The other one disappeared and was big anyway, so I'm starting this one.

My head hurts, the radiology department has their phones shut off, so all the calls end up at my desk, I made my crush mad because I said something really really stupid...I'm just pissy.

I hate the compaint department. It's depressing.

The country is going to hell in a handbag and nobody seems to care.

I'll be leaving home soon. It's going to be tough. I wonder whether I'll make it out there...

Tuesdays suck some major ****. I had a bad day.

I think I have strep throat. I went to the doctor today and she said that they won't find out if I have it until Friday. I don't see what good that information will do me then.

Ummm I have like 60 Algebra II problems to do. They're not due until Friday, but first of all, I ****ing hate Math with a passion. Number two, I have spring musical this week. All day rehearsal tomorrow, play night all Thursday afternoon/evening, Friday afternoon/evening. I'M TOO BUSY FOR MATH PROBLEMS.

I think I have strep throat. I went to the doctor today and she said that they won't find out if I have it until Friday. I don't see what good that information will do me then.

3-4 days?! That riduclous.

He's not going to be in school tomorrow, so it's going to be harder for me to go.

I think I have strep throat. I went to the doctor today and she said that they won't find out if I have it until Friday. I don't see what good that information will do me then.
Ah, damn. Hope ya get better soon. :/

He's not going to be in school tomorrow, so it's going to be harder for me to go.

:( That sucks.

:( That sucks.
Damn straight. It's just going to be so boring and uckrt54. He makes me want to go to school, otherwise it's just...school.

Damn straight. It's just going to be so boring and uckrt54. He makes me want to go to school, otherwise it's just...school.

I know that feeling. I think most kids go to school just because of someone else.

Great...I see a government plan in here somewhere.

I am totally "in love" with this arse who is completely indifferent of me. The last dude I had a cursh on told a friend of mine that he thought I was "Super Gorgeous" but was obiviously scared of me...
The latest arse is a musician (what the hell is new) and he is in one of my favorite bands, and I am planning to see him again when he performs in Hollywood, so maybe this time he would shoud more interest...God, life and love SUCK!!!

My boyfriend lives an hour away,i'm hungry,and my brother is a pain!!!

I wanted to make a new screen name on AIM but the son of a bitch was tooken.

I know that feeling. I think most kids go to school just because of someone else.

Great...I see a government plan in here somewhere.
:lol:

I have the most posts in this thread as usual pissed:

I have the most posts in this thread as usual pissed:

eh. wait for me. I shall catch up.

My laptop broke, again. (Processor this time).

To review, in the 11 Months I've had this Dell Inspiron 1150
*4 AC Adapters break
Plus the following internal components swapped in this order:
*AC In jack broke, motherboard replaced.
*Network Card (integrated) broke, motherboard replaced
*Now: Processor broke.

Never Dell, never again....

My laptop broke, again. (Processor this time).

To review, in the 11 Months I've had this Dell Inspiron 1150
*4 AC Adapters break
Plus the following internal components swapped in this order:
*AC In jack broke, motherboard replaced.
*Network Card (integrated) broke, motherboard replaced
*Now: Processor broke.

Never Dell, never again....

You can have my 2500. At least it has all its original (expensive) parts.

I decided to give up lollies, chocolate, chips etc... today and I found a mars bar on the ground. :mad: I didn't eat it or take it BUT GOD I WANTED TOO! :angryfire pig:

stress makes my eczema flare up. so tonight I get all upset at my mom constantly saying dad doesn't like her and now my hand itches like a bitch.

I decided not to go to England, instead my parents went, and now I am here alone with my dog, bored out of my skull...I feel like tossing my computer out of a window because I have been on the damn internet for over 2 hours now...

I have parent/teacher/student interviews tonight! :mad:

UGHHH I have all day rehearsal today, 7:45 until 2:15 and I probably have to stay after and organize/finish props, and that's going to take like, 10 years because there's so many freaking things in this play... I hate being tech crew.

UGHHH I have all day rehearsal today, 7:45 until 2:15 and I probably have to stay after and organize/finish props, and that's going to take like, 10 years because there's so many freaking things in this play... I hate being tech crew.

I'd gladly trade...Must write an essay consisting of:
Comparison/Contrast of Barouqe/Classical Periods
Analysis of Beethoven's 5th Symphony
A Mini-Biography of Leonard Bernstein
Plus a personal opinion about why I like [piece x]

(You were given a list of topics for the compare/contrast, a list of pieces to choose from for the Analysis, and a list of composers for the bio, with the 4th part being open-ended...what I picked were the best from the list IMO)

Oh yeah, no sleep last night (Tue/Wed) and Marginal sleep tonight (Wed/Thu). And did I mention I have a final today?

I'm taking the ACT today. Let's all pray I don't screw it up.

I've got this research essay due next week, and I'm nervous about it.

The ACT totally kicked my ass.

I will be 55 on May 15. That sucks big time! :eek: I can't believe that I will be that old! That wasn't supposed to happen to me! :lol:

I didn't sleep very well last night...Got 5-6ish hours of sleep...only really had one hour to recuperate today, and I was SO ****ING SLUGGISH. Oh my god. I was at my dad's from just before 10am til 1:45, cleaning...then I ran off to pilates class and my editors meeting...interviewed somebody, ran back to my dad's again..had supper and cleaned. Here I am...

And I have 2562435734734562562345656 things to do tonight and it's almost 8pm and I am SO ****ING EXHAUSTED. If I don't sleep soon, I will SCREAM at somebody. This has been the week from hell. **** everybody. They need to go jump off a cliff.

It was mid 30's all day today, cloudy, with flurries, and doing work outdoors in that crap isn't all that fun. :gary:

I decided not to go to England, instead my parents went, and now I am here alone with my dog, bored out of my skull...I feel like tossing my computer out of a window because I have been on the damn internet for over 2 hours now...

I'm on it 5 hours in a row at work. It gets so damn dull.

The ACT totally kicked my ass.

I got a 19 on the science portion the first time I took it. ohno:

I'm on it 5 hours in a row at work. It gets so damn dull.
I am off work for 2 weeks, and so far I feel like I am about to go bonkers...All day I have sat on my ass on the computer... :crazy:

**** everybody. They need to go jump off a cliff.

I felt that way today too. I declared today "Leave your brain at home day" for everyone but myself.


And gas was $1.94 yesterday. Today: $2.09. I was so ****ing pissed off.

It was mid 30's all day today, cloudy, with flurries, and doing work outdoors in that crap isn't all that fun. :gary:

Damn! It was 50 something down here.

I felt that way today too. I declared today "Leave your brain at home day" for everyone but myself.


And gas was $1.94 yesterday. Today: $2.09. I was so ****ing pissed off.
Jesus, lucky you, where I live the gas is now up to $2.80..and in some areas it is up to 3 bucks...(God, I hate California) :mad:

Jesus, lucky you, where I live the gas is now up to $2.80..and in some areas it is up to 3 bucks...(God, I hate California) :mad:
:eek:

:eek:
I know, it sucks, and I still do not understand why anyone if their right mind still goes out and buys a SUV or a Hummer? (people in California are soooo stupid!)

It was mid 30's all day today, cloudy, with flurries, and doing work outdoors in that crap isn't all that fun. :gary:
After a few days of very cold weather, Spring has returned somewhat. This weather we are having this year is crazy.

I felt that way today too. I declared today "Leave your brain at home day" for everyone but myself.


And gas was $1.94 yesterday. Today: $2.09. I was so ****ing pissed off.
$2.35 here. Bah.

Um maybe if America wasn't full of dumb****s and didn't vote off the only good person on American Idol, I'd be in a better mood.

I just got done working on the laptop I brought home from school...I worked on a project in Adobe InDesign for TWO STRAIGHT HOURS. No breaks, nothing, just the occasional pause to sip the cup of coffee I prepared beforehand...It is going to be one LONG night. And now I have ANOTHER InDesign project to get done, and it is going to be FIVE PAGES LONG.

Yeah, please kill me.

I.Hate.Having.My.Stupid.****ing.Period.It.Needs.To.Die.Right.Now.

...

That av is so funny. :lol: I don't know why, but it is.

That av is so funny. :lol: I don't know why, but it is.
:lol: Cute couple huh? :lol:

:lol: Cute couple huh? :lol:

ooo baby :lol:

ooo baby :lol:
:rofl: Imagine their children? How gorgeous they would be!

:rofl: Imagine their children? How gorgeous they would be!

:rotflmao:

:rotflmao:
Hubba hubba :grineyes: :grineyes: :grineyes:

I have to pee but I don't feel like it.

Hubba hubba :grineyes: :grineyes: :grineyes:

Wooooo weeeeeee! <Paris Hilton>THAT'S HOT</PH>

God, tonight I went to this local bar by myself, and it sucked, why do men just freaking stare instead of approaching you?

God, tonight I went to this local bar by myself, and it sucked, why do men just freaking stare instead of approaching you?

Ewww... I hate being stared at! It's kind of unnerving.

Ewww... I hate being stared at! It's kind of unnerving.
It is! Very unnerving, it is like "Hey if you think that I am attractive?" at least come to me and say "hello"...

I HATE GIRLS.

God, tonight I went to this local bar by myself, and it sucked, why do men just freaking stare instead of approaching you?

Women are scary. I'd rather approach a pack of hungry wolves than a woman.

I'm bored :mad:

Women are scary. I'd rather approach a pack of hungry wolves than a woman.

I feel that way about guys.

Gee...no wonder we're all single.

Women are scary. I'd rather approach a pack of hungry wolves than a woman.
But that sucks though...I know that both men and women fear rejection, but if you like someone I think you should at least make an effort to get to know that individual...

I feel that way about guys.

Gee...no wonder we're all single.
I just wish God gave me this incredible power of ridding me of aniexty and fear of people in general.. People, especially men..make me incredible nervous and they look at me like I am some kind of werido, because I do not look like I am shy...but I am...

There is a fly in the kitchen and it's bugging the crap out of me.

There is a fly in the kitchen and it's bugging the crap out of me.


.....no pun intended.

My birthday is coming up and I could care less. Annnd I can't do my science homework because I don't understand it. I hate being dumb.

MY DAD SO DID NOT GIVE ME MY MONEY LAST WEEK. he insists that i spent it on something in advance and "we already settled that i'm not getting it". yeah right.

I care way too much about what other people think.

MY DAD SO DID NOT GIVE ME MY MONEY LAST WEEK. he insists that i spent it on something in advance and "we already settled that i'm not getting it". yeah right.

That's not right. This is why I insist everything be in writing. :D

i can't think of anything to complain about pissed:

Uggh my friend said he would call me back but he hasnt yet. :mad: And I called him at like noon cause we were supposed to go somewhere today.

So since I'm graduating 8th grade next month we have a prom. Everyone in my 8th grade class is finding someone to go with, even if they're friends, so I decided to go with my friend. Now the girl who used to like him I think is mad at me because I'm going with him. The thing is, my friend doesn't even like her, and I guess she's having a hard time getting over it. I hate being a teenager :o

i can't think of anything to complain about pissed:

Me neither! :livid:

Got another ear infection :cuss: :livid:

Me neither! :livid:
Me too. :lol:

We'd better bump Janice's "Feel Good" thread up...Haven't seen it in a while. ;)

Me too. :lol:

We'd better bump Janice's "Feel Good" thread up...Haven't seen it in a while. ;)

:lol:

Sounds like a good idea. :)

I'd like to know why people think I'm so damn cute. I'm not that attractive. Or pretty. Or hot. I'M NOT. I've been stared at all weekend. Either I look like a freak or I'm "hot." Maybe I look stupid and don't see it.

I'd like to know why people think I'm so damn cute. I'm not that attractive. Or pretty. Or hot. I'M NOT. I've been stared at all weekend. Either I look like a freak or I'm "hot." Maybe I look stupid and don't see it.
Hey, I get the same damn thing, do they just stare at you, but do not approach or say anything to you? I hate that soooooo much, hell I know that I am far from being a "major Babe" but why do men just freaking stare or gawk?

Hey, I get the same damn thing, do they just stare at you, but do not approach or say anything to you? I hate that soooooo much, hell I know that I am far from being a "major Babe" but why do men just freaking stare or gawk?

Just stare. Like I'll be walking down the aisle at the grocery store or sitting at a red light and they'll just stare.

Just stare. Like I'll be walking down the aisle at the grocery store or sitting at a red light and they'll just stare.
:rolleyes: I know the feeling...

I have my first gyno appt. and UGGGHH Im scared. Theyre gonna poke and prod me in places I didnt know I had. My period has never been fully stable since I got it when I was 13 so who the hell knows whats wrong with me. I have to shave my legs.

I have my first gyno appt. and UGGGHH Im scared. Theyre gonna poke and prod me in places I didnt know I had. My period has never been fully stable since I got it when I was 13 so who the hell knows whats wrong with me. I have to shave my legs.
Good luck! I haven't gone yet :o I want to be totally unconscious during the whole thing.

:rolleyes: I know the feeling...

It makes me really self-conscious.

I have my first gyno appt. and UGGGHH Im scared. Theyre gonna poke and prod me in places I didnt know I had. My period has never been fully stable since I got it when I was 13 so who the hell knows whats wrong with me. I have to shave my legs.
It is not a bad experience, and it is completely painless..and it does not take very long..it is not that uncomfortable...so do not worry..

Good luck! I haven't gone yet :o I want to be totally unconscious during the whole thing.
I don't want to be passed out when I have people looking at my coochie. :eek:

It makes me really self-conscious.
Nah, they think that you pretty but you are not approachable...

I don't want to be passed out when I have people looking at my coochie. :eek:
:rofl: :rofl:

I have my first gyno appt. and UGGGHH Im scared. Theyre gonna poke and prod me in places I didnt know I had. My period has never been fully stable since I got it when I was 13 so who the hell knows whats wrong with me. I have to shave my legs.

Try not to worry too much, although with this being your first time I completely understand how you're feeling right now. :hug:

Really though, you won't be in there for very long. A nurse will be there the whole time, so that definately helps. Take lots of deep breaths and try to relax. You'll be fine. :)

Good luck! I haven't gone yet :o I want to be totally unconscious during the whole thing.
Ugh yah trust me I wouldnt be going but my mother made the appt. Its not like Im off having sex so I know Im clear of STDs and such.

I don't want to be passed out when I have people looking at my coochie. :eek:

:lol: Yeah, but I'll never know it if I'm passed out.

Maybe I'll show up drunk. :lol:

I don't want to be passed out when I have people looking at my coochie. :eek:

Allison... :rotflmao:

Try not to worry too much, although with this being your first time I completely understand how you're feeling right now. :hug:

Really though, you won't be in there for very long. A nurse will be there the whole time, so that definately helps. Take lots of deep breaths and try to relax. You'll be fine. :)
Thanks and thanks ~Princess Jasmine~ :D

I heard they put your legs in stirrups and something about a clamp? lol Meangya sounds like a torture chamber! :eek:

Ugh yah trust me I wouldnt be going but my mother made the appt. Its not like Im off having sex so I know Im clear of STDs and such.

yeah, same here. Moms. ohno: :lol:

My period has actually evened itself out in the last couple years. And gotten shorter. :thumbsup:

Allison... :rotflmao:
That brings up so many bad visuals. :lol:

I don't want to be passed out when I have people looking at my coochie. :eek:

:rofl:

Thanks and thanks ~Princess Jasmine~ :D

I heard they put your legs in stirrups and something about a clamp? lol Meangya sounds like a torture chamber! :eek:

You're welcome. :)

Yeah, your legs are put up there but it's not too big a deal. Actually, as often as I've been it's still a pain in the ass and I hate it. Even though you're in there for all of five or ten minutes. :lol:

With the clamp, you'll feel some pressure. :nod:

:lol: Yeah, but I'll never know it if I'm passed out.

Maybe I'll show up drunk. :lol:
But you'll know for sure when you come to and your vagina feels like somebody was poking around in there. :lol:

yeah, same here. Moms. ohno: :lol:

My period has actually evened itself out in the last couple years. And gotten shorter. :thumbsup:
yeah the older you becomes the more regular your periods tend to become..I know I had a lot of problems with mine when I started..

That brings up so many bad visuals. :lol:

For real. :lol:

But you'll know for sure when you come to and your vagina feels like somebody was poking around in there. :lol:

:lol: At least by that time I'll be at home fully dressed.

Ugh you guys ::crosses legs tightly:: :lol:

Ugh you guys ::crosses legs tightly:: :lol:

:rotflmao:

yeah, same here. Moms. ohno: :lol:

My period has actually evened itself out in the last couple years. And gotten shorter. :thumbsup:
Well I got mine in October 98 when I was 13, then I didnt see it again til I was like, 14. I would skip anywhere from 3 months to a year and a half up until I was like 17. Then when I was 18? I had it for 2 months straight of spotting. Last year it finally started to be normal, but now I havent had it since March and it only lasted 4 days! Mine on an average is usually between 10-14 days, so when it was only 4 I got nervous.

You're welcome. :)

Yeah, your legs are put up there but it's not too big a deal. Actually, as often as I've been it's still a pain in the ass and I hate it. Even though you're in there for all of five or ten minutes. :lol:

With the clamp, you'll feel some pressure. :nod:
Thanks!

So wait, about this clamp :lol:. Do they clamp you together, or apart?! Ugh and I thought all they did was a pap smear. Someone told me about sticking their finger up your ass too? Meaaaaaaangya.

Well I got mine in October 98 when I was 13, then I didnt see it again til I was like, 14. I would skip anywhere from 3 months to a year and a half up until I was like 17. Then when I was 18? I had it for 2 months straight of spotting. Last year it finally started to be normal, but now I havent had it since March and it only lasted 4 days! Mine on an average is usually between 10-14 days, so when it was only 4 I got nervous.
*SLAP* No! You weren't 13 in October '98! I was 13 at that time. :p If you meant October 97, then that makes sense. :lol: It was November 98 for me. ;)

Thanks!

So wait, about this clamp :lol:. Do they clamp you together, or apart?! Ugh and I thought all they did was a pap smear. Someone told me about sticking their finger up your ass too? Meaaaaaaangya.

:lol: The clamp is for the pap smear. Without it, they'd have a difficult time. It's to open you up. Sticking a finger up your ass? Well hell, no wonder you're so nervous! Noooooo, you won't have to deal with anything of the sort. :lol:

:lol: The clamp is for the pap smear. Without it, they'd have a difficult time. It's to open you up. Sticking a finger up your ass? Well hell, no wonder you're so nervous! Noooooo, you won't have to deal with anything of the sort. :lol:
:rofl: Hahaha ok. I heard they did to test for colon cancer or something and Im like UGH I thought you didnt have to start that til your 50! LOl thanks for clearing that one up for me. One less thing I gotta clean. Kidding, kidding!!!!!

*SLAP* No! You weren't 13 in October '98! I was 13 at that time. :p If you meant October 97, then that makes sense. :lol: It was November 98 for me. ;)
Mah bad!

I thought they did something like the butt thing too!

And yeah, colonoscopies start around 50.

I thought they did something like the butt thing too!

And yeah, colonoscopies start around 50.
~Goody~ that is something to look forward to...

:rofl: Hahaha ok. I heard they did to test for colon cancer or something and Im like UGH I thought you didnt have to start that til your 50! LOl thanks for clearing that one up for me. One less thing I gotta clean. Kidding, kidding!!!!!

:rotflmao:

You've got a long ways to go before you have to worry about that. You're welcome. :lol: :lol:

This pisses me off. Ebay has some of the dumbest sellers on earth. How do they expect to sell something like a VCR when all they do is post a picture and tell us they think it works. WTF? No specs? No model number? No recording speeds?? And these morons sell their crap!!!

I WILL NOT buy a VCR that does not record in LP. SP/SLP only VCRs can all burn in hell for all I care; they're worthless to me. Well, the only model I know of that still records in LP is Panasonic and here I go...back to the stupidest sellers. And WTF would anyone buy a VCR with no remote? You can't do anything with it without the remote! pissed:

This pisses me off. Ebay has some of the dumbest sellers on earth. How do they expect to sell something like a VCR when all they do is post a picture and tell us they think it works. WTF? No specs? No model number? No recording speeds?? And these morons sell their crap!!!

I WILL NOT buy a VCR that does not record in LP. SP/SLP only VCRs can all burn in hell for all I care; they're worthless to me. Well, the only model I know of that still records in LP is Panasonic and here I go...back to the stupidest sellers. And WTF would anyone buy a VCR with no remote? You can't do anything with it without the remote! pissed:
Ugh that sucks. About the remote though, you can buy a universal one just about anywhere for about $8.

Ugh that sucks. About the remote though, you can buy a universal one just about anywhere for about $8.
Oh yeah. I forgot about those. :lol:

Thursday afternoon I did a sunless tanner and OMG wow. It doesnt look all that bad on my legs and arms but then you see my white ass feet. And my hands. MY POOR HANDS. Part of them are white and the rest are really dark and my mother said it looks like I wiped my ass with them and my friends were calling me Michael :snob: I gotta get naked in front of the dr. like this and shes gonna be like WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU!

I hate being a teenager. Seriously, I'm going with my friend to the prom as FRIENDS. That's it. And now the girl who used to like him hates my guts. I guess I can understand, but God, I can never be happy.

The AP English Language test killed me.

I hardly ate ANY of my lunch today because this guy I think is cute was talking to me at our table. Seriously my leg was twitching too I thought I was gonna fall over. He even likes Will Farrel! I was acting like such a complete moron. Aggggh I hate myself. I need to have my pituitary gland removed.

I hardly ate ANY of my lunch today because this guy I think is cute was talking to me at our table. Seriously my leg was twitching too I thought I was gonna fall over. He even likes Will Farrel! I was acting like such a complete moron. Aggggh I hate myself. I need to have my pituitary gland removed.

maybe you could beat him into submission with it?

Whoever says papsmears dont hurt, LIES. Wow. She couldnt even finish it. But now Im on the pill and I got blood work done to check my thyroid and see if Im anemic. Meh.

boys suck.
prom sucks.

I have an AP world history exam tomorrow and I, along with everyone else, am going to fail it. Cheerio :wave:

I hardly ate ANY of my lunch today because this guy I think is cute was talking to me at our table. Seriously my leg was twitching too I thought I was gonna fall over. He even likes Will Farrel! I was acting like such a complete moron. Aggggh I hate myself. I need to have my pituitary gland removed.
I barely even talk to the kid I like. He probably thinks I don't like him or some **** In fact, the people I like the most are the ones I avoid because I respect them the most and would hate for them to hate me, which is common for people who get to know me to do.

I have an AP world history exam tomorrow and I, along with everyone else, am going to fail it. Cheerio :wave:
Good luck. I have my US history one on Friday. I don't have a prayer. I have a feeling that I wasted $164 of my parent's money.

Good luck. I have my US history one on Friday. I don't have a prayer. I have a feeling that I wasted $164 of my parent's money.
Thanks, you too. I've seen old exams, it's pretty much impossible :grr:

Thursday afternoon I did a sunless tanner and OMG wow. It doesnt look all that bad on my legs and arms but then you see my white ass feet. And my hands. MY POOR HANDS. Part of them are white and the rest are really dark and my mother said it looks like I wiped my ass with them and my friends were calling me Michael :snob: I gotta get naked in front of the dr. like this and shes gonna be like WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU!

Only place I've ever put that stuff is my legs. Which I suppose looks silly, but whateva.

what the hell is this Tahitian Treat pop I'm drinking?

who thought that marzipan-flavored soda would be a good idea?

I have an AP world history exam tomorrow and I, along with everyone else, am going to fail it. Cheerio :wave:


I have AP European History next year. Waaaaah! Guess I have alot to look forward to huh? :lol: :grr:

I have AP European History next year. Waaaaah! Guess I have alot to look forward to huh? :lol: :grr:
Oh yes. ohno: :lol:

i hope god is having a lot of fun trying to mess up my life. i've hardly stopped crying since this morning.

Last time I checked, friends told each other things.

i hope god is having a lot of fun trying to mess up my life. i've hardly stopped crying since this morning.

I know how ya feel ma :(

I have a lab final today, and I think I'm gonna fail it.

Get this: I had to work today (my supposed day off) because the woman on the morning shift "couldn't" switch shifts with the woman I'm working for. I find out she "couldn't" because she had a hair appointment. A HAIR APPOINTMENT. Boy, that's earth-shatteringly necessary. pissed:

I have a lab final today, and I think I'm gonna fail it.

Update: It turns out I passed it with a 70.

If I have to hear this damn Janet Jackson song one more time, I'm going to hurt someone.

I hate my dad he is such a disgusting gross pig. He chews so ****ing loud i wanna throw something.

Man I've been having nothing but complaints this week. My grandma was trying to help me with something and I just got upset. I'm so selfish and not appreciative that I hate myself. She was only trying to help and I got mad at her. I don't realize what I say, and one day my grandma will be gone and I'll never be able to apologize. She's the only real grandma I have; my dad's mom doesn't care about anyone else except my dad. I've been crying all night and I just really hate myself.

Man I've been having nothing but complaints this week. My grandma was trying to help me with something and I just got upset. I'm so selfish and not appreciative that I hate myself. She was only trying to help and I got mad at her. I don't realize what I say, and one day my grandma will be gone and I'll never be able to apologize. She's the only real grandma I have; my dad's mom doesn't care about anyone else except my dad. I've been crying all night and I just really hate myself.
I'm sorry :( I know how you feel, sometimes I feel awful for things like that, too. I don't want to be mean, but under stress or anxiety I can get that way. Then, when I'm not stressed, I think of how stupid I acted and it just really bothers me more than it should.

I dont care what anyone says, revenge is actually best served frothy and hot, with a slice of lemon on the side and some parsley.

I swear to God...The world sucks. I hate when people change. One day their nice little first graders, and the next day their juniors in highschool having everything-but-sex with people they met on the internet that are 20 years old. I don't ****ing get it.

oh and I'm getting sick.

and we "studied" for the AP US History test tomorrow for 3 hours and learned nothing.

I have a migraine
I am totally in love with this man and I do not know how he feels about me, and I thought you out grew "infatuations: once you reached my age :rolleyes:
I spend money on a TV-DVD that later I found out that the episodes are edited!!!!

(SIGH)

The person, whom I have a "crush" on, I am going to see his band a week from now and I am scared of attending one of his gigs alone; he probably thinks I am some kind of "I do not have a meaningful life groupie" and guess what, he is right...(SIGH...Again)


*Life Sucks* :(

I hate my dad he is such a disgusting gross pig. He chews so ****ing loud i wanna throw something.
:lol: haha sorry, that made me laugh.

He's just sitting there, both of us on IM, neither of us saying anything. I would say something, but I've done that twice this week and I got nothing back. It's annoying.

I'm such a clutz and its beginning to make me get really frustrated :mad: I tripped over my mums shoes and flew into a wall and now I have a massive bruise on my forehead, and I jammed my finger yesterday and again today (but in the door this time and not as bad). The only good thing I can find about my clumsiness is that I've become immune to stubbing my toes. It doesn't even hurt anymore, happens 5 times a day, seven days a week and I don't even care anymore. :lol: I'm starting to wonder if I've done something wong to my foot. :confused:

I'm sorry :( I know how you feel, sometimes I feel awful for things like that, too. I don't want to be mean, but under stress or anxiety I can get that way. Then, when I'm not stressed, I think of how stupid I acted and it just really bothers me more than it should.

Yeah that's exactly what happened to me. I think I'm over it but I still feel bad.

Ugh. Screw reading this now. I just want to finish this damn test.

If one more person pushes the revolving door, I'm getting out a can of whoop ass. If you think you have to go faster, go out the other door, moron! pissed:

I just made three B's out of four classes (F-Bombed the fourth, but that was expected) - and am no longer on Academic Probation...so why am I complaining? Just passing no longer cuts it...I WANT those A's....I want the little latin words that no one quite knows the meaning of on my diploma or what have you...Suddenly, just passing...isn't quite good enough.

I just made three B's out of four classes (F-Bombed the fourth, but that was expected) - and am no longer on Academic Probation...so why am I complaining? Just passing no longer cuts it...I WANT those A's....I want the little latin words that no one quite knows the meaning of on my diploma or what have you...Suddenly, just passing...isn't quite good enough.
LOL. Good going! Haven't seen you around much Seth. Hitting the books?

I just made three B's out of four classes (F-Bombed the fourth, but that was expected) - and am no longer on Academic Probation...so why am I complaining? Just passing no longer cuts it...I WANT those A's....I want the little latin words that no one quite knows the meaning of on my diploma or what have you...Suddenly, just passing...isn't quite good enough.

LOL...I was totally opposite. Wanted those A's in HS, but in college, I just wanted to pass. As long as I got a C or higher, I was perfectly happy.

LOL...I was totally opposite. Wanted those A's in HS, but in college, I just wanted to pass. As long as I got a C or higher, I was perfectly happy.

That's where I'm ar right now.

Being sick sucks.

Stupid Yahoo Mail is freaking slower than mollasses today :cuss: :livid:

My allergies have hit an all time high. IM COUGHING AND SNEEZING LIKE CRAZY. Seriously, today in English I sneezed like 8 times in a row

My DVD player is not working properly,something to do with the damn connections,and my boyfriend is away for the weekend,and he's the only person I know who can fix it.Not happy.

AND I have like 6 tests next week. And I got a C- on my math quiz. I HATE SCHOOL. Come oooooooooooooooon summer

At least its the weekend :D

I have to get up early tomorrow to help my aunt move.

My text messages are being ignored...like normal.

I'm losing my voice because of my allergies :(

I'm losing my voice because of my allergies :(

Ahh so am I. It stinks :(

this whole week sucked. i'm still just in shock.

I won't get to talk to Kevin today and it's breaking my heart. :(

Do I look like a ****ing taxi service?

I get a phone call..."Hey we're on the train coming into Joliet...Can you pick us up from the train station?"

THE ONLY ****ING TIME YOU CALL ME IS TO ASK ME FOR A RIDE? These people just assume I'll take them home from school every day without ****ing asking and now they expect me to drive to the ****ing train station and then back to their respective houses. GAS COSTS MONEY. HAVE YOU GIVEN ME ONE CENT FOR GAS FOR TAKING YOU HOME THE LAST 8 MILLION WEEKS OF SCHOOL!? NO.

Do I look like a ****ing taxi service?

I get a phone call..."Hey we're on the train coming into Joliet...Can you pick us up from the train station?"

THE ONLY ****ING TIME YOU CALL ME IS TO ASK ME FOR A RIDE? These people just assume I'll take them home from school every day without ****ing asking and now they expect me to drive to the ****ing train station and then back to their respective houses. GAS COSTS MONEY. HAVE YOU GIVEN ME ONE CENT FOR GAS FOR TAKING YOU HOME THE LAST 8 MILLION WEEKS OF SCHOOL!? NO.
Tell them to walk.

I cried myself to sleep again last night. I'm getting a little tired of that. I'm getting a little tired of myself.

I feel horrible tonight. My mom has been reminding me all day about all of my "deep emotional problems" and yelling at me to go find some friends. I can't deal with it.

My dad tells me crap like that occasionally. I ignore him because he's a freakin hermit too.

My "best friends" are having a "girls night"....Apparently I'm not a girl.

I can't sleep. I lay here all night worrying about myself, other people, my problems, other people's problems that I shouldn't even be worrying about, my God. I just want to ****ing sleep.

I cried myself to sleep again last night. I'm getting a little tired of that. I'm getting a little tired of myself.
:( :bighug:

My "best friends" are having a "girls night"....Apparently I'm not a girl.
Don't friends suck? :)

I can't sleep. I lay here all night worrying about myself, other people, my problems, other people's problems that I shouldn't even be worrying about, my God. I just want to ****ing sleep.
I hate nights like that. You just can't stop thinking so you can't fall asleep. I've always just made up stupid stories in my head to fall asleep to...odd, but it works for me.

I feel horrible tonight. My mom has been reminding me all day about all of my "deep emotional problems" and yelling at me to go find some friends. I can't deal with it.
I'm sorry :(

My "best friends" are having a "girls night"....Apparently I'm not a girl.
that's exactly why i stopped having close friends. i was always left out of everything because i've never been important enough to be treated as well as everyone else. i still have friends i talk to and stuff but we don't go to each others houses or anything.

I hate nights like that. You just can't stop thinking so you can't fall asleep. I've always just made up stupid stories in my head to fall asleep to...odd, but it works for me.
I've tried everything humanely possibly to get asleep, and if I take the pills they gave me to get me to sleep, I'll be like a zombie tomorrow. So if I don't sleep, or I take the pills and eventually fall asleep, either way, tomorrow I'll be dragging.

Don't friends suck? :)

Yes, they certainly do... sometimes. I'm currently angry with one of my friends. It stinks. :( :mad:

This Saturday SUCKED!!!!
First I was all excited about attending a concert in the LA area, so I drove from where I live in San Diego, which normally takes me an hour and a half, but this time I was stuck in traffic from 3 hours due to an accident on the 405 where I person was killed, and they closed off 3 of the 5 lanes, and when I passed the site of the accident, there was the body...(GREAT) then when I arrived at the concert hall, I immediately stood in line to purchase a ticket and as I was diggin through my purse to my GREAT horror, I realized that I had accidently left my wallet with MY MONEY and my CREDIT CARDS at home (A good 100 hundred miles away)..Pissed and disapointed I drove home furious..then a friend of mine calls and starts to brag about her wonderful time in Maui with her boyfriend and how beautiful the Hawaiian Islands are, blah blah...and her and her boyfriend are having such a "Great" time making love in such a paradise...


LIFE SUCKS!!! (It really does) :(

Does God hate me or what?

I think I'm a smart, good-natured guy thats kind to animals...

which is why it drives me CRAZY when my cats outsmart me pissed:

(and no, I am not going to elaborate)

that's exactly why i stopped having close friends. i was always left out of everything because i've never been important enough to be treated as well as everyone else. i still have friends i talk to and stuff but we don't go to each others houses or anything.
Yep that's pretty much the story of my life right there.

UGH. I HATE BEING SICK. Now it's not so much a runny nose cold as it is a coughing uncontrollably cold.

My uncle buys himself a $1000 computer monitor, but I'll be damned if he doesn't stop buying SuperSaver toilet paper. :mad:

Since I didn't sleep last night, I'm really sick to my stomach. I get like that when low on sleep, and I have to go to my aunt's house. I'm not in the mood to go anywhere. I just want to lay down and crash.

I feel for you Penny Lane. I just got a new haircut and the haircut makes my face look fat and old. I am a few years younger than you. I looked in the mirror and for the first time I see jowls coming. I am a little depressed. With the haircut and jowls I look like Effie Klinker, Edgar Bergens dummy.

I hate allergies.

I had a party last night since the rents were away..my house is a mess. i feel bad since its mothers day and the house was spotless when they left. gotta get my ass in gear and clean.

AND

we were taking all the bags of bottles and cans to the dump and some guy tried to chase us out of there. random.

My allergies are getting better but my voice is going on and off, sometimes its normal and sometimes you could barely hear me.

I can't sleep. I lay here all night worrying about myself, other people, my problems, other people's problems that I shouldn't even be worrying about, my God. I just want to ****ing sleep.

I do that too, worrying about other people's problems. If their problem affects me in the slightest, I'll worry about it. Fortunately, Paxil makes me sleep. So does lack of sleep in general.

My dad ruined my mom's day.

My uncle buys himself a $1000 computer monitor, but I'll be damned if he doesn't stop buying SuperSaver toilet paper. :mad:

That's how selfish cheapskates get their toys. ohno:

My dad ruined my mom's day.

Nice guy.

Nice guy.
The nicest.

I'm going to fail my chemistry exam and I don't want to go to summer scule. I'm taking an old practice one right now and I don't know one ****ing answer. Not one.

Bronchitis = suckfest.

WHY OH WHY do I have to have a crush on someone? God I wish he didn't talk to me at all he is all I can friggan think about now. And I'm friggan miserable now. It's like I can't help how I feel or think and it's gonna mess up my life completely.rrrrggghg **** **** **** ******* damnit ********!!!!!!



Welcome to my personal hell.

Welcome to my personal hell.
Mine too... :(

Today is going to be a changing day in your life.

I hurt myself yesterday on my tvstand(has a sharp edge on the bottom) and hurt two of my toes really bad, one of them is swollen and brusied :cuss:

Today is going to be a changing day in your life.
:lol: Dr. Phil rules!

I have to be here for another 2 hours and the place has already died.

And I feel fat and lumpy.

In Gym today, me and the rest of the girls in our class were running around the basketball court, because we do that everyday. Anyway, I was going to pass somebody, and one of my friends accidently tripped me. So I went flying and hit the ground with my hands and my arms first. So everyone started laughing, which was bad. Not only that, but I got a big black and blue mark on the palm of my hand, and it still hurts.

I think I like my substitute teacher, who is like 15 years older than me. It's sickening now when I think about it :(

I'm bored and it's hot outside.

I think I like my substitute teacher, who is like 15 years older than me. It's sickening now when I think about it :(

well im sure its only a crush lol so dont worry about it

I think I like my substitute teacher, who is like 15 years older than me. It's sickening now when I think about it :(
It's called a crush, and it's normal. :)

I had the biggest crush on my 7th grade geography teacher, and he was exactly 13 years and 4 days older than me. :lol:

It's called a crush, and it's normal. :)

I had the biggest crush on my 7th grade geography teacher, and he was exactly 13 years and 4 days older than me. :lol:

I love your avatar.

In Gym today, me and the rest of the girls in our class were running around the basketball court, because we do that everyday. Anyway, I was going to pass somebody, and one of my friends accidently tripped me. So I went flying and hit the ground with my hands and my arms first. So everyone started laughing, which was bad. Not only that, but I got a big black and blue mark on the palm of my hand, and it still hurts.
:(

I tripped over my pants in gym in 7th grade and tripped up the stairs in 8th grade. :nod:

I love your avatar.
Thanks! :D Cheers forever! :biglove:

It's called a crush, and it's normal. :)

I had the biggest crush on my 7th grade geography teacher, and he was exactly 13 years and 4 days older than me. :lol:

Haha okay so I'm not crazy :lol:

I'm socially ********.

I'm socially ********.

Me too. I'm also romantically ********.

Me too. I'm also romantically ********.
I think they fall into the same category, only romance is like ADVANCED social skills so if you can't get the simple part down...eh...screwed. We're screwed.

I think they fall into the same category, only romance is like ADVANCED social skills so if you can't get the simple part down...eh...screwed. We're screwed.

That's true.

I'm gonna go eat a lot of ice cream and then get sick. Not like I have anything better to look forward to.

I like how we get a research paper assigned a week before school is out and we don't even know how to do it.

It's getting harder and harder to tolerate myself.

My friends piss me off. I find out today that my friend has started smoking. It's so sick because she's a really good student and I don't want her to be overcome by it. I don't want it to change her.

My friends piss me off. I find out today that my friend has started smoking. It's so sick because she's a really good student and I don't want her to be overcome by it. I don't want it to change her.
ew. pot or cigarettes?

ew. pot or cigarettes?

She didn't say but I'm guessing cigarettes. I can't even picture her with a cigarette.

She didn't say but I'm guessing cigarettes. I can't even picture her with a cigarette.
that sucks.. you should print out pics of what smoking does to people. (inside and out). how old is she?

My friends piss me off. I find out today that my friend has started smoking. It's so sick because she's a really good student and I don't want her to be overcome by it. I don't want it to change her.


Ugh that's not good. I'd be straight up with her and tell her how stupid she is being. Hopefully it's just a "iwannabeacoolrebel" phase and she'll snap out of it soon after realizing how disgusting life with cigarettes gets.

that sucks.. you should print out pics of what smoking does to people. (inside and out). how old is she?

13.

Ugh that's not good. I'd be straight up with her and tell her how stupid she is being. Hopefully it's just a "iwannabeacoolrebel" phase and she'll snap out of it soon after realizing how disgusting life with cigarettes gets.

Yes, hopefully. I know she's smart enough to know the effects of it, but I don't understand why she's doing it. Ugh whatever it's not my life that she's screwing up.

This my first post in this thread. I'm not one to complain about my problems, but this one I needed to vent this one because I've had no one to say all this too. My uncle is a big troublemaker and when comes to our house to watch the basketball game with my grandmother he'll start talking loud and start picking petty arguments with her about the dumbest things. Now my mother doesn't like him because he threatened to hit her one time, but she allows him to come here because of my grandmother. He started an argument with my grandmother over some stupid movies, because yesterday he brought a dvd to watch with her and as it when on it had too much bad language in it so she asked him to turn it off and he got angry.

No one really likes him, so he comes in here and tries to stir up trouble by doing these hings. The only person who does like him is one of my aunts and thats only because he always giving money. and she's just as bad as he, she talks to people like their dumb. I know that she constantly harrasses him, because he stays at her house when he visits and he comes over here and takes out his anger on everybody else. A few times I've almost told him to shut up, but my mom told me not to say anything.

My friends piss me off. I find out today that my friend has started smoking. It's so sick because she's a really good student and I don't want her to be overcome by it. I don't want it to change her.


I hope ur friend stops smoking b/c thats really bad. I wish my boyfriend would stop smoking.. soi know how u feel..

Just found out my 10 year old cousin fell out of a tree and got badly hurt. She was rushed to surgery and now the doctor thinks she may never be able to have kids :(

I guess when she fell, she landed on a branch, my cousin-her dad had been cutting branches off the tree earlier in that day, she had alot of damage around her ovaries and things :(

Just found out my 10 year old cousin fell out of a tree and got badly hurt. She was rushed to surgery and now the doctor thinks she may never be able to have kids :(

I guess when she fell, she landed on a branch, my cousin-her dad had been cutting branches off the tree earlier in that day, she had alot of damage around her ovaries and things :(

:bighug:

Just found out my 10 year old cousin fell out of a tree and got badly hurt. She was rushed to surgery and now the doctor thinks she may never be able to have kids :(

I guess when she fell, she landed on a branch, my cousin-her dad had been cutting branches off the tree earlier in that day, she had alot of damage around her ovaries and things :(


I'm so sorry. That's awful:(

Just found out my 10 year old cousin fell out of a tree and got badly hurt. She was rushed to surgery and now the doctor thinks she may never be able to have kids :(

I guess when she fell, she landed on a branch, my cousin-her dad had been cutting branches off the tree earlier in that day, she had alot of damage around her ovaries and things :(
:( I'm sorry Angela - I hope that she'll be OK

Just found out my 10 year old cousin fell out of a tree and got badly hurt. She was rushed to surgery and now the doctor thinks she may never be able to have kids :(

I guess when she fell, she landed on a branch, my cousin-her dad had been cutting branches off the tree earlier in that day, she had alot of damage around her ovaries and things :(
:( Hope things get better soon

Just found out my 10 year old cousin fell out of a tree and got badly hurt. She was rushed to surgery and now the doctor thinks she may never be able to have kids :(

I guess when she fell, she landed on a branch, my cousin-her dad had been cutting branches off the tree earlier in that day, she had alot of damage around her ovaries and things :(

Ooo...that must have been pretty bad to say something like that at only 10. I hope she makes a full recovery.

Just found out my 10 year old cousin fell out of a tree and got badly hurt. She was rushed to surgery and now the doctor thinks she may never be able to have kids :(

I guess when she fell, she landed on a branch, my cousin-her dad had been cutting branches off the tree earlier in that day, she had alot of damage around her ovaries and things :(
Angela, I am sooo sorry, your cousin is in my thoughts and in my prayers. :(

Thanks everyone for the well wishes and prayers :) Hopefully she gets well fast, she's a fighter, so I'm sure she will :)

I had such a ****ty day today, I can't even tell ya.

I hate being bored all the time.

it's the first day of June and it's damn 50 degrees outside

tomorrow will be one month since my friend died in a car accident. my dad talked to my counselor today about how things have been since my last appointment (which was about an hour before the accident) and he didn't even mention it. he just talked about what we're doing this summer and how fine things are. i still cry almost every day over it. i was having a hectic busy day the day of the accident and planned out everything to do in my planner so i'd stop panicking, i kind of cringe now when i look at the list.

"2:50: study for drivers test, 3:00: take drivers test, 4:15: go home and fight with solomon, 5:45: go to counseling, 6:15: dinner, 7:00: color pictures for preschool, 7:45: whatever". yeah, little did i know i was coloring pictures at the time she was pronounced dead.

tomorrow will be one month since my friend died in a car accident. my dad talked to my counselor today about how things have been since my last appointment (which was about an hour before the accident) and he didn't even mention it. he just talked about what we're doing this summer and how fine things are. i still cry almost every day over it. i was having a hectic busy day the day of the accident and planned out everything to do in my planner so i'd stop panicking, i kind of cringe now when i look at the list.

"2:50: study for drivers test, 3:00: take drivers test, 4:15: go home and fight with solomon, 5:45: go to counseling, 6:15: dinner, 7:00: color pictures for preschool, 7:45: whatever". yeah, little did i know i was coloring pictures at the time she was pronounced dead.
:(

Hang in there, son. :bighug:

i'm nervous as **** about my job interview tommorow

tomorrow will be one month since my friend died in a car accident. my dad talked to my counselor today about how things have been since my last appointment (which was about an hour before the accident) and he didn't even mention it. he just talked about what we're doing this summer and how fine things are. i still cry almost every day over it. i was having a hectic busy day the day of the accident and planned out everything to do in my planner so i'd stop panicking, i kind of cringe now when i look at the list.

"2:50: study for drivers test, 3:00: take drivers test, 4:15: go home and fight with solomon, 5:45: go to counseling, 6:15: dinner, 7:00: color pictures for preschool, 7:45: whatever". yeah, little did i know i was coloring pictures at the time she was pronounced dead.

:( Your dad should have said something, though I'm sure you did. Hopefully your counselor can help you with ways of dealing with her death. Time works, but so slowly!

4:15: go home and fight with solomon

:lol:

I hate being bored all the time.
me too

*clears throat, sings Rossini's "figaro" very loudly, then bows and takes a seat* :happyface :lol: :crazy: :wave:

I'm a social reject.

Sorry to bump this up and be so dramatic. I'm just really upset right now.

That's what it's here for. :)

I can't really tell anyone how I feel about things either, because most of them try to make me look crazy and at fault for something that isn't my fault. I hate people. Seriously, most of them are totally worthless.

That's what it's here for. :)

I can't really tell anyone how I feel about things either, because most of them try to make me look crazy and at fault for something that isn't my fault. I hate people. Seriously, most of them are totally worthless.

You just need to meet different people. Not all people are worthless.

I can't stand how ****ing insane my family is. No one shuts up, there's constantly fighting.

My dad is sick for Father's Day. We think its just a cold, but ya never know. It probably is a cold and he's just overreacting, cause he does that, but still. And he doesnt wanna go to the doctor cause he doesnt wanna take off of work.

You just need to meet different people. Not all people are worthless.

I think I'm gonna give up on meeting people. I never did meet too many and the ones I did meet turned out to be jerks.

I'm supposed to be at work 15-20 mins away at 12:30...I wake up at 12:06. I flew out of bed and threw clothes on and left without really waking up. Now I'm tired and whenever I do something like that I get depressed.

This fight/breakup of friendship I had with that jerk is making me sadder than it should, because I keep thinking back to times when he was a nice guy and then I get all upset that those days are gone. Ugh...

I'm supposed to be at work 15-20 mins away at 12:30...I wake up at 12:06. I flew out of bed and threw clothes on and left without really waking up. Now I'm tired and whenever I do something like that I get depressed.

This fight/breakup of friendship I had with that jerk is making me sadder than it should, because I keep thinking back to times when he was a nice guy and then I get all upset that those days are gone. Ugh...
Move on sweetheart, life is too short to think about the incident between you and this guy..People change, sometimes for the worse :)

I'm supposed to be at work 15-20 mins away at 12:30...I wake up at 12:06. I flew out of bed and threw clothes on and left without really waking up. Now I'm tired and whenever I do something like that I get depressed.

This fight/breakup of friendship I had with that jerk is making me sadder than it should, because I keep thinking back to times when he was a nice guy and then I get all upset that those days are gone. Ugh...

It is a big world out there Cathy, and somewhere out there is a guy who will treat you with the respect that you deserve.

I have my 8th grade dance tomorrow night and I have a feeling I'm going to have a bad time :(

Move on sweetheart, life is too short to think about the incident between you and this guy..People change, sometimes for the worse :)

Yeah...time heals all wounds...I just hope it's quickly.

I thought when you grew older, you were supposed to mature. I guess some go backwards.

It is a big world out there Cathy, and somewhere out there is a guy who will treat you with the respect that you deserve.

I'm gonna have to do some traveling. Hmm...how far can I get on half a tank of gas? :lol: I can't afford any more than that!

Thanks. :)

Ugh! I am so tired of zits!!

I've decided to stop eating. Whenever I eat anything I get a horrible stomach ache that last for hours and I'm sick of it. Tomorrow I'm only going to eat toast and fruit and stuff and see if that helps.

I went to a concert last night and it amazes me how much beer is consumed at concerts. Luckily, I didn't encounter any drunk people, but plenty of people leaving their seats to go get more beer, which I had to get up out of my seat to let them by. I would love a beer, too but not at those prices. It was $5 for a small and $7 for a large. Plus I'm driving home and you never know how much it takes to get a .08. I think there should be a cutoff of beer sales at a certain point, but I guess the venue figures sell as much beer as possible.

My sister went to a concert recently with a friend of hers and he spent $26 on beer just for himself!!