Today was my last day of classes. On the way home, my mother and I stop at the grocery store and I happen to run into a counselor at my former alma mater. I was thrilled to see him and we chatted. And then he said something that I wish I hadn't heard, especially when I've got more than a month off.

A teacher that I looked up to and idolized had moved to Oregon. She was one of the best teachers I ever had and I always looked forward to seeing her whenever I visited. She understood me and was like a friend. She was also attractive, too, but that's beside the point.

It didn't bother me at first but when I got into the checkout line, I started to feel devastated. She was one of the few teachers left at my alma mater since I had graduated in 2003 and when I visited a few times since then, I always looked forward to seeing her.

Now this is going to bother me for a while. I am trying to avoid this but it seems no matter what I do to try take my mind off of it, nothing is working long term. This couldn't have come at a worse time for me, since I have been looking forward to this day for weeks only to be shattered with this news.

I knew he meant well and that he didn't mean it but I wish that he wouldn't have mentioned it. Knowing that one of my favorite teachers of all time is no longer around is not a good feeling for me. Hearing this has really affected me. Since a lot of the people I knew at my alma mater have gone, I just feel no reason to go back. I do have her e-mail address and I did speak with her for most of my last visit in September but if it is something that should make me feel better, I haven't felt it yet.

You know the saying, "You can never go back?" I guess it is true after all.

I understand how you feel. I finally moved in September 2003. Before that, I would get together with my favorite teacher (she taught my 8th grade English class) a lot. We'd go to the coffee shop to have coffee and just talk. I truly enjoyed my times visiting with her, and then I moved. I haven't seen her since June 2003. She's still teaching 8th grade English, but I am the one that moved.

It's true, you can never go back. =/

Yes, never going back is all too true! You will see that more and more as you get older. Sorry!:(

Sorry to hear about your disappointment Brian. Change isn't easy, even good change. Bad changes in life are tough to take. Marlene's right, you'll see it more and more as you get older.

One of my former high school teachers who was also a good
friend of mine retired this past spring.Luckily she told that
during a football game in 2003.I still have her email address
to her home computer but I haven't emailed her in a while.
but at least I got to say goodbye to her.One other teacher
that I liked in high school also moved back in 2002.The
thing I never got to have contact with her before she
left.Now I regret it big time,Oh well nothing I can about it now :(

Wait until you get out of college. Then it all falls apart. :(

I am sorry Brian, if you ever need anybody to talk to, you know where to reach me:bighug:

How sad :(
It really sucks in life when that happens and you cant go back,but hey,life goes on,right?
On the night of my year 12 graduation,i decided that i was going to tell a young teacher who had taught me for a few years in highschool,that i really liked him.I wanted him to know that before i never saw him again.Well,just when i had the courage,i start looking for him only to be told that he was flying to New Zealand that night,and had only come to the formal for an hour or so.I was really upset that he'd just left (even though he didn't know i liked him so much,and he had no reason to hang around anyway) and just knowing that it would be a long time before i saw him again,made me really depressed!

I felt better yesterday after I posted this. I could always e-mail her.

Even if I did visit before she left (I don't know when she left), I wouldn't have had anything new to talk about. It is sad that she's out of state but that's life.

I decided I'm not going to visit that school. The best people there are no longer around and the headmaster of the school is retiring after this year. I'll always keep in touch by e-mail but I won't visit anymore because I feel out of place. New students, new TAs, and new staff members.