WTF??????????

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Oh yeah, I forgot......yeah my glasses and hearing aids really do help.
I just wish my parents wouldn't set up rules and make me go to Sylvan ands stuff.
I'm not familiar with Sylvan. What is that?

And I'm well aware hearing aids and glasses help. That's what they're intended for. To help you. :)

Imagine, tho... having to suffer from less-than-perfect eyesight for 5 years... alone... with no one to help you. (You are 11 years old, by the way.) Trying to keep a secret. Too afraid to tell your parents you can't see. And when the doctors told your parents, they just FORGOT about it. Being mocked constantly...Doing poorly in school because of it. That's me right there. Iimagine that.

I can't tell you how many times I've cried myself to sleep. And I still do.. You're a lucky, kid, Nik. Dont ever forget you have parents who adore you and would only want to do what's best for you. You may not think things are very fair now.. but when you grow older, you will better see that all this time, they were just trying to raise you right. To raise you happily... healthily... just right. :)

[G-Force Glockstar]

Postively! You are PERFECT, you hear? I was perfect, too.... I was thin.... But I decided to screw myself up, and now I'm even HEAVIER than I was when I began, hahahaa. What a dork, ayy?? What an ignorant fool I was and still am.. what a biitch. Dont mind me. just speaking to myself.

I'm really sorry that happened to you. I'm glad I ment you to know how much it screws up your life.
Thanks Quencherita and Tripperfan ;)

[Warm & Fuzzy]

I'm really sorry that happened to you. I'm glad I ment you to know how much it screws up your life.
Thanks Quencherita and Tripperfan ;)You're welcome. I'm just glad you've learned something new. Of course, you know... all this time you could've just picked up a book or something from the library, and read about it, too. I still stress for you to do that. It will help immensely.

[G-Force Glockstar]

I'm not familiar with Sylvan. What is that?

And I'm well aware hearing aids and glasses help. That's what they're intended for. To help you. :)

Imagine, tho... having to suffer from less-than-perfect eyesight for 5 years... alone... with no one to help you. (You are 11 years old, by the way.) Trying to keep a secret. Too afraid to tell your parents you can't see. And when the doctors told your parents, they just FORGOT about it. Being mocked constantly...Doing poorly in school because of it. That's me right there. Iimagine that.

I can't tell you how many times I've cried myself to sleep. And I still do.. You're a lucky, kid, Nik. Dont ever forget you have parents who adore you and would only want to do what's best for you. You may not think things are very fair now.. but when you grow older, you will better see that all this time, they were just trying to raise you right. To raise you happily... healthily... just right. :)

Sylvan is a stupid learning center you never wanna go to.

Yeah that would stink having to wait that long and not being able to tell your parents when you really need something :(

Some things I'll never agree with that my parents do, though. Nevermind, I can't talk about it......I get too emotional.

[G-Force Glockstar]

You're welcome. I'm just glad you've learned something new. Of course, you know... all this time you could've just picked up a book or something from the library, and read about it, too. I still stress for you to do that. It will help immensely.

Thanks :D

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Sylvan is a stupid learning center you never wanna go to.

Yeah that would stink having to wait that long and not being able to tell your parents when you really need something :(

Some things I'll never agree with that my parents do, though. Nevermind, I can't talk about it......I get too emotional.Like I said, if it's a learning center, it's for your own benefit. You will thank them one day.

And what's so emotional? I KNOW you want to say it, so just go ahead and do it. Don't stall, don't use "neverminds." Just do it.

[Pus$y Galore]

My family doesnt know anything about me. :( They leave me alone in the apt ALL the time. They spend all their time with my brother, and my godgrandmother that they dont even see me suffering... they dont even know. :(

And thanks for the compliment. I actually have several albums, LOL. It was taken February, actually. :) This one's more recent. Chinatown! And below that- Central Park!


I'm sorry, but that makes me sick that they don't acknowledge your talent - and it is - you know the cool angles to take - mine always come out so lame!

The Chinatown one reminds me of some of the experimental time-laspe ones my dad used to take (he loved photography and his brother was a pro with his own studio).

Grrrr - I'd like to knock your families heads together (I'm sorry if that sounds bad) but its frustrating to hear! :mad:

[G-Force Glockstar]

Like I said, if it's a learning center, it's for your own benefit. You will thank them one day.

And what's so emotional? I KNOW you want to say it, so just go ahead and do it.

Well, like I said, they care about my grades so much.
We get no TV on the weekdays (except AMerican idol) and only one show on the weekends (Fri., Sat. Sun.).
And a few more, but nevermind.

[Pus$y Galore]

Yeah, I agree.

btw, you can call me Ruthie :)
My real name's Niki, but call me either one ;)


Good - cuz yer really startin' to confuse me there now!! Gonna stick with Ruthie or should it be Niki just to be safe?! :lol:

[Pus$y Galore]

It's more worth it to wait. TRUST me. I'll give you some numbers to illustrate. Before I started dieting, I was merely 105 pounds. After "dieting" for 2 years or so, I was 120 pounds. Do the math. This ISN'T dieting. It's not a win-win situation at ALL. In some cases, like with me, you get immensely heavier than you were BEFORE. So.... why the hell bother, right?


Hey - you're forgetting that you're still growing too - added height and bone mass alone will account for some of that increase!!! Its not that straight forward! Females grow until at least the age of 18 - so that is not all "fat"! :eek:

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Well, like I said, they care about my grades so much.
We get no TV on the weekdays (except AMerican idol) and only one show on the weekends (Fri., Sat. Sun.).
And a few more, but nevermind.It's perfectly normal for your parents to care about your grades. If I bring home anything below 98, my parents will go ballistic. They will call me names. Tell me I'm pathetically stupid, tell me a worthless piece of shiit and that in the future, I will end up sleeping in the streets. It's just more and more of this verbal abuse that I am still hearing even today. For the record, they haven't seen my report card in 5 years. (Since June 2000). They don't ask for it, either.

Your parents just want you to get a good education, so that you can go to a good college, get a splendid job, and live a happy, stress-free (semi- at least LOL) life.

[Pus$y Galore]

Oh yeah, I forgot......yeah my glasses and hearing aids really do help.
I just wish my parents wouldn't set up rules and make me go to Sylvan ands stuff.


They've got you in Sylvan? WOW - that's great! I know you hate it now, but from what I've heard about it, that is really going to give you a boost - and believe me, for your generation especially, education is going to be EVERYTHING!

That place costs a fortune - it shows they want nothing but the best for you! :)

TW - I am so sorry about the glasses thing - that's just plain neglect.

[G-Force Glockstar]

Good - cuz yer really startin' to confuse me there now!! Gonna stick with Ruthie or should it be Niki just to be safe?! :lol:

Niki

[G-Force Glockstar]

It's perfectly normal for your parents to care about your grades. If I bring home anything below 98, my parents will go ballistic. They will call me names. Tell me I'm pathetically stupid, tell me a worthless piece of shiit and that in the future, I will end up sleeping in the streets. It's just more and more of this verbal abuse that I am still hearing even today. For the record, they haven't seen my report card in 5 years. (Since June 2000). They don't ask for it, either.

Your parents just want you to get a good education, so that you can go to a good college, get a splendid job, and live a happy, stress-free (semi- at least LOL) life.

Wow, your parents were mean :(
Now they act as if you didn't exist :eek:

[Pus$y Galore]

I'm not familiar with Sylvan. What is that?

And I'm well aware hearing aids and glasses help. That's what they're intended for. To help you. :)

Imagine, tho... having to suffer from less-than-perfect eyesight for 5 years... alone... with no one to help you. (You are 11 years old, by the way.) Trying to keep a secret. Too afraid to tell your parents you can't see. And when the doctors told your parents, they just FORGOT about it. Being mocked constantly...Doing poorly in school because of it. That's me right there. Iimagine that.

I can't tell you how many times I've cried myself to sleep. And I still do.. You're a lucky, kid, Nik. Dont ever forget you have parents who adore you and would only want to do what's best for you. You may not think things are very fair now.. but when you grow older, you will better see that all this time, they were just trying to raise you right. To raise you happily... healthily... just right. :)


You are so wise - especially for your age. Listen to her Nik!

I know I didn't say anything at first about needing glasses (at age 11 too) but one day I go so frustrated at school that I started crying. I was embarrassed because I had to look about 2" away from the page and the teacher noticed. Too cruel!

[G-Force Glockstar]

They've got you in Sylvan? WOW - that's great! I know you hate it now, but from what I've heard about it, that is really going to give you a boost - and believe me, for your generation especially, education is going to be EVERYTHING!


Yeah, but Sylvan is stupid! Can I let you guys in a little secret?

My teachers there teach me THIRD and FOURTH grade work!!! Holy moly!!
Today they were teaching me like right angles, and congreunt shapes! How weird is that?

[G-Force Glockstar]

You are so wise - especially for your age. Listen to her Nik!

I know I didn't say anything at first about needing glasses (at age 11 too) but one day I go so frustrated at school that I started crying. I was embarrassed because I had to look about 2" away from the page and the teacher noticed. Too cruel!

You and Quencherita are both wise--and nice ;)

Aw, you cried in class......I hate that too because I've done that a couple times before.....it was embarassing :(

[Pus$y Galore]

. They will call me names. Tell me I'm pathetically stupid, tell me a worthless piece of shiit and that in the future, I will end up sleeping in the streets.

Mine did too. Never allowed me to do what I really had wanted to either with an art career. I was up for an art scholarship at school but they made me pull out of it. I ended up just doing office work - yeeeesshhhhh. :rolleyes:

[G-Force Glockstar]

Mine did too. Never allowed me to do what I really had wanted to either with an art career. I was up for an art scholarship at school but they made me pull out of it. I ended up just doing office work - yeeeesshhhhh. :rolleyes:

:(

[Pus$y Galore]

You and Quencherita are both wise--and nice ;)

Aw, you cried in class......I hate that too because I've done that a couple times before.....it was embarassing :(

What's worse - I've always been WAY too emotional, and I've done it at work - the absolute worst. Like an idiot, I cry whenever I'm mad too - so if I got P.O.d at someone at work, quite often I'd start. So humiliating and not great for your career either! :lol:

[G-Force Glockstar]

What's worse - I've always been WAY too emotional, and I've done it at work - the absolute worst. Like an idiot, I cry whenever I'm mad too - so if I got P.O.d at someone at work, quite often I'd start. So humiliating and not great for your career either! :lol:

Yeah, I'm emotional (actually sensitive and sad easily) alot too :(

What's POD stand for?

[*MIBabe03*]

Yeah, I'm emotional (actually sensitive and sad easily) alot too :(

What's POD stand for?

POD means Pissed Off.

[G-Force Glockstar]

POD means Pissed Off.

Oh.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Mine did too. Never allowed me to do what I really had wanted to either with an art career. I was up for an art scholarship at school but they made me pull out of it. I ended up just doing office work - yeeeesshhhhh. :rolleyes:Parents ick. And you're into art, too?? That's great!!!!! So am I. :) Just a few things I drew last year, hehe. I also do origami (below). But my parents dont appreciate THESE, either! I might as well just leave the apt. :rolleyes:

And about crying in class... oh lordy lordy. I can't tell you HOW many times I've just bursted out in tears during class 'cause I was SOOOOO frustrated I couldnt see. One time in particular, my teacher put up a math problem on the board. I couldn't see it, tho.. so I decided to wait for the mate to finish it so that I can copy the question from her afterwards. However, within a few minutes of the class, my teacher asked me whether if I was done, given I wasn't writing. I was HONEST and I told her, "I didnt start yet." And then she just blew away and gave me a big, fat zero for classwork. I was appalled. And so I told her it was because I couldnt SEE the board. So there she stood... in front of the whole class, pointing to letters on the board, saying:

"You can't see THIS???? *she scoffs*"
"How about THIS???"
"Well, then I suggest you go get yourself some glasses then. *she laughs*"

It hurt me more than anything.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

You are so wise - especially for your age. Listen to her Nik!!
Yeah, what she said, LOL. And awww, thanks for saying I am wise, but I really am not. Not trying to be modest, either. It's the truth. ;)

[G-Force Glockstar]

Parents ick. And you're into art, too?? That's great!!!!! So am I. :) Just a few things I drew last year, hehe. I also do origami (below). But my parents dont appreciate THESE, either! I might as well just leave the apt. :rolleyes:

And about crying in class... oh lordy lordy. I can't tell you HOW many times I've just bursted out in tears during class 'cause I was SOOOOO frustrated I couldnt see. One time in particular, my teacher put up a math problem on the board. I couldn't see it, tho.. so I decided to wait for the mate to finish it so that I can copy the question from her afterwards. However, within a few minutes of the class, my teacher asked me whether if I was done, given I wasn't writing. I was HONEST and I told her, "I didnt start yet." And then she just blew away and gave me a big, fat zero for classwork. I was appalled. And so I told her it was because I couldnt SEE the board. So there she stood... in front of the whole class, pointing to letters on the board, saying:

"You can't see THIS???? *she scoffs*"
"How about THIS???"
"Well, then I suggest you go get yourself some glasses then. *she laughs*"

It hurt me more than anything.

I feel so bad for you :( Your teacher was a jerk.....I get frustrated when things are blurry to me too :(

btw- what grade was that in?

[G-Force Glockstar]

Yeah, what she said, LOL. And awww, thanks for saying I am wise, but I really am not. Not trying to be modest, either. It's the truth. ;)

You ARE wise ;)

[G-Force Glockstar]

btw great art work!

[Warm & Fuzzy]

I feel so bad for you :( Your teacher was a jerk.....I get frustrated when things are blurry to me too :(

btw- what grade was that in?I was your age & thanks!

Dammit, it's 10:15 already on my end.... grrrr, I've been deferring hwk. This ALWAYS happens! :mad:

[G-Force Glockstar]

I was your age.

Oh. Did your parents start ignoring you when you were 11?

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Oh. Did your parents start ignoring you when you were 11?There isn't a set age. When I was younger, I was too innocent/naive to have known the difference between attentive parents and those who neglect. I also didn't know the difference between discipline and abuse. When I was 12 and 13, I think I was in denial.. maybe even till I was 15?? But now my eyes are wide open. I'm not stupid anymore LOL. Okay, fine, so maybe I'm a bit wiser, too. But it took a BIG whack in the head with this eating disorder for me to finally "sorta" figure out what is causing all this anguish. But yeah...Things really started during the beginning years of puberty I guess. My relationship with my father became, well, not a good one. And in 2000, my mother was adopted by my godgrandmother. New addition to the family. Happens to be someone who makes me feel like crap, TOO, and also someone I despise. Just great. :rolleyes:

[G-Force Glockstar]

There isn't a set age. When I was younger, I was too innocent/naive to have known the difference between attentive parents and those who neglect. I also didn't know the difference between discipline and abuse. When I was 12 and 13, I think I was in denial.. maybe even till I was 15?? But now my eyes are wide open. I'm not stupid anymore LOL. Okay, fine, so maybe I'm a bit wiser, too. But it took a BIG whack in the head with this eating disorder for me to finally "sorta" figure out what is causing all this anguish. But yeah...Things really started during the beginning years of puberty I guess. My relationship with my father became, well, not a good one. And in 2000, my mother was adopted by my godgrandmother. New addition to the family. Happens to be someone who makes me feel like crap, TOO, and also someone I despise. Just great. :rolleyes:

Wow, sorry about that :(
You know, right now I am kinda of naive....but in some ways I'm getting better, lol.

So not even your grandparents care for you? :(

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Wow, sorry about that :(
You know, right now I am kinda of naive....but in some ways I'm getting better, lol.

So not even your grandparents care for you? :(I think wisdom comes with age. (I make myself sound REALLY old, don't I?) But it's true, the more you experience, the more you learn, and the smarter/wiser you become. This ED has been a "great" learning experience for me, so to speak. Of course, I could've gotten that SAME learning experience I had say..... spoken to a therapist a number of YEARS ago. But nope. I was stupid. I still AM stupid, because even NOW, I'm not barging thru the doors of one, either. :rolleyes:

I have two grandparents in HK, one who died in 2001. And I have two here, both who are very old and cranky people, LOL! But I know they care about me.. They're force-feeders, too. LOL. I dont have a good relationship with them, tho. Never ever have I sat down to actually have a *real* conversation with them.

[G-Force Glockstar]

I think wisdom comes with age. (I make myself sound REALLY old, don't I?) But it's true, the more you experience, the more you learn, and the smarter/wiser you become. This ED has been a "great" learning experience for me, so to speak. Of course, I could've gotten that SAME learning experience I had say..... spoken to a therapist a number of YEARS ago. But nope. I was stupid. I still AM stupid, because even NOW, I'm not barging thru the doors of one, either. :rolleyes:

I have two grandparents in HK, one who died in 2001. And I have two here, both who are very old and cranky people, LOL! But I know they care about me.. They're force-feeders, too. LOL. I dont have a good relationship with them, tho. Never ever have I sat down to actually have a *real* conversation with them.

I guess....but you're not stupid ;)

I have a grandpa that died.....but that was 6 years before I was born.
My grandparents care about me, I know......I usually can really talk to them about stuff. They don't get as pissed as my parents when I talk about stuff over and over. and also when I complain.

[G-Force Glockstar]

btw what time is it where u live right now? It's almost 11, so I need to go soon.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

I'm glad to hear that you have a good relationship with your grandparents. It's very important to have friends and family by your side-- to have a support system. People to turn to when you need assistance, you know? Otherwise you are lost, like I am, basically, LOL.

So yes, just continue to speak with your grandparents.Tell them about your concerns and just let it all out. it will help.

I live in the Eastern time zone, so we have the same time. However, I won't be sleeping early tonight. I need to stay up to finish hwk because I've spent WAY too much time chit chatting. (Not your fault, tho of course. I can only blame myself.)

[Pus$y Galore]

There isn't a set age. When I was younger, I was too innocent/naive to have known the difference between attentive parents and those who neglect. I also didn't know the difference between discipline and abuse. When I was 12 and 13, I think I was in denial.. maybe even till I was 15?? But now my eyes are wide open. I'm not stupid anymore LOL. Okay, fine, so maybe I'm a bit wiser, too. But it took a BIG whack in the head with this eating disorder for me to finally "sorta" figure out what is causing all this anguish. But yeah...Things really started during the beginning years of puberty I guess. My relationship with my father became, well, not a good one. And in 2000, my mother was adopted by my godgrandmother. New addition to the family. Happens to be someone who makes me feel like crap, TOO, and also someone I despise. Just great. :rolleyes:

We're so much alike - life experiences and our art (especially not being appreciated). That's good artwork - keep it up and take as many courses as you can! The orgami is especially good. I always liked it too, but usually was just that "question and answer" thing you build! I used to love to sculpt - but my arthritis got bad when I was 22 and couldn't do it the same. I still paint and sketch when I can though. Used to do "album covers" (now CD covers)!! haha - showing my age again!

[G-Force Glockstar]

I'm glad to hear that you have a good relationship with your grandparents. It's very important to have friends and family by your side-- to have a support system. People to turn to when you need assistance, you know? Otherwise you are lost, like I am, basically, LOL.

So yes, just continue to speak with your grandparents.Tell them about your concerns and just let it all out. it will help.

I live in the Eastern time zone, so we have the same time. However, I won't be sleeping early tonight. I need to stay up to finish hwk because I've spent WAY too much time chit chatting. (Not your fault, tho of course. I can only blame myself.)

Yeah, but I don't see my grandparents alot :( As you can see in my signature, I'm going to one of my grandparents this weekend and some of next week (March 18-22).

Do you want me to let you go now? I need to get to bed now anyway, so tell me if you would rather go now :lol:
I would love to talk to you again tomorrow :)

[Pus$y Galore]

btw what time is it where u live right now? It's almost 11, so I need to go soon.


I think we're all in the Eastern Time Zone (its almost 11 here).

[G-Force Glockstar]

We're so much alike - life experiences and our art (especially not being appreciated). That's good artwork - keep it up and take as many courses as you can! The orgami is especially good. I always liked it too, but usually was just that "question and answer" thing you build! I used to love to sculpt - but my arthritis got bad when I was 22 and couldn't do it the same. I still paint and sketch when I can though. Used to do "album covers" (now CD covers)!! haha - showing my age again!

I suck at art.....I've always wished I was good at it.

Even though I got a "B" last year in art class (at school).

[G-Force Glockstar]

I think we're all in the Eastern Time Zone (its almost 11 here).

Cool :D

[Pus$y Galore]

I guess....but you're not stupid ;)

I have a grandpa that died.....but that was 6 years before I was born.
My grandparents care about me, I know......I usually can really talk to them about stuff. They don't get as pissed as my parents when I talk about stuff over and over. and also when I complain.

Yeah, most of my grandparents died before or shortly after I was born. Just one grandmother who lived until I was 11 but she would beat my brothers with wooden spoons! Luckily I never got it - she was weird!

Any aunts or uncles that you can talk to easier? I've got a neice and nephew (5 1/2 and 11) and even though they have good parents, I always want to be there for them if they need someone other than a parent to talk to.

Yikes - you guys should be hitting the sack soon!

[Pus$y Galore]

I suck at art.....I've always wished I was good at it.

Even though I got a "B" last year in art class (at school).


Hey - that's pretty good! Art takes practice to help to develop too. Even if you have a little talent, sometimes you can get better.

I always wished I could sing. I sound like a cat with its tail caught in the screen door!!! :lol: I even got kicked out of choir in grade 4 - either for a lousy voice or for talking!!! :lol:

[G-Force Glockstar]

Yeah, most of my grandparents died before or shortly after I was born. Just one grandmother who lived until I was 11 but she would beat my brothers with wooden spoons! Luckily I never got it - she was weird!

Any aunts or uncles that you can talk to easier? I've got a neice and nephew (5 1/2 and 11) and even though they have good parents, I always want to be there for them if they need someone other than a parent to talk to.

Yikes - you guys should be hitting the sack soon!

That's sad :( And wow, your grandma seems mean!

My aunts and uncles would listen to me, but I rarely see them also. The only time I really see them are during get togethers but I can't talk to them in privite then..


Yeah, it's gettin really late ALREADY (yeah time goes so fast online!!) I wish I was an adult like you so I could chat all night and not worry "OMG I was suppose to be in bed 2 hours ago! I'll be so tired in the morning!"

[G-Force Glockstar]

Hey - that's pretty good! Art takes practice to help to develop too. Even if you have a little talent, sometimes you can get better.

I always wished I could sing. I sound like a cat with its tail caught in the screen door!!! :lol: I even got kicked out of choir in grade 4 - either for a lousy voice or for talking!!! :lol:

I've always wished I could sing too, but I SUCK at singing!! I would scare everyone away if they heard me :lol:

[G-Force Glockstar]

Hey I'm off to bed now :wave:

Goodnight, ttyl, girls! :)

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Yeah, but I don't see my grandparents alot :( As you can see in my signature, I'm going to one of my grandparents this weekend and some of next week (March 18-22).

Do you want me to let you go now? I need to get to bed now anyway, so tell me if you would rather go now :lol:
I would love to talk to you again tomorrow :)All right! We can most certainly chat again tomorrow. :) Good night!

Tripper: I've never taken any art classes before. In fact, that buttefly drawing was my first pencil drawing EVER. The flowers were my second. And I have an origami site Here (http://jens-origami.cjb.net) if you are interested. :) I did the majority of them when I was 12 and 13. Then there are a few from last year, too. But not many.

And like anything else, singing just takes practice. I've sung solos when I was in second grade, and then in third grade I sung at the mayor's office. Then in fourth grade, I quit because of my "best friend" was jealous to the tops, and I didn't want to lose her as a "friend." (Because technically, she should've been HAPPY for me. Not jealous). Anyway.. after taking a break for several years, I recently joined back chorus in HS. Started off in a beginner's class, and now I'm back into advanced chorus. It's really fun! We get to sing in sooo many different languages... Hebrew, African, German, Latin, etc. We're doing this 12 minute piece in Latin right now and its just marvelous! We have a concert coming up, too, but I'm not sure of the date, LOL. You should try singing! Do you go to church? You can sign up for the church choir or something. Doesnt hurt to try, does it? ;)

I am bingeing right now, btw............. :(

[Pus$y Galore]

That's sad :( And wow, your grandma seems mean!

My aunts and uncles would listen to me, but I rarely see them also. The only time I really see them are during get togethers but I can't talk to them in privite then..


Yeah, it's gettin really late ALREADY (yeah time goes so fast online!!) I wish I was an adult like you so I could chat all night and not worry "OMG I was suppose to be in bed 2 hours ago! I'll be so tired in the morning!"

That's too bad - yeah, we only got together with aunts and uncles at family things too/

Oh don't worry - adults have to get proper sleep too. For years I only got about 4 1/2 hrs a night and it was a killer. You're so tired when you get home from work that you end up falling alseep in front of the t.v. with no real time for yourself. Our society doesn't get nearly enough rest - that's why we're all stressed. Its just I'm not working right now. I'm trying to find another job, but without having a post-secondary education its very hard right now to find work even with lots of experience. :(

[Pus$y Galore]

All right! We can most certainly chat again tomorrow. :) Good night!

Tripper: I've never taken any art classes before. In fact, that buttefly drawing was my first pencil drawing EVER. The flowers were my second. And I have an origami site Here (http://jens-origami.cjb.net) if you are interested. :) I did the majority of them when I was 12 and 13. Then there are a few from last year, too. But not many.

And like anything else, singing just takes practice. I've sung solos when I was in second grade, and then in third grade I sung at the mayor's office. Then in fourth grade, I quit because of my "best friend" was jealous to the tops, and I didn't want to lose her as a "friend." (Because technically, she should've been HAPPY for me. Not jealous). Anyway.. after taking a break for several years, I recently joined back chorus in HS. Started off in a beginner's class, and now I'm back into advanced chorus. It's really fun! We get to sing in sooo many different languages... Hebrew, African, German, Latin, etc. We're doing this 12 minute piece in Latin right now and its just marvelous! We have a concert coming up, too, but I'm not sure of the date, LOL. You should try singing! Do you go to church? You can sign up for the church choir or something. Doesnt hurt to try, does it? ;)

I am bingeing right now, btw............. :(

Wow - that's amazing and very impressive Jen! Crazy what we do to ourselves for "friendships" (that never turn out to be true friendships) when we're young eh? The Mayor's office - cool! So did you meet Rudy Guiliani (was in when he was in office?) Glad to hear you're back into it now - who knows - a very more years, and we might be watching you on Idol!!! That sounds like fun learning songs in other languages too. I have a friend who's daughter sings at weddings and Christmas plays all the time. No, I'm afraid I don't go to church. Years ago, my middle brother was in a rock band and once they needed another backup singer so they asked me. After one song they asked me to go sit back down :rofl: I'm the true example of tone-deaf!
I did play the flute and loved it when I was in school starting in grade 6. I've been thinking about picking it up again in the past few years - I guess I should. I was also in a Scottish pipeband with my dad when I was 16 - 18 and it was a lot of fun. Did some travelling with them and even played at the opening ceramonies at the Indy 500 one year. I was the bass drummer - the one with the huge, heavy drum! :bash:

[MsOrange]

:eat:

[MsOrange]

That's making me hungry.
yum yum eat 'em up!

[EmoJoe]

No offense to anyone but I think someone should move this to the random board. It's sort of turned into a random thread.

[G-Force Glockstar]

No offense to anyone but I think someone should move this to the random board. It's sort of turned into a random thread.

Alright, but only moderators can be threads, I think

[Pus$y Galore]

No offense to anyone but I think someone should move this to the random board. It's sort of turned into a random thread.


Its already listed in a ChitChat board - isn't that basically the same thing?

[G-Force Glockstar]

Dang, I'm still hungry! And I already had 2 chocolates and chips and salsa :lol:

[Pus$y Galore]

Dang, I'm still hungry! And I already had 2 chocolates and chips and salsa :lol:

A 6-ounce glass of milk will probably hold you over until dinner better! And don't worry about calories (doesn't look like you were - haha!). You need the calcium more! (geez - now I'm sounding like a mother huh?!) ;)

[G-Force Glockstar]

lol.

btw as you can see, this thread has been moved.
Oh well, at least it's not locked :D

[Pus$y Galore]

lol.

btw as you can see, this thread has been moved.
Oh well, at least it's not locked :D


Yeah - messed me right up at first since I'm a newbie!!!

Hope we don't lose Jen because it got moved! Haven't heard from her today. :crazy:

[G-Force Glockstar]

Yeah - messed me right up at first since I'm a newbie!!!

Hope we don't lose Jen because it got moved! Haven't heard from her today. :crazy:

Yeah.

I haven't heard from Jen either.....or wait, I did, but she just posted once this morning. I hope she comes back......

[Pus$y Galore]

Yeah.

I haven't heard from Jen either.....or wait, I did, but she just posted once this morning. I hope she comes back......

Yeah - same here. I might check some other threads to see if she's searching!!

Have you seen her origami work on her website? She left a link higher up in an earlier thread. Man, is she gifted! I can barely make a paper airplane!! :lol:

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Hey, guys. Sorry, but I've been busy. It's 7:50pm.. and I STILL have tons of hwk to finish!!! :mad:

I also got some pretty bad news about a friend of mine. Her husband has a reoccurence of cancer in two areas of the throat.... he will need a voicebox. And she tells me she will NEVER be able to hear his precious voice again.... this is just all too overwhelming... it depresses me even more. :(

And thanks so much for the compliments RE the orgami. I noticed I got a lot of entries in my guestbook. :eek: Did you refer your friends to it, Cathie? LOL. Awwwww. Thanks!! I attached a pic of 2 dozen roses I made for my friend for her birthday. It's this Thursday...... and incidentally, she is also the friend I spoke about in my previous paragraph. Poor her... she wont be having a happy birthday at ALL. :crying: I feel so bad for her... :(:(

As for selling these... who would buy them? LOL!

And yup! Calcium's GOOD. You hear that, Nik? ;)

As for me.... I binged on chocolate today. :( And please, call me Quench/Quenchie/Q...whatever... TW, even, LOL! Just not my real name. Thanks! :)

[Pus$y Galore]

No problem "Quench"!! Get to your homework or it'll bite you in the butt after missing two days worth!!

Talk later......just watching Idol now!!

I'll fill you in on today's events, etc. later tonight! :cool:

[G-Force Glockstar]

Hope you get all your HW done, Quench ;)
And sorry about your friends husband :(
I see you do great art work....I'll go check it out in a minute.

edit--btw why don't u wanna be called your real name? JW.


And Tripperfan, I can't even make a paper airplane :lol:

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Hope you get all your HW done, Quench ;)
And sorry about your friends husband :(
I see you do great art work....I'll go check it out in a minute.

edit--btw why don't u wanna be called your real name? JW.


And Tripperfan, I can't even make a paper airplane :lol:I haven't done ANYTHING since I last posted.... :o I need to just SIT Down, and DO IT... but I can't concentrate. I may have ADD, too. :(

And it's not that I dont want to be called my real name, just not so much when I am discussing my eating disorder. ;)

I binged today..... intake's upped to about 3,000 cals now... and I'm most likely not going to stop here. It's funny, ay? How I can just sit here and binge whilst I type? I am aware when I bingeing, see? I know I am being BAD right now... I just have no control. THIS is the essence of an ED. You lose total control.

[G-Force Glockstar]

I haven't done ANYTHING since I last posted.... :o I need to just SIT Down, and DO IT... but I can't concentrate. I may have ADD, too. :(

And it's not that I dont want to be called my real name, just not so much when I am discussing my eating disorder. ;)

I binged today..... intake's upped to about 3,000 cals now... and I'm most likely not going to stop here. It's funny, ay? How I can just sit here and binge whilst I type? I am aware when I bingeing, see? I know I am being BAD right now... I just have no control. THIS is the essence of an ED. You lose total control.

I kinda forget what ADD means.....isn't it something else Mary Kate Olsen had?

Alright, I understand ;)

I'm not sure what binge means.....I'm guessing it means overeating?
If it does, I do that alot too.

[EmoJoe]

Its already listed in a ChitChat board - isn't that basically the same thing?
Just to clarify this..the Random board is like, threads were you can chat about basically anything in. Its like a chat thread. The Chit Chat board usually has specific topics.

[G-Force Glockstar]

Just to clarify this..the Random board is like, threads were you can chat about basically anything in. Its like a chat thread. The Chit Chat board usually has specific topics.

I guess that's true......

[EmoJoe]

I guess that's true......
It is true...random is supposed to be for those big topics were you just chat about random stuff...hence the name random board

Anyway I will let you guys chat now. Bye

[G-Force Glockstar]

It is true...random is supposed to be for those big topics were you just chat about random stuff...hence the name random board

Anyway I will let you guys chat now. Bye

Yeah, I see.

Bye, ttyl :wave:

[Warm & Fuzzy]

I kinda forget what ADD means.....isn't it something else Mary Kate Olsen had?

Alright, I understand ;)

I'm not sure what binge means.....I'm guessing it means overeating?
If it does, I do that alot too.ADD is attention deficiency disorder. Look it up! You have to start doing some more research when you aren't sure of something. It aids in the learning process. :)

Binge is not JUST overeating, because EVERYone overeats once in a while.

Binge eating, by my definition, is eating, UNCONTROLLABLY... even when physically full. Meaning, I will eat and eat and eat until I literally CANNOT breathe/move. I will eat and eat and eat until I drop, and I will have absolutely NO control over it. All of a sudden, my weight doesn't matter. All that DOES matter is getting as much food down my throat as possible..... eating as much as I can.... maybe enough to land myself in a hospital. It's really sad. :( That's how I gain weight. Even with compensation, like fasting/dieting/exercising/purging.... most of my intake is still absorbed into the body.

And I started out with a "diet." Never head down this path, kiddo. I will continue to say this until you are sick and tired of it and BEG for me to stop. :p

[Warm & Fuzzy]

//Edit:

I disagree with the randomness of this thread. We are still pretty much on topic. Everything is interconnected. ;)

[Warm & Fuzzy]

I'm attaching a poem I wrote about bingeing, Nik.

The "Q" shape is for "Quencherita." ;)

[G-Force Glockstar]

Binge eating, by my definition, is eating, UNCONTROLLABLY... even when physically full. Meaning, I will eat and eat and eat until I literally CANNOT breathe/move. I will eat and eat and eat until I drop, and I will have absolutely NO control over it. All of a sudden, my weight doesn't matter. All that DOES matter is getting as much food down my throat as possible..... eating as much as I can.... maybe enough to land myself in a hospital. It's really sad. :( That's how I gain weight. Even with compensation, like fasting/dieting/exercising/purging.... most of my intake is still absorbed into the body.


Wow, that's sad :( That would be so hard and frustrating afterwards.

How long at the most have you starved yourself? I don't think I've ever went over 2 days.

[G-Force Glockstar]

I'm attaching a poem I wrote about bingeing, Nik.

The "Q" shape is for "Quencherita." ;)

It's a nice poem

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Wow, that's sad :( That would be so hard and frustrating afterwards.

How long at the most have you starved yourself? I don't think I've ever went over 2 days.Yes, it is VERY frustrating. :(

And I will not answer your second question. However, I WILL say that you should never EVER fast for 2 days EVER EVER EVER again. :nonono:

[G-Force Glockstar]

Yes, it is VERY frustrating. :(

And I will not answer your second question. However, I WILL say that you should never EVER fast for 2 days EVER EVER EVER again. :nonono:

I won't

[Warm & Fuzzy]

I won'tGood girl. ;) LOL.

[Pus$y Galore]

//Edit:

I disagree with the randomness of this thread. We are still pretty much on topic. Everything is interconnected. ;)

I Marooned'5 is a guy. Maybe doesn't understand. I agree, but just gave up arguing with him. Ya gotta be able to speak "chick"!!! :rotflmao:

[Pus$y Galore]

I'm attaching a poem I wrote about bingeing, Nik.

The "Q" shape is for "Quencherita." ;)


The words themselves are extremely sad, but I cannot believe the talent of Quench.

What do you plan on doing in your life (for a career that is)?

[Pus$y Galore]

Yes, it is VERY frustrating. :(

And I will not answer your second question. However, I WILL say that you should never EVER fast for 2 days EVER EVER EVER again. :nonono:


Good for you Quench - and I'll feel the same, I will not post just how long I went without. I would never want to encourage or "challenge" anyone. This isn't a game and unfortunately its starts out by thinking YOU have control (over your eating, hunger, etc.) and as Q has said, it ends up controlling YOU. And eats and eats away.

Q - you were doing so well - please - I don't have to tell you what you're doing to yourself. Hang in there until you can get back to that teacher (or hopefully she to you). For God's sake girl - hold on! :(

[Warm & Fuzzy]

I Marooned'5 is a guy. Maybe doesn't understand. I agree, but just gave up arguing with him. Ya gotta be able to speak "chick"!!! :rotflmao:Hey, I found it *somewhat* insulting. But that's okay. We're still cool. :cool: //referring to Marooned.

My life? Career? *she thinks* Undecided. :( I'm such a loser. As a junior, I *should* have SOME sort of clue, but I really don't know. My parents would like me to persue in the medical field. I THOUGHT I wanted to major in computers, until I picked Computer Science Major. I am suffering in this class SOOOO much now!! Just today, my teacher caught me copying someone else's code. (dammit, LOL). I think he's gonna fail me. :(

So yeah.... I don't know. :( I read you were looking for a job, what was your previous career? Just wondering!

//EDIT:
As for "Quench." She's pretty pathetic. She and Jen? No relation. ;)

Here's another poem I, as Quench, LOL... wrote...back when. It was close to new year's eve, I think.

Change

Whilst I look upon the winter's sky,
I find it the same as it was in July.
Oh how I wish things could be as predictable all the time,
like the music of carols and sleigh bell chimes!

But I know it's unrealistic,
for life itself is far from simplistic.
One thing I know for sure, though, is that things change.
Give it a second, and your whole life could be rearranged!

Yesteryear I was a mere child.
I carried out my duties, beholden with smiles.
But during the morning hours of last June,
I began to saw myself as a buffon.

From that day on, I vowed for a better me.
I was going to change myself, no matter the fee.
For a moment I thought I had everything under control,
but soon after, I realized that I had lost my body and soul.

As I whithered away,
I suffered in misery day after day.
I disregarded my friends and sought isolation.
I pushed them away as I gave into temptations.

I've longed kept things confidential, making matters worse.
Tell me! What have I done to deserve such a curse?
I can't imagine the gallons of tears I've shed,
but I guarantee it's enough to bury the dead.

So now I speak in December,
with no more hope to glow than chimney embers.
Yet I await for a miracle as the clock strikes midnight.
Indeed, I still have a chance to set things right!

I'm determined to reverse all the damage I've done,
for I have ran for too long, and have no other place to run.
I will make things predictable, like the winter's sky, and the music of carols and sleigh bell chimes,
because I know for sure things change with time.

[Pus$y Galore]

Hey, I found it *somewhat* insulting. But that's okay. We're still cool. :cool:

My life? Career? *she thinks* Undecided. :( I'm such a loser. As a junior, I *should* have SOME sort of clue, but I really don't know. My parents would like me to persue in the medical field. I THOUGHT I wanted to major in computers, until I picked Computer Science Major. I am suffering in this class SOOOO much now!! Just today, my teacher caught me copying someone else's code. (dammit, LOL). I think he's gonna fail me. :(

So yeah.... I don't know. :(

Hey - don't be insulted, I meant, that women seem to communicate in more detail to each other than men do. What might initially appear to be off-topic is actually intertwined with everything else. I've known a lot of guys in my day, and very few that will detail issues like females might. :talk: :cool:

You're not a loser at all - most 35 - 40 year olds STILL aren't too sure of what they want!! (As well, there's been a lot of layoffs in our age group too where we have to decide on a whole new path in order to keep up)! It can be a lifelong process for some!
Do you like medicine? Now and in the future there's going to be a huge need for people in that field. You could make a fortune up here - there are currently 30,000 people without a family doctor in our province alone right now. Huge incentives for new MDs to move into the area! I think you have the smarts and compassion for it too. I would have LOVED to get into medicine and have recently even considered becoming a phelbotomist at least. Anyway, if you feel you won't enjoy it, there's no sense. Computer sciences is pretty cool and probably always fairly steady (although there was just a huge drop in available jobs because of an surplus of skilled people, but that probably will turn around again at some point with new technology. Just thought if there was a way of combining your artistic/singing or writing talent into something that pays well and that you enjoy its the best. That's a major thing I've learned in life - do what you ENJOY. Life's too short to be stuck in a job you can't stand. So much of your life will be spent there.

[Pus$y Galore]

So now I speak in December,
with no more hope to glow than chimney embers.
Yet I await for a miracle as the clock strikes midnight.
Indeed, I still have a chance to set things right!

I'm determined to reverse all the damage I've done,
for I have ran for too long, and have no other place to run.
I will make things predictable, like the winter's sky, and the music of carols and sleigh bell chimes,
because I know for sure things change with time. [/INDENT][/QUOTE]

Listen to and reread your own words again Q - you were determined to change in the new year. Its now 3 months into it - you ARE starting to make the change, but you must keep going. Fight urges. Take deep breaths. Reread your own words. Sing (can't eat while you're singing!! :lol: ) - but seriously - find other outlets and be strong! You can still overcome this thing.

[Pus$y Galore]

Because my mother insisted I work in an office right out of high school, I worked my way up (if you can call it that) to an Executive Assistant for officers of a greeting card company. I was there almost 19 years when I was permanently laid off. For the last 4 I was there, I was a Sales Analyst (number cruncher - yeeesshhh).

Honestly, there's not much money I guess in it, but I'd love to train service dogs for the disabled. Not just seeing eye dogs, but all kinds of assistance dogs. I love animals so much, and they don't give you as much hassle as people do!!! :lol: I also wouldn't be stuck in an 8' X 8' cubicle sitting at a desk, watching my butt get flabby and bored stiff!! Also, we live in the country so its not easy getting office work close by and I don't feel like commuting anymore. Got double-whiplash on the highway coming home one night just 6 weeks before I was to lose my job. It was a bad year!! :crazy: :lol:

[Pus$y Galore]

Hey, guys. Sorry, but I've been busy. It's 7:50pm.. and I STILL have tons of hwk to finish!!! :mad:

I also got some pretty bad news about a friend of mine. Her husband has a reoccurence of cancer in two areas of the throat.... he will need a voicebox. And she tells me she will NEVER be able to hear his precious voice again.... this is just all too overwhelming... it depresses me even more. :(

And thanks so much for the compliments RE the orgami. I noticed I got a lot of entries in my guestbook. :eek: Did you refer your friends to it, Cathie? LOL. Awwwww. Thanks!! I attached a pic of 2 dozen roses I made for my friend for her birthday. It's this Thursday...... and incidentally, she is also the friend I spoke about in my previous paragraph. Poor her... she wont be having a happy birthday at ALL. :crying: I feel so bad for her... :(:(

As for selling these... who would buy them? LOL!

And yup! Calcium's GOOD. You hear that, Nik? ;)

As for me.... I binged on chocolate today. :( And please, call me Quench/Quenchie/Q...whatever... TW, even, LOL! Just not my real name. Thanks! :)

I am really sorry to hear about your friends husband Q. That's awful. I have a friend who's fighting cervical cancer right now too. If nothing else, is there a way he could maybe record his voice for his wife now while he can before they do surgery? I know it doesn't bring his voice back, but I've heard of cancer patients doing this sort of thing. In a way, like taking pictures and videos to remember by.

And yes, hope you don't mind, but I did send the link to a couple of my friends that I thought would appreciate it. They DID genuinely love it Q. I heard back from one who asked (and didn't believe) your age. (Why - did it look like half of Canada had seen them? hahahah! - especially the request for a hockey player :lol: ). I don't know who Tricia is tho - she's not part of my group unless someone kept forwarding! Watch the number counter on your site!! You say you don't know who would buy them? Are you nuts? You saw the comments and I agree - I'd love to buy the strawberries off of you right now! My kitchen just happens to be black, white and red with a "strawberry" theme!! :p :D

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Hehe, yeah, I suppose. Females tend to talk a bit more, and are more emotional & open with their feelings. I'm thinking society has a major role in this, as well. It's not "man-ly" for a boy to cry. Or, so they say. ;) Get my drift? LOL.

Really?? Then why do I feel like I'm the only one in my grade who doesn't know what to do with her life? :( I go to a specialized (extremely prestigious/competitive school.. UNFORTUNATELY)... and I'm always sensing that everyone is excelling whereas I'm still at where I was say, Freshman year. :lol:

As for meds, thanks, but no thanks. :) I appreciate all the info you have provided me, but meds simply don't interest me. Well, maybe a *bit*, but the idea of spending the rest of my life studying science is just.... ugh LOL. HS has taught me to hate science! I will fail physics, too this year! :crazy:

I was thinking about something ED-related, tho, truth be told. Perhaps a physc. :) Or something in the health-related field. I don't know!! LOL.

A phlebotomist, ay? Woww!! Sounds difficult.. and scary, haha. I can't STAND the sight of blood. I get all queasy and stuff. (Definitely not becoming a surgeon as a result. ;)) Are you studying it now?

And I agree with your wisdom RE enjoying life. I like to stress that a LOT, but unfortunately I dont always follow along with it. If I REALLY wanted to enjoy life, I wouldn't have dieted in the first place, haha.

As for re-reading my own words. I don't know... my determination, so to speak.. is an on/off thing. (sadly. :()Sometimes... I don't WANT to recover. :eek: Take this poem, for example...not too long after.. I was PRO-bingeing then... estimated about 8000 cals... every day for a month. :eek: I can have a potty mouth, I guess you can tell, hahahahhaa. ;)

I'm gonna binge and binge and I'm not gonna stop.
I'm gonna eat and eat until I fu.cking pop.
I don't care, I don't care, I don't give a sh.it.
Guess you can tell I'm losing it?!

- 1/27/05 - Quencherita

[Warm & Fuzzy]

OMG, 19 years?? In a cubicle?? I would.... go insane! LOL. (And yup! Gain flab in the butt, too, haha) Why were you permanently laid off, tho? My aunt works as a number-cruncher.... BOR-ING. (no offense. But it's just boring to ME, LOL..... in my very very humble opinion, hehe.)

And oh!! A profession with animals sounds sooooo splendid! Is that dog yours, btw? the one on your avatar? Do you have any pets? I have a parakeet, and some fish.. and I had a pet duckling once, but he died. :(

And you live in the country?? Way cool! LOL. I've lived in the city all my life. So anywhere without streetlights will scare the wits out of me! :lol: Do you have horses there? Mounties? Hehe. I went to Toronto when I was 8 or so. And last August I went to New Brunswick and Nova Scotia.... took pics, too. Hehe. Looooooooved all the wonderful scenary! Is it THIS beautiful elsewhere in Can, too??

Attch'd are 4 photographs. Have you been here before?

Sorry to hear about your friend too. :( Cancer is such an awful misfortune... I dont believe ANYONE should deserve this.... unless he/she is a serial killer or something, LOL. But even so.... I can offer some pity!

And I was gonna suggest to her to record his voice, too..... but I think she's still in shock right now for that. I am, too, frankly... because she means so much to me. :(

And nope! I don't mind at all, I found it pretty cool to have checked my mail this afternoon, and all of a sudden have a full inbox! Hehe.

I know people *would* buy them...... but at the price I plan to charge for each???? ;) The strawberries would be cheap, tho. They don't take as long as some of the others did. But that all depends on whether if I can get my hands on some nice origami paper for it. And you have a strawberry theme in your kitch?? That's so cute! LOL. I plan to have a pizza or veggie... or whatever...theme when I move into my own home. Maybe a pineapple, too.. or or... cherries! LOL. (I should knock myself out of this fantasy right? LOL) Oh hey.. forget the kitch.. lemme sketch a plan for my future room (whenever I will get my own room. :rolleyes: )

[Pus$y Galore]

Hehe, yeah, I suppose. Females tend to talk a bit more, and are more emotional & open with their feelings. I'm thinking society has a major role in this, as well. It's not "man-ly" for a boy to cry. Or, so they say. ;) Get my drift? LOL.

Really?? Then why do I feel like I'm the only one in my grade who doesn't know what to do with her life? :( I go to a specialized (extremely prestigious/competitive school.. UNFORTUNATELY)... and I'm always sensing that everyone is excelling whereas I'm still at where I was say, Freshman year. :lol:

As for meds, thanks, but no thanks. :) I appreciate all the info you have provided me, but meds simply don't interest me. Well, maybe a *bit*, but the idea of spending the rest of my life studying science is just.... ugh LOL. HS has taught me to hate science! I will fail physics, too this year! :crazy:

I was thinking about something ED-related, tho, truth be told. Perhaps a physc. :) Or something in the health-related field. I don't know!! LOL.

A phlebotomist, ay? Woww!! Sounds difficult.. and scary, haha. I can't STAND the sight of blood. I get all queasy and stuff. (Definitely not becoming a surgeon as a result. ;)) Are you studying it now?

And I agree with your wisdom RE enjoying life. I like to stress that a LOT, but unfortunately I dont always follow along with it. If I REALLY wanted to enjoy life, I wouldn't have dieted in the first place, haha.

As for re-reading my own words. I don't know... my determination, so to speak.. is an on/off thing. (sadly. :()Sometimes... I don't WANT to recover. :eek: Take this poem, for example...not too long after.. I was PRO-bingeing then... estimated about 8000 cals... every day for a month. :eek: I can have a potty mouth, I guess you can tell, hahahahhaa. ;)

I'm gonna binge and binge and I'm not gonna stop.
I'm gonna eat and eat until I fu.cking pop.
I don't care, I don't care, I don't give a sh.it.
Guess you can tell I'm losing it?!

- 1/27/05 - Quencherita




OMG - you can be so much like me (and how I was). I felt the same way in school - that everyone else had their sh&t together but me. Believe me, that's only the surface picture. I'm sure other kids think the exact same thing towards you - you just don't notice it. (or refuse to notice it because you've been trained/brainwashed not to). I know whenever I'd question my mom putting me down, she'd say "I don't want you to become conceited!". Well there's a HUGE difference between that and making someone feel substandard and a loser. I did too. I was discouraged from every single thing I ever mentioned that I wanted to do.
Yeah, that's cool about not wanting meds - to each his/her own!! Ya know, I think you might have something with the therapist role though! (And hopefully, just studying ED to that level, you'll understand more why you do this. That's why I want you to see someone. You need to be guided in learning what is causing this - because something(s) are - you know that, and you probably even DO know some reasons, but you'll be surprised at just what all comes out. I look back on it now, and really its pretty cool.
You know, the real shame here is that you did start all this - and probably had nowhere the need to lose an ounce - even at the time and now you're stretching and just screwing up your body, metabolism and brain by all the damage. I'm not putting you down - just stating the hard facts of this crap (but you already knew that). Its made you too old and wise for your age. Its really a shame we put so much pressure on teens to "grow up" these days. I noticed it starting when I was a teen, but its just gotten worse over the years. More adults should understand this. I don't even had kids, but I keep my eyes open and see it.

[Pus$y Galore]

I know people *would* buy them...... but at the price I plan to charge for each???? ;) The strawberries would be cheap, tho. They don't take as long as some of the others did. But that all depends on whether if I can get my hands on some nice origami paper for it. And you have a strawberry theme in your kitch?? That's so cute! LOL. I plan to have a pizza or veggie... or whatever...theme when I move into my own home. Maybe a pineapple, too.. or or... cherries! LOL. (I should knock myself out of this fantasy right? LOL) Oh hey.. forget the kitch.. lemme sketch a plan for my future room (whenever I will get my own room. :rolleyes: )[/QUOTE]


From what I've seen of your talents so far, yeah - you could probably draw a perfectly architecturally accurate layout of your dream home!!! No kiddin'! :lol: :eek:

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Hey, Cath... I have to go, now. Sorry! I still haven't exercised and its 1:07am already! I need to be up in like.... 5 hours. :eek:

I still have hwk to do, too ... but I don't intend to do it. (bad bad bad! :()
Maybe tomorrow, hahaha.

G'Night! Hope you have a great day tomorrow! :)

// As for my dream home, funny you should mention arcitecture, LOL. Did I mention that I go a technical school? Arcitecture's my best friend... both hand and computer. :D I love it! but definitely not as a career... too much work, haha. I'm lazzzzzzieee. ;) What kinda of courses did you take in HS?

[Pus$y Galore]

OMG, 19 years?? In a cubicle?? I would.... go insane! LOL. (And yup! Gain flab in the butt, too, haha) Why were you permanently laid off, tho? My aunt works as a number-cruncher.... BOR-ING. (no offense. But it's just boring to ME, LOL..... in my very very humble opinion, hehe.)

And oh!! A profession with animals sounds sooooo splendid! Is that dog yours, btw? the one on your avatar? Do you have any pets? I have a parakeet, and some fish.. and I had a pet duckling once, but he died. :(


OH YOU HAVE NOOOO IDEA! I started going squirrely and shooting paperclips and erasers at my friends on the other side!! I never really wanted the analyst's job, but I could do the other in my sleep and was bored. My boss (V.P. of Sales) wanted to "promote me" - as it was considered a management position so I went for it. That's it - when you're in that environment - you'll sell your soul for more money or even just a change. They laid off 82% of the Canadian workforce (its a fairly major American owned company). Our manufacturing and distribution went in 98, more (including me) in 2002 (after 9/11 it was really bad, but I don't have to tell YOU that) and more just this last December. Its been very rough on them as even though it was a mid-size company, we were like "family" - a lot of people had been there a long time. I actually wanted to leave by that time and I did get a great severence package. Even got laser eye surgery from some of it!

Yes, that's my female dog called "Eeka" - for "Eek A Mouse"! She's tiny. I had her brother up yesterday - don't know if you noticed him (Bailey). I told Lana that I'd be posting the pics of my pets. They're my kids really! I've always wanted a duck (4 actually). And chickens, miniature horses and those pygmy goats that play dead and go stiff when ya scare 'em!!! :lol:

[Pus$y Galore]

[QUOTE=Quencherita]Hey, Cath... I have to go, now. Sorry! I still haven't exercised and its 1:07am already! I need to be up in like.... 5 hours. :eek:

I still have hwk to do, too ... but I don't intend to do it. (bad bad bad! :()
Maybe tomorrow, hahaha.

G'Night! Hope you have a great day tomorrow! :)

QUOTE]


No problem! Actually I was worried about you getting some sleep! I'll just keep on catching up and typing here, while you doze off! It'll give you something to do when you get home tomorrow!! haha! Nite Nite!! ;)

[Pus$y Galore]

A phlebotomist, ay? Woww!! Sounds difficult.. and scary, haha. I can't STAND the sight of blood. I get all queasy and stuff. (Definitely not becoming a surgeon as a result. ;)) Are you studying it now?

[/INDENT]

Now - see - this is what I'm talking about. Talk about intelligent! And if you didn't know, you know to look it up and check it out. Still shows your intelligence. You're not being lazy in school - you're just really distracted right now. How many 16 year olds know what the heck a phlebotomist is? I even had to search around to find out. I knew what I wanted to do, but didn't know what you called it! Actually I'd rather be a certified lab technician (or CSI person), but it takes too long. At my age, time is at a premium for a career move! :lol: true tho!

I also thought of the phelbotomist thing because there are 3 labs in my local area that are always needing people. (killer eh - that many labs in a rural area, but 30,000 people without a doctor)!!

I've always been fascinated by medicine though. Unfortunately in school I was terrible in math and sciences. Its only been as an adult I've somehow caught on???? Go figure! So, so much for knowing what you want to do when you're your age eh?!

[Pus$y Galore]

And you live in the country?? Way cool! LOL. I've lived in the city all my life. So anywhere without streetlights will scare the wits out of me! :lol: Do you have horses there? Mounties? Hehe. I went to Toronto when I was 8 or so. And last August I went to New Brunswick and Nova Scotia.... took pics, too. Hehe. Looooooooved all the wonderful scenary! Is it THIS beautiful elsewhere in Can, too??

Attch'd are 4 photographs. Have you been here before?

)
Yeah, I lived in the city until 96 when we moved here - about 45 minutes north of Toronto. Its beautiful! They'll have to take me back to the city kicking and screaming! We have a home (I always lived in apts.) on about an acre of land with an inground pool in the back. I just LOVE it. Tons of rabbits, squirrels, chipmunks, raccoons, groundhogs and even coyotes up here. Yet, its still just a quick drive to the city. If your website allows, I could send you some pictures of the property. (I just feel odd posting them here). There are horse farms all around us. One is a thoroughbred farm (race horses) - its huge! I've never really seen the rest of Canada outside of Quebec (and we don't like going back because the english are treated rather poorly there - more Montreal than anywhere else actually). I'd love to see the Maritimes or the West. Yes, I am proud to say we DO have a beautiful country up here. A LOT of freedoms too - just also a lot of taxes!!! :lol:
And yes, we do have those fancy mounties! (Actually four were just ambushed out west a couple of weeks ago and murdered - really sad :( )
Quite honestly, I think we're among the nicest, easy going people in the world.
Hey - that reminds me, How can you tell the difference between someone who's from Canada, and someone who's from New York?

In Canada we'll ask: "So you're an American EH?" and in New York they say,"EH - so you're an American!!" :lol: :lol:

Those are great shots! No, the one time I tried to stay in New York, I couldn't. We were on a flight back from Dallas (where my aunt lives) and stopped over in NYC. They asked for people to give up their seats and the airline would put us up at a hotel overnight. I said to my mom who was travelling with me, let's take the advantage and we can see some of New York, and I offered, but by that time, they had enough volunteers so we just continued home. Pi$$ed me off too because I didn't even get to see the Statue of Liberty - some jerk who had the window seat had his window closed when we flew over! My husband's been there though - used to have to go to Manhatten for business. I hear its amazing. Someday we'll get there! :D

[Pus$y Galore]

Sorry to hear about your friend too. :( Cancer is such an awful misfortune... I dont believe ANYONE should deserve this.... unless he/she is a serial killer or something, LOL. But even so.... I can offer some pity!

And I was gonna suggest to her to record his voice, too..... but I think she's still in shock right now for that. I am, too, frankly... because she means so much to me. :(

)

Thx. She's actually been doing quite well amazingly enough but she's taking better care of herself now. I've lost a few friends/ friends parents to cancer. It is horrible.

See how it goes about suggesting. Do you speak with her fairly often? Is the surgery already scheduled - soon? Ya know, probably if you call every few days even just to talk, it'll really help her (or email). You maybe could gently work it in then somehow. As you say, should could have still been in shock if they just found out. I'd just hate to think that an opportunity was missed if she finds it a great idea. He could read her the lyrics to their favorite song or poem or something. Even if she gets emotional over it, that's why friends lend their shoulders to cry on! I've found the more open I am with people, the more they feel comfortable opening up with me. See how it goes. Yeah, it sucks alright. :( :(

Don't ever underestimate the power of prayer tho! :heart:

[Pus$y Galore]

And nope! I don't mind at all, I found it pretty cool to have checked my mail this afternoon, and all of a sudden have a full inbox! Hehe.

I know people *would* buy them...... but at the price I plan to charge for each???? ;) The strawberries would be cheap, tho. They don't take as long as some of the others did. But that all depends on whether if I can get my hands on some nice origami paper for it. And you have a strawberry theme in your kitch?? That's so cute! LOL. I plan to have a pizza or veggie... or whatever...theme when I move into my own home. Maybe a pineapple, too.. or or... cherries! LOL. (I should knock myself out of this fantasy right? LOL) Oh hey.. forget the kitch.. lemme sketch a plan for my future room (whenever I will get my own room. :rolleyes: )

I'm glad you don't mind - its just honestly they are really good and you should know that! Strangers aren't going to B.S. you right?!

Yeah, I guess I know what you mean. I felt the same way about my art. I mainly painted (in oils or acrylics) and you put so much blood, sweat and tears into each piece, that its tough to put a price on. Just materials alone can cost a fortune. (I imagine origami paper isn't cheap either)!! STill, I'll bet there will be some people....they're really individual works of art Q! People might be willing to pay top dollar if they were for centre pieces at weddings, Chinese New Year celebrations and things like that. You should check around in Chinatown to see if you can see anything like it and maybe even approach some vendors. You could put a few pieces on consignment, and see how it goes from there. That's how some top designers and artists started! You never know until you give it a shot! ('come on - you know you'd like to see what would happen?!!!) :lol:

Yeah, my kitch -strawberries and cows.....I'm beginning to morph towards chickens of late tho!! :lol: :eek:

Q - you're killing me!!! Its all starting to come out how talented you are! Not only art, singing, poetry, photography and now architecture. And you think you're a loser. O.k. - then DaVinci was a loser too I guess!! :crazy: :p ;)

[Pus$y Galore]

WHEW!

K - think I've gone back and checked and answered everything. Wow - that was a lot!! heehee!

Poor Nik is going to have such a time catching up on all this when she gets home tomorrow! ! haha!

I'm hittin' the hay - its 2:05 a.m. and my eyes are starting to cross...... :wave:

[G-Force Glockstar]

just felt like I should edit this :rolleyes:

[JT]

What the hell are you smoking?

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Awww, sorry to hear your mother always put you down. My parents do the same thing to me. Ever since I was little girl, I've always told them I wanted to take ice skating lessons... but they wouldn't allow it. My mom, she said, "you're as big as a cow, what makes you think you can do this??" And my dad just said I was "crazy" and that I should want to do something more "academic." I was, and still am always forced to do things I didn't/don't want to do. I have literally NO say in anything!! :mad:

I think I pretty much know the reasons to why I binge, and purge, and blah blah... I think I can see myself pretty well. I like to be honest with myself and not try to "fool" myself, but sometimes I do it unknowingly. I think I understand what an ED entails, where it comes from.. what this all really means because I've done countless research... how can you NOT when your life just revolves around this, you know? However, you're right.... I'd bet ANYTHING that there are still things I need to figure out, and can't (unfortunately) do on my own. And that there's undoubtedly SOMETHING that is keeping me from recovering. A year ago, I would've denied all this. I would've told myself, "there's nothing wrong. You don't need help!! You can do this on your own. You're invincible. The dangers of an ED applies to everyone else BUT yourself. This can't be happening to YOU... blah blah " But I was just being ignorant... I was wrong, wrong wrong! Things CAN happen to me... I am NOT invicible. I am just a human being... like everybody else... and I am not flawless. I am not perfect, nor will I EVER be. I will never be satisfy with my weight.. no matter HOW light I am.... so with that said, I just need to LEARN to live life and just accept things the way they are now.. and stop trying to change everything. Stop wanting "this" and wishing "that" because desires cause misery! I just need to be taught HOW, is all. ;)


Oh, I think I have SOME idea as to how BORING LOL.. a cibicle is! My aunt, she works in one.. and she used to bring me to her workplace often. All I did was sit at the computer, browse the internet, and freeload off printer ink and hot chocolate! LOL! I've made a rubberband ball before too, hehe.

Oh, hey... laser surgery! That's cool, hehe.

Awwww, Eeka's such a cool name! It's cute! Who named her?

Oh, I'm sure many 16 year olds know what a phle'mist is! I took biology freshman year and we learned so many terms of different doctors/surgeons and stuff. It was BORING, but at least I got a BIT out of those long lectures. :lol: How long does it take to become a CSI person? (See, THAT I don't know what it is, LOL! ;)) And you make yourself sound so OLD... stoppit! LOL. Age gracefully. Hehe.

And math/science aren't my strong areas, either. Well, actually, it's on and off. Sometimes I'd just "get it" and other times I just WONT. There's no healthy medium... like with food too LOL. It's either starve, or binge. Nothing in between. BTW, I would like to reinforce the wonders of food LOL. I woke up from an afternoon nap about half hour ago... I was SOOOOOOO tired. My eyes were heavy and I felt like I was gonna pass out. Then I took ONE bite of noodles... and that was all it took to make me feel all better. Now I'm as awake as awake can be, LOL. :rolleyes: But now, of course...... I have an urge to binge, too dammit! // Hear that, Nik? Food is good LOL.


OMG, you own an ACRE of land???? are you kiiiiiiiidding? :eek: WOW! So many things to do with a whole acre of land....... :eek2: And you have rabbits over there?? and and and and.... chipmunks.... RACOONS?? GROUNDHOGS??? COYOTES??? Make room for the fatso, 'cause she's moving in with yah! :rotflmao: I've always, always wanted to see a racoon, LOL.

And I would positively LOVE to see pictures. I am a HUGE fan of visuals. If you've noticed, I've just been posting pic after pic after pic. Love it. :D You can email me at quencherita@verizon.net .... or AIM me at Quencherita.

So I'm guess you dont speak french? LOL. I've taken 8 terms of French. Bonjour! ;)

Actually, I say "So you're an American EH?" LOL. I put "eh" at the end, and sometimes "ayy?" as a substitute. :D

Awww, it sucks that you didnt get to see NYC. It's a GREAT city and I love it here. If anything, I have wayyyy too much city pride, haha. And you didnt get to see Lady Liberty? Attached are two pics I took... hehe. It was from a distance. (Hence the blurriness) But I think its a cool effect, hehe.

Yeah, my grandmother in HK died from cancer. :( GOod thing I didnt know her, well, tho. My godgrandmother's son also died from cancer. That's why she adopted my mom as a daughter afterwards. I hate her. :mad: Glad to hear your friend's taking better care of herself now. I wish her all the best!

I suggested to my friend RE recording her husband's voice today... he leaves to San Diego TOMORROW...I'm not sure for what, tho. :eek: OMG!! Tomorrow's her FU.KING BIRTHDAY FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!!!!! :mad: This makes me soooo mad!!! She doesnt deserve this!!! :(

Yeah, once you draw something, or make something.. it's sometimes card to give away. I made my friend (that same friend LOL) a xmas card this year.. and also a birthday card, too... I DIDNT want to give it to her LOL. It was almost as if I couldn't "let go" LOL. But of course, I did. ;)

And wow!!! You paint in oils/acrylics?? Awesome!! Have you ever taken any lessons? Or did you self-teach? And do you have any visuals to share? You can email them to me if you dont feel comfortable posting them here. :)

And nope, origami isn't cheap at all LOL. :lol: It's about the same price as Hallmark (Expensive card store-- dont know whether if they have it in CAN or not) Stationary. Hahhaa.

As for selling on the streets, ehhh... I dont wanna get mugged. :D And I think I need a license to sell.

And yup, I still think Im a loser LOL. Maybe Im just "brainwashed" so to speak... by my parents and everyone else around me... but I dont like the fact that I'm a BIT good here... and a BIT good there. I'd rather excell in ONE area... and STICK to that area. I dont like pacing back/forth between things.. being indecisive... any idea what I'm trying to say? LOL. Im finding it hard to explain. One thing I'm not good at is sports... maybe except rollerblading.. but that's more of a leisure sport... I want to be good in a team sport. Hehe. :D (There I go "wanting" again!)

Nik: Hey, I thought we just had a long discussion about this!!?? Dont compare yourself to others. And is it a GOOD thing to be UNDERweight? I think not. It's better to be of average weight, like yourself. You dont need to screw yourself up. :nonono:

//Edit: I just binged..... 3300 cals and STILL counting.... noodles, soup, bananas,peanut butter, breads, chicken pot pies,chocolate, fried pork, papayas....etc etc. Hey, I may make it again to 10,000 cals tonight LOl. I told my mom I was "hungry" and that I didnt eat after school (even tho I did...) I hate myself. I just want to stuff myself to death sometimes... and right now would be one of those times. :(

[MsOrange]

THAT IS THE LONGEST POST I'VE EVER SEEN THAT DIDN'T INCLUDE A NEWS ARTICLE

[MsOrange]

I'm so jealous that my sisters are underweight--espically Audree!

Jasmine's 11 and only 70 pounds.
Audree just turned 9 and she's ONLY 59 pounds! And she's a pig (sorry, but she eats EVERYTHING :lol: )

And my 7 year old twin cousins (who will be 8 March 28) are only 48 pounds.

THIN CHILDREN!!!!
i've always found the whole "look at me i'm starving and from a third world country" look very sexy too
:rolleyes:

[Warm & Fuzzy]

THAT IS THE LONGEST POST I'VE EVER SEEN THAT DIDN'T INCLUDE A NEWS ARTICLEI've made longer. ;)

[Pus$y Galore]

I've made longer. ;)


OMG!!! LONGER!?!?!?! Hahahahahahahahah!!!!]


:rofl: :mango :gary: :faint:

[Warm & Fuzzy]

[SIZE=7]OMG!!! LONGER!!!! Hahahahahahahahah!!!



:rofl: :mango :gary: :faint:Did I say something funny? ;)

[Pus$y Galore]

Did I say something funny? ;)


Just that I guess we are getting longer and longer. When I was replying last night, I even had to go through and break each "sub-topic" out in sections because I was afraid the moderator was gonna freak on us!!! Just struck me funny.......no? ahemmmm - o.k. - I'll shut up!

Hey Q! Just able to get to some of my mail now. I'm on a couple of other websites (for my dogs and pets ;) ) and got a ton of mail from them today! Whew! This keeps you from homework, and me from housework!

Anyhoo - will email you some pics - and would love to see some of yours.

(You know I WAS joking there EH?!) sorry - warped sense of humor...

[Pus$y Galore]

She meant the fact that you had made longer posts before. ;)


That, and that I'M having to hold back a bit for fear of boring others - altho, guess you guys can skim thru if ya like. ;)

[Pus$y Galore]

AHHH - Lady Liberty - cool!! (Do you think somebody would notice if I climbed up and put a little Canadian flag in her hand with the torch?!) heehee! ;) :D

You should be proud - it looks like a beautiful city. I studied it in depth in gr 11 Geography (I think) but that was back in the 70's before it was truly rejuvenated. Unfortunately it had fallen on some hard times. It's mainly the reason I watch The Apprentice - to get some nice views of Manhattan.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Just that I guess we are getting longer and longer. When I was replying last night, I even had to go through and break each "sub-topic" out in sections because I was afraid the moderator was gonna freak on us!!! Just struck me funny.......no? ahemmmm - o.k. - I'll shut up!

Hey Q! Just able to get to some of my mail now. I'm on a couple of other websites (for my dogs and pets ;) ) and got a ton of mail from them today! Whew! This keeps you from homework, and me from housework!

Anyhoo - will email you some pics - and would love to see some of yours.

(You know I WAS joking there EH?!) sorry - warped sense of humor...FINE!!! *she smiles* :) Oh! I KNEW you were kidding, silly! :lol:

I normally respond to everything onto one post... having subtopics just make it easier to "miss" a post, know what I mean? And I guess I'm just used to longer posts. I used to post on another message board, too, last year, actually. And EVERY post was virtually this long. Incidentally, it's also a post related to ED's, haha. I also have an online journal.. you can imagine how much writing I do THERE.... and I dont even want to talk about how much I write in emails! :eek: I can gab and gab for ages, LOL. And yes, it takes away my hwk time, I agree, LOL.... but I'm lazy anyhow. :D Hope you have loads of um.... fun?... doing housework! Hehe.

//Edit: Climb up the top of Lady Liberty and place a Canadian flag on top?? AHHH HAHHAHAAA. Nice knowing yah! ;) *dooms music* And Ive never seen the apprentice before LOL.... if you wanna see more pics of ny, you can check out my albums, LOL... some are good.. some not so good... some I've already shown you.. ;)

1. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita/
2. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita2/
3. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita3/
4. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita4/

[Pus$y Galore]

FINE!!! *she smiles* :) Oh! I KNEW you were kidding, silly! :lol:

I normally respond to everything onto one post... having subtopics just make it easier to "miss" a post, know what I mean? And I guess I'm just used to longer posts. I used to post on another message board, too, last year, actually. And EVERY post was virtually this long. Incidentally, it's also a post related to ED's, haha. I also have an online journal.. you can imagine how much writing I do THERE.... and I dont even want to talk about how much I write in emails! :eek: I can gab and gab for ages, LOL. And yes, it takes away my hwk time, I agree, LOL.... but I'm lazy anyhow. :D Hope you have loads of um.... fun?... doing housework! Hehe.

K - Cool! Just as long we're on the same humor wave-length..... :crazy:

Yah, I would too, but even I get lost on these boards! And you want long emails - I think my friends cringe when they respond to something cuz they know the reply is going to be one step off being in hard-cover, leather bound book form! Hey - you DO realize we're doing just what you took offense to last night - being yappy females!!! haha! Ya can't fight it - just like guys can't fight leaving the toilet seat up (let's see who's paying attn. here). I think it's a hormonal thing!! :lol:

Screw it - I'll email ya! :talk: :D

[Pus$y Galore]

FINE!!! *she smiles* :) Oh! I KNEW you were kidding, silly! :lol:
:D Hope you have loads of um.... fun?... doing housework! Hehe.

//Edit: Climb up the top of Lady Liberty and place a Canadian flag on top?? AHHH HAHHAHAAA. Nice knowing yah! ;) *dooms music* And Ive never seen the apprentice before LOL.... if you wanna see more pics of ny, you can check out my albums, LOL... some are good.. some not so good... some I've already shown you.. ;)


4. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita4/

Yeah, housework's about the highlight of my days these days....besides sprouting whiskers like a catfish!! heeheeheehee!



Yup - a Canuck pulling that stunt - would be torn to shreds in seconds flat from several Boroughs! Good luck. Now there's "Escape From New York"!!! ha ha! :lol:

[Pus$y Galore]

1. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita/
2. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita2/
3. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita3/
4. http://public.fotki.com/Quencherita4/



:eek2: O.k. - I've just been checking this site out and all I can figure is that you've been kidding me this whole time about your age. You HAVE got to be older!!! They're fantastic. The composition of each is perfect - either the angle, lighting, subject, setup - have you taken photography courses or did this just come naturally? I have way to many comments or questions on most of the photos. Really gave me the "feel" of NYC and makes me want to visit! They look like they came out of a travel magazine!
Do you have any shots of The Met or Harlem? I really loved the shot of the stop signs! A photo that is simple, but says a lot! Great work Q!! :thumbsup:

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Hey, just got your email, hehe. But unfortunately I may not be able to respond to it tonight! I have sooooo many exams to study for! :eek: But I will this weekend, I promise! Meanwhile, I'll post here. ;)

And nope! No lie. I'm 16, ask any one of the older members here. ;) I've been here since I was 12 or something LOL. And, aww, thanks for the compliments RE the photographs! Nope, I have never taken any photography classes. In my technical drawing classes, we designed chairs, made desk models, and popup books (pic attached of one done 3 yrs ago), LOL. Not so much buildings, tho. These are actually the first batch of city-photos I've ever taken. I took them all for my friend (the same friend I've been speaking about over and over again LOL). I basically gave her a tour of NY. :) Plus, I had recently got my camera in December and just wanted to test it out. Honestly, no efforts were put into these photos. It was just an aim and shoot kind of thing. I am far from professional, LOL. I still have more I havent uploaded yet, tho. Too lazy! but I'll post one here in the mean time, LOL. Glad you liked the stop signs one! Guess I should "stop," ayy?? :lol:

BTW, I wrote another letter to my teacher today and I dropped it in her mailbox.... :) Wanna read it? LOL. And Ive been bingeing the whole day.... I feel awful and I've gained so much weight. :( 4000 cals at 5:56pm.............and still going...I'll frighten you to death if I listed all the foods I ate in the last TWO hours...:crying:

//Edit: 4100 cals as of 7:33....... :( :(

[G-Force Glockstar]

What the hell are you smoking?


wtf ME?????!!!

[G-Force Glockstar]

Why are you being mean to me, JT?
Is it because I'm annoying?

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Why are you being mean to me, JT?
Is it because I'm annoying?No, Nik. JT isn't mean at all. He's a great friend. And omg, JT... I was browsing thru my "attachments" files yesterday and guess what I found?? :eek: This was a LONG time ago, LOL!

http://www.sitcomsonline.com/boards/attachment.php?attachmentid=4434

But anyway, the only reason why he is speaking to you this way, Nik, is because even after a dozen and more pages worth of discussion, you continue to envy those who are underweight. By now I would've thought you've learned to not make comments like that anymore, you know? You promised!!!! So keep the promise before I have to nag at you again. ;)

[G-Force Glockstar]

So keep the promise before I have to nag at you again. ;)

lol sorry

[Hollow]

i weigh 135 (at 5'10") and about a year ago i was lazy and tired all the time and my dad was concerned that i wasn't getting enough food for energy, so i started taking a pill to increase my appetite, and after a month or two i was up to 150 lbs, and miraculously looked just the same. i guess i was just empty. but i hated weighing a lot so i decided to starve myself, but i'm a wimp and continued eating in no more than 12 hours. so i was taken off that pill and started to drop weight until i was back to my normal weight within a few months. the end.

just thought i'd share. :lookaroun

[Pus$y Galore]

i weigh 135 (at 5'10") and about a year ago i was lazy and tired all the time and my dad was concerned that i wasn't getting enough food for energy, so i started taking a pill to increase my appetite, and after a month or two i was up to 150 lbs, and miraculously looked just the same. i guess i was just empty. but i hated weighing a lot so i decided to starve myself, but i'm a wimp and continued eating in no more than 12 hours. so i was taken off that pill and started to drop weight until i was back to my normal weight within a few months. the end.

just thought i'd share. :lookaroun

135 @ 5'10" is actually on the low side of the "normal" acceptable weight charts. You were still well within an ideal weight even at 150 with that height. For years weighed 132 and am 5'8". I sure felt a lot better than when I was starving myself to be 120 lbs.. I now look back at pictures and I looked a lot better too.

And Nik - don't be getting any bright ideas to start taking pills and stuff like that!! What have we been telling you the past week? (Me and Q) :rolleyes: :D

[G-Force Glockstar]

And Nik - don't be getting any bright ideas to start taking pills and stuff like that!! What have we been telling you the past week? (Me and Q) :rolleyes: :D

What's that thing on TV that they keep talking about.....it's a little thing that looks like a bandage that you put on your stomach to make you lose weight.
I was thinking about getting those when I'm older. My parents think diet pills are dangerous. Even the ones that make you less hungry.

My parents need to rush my sisters in the hospial to shove a feeding tube at them. They're so underweight, they NEED to gain more!
Ok, ok, I'll shut up!

[Pus$y Galore]

See - maybe its your sisters that have the true problem. If that's the case, then its REALLY frightening to see 9 and 11 yr old girls starting with EDs.

Absolutely crazy!! Not nearly finished growing or even through puberty yet.

Nik - NONE of those pills, patches, drinks ANYTHING works properly or better than just eating a properly balanced diet and getting exercise. Watch those ads closely - they'll all have tiny "disclaimer" printing at the bottom of the screen or bottle or whatever saying that "when used in combination with a healthy diet and exercise" - WHY? Because the stuff doesn't work WITHOUT a good diet and exercise!!

Trust me - I've done the whole gammit on this cr*p - I've even done illegal drugs in the past (bennies) to drop my appetite (that was when I was into the full blown anorexia). Oh yeah, they worked to decrease your appetite and almost landed me in the hospital with rapid, irregular heartbeat. Also got terribly paranoid off of them (I was using everyday for a year and a half). I'd be lucky to eat an Oh Henry bar every couple of days (and that was just to get a bit of energy). Listen to your parents - these drugs can be very dangerous (or useless at best).

[G-Force Glockstar]

See - maybe its your sisters that have the true problem. If that's the case, then its REALLY frightening to see 9 and 11 yr old girls starting with EDs.

Absolutely crazy!! Not nearly finished growing or even through puberty yet.

Nik - NONE of those pills, patches, drinks ANYTHING works properly or better than just eating a properly balanced diet and getting exercise. Watch those ads closely - they'll all have tiny "disclaimer" printing at the bottom of the screen or bottle or whatever saying that "when used in combination with a healthy diet and exercise" - WHY? Because the stuff doesn't work WITHOUT a good diet and exercise!!

Trust me - I've done the whole gammit on this cr*p - I've even done illegal drugs in the past (bennies) to drop my appetite (that was when I was into the full blown anorexia). Oh yeah, they worked to decrease your appetite and almost landed me in the hospital with rapid, irregular heartbeat. Also got terribly paranoid off of them (I was using everyday for a year and a half). I'd be lucky to eat an Oh Henry bar every couple of days (and that was just to get a bit of energy). Listen to your parents - these drugs can be very dangerous (or useless at best).

My sisters don't have an ED, they know they're thin :confused:

Yeah I guess everyones right--those pills and stuff don't really work.
I mean without a heathly diet.

[G-Force Glockstar]

My parents are being jerks :rolleyes:
They're trying to think up punishments just cause I won't eat every single meal :rolleyes: I hate them! They try to make me eat a whole lot!

I wanna hate them!!!!!!!!!

My friends say they're parents don't MAKE them eat when they don't wanna!!!

[Sharop]

Well, I haven't posted in this thread before, but I find it interesting, so I hope you don't mind me sharing my opinion on the matter.

If you're simply not feeling hungry, and feel full, then I don't think your parents should make you eat.

However, if you just don't feel like eating because you're concerned about putting on weight, then I suggest you eat anyway and then maybe work it off afterwards. I assume your parents don't try to make you eat anything more than the normal three meals a day? Maybe you could suggest that they prepare meals for you that are healthier, or, as I said, you could eat and then maybe do half an hour/an hour of walking/running, or some kind of sport.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

My parents are being jerks :rolleyes:
They're trying to think up punishments just cause I won't eat every single meal :rolleyes: I hate them! They try to make me eat a whole lot!

I wanna hate them!!!!!!!!!

My friends say they're parents don't MAKE them eat when they don't wanna!!!Well, if you are still skipping meals despite all of which has been said here, Nik, then that's just what they have to do. And that's what you deserve. :nonono: I don't think your parents are being jerks. They are being concern parents.

[G-Force Glockstar]

I just think they should't make me eat when I'm not hungry.

Even TripperFan told me she agrees.

[EmoJoe]

I just think they should't make me eat when I'm not hungry.

Even TripperFan told me she agrees.
How much are you eating now?

[G-Force Glockstar]

How much are you eating now?

Usually 2-3 meals....on the weekends (or when theres no school) I'm forced to eat at least lunch and dinner.
But when there's school, I have to eat breakfast and dinner, so I skip lunch at school.

I eat too much, really! My parents don't want me skinny!

I already lost a couple pounds.....why can't they just leave me alone now??

[EmoJoe]

I eat too much, really! My parents don't want me skinny!

Nah, they just dont want you to be anorexic

[G-Force Glockstar]

Nah, they just dont want you to be anorexic

I just wanna be like 80 pounds.

[EmoJoe]

I just wanna be like 80 pounds.
Thats very skinny

[G-Force Glockstar]

Thats very skinny

I have a few friends who are only a little over 80 pounds. They're thin, but not skinny.

[G-Force Glockstar]

Please tell me you are joking. :mad:

Sorry, I'm not.

[G-Force Glockstar]

This doesn't even make sense. After this community symapthizes for you, still you want to continue these habits? What is going on?

I just wanna lose weight! I'm not starving myself anymore.....I have to eat something because my parents make me every day.

[G-Force Glockstar]

Constantly thinking about this subject could make you gain weight, not loose it.

Not really cause I lost a few pounds.

But I'll TRY not to think about it as much.

[Lady T]

PLEASE learn to love yourself..instead of how much you weigh; you are way too young to even to think about dieting..enjoy your youth! :(

[Warm & Fuzzy]

You know what? I give up... I'm not responding to this thread anymore. However, I still stand by everything I have said and will continue to wish that you'll take further consideration into what I have told you, Nik.

I'm just ticked off and sick and tired of hearing your excuses. I've completely lost patience with you. Sorry.

I have other things to do than waste my time here trying to convince you if who just won't listen. I have an ED community to manage, an ED journal to tend to, and a bunch of e-mails to respond to... including e-mails from those who DO want help.

So yeah, I'm out. Don't say I haven't tried. :wave:

[Hollow]

My parents are being jerks :rolleyes:
They're trying to think up punishments just cause I won't eat every single meal :rolleyes: I hate them! They try to make me eat a whole lot!

I wanna hate them!!!!!!!!!

My friends say they're parents don't MAKE them eat when they don't wanna!!!
Skipping meals is unhealthy and helps you GAIN weight. Your parents make these decisions for you because you're too young and don't know enough about them to make them yourself. Otherwise, it will hurt you in the long run. My whole life i've been forced to eat when i didn't want to VERY often, but if my parents had let me gone without eating, they probably wouldn't have cared too much about me.

[Hollow]

Please tell me you are joking. :mad:
She's posting here for help.. if people get mad at her for her thoughts it will discourage her to share them and therefore the problem won't be fixed.

[Sharop]

Ruthie, as I said before, it's possible to eat three meals a day and not put on much weight - you can simply do exercise afterwards. If you don't like sports, or if you're not an active person, like I'm not, then you could simply ask your parents to prepare you healthier alternatives. Why don't you try it? I'm sure they would, if they told them that's what you really wanted.

Why don't you give it a go, eh? :) Tell them you'll eat three meals a day, but suggest that they use non-fat products and give you healthier food, if you wish. Maybe suggest just having salad for dinner one night? Another night, suggest they just give you fish and some vegetables (since fish is the meat with the least amount of fat.)

And if your sisters keep telling you you're fat, I suggest you ignore them. They're both younger than you are. You're - what - 13? You're older, you're cleverer, you've seen more of the world than they have. You've been more educated. If they have nothing better to do than annoy you, then they're simple-minded children who have yet to grow up, and you'd do better to just not give them the time of day.

Trust me, I know it can be hard to ignore annoying younger siblings, but it's better if you just thrust your nose in the air and walk out of the room. And using big words that you know they won't understand may help. Here's an example of something you could say:

"If the two of you wish to continue to conspire against me and ostracize me with your petty and mendacious remarks, then so be it. I recognise that your behaviour is sullied by the fact that you are young in years, and have not the tolerance and wisdom of those older than yourself. But I am not going to descend myself to the level of behaviour that I have come to expect from the two of you. I am not going to allow myself to be tarnished by entering into strong conflicts with you. If you wish to insult me, that's fine. But I'm not going to allow myself to be confounded by it, so really, you're simply wasting the time you could use to do something far more constructive and useful that would contribute towards furthering your intellectual prowess."

You give them that little speech, Ruthie, and they should be staring at you with their mouths open and their eyes narrows. They'll have barely understood a word.

[G-Force Glockstar]

Ruthie, as I said before, it's possible to eat three meals a day and not put on much weight - you can simply do exercise afterwards. If you don't like sports, or if you're not an active person, like I'm not, then you could simply ask your parents to prepare you healthier alternatives. Why don't you try it? I'm sure they would, if they told them that's what you really wanted.

Why don't you give it a go, eh? :) Tell them you'll eat three meals a day, but suggest that they use non-fat products and give you healthier food, if you wish. Maybe suggest just having salad for dinner one night? Another night, suggest they just give you fish and some vegetables (since fish is the meat with the least amount of fat.)

And if your sisters keep telling you you're fat, I suggest you ignore them. They're both younger than you are. You're - what - 13? You're older, you're cleverer, you've seen more of the world than they have. You've been more educated. If they have nothing better to do than annoy you, then they're simple-minded children who have yet to grow up, and you'd do better to just not give them the time of day.

Trust me, I know it can be hard to ignore annoying younger siblings, but it's better if you just thrust your nose in the air and walk out of the room. And using big words that you know they won't understand may help. Here's an example of something you could say:

"If the two of you wish to continue to conspire against me and ostracize me with your petty and mendacious remarks, then so be it. I recognise that your behaviour is sullied by the fact that you are young in years, and have not the tolerance and wisdom of those older than yourself. But I am not going to descend myself to the level of behaviour that I have come to expect from the two of you. I am not going to allow myself to be tarnished by entering into strong conflicts with you. If you wish to insult me, that's fine. But I'm not going to allow myself to be confounded by it, so really, you're simply wasting the time you could use to do something far more constructive and useful that would contribute towards furthering your intellectual prowess."

You give them that little speech, Ruthie, and they should be staring at you with their mouths open and their eyes narrows. They'll have barely understood a word.

Thanks......the only sport I do is Tennis. Excersing hurts my lungs and heart all the time.....maybe it's cause I'm not in shape, but it still really hurts.

Lately my sisters haven't called me fat. Everyone's just been disappointed I'm not eating much.....but today sience we had a big get together and it's easter, I kinda spoiled myself. I'm only planning to do that on special holidays :lol:
I weighed myself on my Uncle and Aunts scale.....it last said I was 97 pounds. It's getting a little better.

[EmoJoe]

Thanks......the only sport I do is Tennis. Excersing hurts my lungs and heart all the time.....maybe it's cause I'm not in shape, but it still really hurts.

Lately my sisters haven't called me fat. Everyone's just been disappointed I'm not eating much.....but today sience we had a big get together and it's easter, I kinda spoiled myself. I'm only planning to do that on special holidays :lol:
I weighed myself on my Uncle and Aunts scale.....it last said I was 97 pounds. It's getting a little better.
You're 97 pounds and you still wanna lose weight?!?!?!

[EmoJoe]

I just wanna lose weight! I'm not starving myself anymore.....I have to eat something because my parents make me every day. How many pounds do you want to way?

[Pus$y Galore]

I just think they should't make me eat when I'm not hungry.

Even TripperFan told me she agrees.


Ah yes - but Nik - you didn't tell me that you hadn't eaten in three days on that post and you know it! I said forcing someone to eat more than what they can handle isn't good. But if they're forcing you to eat because they know you haven't been is their job then!!
And you know the links I've given you in PMs that are telling you that starving yourself is not the way. I can see why people are getting very frustrated with you. You'll listen to us, then agree that what you're wanting to do isn't good, but then I'll see another post somewhere that you're saying the same things you did before our talk.

You're lucky I can't come right through these boards and bash you over the head! It would be a lot worse than what you're parents are saying to you! You are NOT fat and neither is Quench now that I've seen a pic of her. You are headed for big trouble if you don't get these thoughts out of your head right now girl!! :mad: :smash:

[Pus$y Galore]

PLEASE learn to love yourself..instead of how much you weigh; you are way too young to even to think about dieting..enjoy your youth! :(


:yeahthat

[Pus$y Galore]

She's posting here for help.. if people get mad at her for her thoughts it will discourage her to share them and therefore the problem won't be fixed.


I felt the same thing when this thread started, any you'll see how I've tried, first hand from a former anorexic that also purged, but she still reverts back. I've even tried discussing more private things on PMs, but she insists on listening to two little kids that are only 9 and 11 yrs (her sisters) no matter what she's told.

You can lead an horse to water.....

[G-Force Glockstar]

You're 97 pounds and you still wanna lose weight?!?!?!

yes--this is just the beggining.

[G-Force Glockstar]

How many pounds do you want to way?

Around 80 pounds......as long as my legs are skinny and my butt isn't so big and fat.

[MaydayMalonesGirl]

yes--this is just the beggining.

Oh. My. God.

Why do I even open this thread?

[G-Force Glockstar]

Ah yes - but Nik - you didn't tell me that you hadn't eaten in three days on that post and you know it! I said forcing someone to eat more than what they can handle isn't good. But if they're forcing you to eat because they know you haven't been is their job then!!
And you know the links I've given you in PMs that are telling you that starving yourself is not the way. I can see why people are getting very frustrated with you. You'll listen to us, then agree that what you're wanting to do isn't good, but then I'll see another post somewhere that you're saying the same things you did before our talk.

You're lucky I can't come right through these boards and bash you over the head! It would be a lot worse than what you're parents are saying to you! You are NOT fat and neither is Quench now that I've seen a pic of her. You are headed for big trouble if you don't get these thoughts out of your head right now girl!! :mad: :smash:

It's just so hard :(

Ok, I'll stop complaining.

[G-Force Glockstar]

PLEASE learn to love yourself..instead of how much you weigh; you are way too young to even to think about dieting..enjoy your youth! :(

I would like to, but it's not possible for me.....at least not this year.

[EmoJoe]

Around 80 pounds.......Thats way too skinny. Do you want to be so skinny that people will be able to see your BONES?

[EmoJoe]

yes--this is just the beggining.
Thats just plain crazy and stupid. Sorry, but it is.

[Hollow]

I weighed myself on my Uncle and Aunts scale.....it last said I was 97 pounds. It's getting a little better.
How tall are you? and how many inches are around your waist (if you want to check)? most 13 year olds weigh more than that.

[EmoJoe]

How tall are you? and how many inches are around your waist (if you want to check)? most 13 year olds weigh more than that.
She said she's around 5"0

[Hollow]

She said she's around 5"0
i was that tall at around age 10 and weighed about 80 lbs. i was skinny but not bony and fragile looking.

regardless of age, there is just no way you can be overweight at 5'0/97 lbs.

[Pus$y Galore]

i was that tall at around age 10 and weighed about 80 lbs. i was skinny but not bony and fragile looking.

regardless of age, there is just no way you can be overweight at 5'0/97 lbs.


She's not and I told her so. Calculated her weight and height on another website that will tell you what under/normal/over weights are for children and teens. She just chooses not to listen.

[EmoJoe]

She's not and I told her so. Calculated her weight and height on another website that will tell you what under/normal/over weights are for children and teens. She just chooses not to listen.
Exactly. No matter how many times anyone tells her shes not fat, she still doesn't listen.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Yeah, I know, I know.. I said I wasn't gonna post here anymore. But I CANNOT just sit back here without making some smart-as.s remark, sorry. So bear with me. :p

Firstly, I must say I am firing up here. Clearly, Nik, you don't care an OUNCE as to what I have to say to you. I am not trying to seek your attention here, but once again, you have just ignored me completely. I don't understand how you can just SKIP my post and not have any comment as to what I have to say to you. That is just plain rude, if anything, because I KNOW you read it, (or probably skimmed- don't deny it!!!), and are just choosing not to respond to it. Maybe you have nothing to say? Maybe you don't have a come-back? Maybe you don't have an EXCUSE (like you always seem to have)? Maybe you don't think I'm worth your time (because my posts are lengthy)? Maybe you don't want to bother? Either way, it is not the first time.

Secondly, stop promising/agreeing to things if you don't mean it. How many times have you said, "I'll stop complaining?" "I promise this...?" "I promise that...?" "I get this...?" "I get that...?" And then you just start ALL over again? Just stop it. It only shows your ignorance. It just gives us more the reason to get on your case, and maybe even give you an opportunity to seek some ..ahem.. attention.

Thirdy, I am sensing a rebellious attitude from you. I could be wrong, of course, but your comment, "yes--this is just the beggining." I'm not stupid. I've heard this before. I know what this means. It's a, "Oh, I'll show YOU" attitude, and it's not to be admired the least bit. It's your way of showing that you're in control. But losing weight is not control. This is NOT control.

Fourth, I would like to ask you why you want to lose weight in the FIRST place? If it's ONLY to look pretty and get your siblings to stop fussing around, then that's just plain stupid. If it's for attention purposes, which I think is playing a big role here, then that's even MORE stupid. So give me more reasons, if you will.

Nik, I was on your side once, but not anymore. Do yourself (and us) a favor, and go speak to an adult about this. (Like a counselor). Get this issue resolve before it gets any worse.

[EmoJoe]

Fourth, I would like to ask you why you want to lose weight in the FIRST place? If it's ONLY to look pretty and get your siblings to stop fussing around, then that's just plain stupid. If it's for attention purposes, which I think is playing a big role here, then that's even MORE stupid. So give me more reasons, if you will. :yeahthat

[Lady T]

I would like to, but it's not possible for me.....at least not this year.
I know that being 13 is rough, it was hard for me and it is a difficult time period for a lot of people. But being at five foot even and weighing 97 pounds is not fat! I know you have your little sister telling you how fat you are, and that is ridiculous..she is only nine years old! Ignore her..Trust me you are NOT FAT! Younger siblings know how to push your buttons...

[Pus$y Galore]

I know that being 13 is rough, it was hard for me and it is a difficult time period for a lot of people. But being at five foot even and weighing 97 pounds is not fat! I know you have your little sister telling you how fat you are, and that is ridiculous..she is only nine years old! Ignore her..Trust me you are NOT FAT! Younger siblings know how to push your buttons...


Exactly what Quench and I have been trying to drill into her thick skull!!

I still vividly remember what it was like being 13 (One of the reasons I couldn't answer another thread about low self esteem - just didn't want to go back there) but I didn't have this kind of forum where I could get unbiased, totally honest opinions - especially from people who've been through this whole hell (teens, low esteem ,lifelong EDs, etc.). And Quench hit the nail on the head with your rebellious attitude. You mentioned to me in a PM that you threatened your sisters that if they teased you again, then you'd stop eating. Now you're trying to use this a leverage against your family who you're angry with for many other reasons. You're now trying to use this like extortion (big word - look it up). You don't think we don't know that crap - and the excuses, and the cover stories (but I ate yesterday - why do I have to eat today.....). Tough love is kicking in for us. We've tried a soft shoulder and that doesn't work. Doesn't surprise me that your parents are getting fed up with this. Try to act mature and responsibly with your problems - we've had the same ones, but the only person you're really hurting is yourself by trying to use this as leverage.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Exactly what Quench and I have been trying to drill into her thick skull!!

I still vividly remember what it was like being 13 (One of the reasons I couldn't answer another thread about low self esteem - just didn't want to go back there) but I didn't have this kind of forum where I could get unbiased, totally honest opinions - especially from people who've been through this whole hell (teens, low esteem ,lifelong EDs, etc.). And Quench hit the nail on the head with your rebellious attitude. You mentioned to me in a PM that you threatened your sisters that if they teased you again, then you'd stop eating. Now you're trying to use this a leverage against your family who you're angry with for many other reasons. You're now trying to use this like extortion (big word - look it up). You don't think we don't know that crap - and the excuses, and the cover stories (but I ate yesterday - why do I have to eat today.....). Tough love is kicking in for us. We've tried a soft shoulder and that doesn't work. Doesn't surprise me that your parents are getting fed up with this. Try to act mature and responsibly with your problems - we've had the same ones, but the only person you're really hurting is yourself by trying to use this as leverage.Yes, I agree. Nik, you are very lucky to have forums like these. However, it can only help if you choose/allow it to. I had these forums with me since 2001, but I chose never to talk about my personal problems... chose not to seek help... and have only dug a bigger hole with time. If I had started a topic like this several years ago, maybe I wouldn't be in the mess that I am in now? I had/have resources. I didn't/don't use them. I was/am stupid. So are you going to follow in my damn footsteps and be an IDIOT, too???

And I have to say I've tried the soft shoulder, too. I believe in approaching passively and whatnot, and I have kept MANY things I have wanted to say to myself... and still am! But I WILL be a bully if I have to. And I will be more blunt than anything.

And using food (ie: not eating) as a weapon is just STUPID. If you want to ruin your health, land yourself in a hospital, DIE, then FINE, go ahead and do what you want. And don't even TRY to quote me on "do what you want" because I can already picture you using this as yet ANOTHER weapon in the near future. (Like how you said "even TripperFan said I didn't have to eat if I didn't..." blah blah.) Don't twist our words. You KNOW what we mean. We are not your enemies. You don't have to defend yourself with these cover-ups 'cause believe me.... we know what you're doing.

And there are several more things I want to say.... but I think I will hold it in, because I will undoubtedly get this thread closed if I said it. :p

P.S. Cath- I sent you a PM with a link to my journal. :)

[MsOrange]

i lost 5 lbs :)

[Pus$y Galore]

And there are several more things I want to say.... but I think I will hold it in, because I will undoubtedly get this thread closed if I said it. :p

P.S. Cath- I sent you a PM with a link to my journal. :)


Thx toots! Got it!

And yes, we're definitely some of your BEST friends on this site taking the time to go through all this, look stuff up for you, provide links, etc.!! We're not being mean here to be mean - just starting to feel like we've been spinning our wheels and getting no where.

And I have to agree with both Q and Jonathon - this should really be closed or just dropped very soon as we seem to be going in ever increasing smaller circles here just saying the same thing over and over. Instead, you should just be reading our (excellent if I do say so) advice over and over.

And feel free to still send me emails and/or IMs - I'm not mad, Just tired of repeating myself.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Instead, you should just be reading our (excellent if I do say so) advice over and over.
Lemme just throw in one more comment before this thread closes, LOL.

Yes, you should re-read, Nik.... that is IF you've read it the first time around. :rolleyes: :rolleyes:

Cath's not mad. But I am. :p

[Janice]

I got a few reported posts on this thread. It's too much to read through. If people want me to close it, I will. I'm not closing anything if anyone is going to complain about it though.

I'll check back in a little while.

[Warm & Fuzzy]

Please close this thread.