'm gonna think youre lu lu!

i hate english and i'm going to drop out of college if i fail 101 again because i need to pass it as well as 102 to graduate and i can't do it. i can't write essays, i try and i always get ****ty grades, there's nothing that can be done about it, the end.

ps. ahh, that last complaint department was epic for me. started just the day before my painy pain began and i posted in it all through my very ****ty senior year. lolololol
pps. shouldn't this be version 4.0? :grr: i thought the last one was the third.
ppps. i kept thinking irene was janice as soon as she put up that avatar too...not exactly sure why, unless janice had an avatar that looked similar or something.

Haha, Now I'm gonna think youre lu lu!
:rofl: I can't win either way. :lol:

Haha, Now I'm gonna think youre lu lu!


:lol: There is only one LuLu ;) :lol:

Humans are such foolish creatures...

Will anything I do make a difference?

i hate english and i'm going to drop out of college if i fail 101 again because i need to pass it as well as 102 to graduate and i can't do it. i can't write essays, i try and i always get ****ty grades, there's nothing that can be done about it, the end.

ps. ahh, that last complaint department was epic for me. started just the day before my painy pain began and i posted in it all through my very ****ty senior year. lolololol
pps. shouldn't this be version 4.0? :grr: i thought the last one was the third.
ppps. i kept thinking irene was janice as soon as she put up that avatar too...not exactly sure why, unless janice had an avatar that looked similar or something.
Yeah, it should be at least 4.0.

Humans are such foolish creatures...

Will anything I do make a difference?
Sadly, no. The idiots win every time.


I have such a great outlook on things, don't I?

Credit card interest is a bitch...

Credit card interest is a bitch...
I hear that. 18% on a card I've had 9 years and never missed a payment on. :mad:

I hear that. 18% on a card I've had 9 years and never missed a payment on. :mad:

Capital one, no?

ppps. i kept thinking irene was janice as soon as she put up that avatar too...not exactly sure why, unless janice had an avatar that looked similar or something.
Janice and I happened to download the same pic for our avatars. She happened to use her pic first and I told her I had saved the same pic for my avatar. She told me she was going to change hers in two weeks, so after she changed hers, I put up my pic. She actually altered the pic for me. That is why everyone was getting confused. :lol:

Urg, this new BC pill makes me all sick to my stomach...but at least I'm not bleeding.

No complaint, I'm having a great day.:wave:

No complaint, I'm having a great day.:wave:
Great. We have a FEEL GOOD thread where you can post comments like that. It is stickied here on the chit/chat thread. ;)

Great. We have a FEEL GOOD thread where you can post comments like that. It is stickied here on the chit/chat thread. ;)

Yes. Positivity is not welcome in this thread... :lol:

Capital one, no?
Actually Bank of America. My Capital One card has 8%.

My hip hurts and I feel sick to my stomach. *dies*

I just got yelled at because I don't have a junior prom this year?
WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS WOMAN?

Oh ****! :mad:

I'm going to disown the internet for a while. It's become frustrating. Instead, I'll try reading a book!

I want to go to sleep and not wake up until my dad gets back.
...and really, **** everything for a while.

I want to go to sleep and not wake up until my dad gets back.


I'm sorry babe, I know it's hard. :(

I'm sorry babe, I know it's hard. :(
Thanks. I'm just going through a bit of a rough patch.

It's not even the fact that he's gone. It's my brother. I know in the future, he's going to be an abuser and a bully by the way he treats the women in his life.

My dad would beat his ass for the **** he did to me today, but all my mother does is give him "time out" WTF IS TIME OUT?! I NEVER HAD TIME OUT! When I did something bad, I got my ass beat, that's how I learned wrong from right.

Thanks. I'm just going through a bit of a rough patch.

It's not even the fact that he's gone. It's my brother. I know in the future, he's going to be an abuser and a bully by the way he treats the women in his life.

My dad would beat his ass for the **** he did to me today, but all my mother does is give him "time out" WTF IS TIME OUT?! I NEVER HAD TIME OUT! When I did something bad, I got my ass beat, that's how I learned wrong from right.
What did he do to you?

I hate distances...and not seeing him. And the fact that he might go to college even further away than he had originally planned because of money issues. And the fact that the more I see him, the more I like him and the more it hurts when we have to leave. And the fact that when we DO see each other, it's never enough.

What did he do to you?
****ing threw a boot at me and ordered me around.

Thanks. I'm just going through a bit of a rough patch.

It's not even the fact that he's gone. It's my brother. I know in the future, he's going to be an abuser and a bully by the way he treats the women in his life.

My dad would beat his ass for the **** he did to me today, but all my mother does is give him "time out" WTF IS TIME OUT?! I NEVER HAD TIME OUT! When I did something bad, I got my ass beat, that's how I learned wrong from right.
I guess your mom has her way of dealing with your brother that is obviously different from how your dad deals with him. I know I was brought up in a home where we were not spanked, therefore, the few times I spanked my girls, it was a hard thing to do. Your mom probably feels because of how your brother is, hitting him is not the way she can deal with it.

****ing threw a boot at me and ordered me around.
And he's what, 8? I guess I don't think a simple time-out is sufficient. Take something away, grounding... I grew up in a house with very little if any spanking, but then I never threw a boot at anyone either.

I hate distances...and not seeing him. And the fact that he might go to college even further away than he had originally planned because of money issues. And the fact that the more I see him, the more I like him and the more it hurts when we have to leave. And the fact that when we DO see each other, it's never enough.

I hope you realize how lucky you are to feel that way towards another human being. Particularly if it's mutual...

I hope you realize how lucky you are to feel that way towards another human being. Particularly if it's mutual...


Yes, it is a wonderful feeling. :)

I hope you realize how lucky you are to feel that way towards another human being. Particularly if it's mutual...
Yeah I am...but I've explained the situation before, it's a lot more complicated than that. :(

I guess your mom has her way of dealing with your brother that is obviously different from how your dad deals with him. I know I was brought up in a home where we were not spanked, therefore, the few times I spanked my girls, it was a hard thing to do. Your mom probably feels because of how your brother is, hitting him is not the way she can deal with it.
She doesn't even punish him at all, really. She tells him he's grounded and then lets him go outside ten minutes later. >.<

I hate when companies use letters for their phone number; for example, 1-800-COMCAST. Great, now I can spend five minutes trying to figure it out, looking like an idiot, lol. I press zero instead of the letter O. Just give me the number please.

I hate when companies use letters for their phone number; for example, 1-800-COMCAST. Great, now I can spend five minutes trying to figure it out, looking like an idiot, lol. I press the letter O instead of zero. Just give me the number please.

Of course, this leads to one of my favorite things in the universe:

Hypothetically, let's say a company uses 1-888-MICROSOFT as their phone number. I LOVE watching folks push those last two digits/letters. 1-888-MICROSO is the same thing - the system handles it the same way. Phone Numbers are set up so that once you type in that last number in a 4 digit group, that's the end of the number. So you're pushing extra numbers for no necessity afterward

I hate when companies use letters for their phone number; for example, 1-800-COMCAST. Great, now I can spend five minutes trying to figure it out, looking like an idiot, lol. I press zero instead of the letter O. Just give me the number please.
It reminded me of something today. I was trying to pay a medical payment with a credit card online. My boyfriend lost his invoice and I needed the invoice number to pay online. So I call the customer service number and it asks me FOR YOUR INVOICE NUMBER!!!!:mad: Hellooooooo, I NEED THE INVOICE NUMBER SO I CAN PAY THE BILL!!!!!! I had to press all kinds of numbers just to get to a real live human being and ask them for the invoice number. I spent 15 mins. on the phone. :rolleyes:

Of course, this leads to one of my favorite things in the universe:

Hypothetically, let's say a company uses 1-888-MICROSOFT as their phone number. I LOVE watching folks push those last two digits/letters. 1-888-MICROSO is the same thing - the system handles it the same way. Phone Numbers are set up so that once you type in that last number in a 4 digit group, that's the end of the number. So you're pushing extra numbers for no necessity afterward
lol...it's always annoyed me that they have to add those extra numbers to make a complete word.

It reminded me of something today. I was trying to pay a medical payment with a credit card online. My boyfriend lost his invoice and I needed the invoice number to pay online. So I call the customer service number and it asks me FOR YOUR INVOICE NUMBER!!!!:mad: Hellooooooo, I NEED THE INVOICE NUMBER SO I CAN PAY THE BILL!!!!!! I had to press all kinds of numbers just to get to a real live human being and ask them for the invoice number. I spent 15 mins. on the phone. :rolleyes:
You were in VoiceMail Hell. Irene, I've spent so much time on the phone lately, dealing with this move, insurance and other issues. Sometimes, I feel like a big dummy, sort of like these guys, lol.

why is EVERYONE getting engaged all of a sudden? oh my god. it's ridiculous, is this the new 'in' thing or some ****? it makes me feel like absolute worthless incompetent filth knowing i was going to be in the same boat as them, but i got my life ruined instead and i know i'll never have such an opportunity again, no matter who comes along, because so much was destroyed in me.

...You're 18. Is everybody else in question 18, 19 and/or 20?

It's 2008. Really. They have no need to be getting married so young. We're not living in the 1960s or earlier anymore. Think of it this way - they're setting themselves to be a divorced person before they hit 25.

I'm seeing it in my group of friends, too. Of course we're a little older... 22, 23, 24 with the occasional 21 year old person in there. Some of them aren't getting married until 2009 but still. Most are getting married this year. The one thing that's REALLY bugging me about this is it seems like everybody getting married this year is getting married on either August 15th or 16th (my 23rd birthday, thank you). :crazy: :wallbang

I idly prattle along, grinning my incessant grin, blindly following orders, never making my own decisions, not even using my brain for the most rudimentary tasks.

My job is pointless. An idiot could do it. I finish by six o'clock and struggle to find something else to do the rest of the night. Pointless. It's all mindless. Even the most challenging job they can give me is mindless. I know I'm not among the great thinkers of the century, and I certainly haven't demonstrated any ability in the cranial area, but come on!


What does God think of my situation? I'm in a place many people would kill to be.

I can't shake the feeling that none of this matters. Especially at this late hour, why am I here? Where do I go from here?

I feel as though I've written these words before. As a dishwasher. Nothing has changed.

I wonder what they really think about me. Fumbling about, stupidly walking around in clueless fashion....

Whipe that grin off your face... You're missing your purpose. Ship's a-sailing. What are you doing? Laying on your roommate's futon watching tv all night.

Wasn't there a reason you swore off television? You are de-evolving. Back to who you used to be. Only this time you're older. And a little lonelier. Why go back when the road ahead is so ripe with potential? What does television offer but inactivity, laziness, short-term goals and apathy???

There is a reason I'm here. Must find it.

I hate when companies use letters for their phone number; for example, 1-800-COMCAST. Great, now I can spend five minutes trying to figure it out, looking like an idiot, lol. I press zero instead of the letter O. Just give me the number please.

I don't like it either, Janice.

There is NOTHING to do today.
...and the one time I get invited to go do something, we don't have the money.

I feel so trapped right now.

You were in VoiceMail Hell. Irene, I've spent so much time on the phone lately, dealing with this move, insurance and other issues. Sometimes, I feel like a big dummy, sort of like these guys, lol.
:brent Thanx Janice. YES!!! That is how it is. :lol:

I idly prattle along, grinning my incessant grin, blindly following orders, never making my own decisions, not even using my brain for the most rudimentary tasks.

My job is pointless. An idiot could do it. I finish by six o'clock and struggle to find something else to do the rest of the night. Pointless. It's all mindless. Even the most challenging job they can give me is mindless. I know I'm not among the great thinkers of the century, and I certainly haven't demonstrated any ability in the cranial area, but come on!


What does God think of my situation? I'm in a place many people would kill to be.

I can't shake the feeling that none of this matters. Especially at this late hour, why am I here? Where do I go from here?

I feel as though I've written these words before. As a dishwasher. Nothing has changed.

I wonder what they really think about me. Fumbling about, stupidly walking around in clueless fashion....

Whipe that grin off your face... You're missing your purpose. Ship's a-sailing. What are you doing? Laying on your roommate's futon watching tv all night.

Wasn't there a reason you swore off television? You are de-evolving. Back to who you used to be. Only this time you're older. And a little lonelier. Why go back when the road ahead is so ripe with potential? What does television offer but inactivity, laziness, short-term goals and apathy???

There is a reason I'm here. Must find it.
I feel kind of that way, that people are looking at me as if I'm wasting my life. And because I have no self-esteem, I let it eat away at me and I'm convinced I'm a failure despite the fact that I don't mind what I'm doing.

I'm tired of trying to be what others think I should be. And I'm tired of knowing I'm wrong in thinking that way, but not being able to convince myself of that deep down.

I feel kind of that way, that people are looking at me as if I'm wasting my life. And because I have no self-esteem, I let it eat away at me and I'm convinced I'm a failure despite the fact that I don't mind what I'm doing.

I'm tired of trying to be what others think I should be. And I'm tired of knowing I'm wrong in thinking that way, but not being able to convince myself of that deep down.


I can see you and I need to have a little talk again, Cathy. :lol: ;)

Seriously though, if you are happy with your life, that is all that really matters. Who cares what others think. What I think I've learned over the last year that has made me a happier person is that I am the person I am for both bad and good and I can't and will not change who I am for other people. If that means other people may not like me, well, that is their problem, not mine. I think that I'm a pretty good person and knowing that is what is really important.

my ********* of a friend says he's probably going to date a girl who, let's just say i've thought about killing. the problem is that he got all pissy at me for being disturbed that he's willing to date such a lying, cheating, selfish load of garbage, and he appears to be not talking to me because of it. this isn't the first time we've been in a dispute over that wench either, she needs to kill herself or something and get the **** out of my life already, all she's done is ruin everything. really annoys me that we need each other too much to let go, yet we can't even do so much as get the **** along. ugh just kill me already, i don't need this crap.

I ****ING HATE THEM! :angryfire

I am the maid of honor with an ulcer *Half sad face-half giggle*

I am the maid of honor with an ulcer *Half sad face-half giggle*

Oh man, ulcers are terrible! :(

Who's getting married?

Oh man, ulcers are terrible! :(

Who's getting married?
Very painful :( I've been in agony the last three weeks. I called my doctor and she says I have to stop "internalizing" everything. I don't know if that helps me or not? :confused: But yeah my sister is getting married. :)

Very painful :( I've been in agony the last three weeks. I called my doctor and she says I have to stop "internalizing" everything. I don't know if that helps me or not? :confused: But yeah my sister is getting married. :)
Easier said than done, doc. There's no way I could stop that.

Easier said than done, doc. There's no way I could stop that.
Tell me about it girl! :lol: It isn't helping and with the response I got from my own family physician who I havent seen in a year, I don't even want to go to anyone else about it. I guess I have to find a way to calm down..but how??

Tell me about it girl! :lol: It isn't helping and with the response I got from my own family physician who I havent seen in a year, I don't even want to go to anyone else about it. I guess I have to find a way to calm down..but how??
Only way I've ever been able to calm down is fall asleep. As long as I'm awake, I think, and I can't stop thinking so I'll never calm down. Viscious cycle.

Someone save me from myself. I keep grabbing handfuls of Sour Patch Kids and Swedish Fish. Either my teeth will rot out of my head, or my stomach will explode. I'm going to have to put those on the DO NOT BUY list. My husband does the grocery shopping. We had to do it before with Ritz, or I'd ask him to hide them. I could eat an entire sleeve of those suckers in minutes. Thing is, I'm not a big eater, at all. It's just that with certain foods, I lose control.

That's me and jelly beans and twizzlers and....oh, food. lol

^ Yes Cathy, Twizzlers are a must, lol. I have a huge bag in my desk drawer. Once I open it, I put it in a huge baggie. This week's bag of Twizzlers was so fresh. I tell my husband to bend the bag a little, to see if they're soft and fresh. I hate hard licorce.

^ I've missed you Jenny. Slow as a turtle. Like I joked in a PM to you, the Comcast turtles, the Slowskys.

Women... Not worth this aggravation... Why do I put myself through this ****... time and time again. When I know nothing would happen.

Women... Not worth this aggravation... Why do I put myself through this ****... time and time again. When I know nothing would happen.


:(

So why read a message and not reply when it's obviously a pressing issue.

She is so intelligent. Why would she be interested in me? She should be embarrassed by the incredible lack of intelligent conversation she had with me. But we talk for so long... And she asked me to come over... And she gave me her number...

What's she thinking?

I'm so confused....

Alone again, naturally.

She is so intelligent. Why would she be interested in me? She should be embarrassed by the incredible lack of intelligent conversation she had with me. But we talk for so long... And she asked me to come over... And she gave me her number...

What's she thinking?

I'm so confused....
don't put yourself down! you are very intelligent and she must have had a nice time talking to you. :)

CRAMPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:mad:

I did something very stupid tonight and I'm afraid of the consequences.

I did something very stupid tonight and I'm afraid of the consequences.
:eek: You are scaring me now.

I did something very stupid tonight and I'm afraid of the consequences.
Well, you're in good company. I know I've done that sooooo many times, especially lately. Hopefully it turns out to be okay and you worried for nothing.

I would post it, but I don't want my friends on this board to think any less of me.
Plus it's not PG-13

Now you are reallly scaring me.

I have the feeling I've hurt someone. And I am sorry.

Now you are reallly scaring me.
I'll PM you.

I get genuinely concerned by posts like these. If you don't mind me asking kiddo, what's up?

I get genuinely concerned by posts like these. If you don't mind me asking kiddo, what's up?
I'll PM you too.

None of my business. So I'll stay out. I do, however, hope that everything works out for you. :)

I'll PM you too.
Me too...:eek:

I hate April 1st....

I did something very stupid tonight and I'm afraid of the consequences.
Hun are you okay? PM me if you need to talk. :bighug:

Hun are you okay? PM me if you need to talk. :bighug:

Hey, Kelly! Long time no see. :bighug:

Hey, Kelly! Long time no see. :bighug:
Hey Mike! :bighug:

God people have changed around here, not everyone though :lol:

OMG! Convicted member!?! How the hell did Seth find out????? :eek:

OMG! Convicted member!?! How the hell did Seth find out????? :eek:
What did you do to the CUSTOMARY KETCHUP! :mad:

What did you do to the CUSTOMARY KETCHUP! :mad:
That's private!

None of my business. So I'll stay out. I do, however, hope that everything works out for you. :)
As do I.

That's private!
AAAAAAAAAAAAH

I hate April 1st....
So do I....

burn in hell April Fools.

So do I....

burn in hell April Fools.

Ayyyy--men!

I.HATE.HER.

If she died tomorrow, a part of me would be thrilled. :devil:

AAAAAAAAAAAAH
;)

I.HATE.HER.

If she died tomorrow, a part of me would be thrilled. :devil:

Is this that woman you work with, Cathy?

So do I....

burn in hell April Fools.

I don't like it either. One of my fellow workers played an April Fools joke on me by saying that he heard one of our supervisors talking about me and that I was going to be fired. Even though he was only joking, thinking for about 10 seconds that I was about to be fired was not funny to me.

Is this that woman you work with, Cathy?
Yep. She yelled at me again today. I can PM the dull details if you really wanna know. lol

Yep. She yelled at me again today. I can PM the dull details if you really wanna know. lol

If you need someone to talk to about it, feel free to PM me, Cathy. :)

I don't like it either. One of my fellow workers played an April Fools joke on me by saying that he heard one of our supervisors talking about me and that I was going to be fired. Even though he was only joking, thinking for about 10 seconds that I was about to be fired was not funny to me.

There are two types of April Fools humor. This type, which can cause problems and I generally dislike...versus the type *I* like, which basically involves silly gags (usually sight gags) that most folks get a chuckle out of.

WTF??? Now my laptop is making chirping noises. Right under the keyboard, it's making chirping noises. The squealing fan wasn't enough.

WTF??? Now my laptop is making chirping noises. Right under the keyboard, it's making chirping noises. The squealing fan wasn't enough.

That's one of the new ads at the top of the page. It makes that chirping noise. Took me forever to figure out what that was. :crazy:

That's one of the new ads at the top of the page. It makes that chirping noise. Took me forever to figure out what that was. :crazy:
no way....well damn that ad to hell! Ugh!!


TY for the info. lol

no way....well damn that ad to hell! Ugh!!


TY for the info. lol


:lol: I know right? I hate that thing!

That's one of the new ads at the top of the page. It makes that chirping noise. Took me forever to figure out what that was. :crazy:
ahh I know I was freaking out at first clicking on windows trying to figure out what it was. It's sooo annoying. Almost as bad as the one with the smilies that used to be up there, and when you scrolled over it with your mouse it'd yell HELLOOOOOO really loud.

ahh I know I was freaking out at first clicking on windows trying to figure out what it was. It's sooo annoying. Almost as bad as the one with the smilies that used to be up there, and when you scrolled over it with your mouse it'd yell HELLOOOOOO really loud.
I thought my smoke detector was going out at first.

I thought my smoke detector was going out at first.
I knew it was from the computer and was probably just a wicked annoying add, but I couldn't figure out what page it was from. :lol: It was either that or part of the youtube video I was watching.

http://www.sitcomsonline.com/boards/showthread.php?t=222474

why is EVERYONE getting engaged all of a sudden? oh my god. it's ridiculous, is this the new 'in' thing or some ****? it makes me feel like absolute worthless incompetent filth knowing i was going to be in the same boat as them, but i got my life ruined instead and i know i'll never have such an opportunity again, no matter who comes along, because so much was destroyed in me.
ugh eruhfberufberfber the madness is NOT stopping. don't get me wrong, i'm in no rush to be married or under any pressure to go with the flow. in fact i plan on never getting married now because i don't trust men anymore, especially the one i love, and i don't want to go with the flow because i hate people and want to be as unlike them as i can looooool. but it's still all just a big painful reminder of what i lost and the frequency of it is driving me to insanity.

ugh eruhfberufberfber the madness is NOT stopping. don't get me wrong, i'm in no rush to be married or under any pressure to go with the flow. in fact i plan on never getting married now because i don't trust men anymore, especially the one i love, and i don't want to go with the flow because i hate people and want to be as unlike them as i can looooool. but it's still all just a big painful reminder of what i lost and the frequency of it is driving me to insanity.


I know, it's like there's a couples epidemic all of a sudden! I have 4 friends getting married this summer and 10 people I know were engaged in the past year alone! It's enough to drive you insane!

ahh I know I was freaking out at first clicking on windows trying to figure out what it was. It's sooo annoying. Almost as bad as the one with the smilies that used to be up there, and when you scrolled over it with your mouse it'd yell HELLOOOOOO really loud.

that ad was soooo annoying. everytime my volume was up it would freak me out & i would just yell goooood bye back & turn the volume off. lol. annoying ads. pshh.

i go back to school in a couple of hours after a wonderful two week break. sigh. it's not the school part i mind, it's the getting up so early part that bothers me. lol.

I'm upset with myself. I can't find a piece of paper that has two prescriptions on it that I need to get filled. I know where it was, but it's not there now. The other day my mother went through some of my stuff looking for information on the computer. I was downstairs and she was upstairs in my room. I didn't know she had gone through anything until afterward when she told me she was looking for information and had already looked in my room. I spent the last few hours trying to find it. :wallbang
It's going to drive me up a wall until I either find it or find out what happened to it. I was going to fill the prescriiptions today after my eye doctor appointment this afternoon. I know I should have filled them right away.


I did the very same thing about four years ago, Jenny. In the end I had to call up my doctor and ask him to write out a new prescription. I flet like such an idiot. :o

ugh eruhfberufberfber the madness is NOT stopping. don't get me wrong, i'm in no rush to be married or under any pressure to go with the flow. in fact i plan on never getting married now because i don't trust men anymore, especially the one i love, and i don't want to go with the flow because i hate people and want to be as unlike them as i can looooool. but it's still all just a big painful reminder of what i lost and the frequency of it is driving me to insanity.
Are these people getting married your age? Cause if so that's pretty lame. :lol: Who the hell gets married at 18/19 unless they want some serious issues later? Most people our age aren't even thinking about such a thing.

that ad was soooo annoying. everytime my volume was up it would freak me out & i would just yell goooood bye back & turn the volume off. lol. annoying ads. pshh.
haha I know...I got an add blocker specifically because of that one add. But now I'm on my laptop at school and haven't gotten an add blocker yet. Probably should get on that...

That's what was going on with my laptop yesterday. I'm like what the hell?
I think it while I was on MSN or before I got on. Stupid ad. :lol:

:lol: Yeah, I kept looking around my room like what the hell is that? :lol:

EVERYONE in this family is making it hard to nap.

Are these people getting married your age? Cause if so that's pretty lame. :lol: Who the hell gets married at 18/19 unless they want some serious issues later? Most people our age aren't even thinking about such a thing.
:lol: i know what you mean. when i was semi-engaged at 17 i was planning on waiting years before actually marrying him, just because i knew i was still young and we needed some more time to evaluate things. though he really was the person i need in my life and i'd still give up everything for him to go back to his old ways. but yeah, these people i have in mind are around 17-19 and they're planning on getting married within the next few months. one of them is 18 and she's with her third fiance in the last year. won't surprise me if a lot of these people end up divorced very soon.

Ohemgee, this aleve is not working.

:lol: i know what you mean. when i was semi-engaged at 17 i was planning on waiting years before actually marrying him, just because i knew i was still young and we needed some more time to evaluate things. though he really was the person i need in my life and i'd still give up everything for him to go back to his old ways. but yeah, these people i have in mind are around 17-19 and they're planning on getting married within the next few months. one of them is 18 and she's with her third fiance in the last year. won't surprise me if a lot of these people end up divorced very soon.
3rd fiance?? That is just ridiculous. People like that should never get married.

:lol: i know what you mean. when i was semi-engaged at 17 i was planning on waiting years before actually marrying him, just because i knew i was still young and we needed some more time to evaluate things. though he really was the person i need in my life and i'd still give up everything for him to go back to his old ways. but yeah, these people i have in mind are around 17-19 and they're planning on getting married within the next few months. one of them is 18 and she's with her third fiance in the last year. won't surprise me if a lot of these people end up divorced very soon.
lol that's so weird to me...it's 2008 not 1950. People go to college and live their lives and do things before getting married now. I mean yeah like you said, even if you feel like you've found the love of your life you don't have to BE married right away. People think marriage is the ultimate way of saying you'e in love, but really it's just combining your finances, etc...stuff way too complicated for people our age to handle. So basically they're headed for a stressful marriage that's likely gonna end pretty quickly.

Ohemgee, this aleve is not working.
excedrin tension headache <3...only that stuff makes me shaky and dizzy if I haven't eaten much.

I'm upset, depressed and have no one to vent to. Such is my life.

I'm upset, depressed and have no one to vent to. Such is my life.

I'm always here, Lauren. :)

Ugh! I suddenly feel weak and sickly, and my hands are shaking... I hate it when this happens!

Ugh! I suddenly feel weak and sickly, and my hands are shaking... I hate it when this happens!
Sorry to hear that. Hope you start feeling better soon!

I'm tired of back stabbing people and their bull****! :angryfire

I'm tired of back stabbing people and their bull****! :angryfire

You okay, Lauren? :(

Nothing I won't get over, eventually.

He sounded so happy to get off the phone with me.
Jerk.

I'm tired of back stabbing people and their bull****! :angryfire
:mad:

im so unbearably lonely i could cry. i don't know what the hell is going on, why does everyone leave, why am i not important enough?

im so unbearably lonely i could cry. i don't know what the hell is going on, why does everyone leave, why am i not important enough?
I'm sorry. :( I feel that way a lot too...even when I know I have people I feel that way. If you ever wanna talk you can always im me...chances are I'll be on on a Saturday night while everyone else is out drinking.

I came this close to telling her how I feel. This close! But it's so hard to tell how she'll react.

On the one hand she may react favorably and feel the same way towards me. On the other hand she may be creeped out by the thought and not want to see me again. I don't want to scare her away and I don't want to lose her friendship.

What's a man to do when he's still such a child...? :(

When I make a thread on the CC board and say people should reply to it, I expect them too, and not completely ignore it, I used to not be ignored, what happened to you people? Im not liking this ignoring me/posting the rolleyes smiley in reply to my post PHASE tthat seems to be happening.Same goes for the rest of us

I came this close to telling her how I feel. This close! But it's so hard to tell how she'll react.

On the one hand she may react favorably and feel the same way towards me. On the other hand she may be creeped out by the thought and not want to see me again. I don't want to scare her away and I don't want to lose her friendship.

What's a man to do when he's still such a child...? :(

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way, Max. I have been in this situation many times myself and it is always difficult to know what choice to make. You can tell her how you feel and risk that it might hurt your friendship. No one wants to lose a friend. However, if she has the same feelings for you that you do for her, buy not telling her you may lose out on a realtionship with her that can be much deeper than simple friendship. There are pros and cons either way, and I really don't know which choice you should make, but I wish you luck. :)

I feel all PMS-y. ticked:

:bighug: to Courtnee. I know the feeling my dear. I am glad I am over it for this month.

Urg, I want something salty.
and thanks Irene. :)

I'm such a *****.

I'm such a *****.
:hug: No youre not!


...and damn it! I hate popping advil after advil to find relief from my cramps.

I either get to have ants in the room or an opportunistic spider. If I get rid of the spider, I have to deal with the ants. If I keep the spider, no ants...but I have a spider.

I either get to have ants in the room or an opportunistic spider. If I get rid of the spider, I have to deal with the ants. If I keep the spider, no ants...but I have a spider.
i get scorpions from time to time. :/

i get scorpions from time to time. :/

You know, I think I'm just fine with the spiders and/or ants, thanks. :)

well yesterday i totally lost my debit card and last night my brother apparently got $400 worth of gaming equipment, including a nintendo wii, stolen from him. they have a prime suspect, who i also find very likely to have taken it and it makes me hopeful that we'll get it back, but it's so nerve-wracking. my dad will be so pissed if he has to find out, he spent hours trying to get the wii for us. i've been looking on ebay for newly listed wii's from sellers from this area in case that was their intent, but no luck.

She's been on my mind all day. It didn't help that it was a slow day at work so all I could think about was being with her.

This always happens. I've known the girl two weeks and I'm already in too deep, emotionally. This is not healthy. She likes me well enough to ask me to go horseback riding with her on Saturday. This is great. But I just don't know...

I have a decent amount of self-confidence. But I just find it hard to believe she'd be interested in me in the way I'd like her to be interested. And that's the problem. If I push too hard, I may drive her away. If I don't show her I'm interested I risk being stuck in the "friend category".

I'll likely become even more emotionally involved before this is through. The next four months will be hell unless I get some sort of definite answers on her part.

The worse part of this is, I really think she's interested. And it's terrifying. And it's ripping me apart.

*sigh* Things are always too good to be true. Relationships never last more than a week or two, not for me anyway. I quit, I'm not gonna do this anymore.

She's been on my mind all day. It didn't help that it was a slow day at work so all I could think about was being with her.

This always happens. I've known the girl two weeks and I'm already in too deep, emotionally. This is not healthy. She likes me well enough to ask me to go horseback riding with her on Saturday. This is great. But I just don't know...

I have a decent amount of self-confidence. But I just find it hard to believe she'd be interested in me in the way I'd like her to be interested. And that's the problem. If I push too hard, I may drive her away. If I don't show her I'm interested I risk being stuck in the "friend category".

I'll likely become even more emotionally involved before this is through. The next four months will be hell unless I get some sort of definite answers on her part.

The worse part of this is, I really think she's interested. And it's terrifying. And it's ripping me apart.
The only solution I can think of is to tell her your feelings. If she doesn't like you, it's not the end of the world. Besides if she doesn't she's crazy.

Besides if she doesn't she's crazy.

No kidding. I'd be thrilled if a genuinely nice guy was interested in me.

No kidding. I'd be thrilled if a genuinely nice guy was interested in me.

I hear ya with that one! My friend says that "nice guy" is an oxymoron, and in many ways she's right. ;)

Oh I've met plenty of nice guys. It's just that none of them are ever interested in me in that way(I think). Or they're gay.

i always hear how all the nice guys are gay but why can't I find any?

I miss him a lots :(

alright, so there's this ****** who has been hitting on me all semester and seems to think that me snubbing him is a sign that i'm interested. my best friend says that if he ever sees him bothering me, he'll tell him that i'm his girlfriend and he doesn't appreciate harrassment towards his woman. anyway i told a friend of mine who knows him about what he's been doing and what my best friend says he'll do if need be. she told me later that she talked to him again and he told her to hook me up with him. she told him that i had a boyfriend (i dont know if she misunderstood me or just went with what was convenient, but i'm glad she did) and he yelled at her, saying that was bull **** and she'd better hook me up with him. ugh...god. i'm glad there's less than a month of school left and next year i'll only be here for an hour a day, but i'm really not feeling safe now. i wish he would just **** off and leave me alone...from now on i'm going to try to have a male accompany me on campus at all times.

alright, so there's this ****** who has been hitting on me all semester and seems to think that me snubbing him is a sign that i'm interested. my best friend says that if he ever sees him bothering me, he'll tell him that i'm his girlfriend and he doesn't appreciate harrassment towards his woman. anyway i told a friend of mine who knows him about what he's been doing and what my best friend says he'll do if need be. she told me later that she talked to him again and he told her to hook me up with him. she told him that i had a boyfriend (i dont know if she misunderstood me or just went with what was convenient, but i'm glad she did) and he yelled at her, saying that was bull **** and she'd better hook me up with him. ugh...god. i'm glad there's less than a month of school left and left year i'll only be here for an hour a day, but i'm really not feeling safe now. i wish he would just **** off and leave me alone...from now on i'm going to try to have a male accompany me on campus at all times.
Wow, that sounds stalkerish.
and your friend calling you "his woman" is degrating. You don't belong to ANYBODY BY YOU.

I can't take it, it's too painful to deal with. I'm outta here!!

Contrary to popular belief, school is NOT cool.

Yep, it's official. The grim reaper will be paying me a visit shortly. I have the ****ing stomach bug, and I'd MUCH RATHER die right now. :barf:

i hate being in a weird funk/mood.

lollrrrzzzzz nothing warms the heart like hearing someone you love tell you that they hope you go to heaven so they don't have to spend eternity with your maggot-infested corpse. geez, all i did was make a nasty comment about his ex-girlfriend's vagina, i have a right to hate that slut.

I hate missing him.

I hate missing him.
I feel your pain.

Also, congestionnnnnnn. Colddd. No. It's spring this isn't supposed to happen now. :(

i hate myself sometimes. my best friend has made a lot of new friends lately and has been going to parties and stuff without me and i'm being a jealous ho about it. we used to hang out everyday and it just kind of sucks to be out of the loop all of the sudden. i don't blame her because we would just do stupid stuff all of the time by ourselves and be losers, but i wish i could go out and do stuff with her. i hate parties, though because i have really severe social anxiety.

i don't know, i don't expect her not to go out because i have social issues. i just wish i could relax.

i hate myself sometimes. my best friend has made a lot of new friends lately and has been going to parties and stuff without me and i'm being a jealous ho about it. we used to hang out everyday and it just kind of sucks to be out of the loop all of the sudden. i don't blame her because we would just do stupid stuff all of the time by ourselves and be losers, but i wish i could go out and do stuff with her. i hate parties, though because i have really severe social anxiety.

i don't know, i don't expect her not to go out because i have social issues. i just wish i could relax.
Oh God Lauren, I know exactly how you feel. Social anxiety disorder owns my life...only I'm in college so it's even worse because it's constant. My friend who is also my roommate is way more outgoing than me and everyone we meet likes her better because of it. She's way more willing to go to parties and hang out with people when I'd rather just be low key and hang out in my room, which isn't working for me if I want more friends. I feel like such a loser sometimes because I rely on her to make friends because I can't do it myself, but the friends she makes I don't like half the time because they're all always like OMAHGAHJFDS PARTY DRIKNKKNKKK RWARRRR LETZ GET SMASSHHEDDDDDZ AND HIGHHHH LULLLLLZ...And truth is, when ur drunk you make friends easier. She does. People can relate to each other once they drink cause they're all like ohhh remember us being crazy that one night? I do. Let's be friends now. For me it's like, I'm sitting there while everyone's drunk like wow I'm tired, not in the mood for this ****, etc etc...I end up leaving early. I dunno. I'm sick of it having to be that way, I can't wait until I'm older so people don't drink half as much as these morons here. But I do attempt to go hang out with people with her, even if I don't like it, cause I do feel better that I at least tried.

Oh God Lauren, I know exactly how you feel. Social anxiety disorder owns my life...only I'm in college so it's even worse because it's constant. My friend who is also my roommate is way more outgoing than me and everyone we meet likes her better because of it. She's way more willing to go to parties and hang out with people when I'd rather just be low key and hang out in my room, which isn't working for me if I want more friends. I feel like such a loser sometimes because I rely on her to make friends because I can't do it myself, but the friends she makes I don't like half the time because they're all always like OMAHGAHJFDS PARTY DRIKNKKNKKK RWARRRR LETZ GET SMASSHHEDDDDDZ AND HIGHHHH LULLLLLZ...And truth is, when ur drunk you make friends easier. She does. People can relate to each other once they drink cause they're all like ohhh remember us being crazy that one night? I do. Let's be friends now. For me it's like, I'm sitting there while everyone's drunk like wow I'm tired, not in the mood for this ****, etc etc...I end up leaving early. I dunno. I'm sick of it having to be that way, I can't wait until I'm older so people don't drink half as imuch as these morons here. But I do attempt to go hang out with people with her, even if I don't like it, cause I do feel better that I at least tried.

You should not feel ashamed of how you are. This is your personality. I'm similar. It doesn't make you any less likable. So you can't relate to your roommates loser friends? So what? They aren't worth it. I have maybe a handful-- no one or two--- people I'd consider close friends, and they didn't come all at once or easily. But they came when I needed them.

You should count yourself blessed that you are not popular. You don't need to be attracting false friends.

If you don't like to party, don't party. Just love yourself and be who you want to be. All else will fall into place in time.

lollrrrzzzzz nothing warms the heart like hearing someone you love tell you that they hope you go to heaven so they don't have to spend eternity with your maggot-infested corpse. geez, all i did was make a nasty comment about his ex-girlfriend's vagina, i have a right to hate that slut.
Are you back with him, Sarah?

You should not feel ashamed of how you are. This is your personality. I'm similar. It doesn't make you any less likable. So you can't relate to your roommates loser friends? So what? They aren't worth it. I have maybe a handful-- no one or two--- people I'd consider close friends, and they didn't come all at once or easily. But they came when I needed them.

You should count yourself blessed that you are not popular. You don't need to be attracting false friends.

If you don't like to party, don't party. Just love yourself and be who you want to be. All else will fall into place in time.
Thanks, I know. It's just hard being in a new place trying to find the friends you want. I do have friends here, I'll just never feel as close to them as the ones at home. I'm really not too ashamed of who I am, but it really is true that people don't like me as much because I appear uninterested, not very fun, and withdrawn. I mean I obviously change once I get to know people but if I don't know you and I'm forced to hang out with you while you're drunk, I'm just bored as hell. It's just, I'm soo horrible at meeting people because like I said, I have social anxiety so putting myself out there is near impossible. I'm not saying I'm not trying...I'm way better off than I used to be, but if someone tells me "heyyy just go out and join a club find people who don't drink" etc, my reply is...A)near impossible to find people who don't drink in college B) once I get in a club and meet people, I'll still feel to weird to ask those people to hang out outside of meetings. That's just how I am. I literally do not have the ability to ask people to do things, even if I know they like me. lol I dunno...I don't want to ignore all your advice because I appreciate it, but I just feel hopeless sometimes. I'd rather be home with my friends there, but we all go to school and I only have them in the summer besides random breaks. And my roommate is one of my friends from home, and her friends aren't all losers...it's just when you go out to hang with people, she'll get drunk and yeah connect with random losers. She puts herself out there so she's liked. I don't so I'm not. That's just how I feel.

Are you back with him, Sarah?
dating-wise, no. we're still 'friends' i guess, if not even less than that now.

You should not feel ashamed of how you are. This is your personality. I'm similar. It doesn't make you any less likable. So you can't relate to your roommates loser friends? So what? They aren't worth it. I have maybe a handful-- no one or two--- people I'd consider close friends, and they didn't come all at once or easily. But they came when I needed them.

You should count yourself blessed that you are not popular. You don't need to be attracting false friends.

If you don't like to party, don't party. Just love yourself and be who you want to be. All else will fall into place in time.
that's sort of how i've grown to be. i have social anxiety disorder and i used to hate being shy and uncomfortable when talking to people i wasn't close with. may not be the most inspirational of solutions, but in the last few months i decided to just accept it, stop caring, let myself be shy and avoid meeting new people all i can. in the case that i have to meet new people, i just don't care anymore if they get the idea that i'm anti-social and would rather be left alone, because that's just reality. so i don't put in any effort to be social and it makes the situation easier. goes hand-in-hand with the fact that my experiences with people never turn out well anyway. my ideal social life would consist of only one close friend, i really don't want more than that.

dating-wise, no. we're still 'friends' i guess, if not even less than that now.

I realize that this is easier said than done, but why don't you just cut him out of your life? At least until he gets his issues straightened out. I know that you love him, but it makes me sad(on your behalf) that this situation hurts you as much as it does.

who the HELL sleeps 14-16 hours per day?

So, boys are weird.

who the HELL sleeps 14-16 hours per day?
:eek:

I realize that this is easier said than done, but why don't you just cut him out of your life? At least until he gets his issues straightened out. I know that you love him, but it makes me sad(on your behalf) that this situation hurts you as much as it does.
eh, not really...i've just kind of stopped caring. he's the only thing that ever makes me happy and i don't want to make new friends to take that place or anything because i don't like or trust people. chances are they'll turn out worse than him. i don't plan on living a very satisfying or happy life anyway so i'll just stick with what i have.

eh, not really...i've just kind of stopped caring. he's the only thing that ever makes me happy and i don't want to make new friends to take that place or anything because i don't like or trust people. chances are they'll turn out worse than him. i don't plan on living a very satisfying or happy life anyway so i'll just stick with what i have.

Never stop caring. You never know, your life might just turn out to be more satisfying that you can ever imagine. Sometimes it is hard to see that when you're a teenager. I didn't always see it. During my senior year of high school I thought that the future would be so bleak that it would be like Blade Runner. However, even though I have gone through my share of bleak periods, I've been blessed with many great times too. Never give up hope. :)

i'm really disturbed by the fact that my best friend has a boyfriend. i know i shouldn't be, but i really am. it didn't help that i had to see them make out today. i didn't even know she was capable of affection like that. creepy.

also, her boyfriend has been an jerk to both of us and he's a whore. i can't believe she'd even go out with that guy. ugh.

i'm really disturbed by the fact that my best friend has a boyfriend. i know i shouldn't be, but i really am. it didn't help that i had to see them make out today. i didn't even know she was capable of affection like that. creepy.

also, her boyfriend has been an jerk to both of us and he's a whore. i can't believe she'd even go out with that guy. ugh.
It makes me uncomfortable to see my friends with significant others, too. :(

that's sort of how i've grown to be. i have social anxiety disorder and i used to hate being shy and uncomfortable when talking to people i wasn't close with. may not be the most inspirational of solutions, but in the last few months i decided to just accept it, stop caring, let myself be shy and avoid meeting new people all i can. in the case that i have to meet new people, i just don't care anymore if they get the idea that i'm anti-social and would rather be left alone, because that's just reality. so i don't put in any effort to be social and it makes the situation easier. goes hand-in-hand with the fact that my experiences with people never turn out well anyway. my ideal social life would consist of only one close friend, i really don't want more than that.
Sounds like me. Sometimes I'd like to be more "normal," but truth is most of the time I'd just like to stay home and watch TV by myself.

So basically I fight with myself a lot.

A lady I work with (who I like) might have cancer. :(

And today I couldn't control her class, and it bothered me even though she told me it wasn't my fault.

OH MY ****ING GOD, I ****ING HATE COLLEGE KIDS. i go back to my dorm at about 12:30 am because i need sleep before my 09:00 class tomorrow. lately i've been going to sleep at about 2, which hasn't been allotting me enough sleep to be able to get up when i'm supposed to. well anyway i get there and people everywhere are blasting music and being loud and obnoxious. i go into my room and my roommate has a guy with her in her bed and incredibly ****ty music playing on her stereo. i figured she would start making out with him too since she's done that before, which is absolutely revolting to listen to. i couldn't complain to anyone about any of the noise or distractions because no one in charge is available at this time. i would have just tried to fall asleep listening to music on my psp to block out the sound of everything else but my stupid brother brought it to his dorm to use for himself without asking me and hasn't given it back, despite the known fact that he has no ownership to it and i told him i want it back. well anyway, it's almost 2 in the ****ing morning now and i just came back home and i'm spending the night here. thank god only two or three more weeks of this GARBAGE.

A lady I work with (who I like) might have cancer. :(

And today I couldn't control her class, and it bothered me even though she told me it wasn't my fault.


I hope that she will be okay, Cathy. :(

I am very uncomfortable having to defer (in real life) to people half my age.

^ I know what you mean. It feels odd having a boss in his early 30's, giving you orders when you're in your 50's. But that's the way it goes sometimes.

OH MY ****ING GOD, I ****ING HATE COLLEGE KIDS. i go back to my dorm at about 12:30 am because i need sleep before my 09:00 class tomorrow. lately i've been going to sleep at about 2, which hasn't been allotting me enough sleep to be able to get up when i'm supposed to. well anyway i get there and people everywhere are blasting music and being loud and obnoxious. i go into my room and my roommate has a guy with her in her bed and incredibly ****ty music playing on her stereo. i figured she would start making out with him too since she's done that before, which is absolutely revolting to listen to. i couldn't complain to anyone about any of the noise or distractions because no one in charge is available at this time. i would have just tried to fall asleep listening to music on my psp to block out the sound of everything else but my stupid brother brought it to his dorm to use for himself without asking me and hasn't given it back, despite the known fact that he has no ownership to it and i told him i want it back. well anyway, it's almost 2 in the ****ing morning now and i just came back home and i'm spending the night here. thank god only two or three more weeks of this GARBAGE.
Pretty much sums up why I HATED living in a dorm. Only difference is that my roommate was a loser like me and we never had boyfriends over cuz we didn't have one. But they neighbors did! puke:

^ I know what you mean. It feels odd having a boss in his early 30's, giving you orders when you're in your 50's. But that's the way it goes sometimes.
Feels weird when your boss is only a couple years older than you too. Like what kind of loser am I when I have to answer to someone who I could have been in school with.

I hope that she will be okay, Cathy. :(

I'm sorry to hear that a lady you work with Cathy might have cancer.

I hope so too. She's a nice lady and a good teacher. Plus the kind of cancer she might have is not one I think has a real positive survival rate.

So, now my extreme anxiety is disabling me from ever sleeping. My life just keeps getting better.

And while I'm at it, my best friend (if I can even call her that anymore) keeps screwing me over for her boyfriend. Tonight my other friend threw a dinner party and cooked a meal for five of us because she's amazing like that. Well, Nina decides to show up with her boyfriend without telling anyone. It was just kind of rude that she would do that to my friend who had the night all planned out. The entire time that they were there it just seemed like they wanted to leave as soon as possible. I wish she wouldn't have come at all because it made everyone kind of uncomfortable.

Also, we planned on going to the beach instead of to prom and she invited her boyfriend without asking me. So, I'm screwed out of that, too. I'd never go anywhere alone with them because that'd be awkward. We also have made fun of the prom constantly and all of the sudden she's going to senior prom (her boyfriend is a senior). I don't really care, but it just seems like she's changing a lot. Whenever we do anything she brings her boyfriend without considering how weird that is for me. Maybe I'm just jealous but I really don't like him at all. I try to put myself in her position but she's still making me feel terrible.

Disregard this post, I usually vent to Nina but I can't really do that in this situation.

So, now my extreme anxiety is disabling me from ever sleeping. My life just keeps getting better.

And while I'm at it, my best friend (if I can even call her that anymore) keeps screwing me over for her boyfriend. Tonight my other friend threw a dinner party and cooked a meal for five of us because she's amazing like that. Well, Nina decides to show up with her boyfriend without telling anyone. It was just kind of rude that she would do that to my friend who had the night all planned out. The entire time that they were there it just seemed like they wanted to leave as soon as possible. I wish she wouldn't have come at all because it made everyone kind of uncomfortable.

Also, we planned on going to the beach instead of to prom and she invited her boyfriend without asking me. So, I'm screwed out of that, too. I'd never go anywhere alone with them because that'd be awkward. We also have made fun of the prom constantly and all of the sudden she's going to senior prom (her boyfriend is a senior). I don't really care, but it just seems like she's changing a lot. Whenever we do anything she brings her boyfriend without considering how weird that is for me. Maybe I'm just jealous but I really don't like him at all. I try to put myself in her position but she's still making me feel terrible.

Disregard this post, I usually vent to Nina but I can't really do that in this situation.

ay. that sucks. =/ have you talked to your best friend about this and how you feel about the situation?

ay. that sucks. =/ have you talked to your best friend about this and how you feel about the situation?

yeah, i told her that i felt like she was kind of ditching me for her boyfriend. she was just really defensive about it and said that she'd never ditch me for him. but yeah, actions speak louder than words. today we had a plan to do something and she just ignored my phone call. i know she did because my other friend had just spoken to her. i'm just going to leave it alone for now because i don't want it to seem like i'm desperate or anything.

yeah, i told her that i felt like she was kind of ditching me for her boyfriend. she was just really defensive about it and said that she'd never ditch me for him. but yeah, actions speak louder than words. today we had a plan to do something and she just ignored my phone call. i know she did because my other friend had just spoken to her. i'm just going to leave it alone for now because i don't want it to seem like i'm desperate or anything.

that's good that you talked to her about it. sucks that she's blowing you off though. that's a good plan-leaving it alone for a bit. you can hang out with your other friends and have some fun. hopefully your friend comes to your senses and will start hanging out with you and talking to you like normal again.

yeah, i told her that i felt like she was kind of ditching me for her boyfriend. she was just really defensive about it and said that she'd never ditch me for him. but yeah, actions speak louder than words. today we had a plan to do something and she just ignored my phone call. i know she did because my other friend had just spoken to her. i'm just going to leave it alone for now because i don't want it to seem like i'm desperate or anything.
Okay, that is not cool for her to do. I wouldn't hang around her anymore.

im a ****ing loser and i cant be good enough for the things i want most. i just deal with it by lying to myself but im always crying at the end of the day.

It's great when your own mother thinks you're a loser.

It's great when your own mother thinks you're a loser.


I hear that from mine everyday.

I hear that from mine everyday.
:(

She wants me to not be depressed, but then she tells me she wished I'd get out of the house more and get some friends. That just drives my mood right down the crapper.

:(

She wants me to not be depressed, but then she tells me she wished I'd get out of the house more and get some friends. That just drives my mood right down the crapper.


Story of my life :(

Boys = mind ****ers

Boys = mind ****ers

Mind**** Avenue is a two way street...

Mind**** Avenue is a two way street...

Indeed....

Mind**** Avenue is a two way street...
True. But in this situation, it's the boys that are taking a delightful stroll down Mind****er lane.

Boys = mind ****ers

oy. i hate that.

This week just seriously needs to end. I'm so stressed out with papers all due on the same day and then finals week after this. The good news is that after all of this summer break begins but ughhhh for this week and the next.

i wish i had a better method of mental release than yelling random obscenities and breaking/throwing things. it's not really out of anger as much as it's mostly just to prove to him that i'm being serious about what i feel when he's treating me badly. i've never been so aggressive before, but i don't care if i'm being overdramatic, i'm sick of him not listening to me and i don't want him to get away with it whether we're friends or not.

God I miss him so much. School needs to end.

School needs to end.

I'm with you on that. 21 more days. Of course, then I'm working summer school. I may go insane. :crazy:

Booking a flight overseas is terrifying. Imagine what it will be like to step on the plane...?

I took a route back to Lexington so erratic and winding that I've lost the right to complain about my periodic 4 hour trips to Chattanooga to visit a friend of mine.

I drove 15 minutes east, then doubled back and went 45 miles west of my starting point, then north 20 miles, then doubled back 5 of that, then went west another 5 miles, then East a good solid 65 miles, then the final 60 miles Northeast/North.

I was in that car a good four hours (Car problems no more, luckily)

The reason this is in the complaint department? It rained and came a windstorm.

The worst thing about listening to music when other folks are around: When alone, I'll sing just about anything I know the words to. But when anyone is around, the introvert gene kicks in, and I go silent.

Of course, then again I REALLY need to get this work for Philosophy done, so maybe it's for the best.

i HATE this dang hot weather. 90 something degrees outside and it's not even June yet. At this rate, I'm going to be home all day over summer and go out only after seven. lol. And this weather makes me so sleepy. I feel like napping, even though I got enough sleep last night.

the end of next week can't come soon enough, i'm tired of listening to my roommates discuss one of them's potential illegitimate pregnancy and interrogations of whether they've seen their boyfriend's penises yet.

I've been sitting in this library for three hours and I only have a page and a quarter done. **** me.

the end of next week can't come soon enough, i'm tired of listening to my roommates discuss one of them's potential illegitimate pregnancy and interrogations of whether they've seen their boyfriend's penises yet.
I'm so sick of college skanks. My friend from home who goes to another college tells me how her roommate is constantly saying stupid **** like "OMG I can't believe some people in college are still virgins. What is wrong with them, sex is so amazing!!11" blah blah blah. Yeah, some people have respect for themselves and would feel better waiting, idiot.

interrogations of whether they've seen their boyfriend's penises yet.

What an absolutely ******** thing to discuss. ohno:

I bought my step-niece a membership to the Hannah Montana Fan Club for her upcoming 11th birthday. Her birthday is on May 4th. Anyway, I didn't realize when I bought the emembership on April 21st that it would taker 4 to 6 weeks before the membership packet, with a membership card, bracelet, etc. would be shipped. I contacted the website. I got a reply saying that it will take 8 to 9 weeks. That's even longer. That means that it won't be shipped until late June/early July. I asked if I could pay extra to speed up the process, but was told that there are no exceptions and that everyone receives membership packets in the same time frame. I have asked if I will at least be contacted when it ships. I haven't gotten a response to that question though.

I'm not sure how this will go over with my step-niece and sister-in-law. If I had known that it would take so long I would have done something else for her birthday. How frustrating. You should complian about the fact you decided to do it...

But she is 11 so I guess thats alright

I bought my step-niece a membership to the Hannah Montana Fan Club for her upcoming 11th birthday. Her birthday is on May 4th. Anyway, I didn't realize when I bought the emembership on April 21st that it would taker 4 to 6 weeks before the membership packet, with a membership card, bracelet, etc. would be shipped. I contacted the website. I got a reply saying that it will take 8 to 9 weeks. That's even longer. That means that it won't be shipped until late June/early July. I asked if I could pay extra to speed up the process, but was told that there are no exceptions and that everyone receives membership packets in the same time frame. I have asked if I will at least be contacted when it ships. I haven't gotten a response to that question though.

I'm not sure how this will go over with my step-niece and sister-in-law. If I had known that it would take so long I would have done something else for her birthday. How frustrating.
Well they should know it's the thought that counts and that she'll get it eventually. I'm sure that is one busy fan club.

i hate awkward/weird moments.

i really feel like going for a drive tonight.

SOMEONE


SAVE



ME

PLEAXCE

can someone on here whom im *at least somewhat* bonded with talk to me via PM at your convenience? i can't talk to anyone else about this. please be respectful and don't just do it for the sake of curiosity.

Whenever I move (in this case, out of the dorm for summer), I inevitably lose SOMETHING.

Whenever I move (in this case, out of the dorm for summer), I inevitably lose SOMETHING.
That is totally me.
About 5 years ago when I moved, I lost my favorite rugby shirt. Haven't found it since. Right now, I'm currently in the process of trying to locate my 16-year-old Lisa Frank binder that I know I just saw a few months ago. :mad: I know I did NOT toss it out... so where the hell is it?

That is totally me.
About 5 years ago when I moved, I lost my favorite rugby shirt. Haven't found it since. Right now, I'm currently in the process of trying to locate my 16-year-old Lisa Frank binder that I know I just saw a few months ago. :mad: I know I did NOT toss it out... so where the hell is it?

The problem, and why it's vitally important I find it - is that what I lost was in fact my copy of a DVD I was supposed to review for the site (Two and a Half Men S3)

blah yeah, packing **** to move out of my dorm is gonna be a pain in the asssss...but well worth it to get out of here

The problem, and why it's vitally important I find it - is that what I lost was in fact my copy of a DVD I was supposed to review for the site (Two and a Half Men S3)
AAAAGGGGGHHHHH!!! I literally made a D: face reading that. Oh man... I hope you find it!

FOUND IT! It was in a plastic container of random stuff (cords, hangers, etc) in my trunk!

FOUND IT! It was in a plastic container of random stuff (cords, hangers, etc) in my trunk!
Yay!!!! :dance:

If only my shirt had ended up there in the same way... *pout* :(

Whenever I move (in this case, out of the dorm for summer), I inevitably lose SOMETHING.
I think everone does. I've been looking for something recently that I haven't seen since my last move 4 years ago. Sadly it's worth some good money.

Tomorrow is Monday morning. :mad:

I hope there's a convenient power outage that begins at 8am and ends at 3pm.

I have a research paper to type.
and I have no clue where my assigned reading is.

Tomorrow is Monday morning. :mad:

I hope there's a convenient power outage that begins at 8am and ends at 3pm.
:lol: I hope so too.



I had this dream where I had several papers due and I had absolutely none of them ready to go for tomorrow. One, I'm not in school. And two...it was for second grade. O_O That dream sucked.

I can't believe how one person can make you feel physically sick.

I can't believe how one person can make you feel physically sick.
amen.
i'm not looking forward to being the outsider. they're all i really have offline and they're going to be constantly together and happy while i'm just left out, alone and miserable. in the events that i could spend time with either one of them, it would be too agonizing to be worth it. he tried to give me reassurance but it's pointless, nothing is ever going to be the same as long as this lasts.

amen.
i'm not looking forward to being the outsider. they're all i really have offline and they're going to be constantly together and happy while i'm just left out, alone and miserable. in the events that i could spend time with either one of them, it would be too agonizing to be worth it. he tried to give me reassurance but it's pointless, nothing is ever going to be the same as long as this lasts.
I wish you could come here I'd take you into my group of friends in a heartbeat. You just need to show people how awesome you are and you'll find decent people. I dunno if you have a whole social anxiety disorder thing like me, but if you do I know it makes things harder. But I do hope you find other people, you deserve better. :(

can someone on here whom im *at least somewhat* bonded with talk to me via PM at your convenience? i can't talk to anyone else about this. please be respectful and don't just do it for the sake of curiosity.
I hope whatever was bothering you, no longer bothers you. ;)

I hope whatever was bothering you, no longer bothers you. ;)
I don't know about that. I PMed her with my cell # because I had a feeling she'd want to text me. She texted me on Saturday afternoon to fill me in, and uhhhh yeah... That's all I'm gonna say.
Sadly, I have a pretty good idea of what it's like... Again, all I'm gonna say.

I don't know about that. I PMed her with my cell # because I had a feeling she'd want to text me. She texted me on Saturday afternoon to fill me in, and uhhhh yeah... That's all I'm gonna say.
Sadly, I have a pretty good idea of what it's like... Again, all I'm gonna say.

At least she has someone to talk to. I'd do it, but I have a feeling I'm not too close to her, and I'd rather not intrude.

Still, Sarah, know that I'm thinking of you and I wish the best for you.

It's funny how your heart really does hurt.

SO SLEEPY.

At least she has someone to talk to. I'd do it, but I have a feeling I'm not too close to her, and I'd rather not intrude.

Still, Sarah, know that I'm thinking of you and I wish the best for you.
Yeah, me too. Hope it all eventually turns out your way. :)

can someone on here whom im *at least somewhat* bonded with talk to me via PM at your convenience? i can't talk to anyone else about this. please be respectful and don't just do it for the sake of curiosity.
Sarah, if you ever feel overwhelmed and need to vent, cry, talk, analyze a situation, remember that I'm usually around to PM, e-mail, even to talk on the phone, if you'd like. I have free long distance. You may be surprised at how much wisdom is gained from experience. It's something for you to consider. Nobody should have to go through the pain of heartache, alone.

Well, I know someone who's doing the Ding-Dong The Witch is Dead dance right now. I oftened wondered about this day. It is upon us.

I hope #3 is someone I don't know.

Well, I know someone who's doing the Ding-Dong The Witch is Dead dance right now. I oftened wondered about this day. It is upon us.

I hope #3 is someone I don't know.
:eek:

This hurts so bad, I can't take it anymore.

I don't know about that. I PMed her with my cell # because I had a feeling she'd want to text me. She texted me on Saturday afternoon to fill me in, and uhhhh yeah... That's all I'm gonna say.
Sadly, I have a pretty good idea of what it's like... Again, all I'm gonna say.
:( Sad to hear that whatever is bothering Sarah is bad.

I just figured out that I have ****ing eczema on my TOES. I've had it for YEARS. Since I was a kid, starting around roughly 13-15 years ago. I thought for the longest time I had athlete's foot, but the symptoms would be a lot worse than eczema. Plus, I always wash my feet in the shower. Always. And if I use a shower at the swimming pool, I wear sandals. The eczema comes and goes... but omg it was SO bad when I was a kid. I don't know why I never had anyone look at it. It's been popping up a lot more now that I'm on my feet constantly.

Damn it. But at least I know what the hell it is, and how to treat it. *scratches* :mad:

Must... kill... "plumbing"... company...

They shut off the ****ing water here. AGAIN. This is maybe the second time in three months they've done this. NO ****ING WARNING. GEE THANKS A LOT. GOOD THING I ALREADY HAVE A PITCHER OF WATER IN THE FRIDGE, AND THAT I ALREADY TOOK A SHOWER LAST NIGHT. If I had been in the shower when you did so, I would have gone ****ing POSTAL.

:livid: