I pick Diet Coke because it's better tasting to me.
I tried Diet Pepsi last night, and I really hated it!

Which do you like better?

they both taste like ****

Neither, I hate diet soda. puke:

But I HATE Diet Pepsi with a passion, so I go for Diet Coke.

Diet Coke, definitely. I'm a Diet-Coke-Aholic. Everybody's concerned that I'm going to die from the aspartame level in my stomach.. :eek:

Originally posted by safety pin
they both taste like ****

I agree

Originally posted by Kaffeine Kay
Diet Coke, definitely. I'm a Diet-Coke-Aholic. Everybody's concerned that I'm going to die from the aspartame level in my stomach.. :eek:


This is a common misconception. Contrary to popular belief, Aspartame is harmless.

http://www.snopes.com/toxins/aspartame.asp

My mother says that the stuff they put in diet soda can give you cancer so I try to stay away from it.

Originally posted by Brian
This is a common misconception. Contrary to popular belief, Aspartame is harmless.

http://www.snopes.com/toxins/aspartame.asp

Ah, THANK you! I'm going to print that out and rub it in everyone's faces. I'm so sick of getting snapped at everytime I pick up a can of soda.

Originally posted by Mrs. Ducky
My mother says that the stuff they put in diet soda can give you cancer so I try to stay away from it.

Read above post.

I don't drink diet sodas; only one time I had a diet coke and it was really bad! What's the point of drinking diet sodas and stuffing your mouth like a pig?:rolleyes: :D

I don't drink regular soda, I'd be a fat pig if I did. Anorexics just don't do that.

And besides I love diet soda, diet dr. pepper is awesome. But Pepsi and Coke are nasty, regular and Diet. I just don't drink them.

Are diet sodas bad for you or are they just alright?

Originally posted by I'maDESIlover
I don't drink diet sodas; only one time I had a diet coke and it was really bad! What's the point of drinking diet sodas and stuffing your mouth like a pig?:rolleyes: :D Because every calorie counts. And not everybody stuffs their mouth like a pig, but if they do then drinking regular soda just makes it even worse.

I drink diet soda and I don't stuff my mouth like a pig, I'll even go on fasts with just water and diet soda. And compared to regular soda, it's a lot better. Regular is so sweet, it reminds me of that Thera-Flu medication, nasty.

Originally posted by FullHouseFan8795
Are diet sodas bad for you or are they just alright?

Theyre bad for you, at least, from what I hear. I heard you could use them as cleaning supplies!

Originally posted by Rurry007
Theyre bad for you, at least, from what I hear. I heard you could use them as cleaning supplies!

Maybe I should stop drinking diet sodas....?

Originally posted by Rurry007
Theyre bad for you, at least, from what I hear. I heard you could use them as cleaning supplies!

Regular coke can clean blood off of a road from roadkill.

Originally posted by FullHouseFan8795
Are diet sodas bad for you or are they just alright?
Yeah, diet sodas are bad.

Originally posted by Idol Fanatic
Regular coke can clean blood off of a road from roadkill.

Yeah, and take chrome off a bumper too... yikes.

Originally posted by Kaffeine Kay
Yeah, and take chrome off a bumper too... yikes.

:lol: Now imagine what it does to the stomach.

The thing I hate about coke is that I have to burp when I'm drinking it or I feel like I'm gonna explode. No other drinks does that to me.

Originally posted by Idol Fanatic


The thing I hate about coke is that I have to burp when I'm drinking it or I feel like I'm gonna explode. No other drinks does that to me.

Same with me

Originally posted by Kaffeine Kay
Yeah, and take chrome off a bumper too... yikes.

Man, I wish I knew that while married to that :mad: !!! It would've been buh bye car. I did the eggs once, you could hear the paint peeling off the car:lol:

The only soda I ever drink is Diet Coke. I drink alot of it, too.

All diet pop is evil.

Originally posted by FullHouseFan8795
Are diet sodas bad for you or are they just alright?

All soda is bad for you.

Both of them make me want to :barf:.

Originally posted by Kristina
I don't drink regular soda, I'd be a fat pig if I did. Anorexics just don't do that.

And besides I love diet soda, diet dr. pepper is awesome. But Pepsi and Coke are nasty, regular and Diet. I just don't drink them. You're anorexic?

But anyway, I'd have to go with diet Coke, especially with lime. I also like diet Vanilla Pepsi. I think they taste the same as regular soda, AND they're non caloric. What more can I ask for? :D I think I'm a little obsessed with them, though. I have like 5 cans in a day... :eek: If it's bad, I would REALLY like to know! LOL.

I hate diet soda. I drink Crystal Light, either pink or yellow lemonaide.

I only drink regular pop but if I was forced to choose I would pick Diet Coke.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
You're anorexic?

But anyway, I'd have to go with diet Coke, especially with lime. I also like diet Vanilla Pepsi. I think they taste the same as regular soda, AND they're non caloric. What more can I ask for? :D I think I'm a little obsessed with them, though. I have like 5 cans in a day... :eek: If it's bad, I would REALLY like to know! LOL.

Yes. I go through bouts of ana and mia. Bullimirexic! Haha.

All diet sodas taste like crap. :barf:

Either stick with regular, or don't get anything then.

Funny this topic came up today. I just drank Diet Pepsi tonight after not having diet soda since the early 90s (with the exception of Tab a few times later). It tasted awful! I doubt Diet Coke is much better.

Originally posted by Janice
I hate diet soda. I drink Crystal Light, either pink or yellow lemonaide.

Yeah! Cyrstal Light lemonade is the only diet drink I like. I miss their lime...

I pick Diet Pepsi because I think that tastes alot better then diet coke im not a coke drinker more then a diet pepsi drinker hehe.. i think coke taste nasty.. ( Yuck) lol

i like both regular coke is too filling. im not that much of a soda person anymore because it makes me lose calcium.

Originally posted by Kristina
Yes. I go through bouts of ana and mia. Bullimirexic! Haha. ohno: Are you attempting at all to recover? Or are you still in the midst of it?

Definately Diet Pepsi!

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
ohno: Are you attempting at all to recover? Or are you still in the midst of it?

Obviously not, if the idiot's sitting here poking fun at a sometimes near-death issue with absolutely no regard whatsoever.

Originally posted by Kaffeine Kay
Obviously not, if the idiot's sitting here poking fun at a sometimes near-death issue with absolutely no regard whatsoever.

I thought she was just kidding, but I guess not.

Originally posted by Kaffeine Kay
Obviously not, if the idiot's sitting here poking fun at a sometimes near-death issue with absolutely no regard whatsoever.

Are you talking about me??
If you are, sorry, I didn't mean to do something wrong.

Originally posted by Rurry007
I thought she was just kidding, but I guess not. '

Who?

Originally posted by FullHouseFan8795
Are you talking about me??


...no?

I love Diet Pepsi. I've been drinking it forever, but only because I think regular soda is way too sweet.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
I have like 5 cans in a day... :eek: If it's bad, I would REALLY like to know! LOL.

If it's caffeinated, that's not real great.

Not that caffeine ever stopped me. :lol:

Originally posted by FullHouseFan8795
Are you talking about me??
If you are, sorry, I didn't mean to do something wrong.
No, they are talking about Kristina.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
ohno: Are you attempting at all to recover? Or are you still in the midst of it? I don't want recovery...

And I was not making fun of this, bulimerixic is a funny word. I was laughing at the word, not the problems. So yeah, to everyone else SHUT UP.

Originally posted by Kaffeine Kay
Obviously not, if the idiot's sitting here poking fun at a sometimes near-death issue with absolutely no regard whatsoever. Um, wtfever. You completely took that the wrong way and please stop taking everything so seriously.

Originally posted by Kristina
I don't want recovery...Oh, I see. But I have no intentions to change your mind because I know I won't be able to. If someone had approached ME about my eating disorder(s), I would've shoved them off in a second no doubt. So, I'm not even going to waste my time. Only YOU can decide when you want to recover, if ever. But just know that you'll be dead before you're thin enough. Simple as that. So, go ahead and be pro-ana/mia. I just hope you don't regret it later on. But then again, I'm almost certain you will. They all do.

I will reiterate. You will be dead before you're thin enough. And who would care how thin you are if you're dead?

And can I know your BMI, by the way? I'm just wondering. If you don't want to share, that's okay.

I don't like either of them, in fact I don't like anything that's diet.

I like Diet Coke. Actually, addicted to it might cover it better.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Oh, I see. But I have no intentions to change your mind because I know I won't be able to. If someone had approached ME about my eating disorder(s), I would've shoved them off in a second no doubt. So, I'm not even going to waste my time. Only YOU can decide when you want to recover, if ever. But just know that you'll be dead before you're thin enough. Simple as that. So, go ahead and be pro-ana/mia. I just hope you don't regret it later on. But then again, I'm almost certain you will. They all do.

I will reiterate. You will be dead before you're thin enough. And who would care how thin you are if you're dead?

And can I know your BMI, by the way? I'm just wondering. If you don't want to share, that's okay.

BMI? You mean like weight? I'm 101 pounds and 5'1", actually I'm probably 102 or 103 now but I'm too afraid to look at the scale. I've been a pig that past couple days and have done nothing about it like vomiting or whatever.

Yeah, I know. I'm like normal weight, but my stomach is fat and round. I want to be 95 pounds, that's what my current goal is. I'm actually pretty normal now compared to how I used to be in 2001, so yeah I guess that's "progress". I'm really not as obsessed as I used to be. I'm fine though, definitely not near death anorexia wise.

But yeah, who cares about my problems? Back to the main topic.

Originally posted by Kristina
BMI? You mean like weight? I'm 101 pounds and 5'1", actually I'm probably 102 or 103 now but I'm too afraid to look at the scale. I've been a pig that past couple days and have done nothing about it like vomiting or whatever.

Yeah, I know. I'm like normal weight, but my stomach is fat and round. I want to be 95 pounds, that's what my current goal is. I'm actually pretty normal now compared to how I used to be in 2001, so yeah I guess that's "progress". I'm really not as obsessed as I used to be. I'm fine though, definitely not near death anorexia wise.

But yeah, who cares about my problems? Back to the main topic. BMI stands for Body Mass Index. At 101 lbs and 5'1", your Body Mass Index is 19.1, which would be considered normal weight. Anything under 18.5, however, would be considered underweight. 95lbs, on the other hand, WOULD be.

By the way, I'm of normal weight too, and my stomach is fat and round, too, ARGH! It's SO frustrating I could scream!!! I'm not pro-ana/mia, sorry, but my goal weight is 98 pounds, which is also my ideal weight. (And it's also yours since we're both 5'1").

I'm currently trying to recover from compulsive overeating, binge eating disorder, and exercise bulimia. I fast too, and I'm trying hard to quit. I have no guidance, no therapist, no treatment, no whatever-- so I'm just on my own. And so far, no luck. :(

And don't be silly. I'm sure people care about your problems. I have nothing against you, and I care. I do because I know what you're going through... or at least I'm pretty sure I do!! :) So feel free to vent if you have to.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
BMI stands for Body Mass Index. At 101 lbs and 5'1", your Body Mass Index is 19.1, which would be considered normal weight. Anything under 18.5, however, would be considered underweight. 95lbs, on the other hand, WOULD be.

By the way, I'm of normal weight too, and my stomach is fat and round, too, ARGH! It's SO frustrating I could scream!!! I'm not pro-ana/mia, sorry, but my goal weight is 98 pounds, which is also my ideal weight. (And it's also yours since we're both 5'1").

I'm currently trying to recover from compulsive overeating, binge eating disorder, and exercise bulimia. I fast too, and I'm trying hard to quit. I have no guidance, no therapist, no treatment, no whatever-- so I'm just on my own. And so far, no luck. :(

And don't be silly. I'm sure people care about your problems. I have nothing against you, and I care. I do because I know what you're going through... or at least I'm pretty sure I do!! :) So feel free to vent if you have to.

Thanks. And I do hope with time you'll get better from all your eating disorders, I know it's a nightmare having to deal with them. When I do eat it's usually soup or baby food (some are good and others are nasty, I actually use the gross baby foods to make me not want to eat anything so I don't end up binging.) But other than that I starve myself, I feel guilty because of it though. And when I eat I feel guilty. There really is no winning.

My bullimia habits have pretty much stopped, there was a whole mental ward thing in 2001 and 2002 since my mom doesn't know how to really deal with my problems (I no longer talk to her about them) but yeah... I was in for more than just eating disorders. I have thrown up when I've binged since then, but really.. I'm better with that. And it wasn't really like bullimia completely, it would be like breaking a fast so I'd throw up. It was pretty much because I'd feel like a failure. Not out of the blue binging on everything I could find and then throwing up. So yeah... it's kinda hard to explain.

Well, good luck with recovering. :)

Originally posted by safety pin
they both taste like **** Amen thet both taste like ****....puke:

Originally posted by Kristina
Thanks. And I do hope with time you'll get better from all your eating disorders, I know it's a nightmare having to deal with them. When I do eat it's usually soup or baby food (some are good and others are nasty, I actually use the gross baby foods to make me not want to eat anything so I don't end up binging.) But other than that I starve myself, I feel guilty because of it though. And when I eat I feel guilty. There really is no winning.

My bullimia habits have pretty much stopped, there was a whole mental ward thing in 2001 and 2002 since my mom doesn't know how to really deal with my problems (I no longer talk to her about them) but yeah... I was in for more than just eating disorders. I have thrown up when I've binged since then, but really.. I'm better with that. And it wasn't really like bullimia completely, it would be like breaking a fast so I'd throw up. It was pretty much because I'd feel like a failure. Not out of the blue binging on everything I could find and then throwing up. So yeah... it's kinda hard to explain.

Well, good luck with recovering. :) This is probably going to sound completely stupid to you. But the fact of the matter is that, deprivation leads to bingeing. I've "learned" that now. When I have cravings, instead of ignoring them, I give into them, and it really DOES help to a point, just so long as I don't go OVERboard. It also helps to keep a journal and to keep track of how many calories you're consuming.

I know exactly what you mean by "when I eat I feel guilty." I feel the same way too, to an extent. I only feel guilty if I eat, and I didn't really NEED the food. (In other words, I wasn't really hungry). That drives me completely insane. And I guess to try and compensate for that, I over-exercise. (I hate throwing up. But I HAVE tried many times. Unsuccessful) So you see, we're pretty much on the same boat, haha. And yes, it IS a nightmare! :eek:

I'm happy to hear that your bulimic habits have hindered a bit. It really isn't too good for you. It'll destroy your teeth and jaw and esophagus in the long run-- just oh so many complications and side effects. Not good.

You say your mom doesn't really know how to deal with your problems-- have you ever considered conversing with someone else other your mom? Because it's quite understandable that she doesn't know how to help you, as much as she would LIKE to. Perhaps another authority, like a counselor at school or something? (Or do you not attend school anymore? I don't know how old you are.)

I'm the same way with bingeing.... only I don't break "fasts;" I break diets. I diet, binge, diet, binge, diet, binge. It's an uncontrollable cycle, I tell yah! I spend 24/7-- literally-- just thinking about food. It's insane, and oh so embarassing!! :blush: I've been down the fasting/ana road too, though. Just recently, I spent two-three consecutive weeks consuming <500 calories on average. It did me no good, though, because I'm back to where I started after I stopped. And you explained it very well. You were very articulate. I understood you completely.

I only hope that you'll soon consider recovery, as I'm sure you know how out of control ana can get. And it really WILL ruin your life. I'm not lying, not one bit. It's much safer to just diet healthy-- eat in moderation, exercise in moderation, and lose 2 pounds per week and KEEP it off. Rather, than to go on fasts, lose 2 pounds per day, and then binge, and then worn yourself exercising, etc etc. And by the way, fasting slows down your metab, so if you stop ana, you WILL gain all the weight you lost and will be at a higher weight than you initially started with. Just a fact I thought you might like to know.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
This is probably going to sound completely stupid to you. But the fact of the matter is that, deprivation leads to bingeing. I've "learned" that now. When I have cravings, instead of ignoring them, I give into them, and it really DOES help to a point, just so long as I don't go OVERboard. It also helps to keep a journal and to keep track of how many calories you're consuming.

I know exactly what you mean by "when I eat I feel guilty." I feel the same way too, to an extent. I only feel guilty if I eat, and I didn't really NEED the food. (In other words, I wasn't really hungry). That drives me completely insane. And I guess to try and compensate for that, I over-exercise. (I hate throwing up. But I HAVE tried many times. Unsuccessful) So you see, we're pretty much on the same boat, haha. And yes, it IS a nightmare! :eek:

I'm happy to hear that your bulimic habits have hindered a bit. It really isn't too good for you. It'll destroy your teeth and jaw and esophagus in the long run-- just oh so many complications and side effects. Not good.

You say your mom doesn't really know how to deal with your problems-- have you ever considered conversing with someone else other your mom? Because it's quite understandable that she doesn't know how to help you, as much as she would LIKE to. Perhaps another authority, like a counselor at school or something? (Or do you not attend school anymore? I don't know how old you are.)

I'm the same way with bingeing.... only I don't break "fasts;" I break diets. I diet, binge, diet, binge, diet, binge. It's an uncontrollable cycle, I tell yah! I spend 24/7-- literally-- just thinking about food. It's insane, and oh so embarassing!! :blush: I've been down the fasting/ana road too, though. Just recently, I spent two-three consecutive weeks consuming <500 calories on average. It did me no good, though, because I'm back to where I started after I stopped. And you explained it very well. You were very articulate. I understood you completely.

I only hope that you'll soon consider recovery, as I'm sure you know how out of control ana can get. And it really WILL ruin your life. I'm not lying, not one bit. It's much safer to just diet healthy-- eat in moderation, exercise in moderation, and lose 2 pounds per week and KEEP it off. Rather, than to go on fasts, lose 2 pounds per day, and then binge, and then worn yourself exercising, etc etc. And by the way, fasting slows down your metab, so if you stop ana, you WILL gain all the weight you lost and will be at a higher weight than you initially started with. Just a fact I thought you might like to know.

I really don't have anyone to talk to offline and it's just not comfortable for me. Even with my old "friends", they never knew about the eating disorders or my OCD or whatever. Other people did know about cutting though, but I'd make up excuses. It's pretty obvious I was lying though, so yeah. I'm pretty good at hiding my problems I'd say, the only people who know anything about my mental illnesses are my family.

And yes, I left school. I'm 17 now but yeah... I finished the year in a different type of schooling, not public. There were other people but it wasn't like a public school, you know... not really homeschooling but it's considered that.

I'd say I can come off of this easy, but I know that isn't true because I still have those thoughts. I sometimes try to force myself to be "normal" eating wise but I really can't control how I think and always go back to some kind of diet (restricting like no more than 300 or 500 calories) and fasting. But yeah, a couple days ago I had a bowl (it actually was kinda a lot) of soup and a side of bread and I tried to tell myself it's not THAT much because I hadn't eaten that day and I wanted to come off of the fast. I do that all the time. Like I'll say to myself "I really shouldn't be doing this, I should eat like a normal person". And then afterwards I feel like I ruined everything and I shouldn't have ate anything. It's a cycle for me.

This has kinda turned into an eating disorder thread. Haha, oh well.

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
BMI stands for Body Mass Index. At 101 lbs and 5'1", your Body Mass Index is 19.1, which would be considered normal weight. Anything under 18.5, however, would be considered underweight. 95lbs, on the other hand, WOULD be.
Do you know what my BMI would be if i'm 5-10 and weigh 150? i know i'm overweight, though not obese at all.. in fact my whole body is skinnier than most people my age, i have a 32" waist. A few months ago i started taking a pill to increase my appetite and i ended up gaining 30 lbs in about 2 months, and it didn't make me look any fatter. i really don't know how that could be but it's true. it feels really weird to weigh so much even though i'm not fat and i want to lose it but if i do it would probably affect my appearance and make me look like i'm anorexic. i just want to lose whatever i gained inside, if that's possible.

Originally posted by Kristina
I really don't have anyone to talk to offline and it's just not comfortable for me. Even with my old "friends", they never knew about the eating disorders or my OCD or whatever. Other people did know about cutting though, but I'd make up excuses. It's pretty obvious I was lying though, so yeah. I'm pretty good at hiding my problems I'd say, the only people who know anything about my mental illnesses are my family.

And yes, I left school. I'm 17 now but yeah... I finished the year in a different type of schooling, not public. There were other people but it wasn't like a public school, you know... not really homeschooling but it's considered that.

I'd say I can come off of this easy, but I know that isn't true because I still have those thoughts. I sometimes try to force myself to be "normal" eating wise but I really can't control how I think and always go back to some kind of diet (restricting like no more than 300 or 500 calories) and fasting. But yeah, a couple days ago I had a bowl (it actually was kinda a lot) of soup and a side of bread and I tried to tell myself it's not THAT much because I hadn't eaten that day and I wanted to come off of the fast. I do that all the time. Like I'll say to myself "I really shouldn't be doing this, I should eat like a normal person". And then afterwards I feel like I ruined everything and I shouldn't have ate anything. It's a cycle for me.

This has kinda turned into an eating disorder thread. Haha, oh well. I don't have many friends offline either to talk to with. Which is why I'm trying to beat this ED alone. No one but me and my net-buddies know. And all my old "friends" in the physical life have pretty much abandoned me. I don't talk to anyone much anymore, unless it's about ED or food, or for personal benefits. I'm so self-absorbed nowadays and I know it's horrible. And because of my self-absorbness, I feel that I've lost another friend-- someone who used to post here on SOL but no longer. And that really upsets me because he doesn't even IM me anymore when he used to do so EVERY day almost. And now, I have like no one.... But anyway, I can totally understand why you would make up excuses about cutting and your apprehensions about talking to others. To tell you the truth, I've been down the self-harm road too. But it never really appealed to me, so I stopped.

I'm currently trying to force myself to eat "normal" too. I watch other people eat, CONSTANTLY, and I try to imitate them. It's sad how I can't even EAT RIGHT. :rolleyes: But I usually end up failing because my brain and stomach are not easily fooled. My mindset, STILL, is to binge... as much as I don't WANT to. I don't know. It's all so complicated. It has become sorta like a habit. I MUST binge in order for my day to feel "complete." And it's a cycle for me too. So, I know how frustrating it must be for you.

You know, they say that eating disorders are not always about the food, or how much you weigh or how you look (altho it DOES play a huge part and role), BUT it's about something deeper inside-- some pyschological and emotional problem that you may be experiencing outside of the world of eating/restricting or what have you. Food, or no food, is just a way for our minds to help us "forget" and to soothe us and cope from true problems in our lives. It's why alcoholics drink. And food, or no food, serves the same purpose. It becomes an obsession and it takes our minds off of what we SHOULD be dealing with in our lives. (Am I making any sense?) But anyway, my question is, is there anything else in your life that is bothering you? Something not-food related? How did this all start? Just wondering and trying to help, of course.

Originally posted by safety pin
Do you know what my BMI would be if i'm 5-10 and weigh 150? i know i'm overweight, though not obese at all.. in fact my whole body is skinnier than most people my age, i have a 32" waist. A few months ago i started taking a pill to increase my appetite and i ended up gaining 30 lbs in about 2 months, and it didn't make me look any fatter. i really don't know how that could be but it's true. it feels really weird to weigh so much even though i'm not fat and i want to lose it but if i do it would probably affect my appearance and make me look like i'm anorexic. i just want to lose whatever i gained inside, if that's possible.

I'm 5'4" and weigh 128ish. So you're definitely not fat. I, on the other hand, have too much ass and hips for my liking. But I'm lazy. Oh well.

Originally posted by safety pin
Do you know what my BMI would be if i'm 5-10 and weigh 150? i know i'm overweight, though not obese at all.. in fact my whole body is skinnier than most people my age, i have a 32" waist. A few months ago i started taking a pill to increase my appetite and i ended up gaining 30 lbs in about 2 months, and it didn't make me look any fatter. i really don't know how that could be but it's true. it feels really weird to weigh so much even though i'm not fat and i want to lose it but if i do it would probably affect my appearance and make me look like i'm anorexic. i just want to lose whatever i gained inside, if that's possible. Sarah, your Body Mass Index would be 21.5. You are NOT overweight. In fact, you're of normal weight. The normal weight range for BMI is anywhere from 18.5 to 24.9. I'm sure you look fine. :)

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
Sarah, your Body Mass Index would be 21.5. You are NOT overweight. In fact, you're of normal weight. The normal weight range for BMI is anywhere from 18.5 to 24.9. I'm sure you look fine. :)
:eek: i don't believe this.

Originally posted by safety pin
:eek: i don't believe this. Well, believe it!!!
Because I've pretty much became an expert in this sorta stuff. Ask me anything weight-related and I'd bet I can answer it, if not off the top of my head, I can make pretty good estimates. I'm obsessed, what can I say? ED's do weird things to people, I know. :crazy: ;)

Originally posted by Transit Whiz
I don't have many friends offline either to talk to with. Which is why I'm trying to beat this ED alone. No one but me and my net-buddies know. And all my old "friends" in the physical life have pretty much abandoned me. I don't talk to anyone much anymore, unless it's about ED or food, or for personal benefits. I'm so self-absorbed nowadays and I know it's horrible. And because of my self-absorbness, I feel that I've lost another friend-- someone who used to post here on SOL but no longer. And that really upsets me because he doesn't even IM me anymore when he used to do so EVERY day almost. And now, I have like no one.... But anyway, I can totally understand why you would make up excuses about cutting and your apprehensions about talking to others. To tell you the truth, I've been down the self-harm road too. But it never really appealed to me, so I stopped.

I'm currently trying to force myself to eat "normal" too. I watch other people eat, CONSTANTLY, and I try to imitate them. It's sad how I can't even EAT RIGHT. :rolleyes: But I usually end up failing because my brain and stomach are not easily fooled. My mindset, STILL, is to binge... as much as I don't WANT to. I don't know. It's all so complicated. It has become sorta like a habit. I MUST binge in order for my day to feel "complete." And it's a cycle for me too. So, I know how frustrating it must be for you.

You know, they say that eating disorders are not always about the food, or how much you weigh or how you look (altho it DOES play a huge part and role), BUT it's about something deeper inside-- some pyschological and emotional problem that you may be experiencing outside of the world of eating/restricting or what have you. Food, or no food, is just a way for our minds to help us "forget" and to soothe us and cope from true problems in our lives. It's why alcoholics drink. And food, or no food, serves the same purpose. It becomes an obsession and it takes our minds off of what we SHOULD be dealing with in our lives. (Am I making any sense?) But anyway, my question is, is there anything else in your life that is bothering you? Something not-food related? How did this all start? Just wondering and trying to help, of course.

I'm sorry you have to deal with all that. I know the feelings, it really does suck. I hope you can beat it, it's gonna take time and I'm sure after a while it might be best to tell people so you can get help. You could always go to your family (when you're ready, of course), that is if they're understanding about stuff like that. Well, good luck in whatever you decide to do. Hopefully everything will turn out for the best.

I have a lot bothering me, I've had a pretty rough life. Abuse, disorders (OCD is the worst), being placed in mental wards, people hating me, losing friends, etc. I was also chubby in 2001, I got so sick of looking in the mirror and seeing my fat stomach and fat face that I was determined and lost about 10 pounds. Somewhere around there. I've lost a bit since then, too. I'd gain some back, lose some, gain. I'm at an OKAY weight now but I'm not satisfied. I'll never be pleased with how I look. It sucks not having somebody in real life to talk to anymore, I really didn't realize how great I had it then. It's like I'll think at the time things couldn't get any worse, but they do. I just want somebody to turn to and there's nobody in my life. I hate it. So much. And I try to comfort myself by lying that I don't need anyone or anything. Oh well, life sucks. :(

Originally posted by Kristina
I'm sorry you have to deal with all that. I know the feelings, it really does suck. I hope you can beat it, it's gonna take time and I'm sure after a while it might be best to tell people so you can get help. You could always go to your family (when you're ready, of course), that is if they're understanding about stuff like that. Well, good luck in whatever you decide to do. Hopefully everything will turn out for the best.

I have a lot bothering me, I've had a pretty rough life. Abuse, disorders (OCD is the worst), being placed in mental wards, people hating me, losing friends, etc. I was also chubby in 2001, I got so sick of looking in the mirror and seeing my fat stomach and fat face that I was determined and lost about 10 pounds. Somewhere around there. I've lost a bit since then, too. I'd gain some back, lose some, gain. I'm at an OKAY weight now but I'm not satisfied. I'll never be pleased with how I look. It sucks not having somebody in real life to talk to anymore, I really didn't realize how great I had it then. It's like I'll think at the time things couldn't get any worse, but they do. I just want somebody to turn to and there's nobody in my life. I hate it. So much. And I try to comfort myself by lying that I don't need anyone or anything. Oh well, life sucks. :( Oh, it's gonna take time alright, LOL! It's been like half a year already that I'm trying to recover!! And I'm not even 2% there yet!!! As for telling my family...gee, if only I COULD. But you see, we're not very close. Plus, I still haven't gotten to the point where I can admit that I have eating disorders if someone where to approach me in the physical life and ask me. Only via the net since it's "confidential."

But anyway, I've been everything on your list, except for being placed in mental wards. So, I can very much relate. It has only been recently that I could even ADMIT to those things. :rolleyes: But just know that you can't eat away your problems... or in your case starve them off... nor can you cut them away... because no matter how hard you try, they will always still be there. ED's and self-injury are only temporary solutioons. The only way to REALLY hinder and/or to eliminate them is to face them head-on. And I know that's not easy to do, but it's just something people have to do sometime in their lives.

It sucks not having people to talk to in the physical life, hmm? It makes life seem so dull... not worth living, and not to mention LONELY as hell, LOL! ED's... they're common, and I know I'm not the only one... but it sure SEEMS like it when every one around you can't seem to relate, you know? And even worse-- they abandon you because you're "weird" or you're "different." I used to have it well too...

Diet Coke:liplick:

Diet Pepsi puke:

15 years 1988-2003 Diet Coke drinker
Now Diet Dr Pepper drinker not the Aspertame taste.
2003 - present

Originally posted by Penny Lane
Diet Coke:liplick:

Diet Pepsi puke:

I totally agree!!

Neither, the only diet pop I wil drink is Diet Dr. Pepper. :) :drink: